haix. so sianx. these few days like never blog. actually wanted to blog but instead i did other things. hmm. Mr. G's leaving us, either for the better or for the worse. we are getting Mrs Yeo back. perhaps that's great. hmm. this week. we got back alot of things. for the revision of our Mid Year. but today we felt like as if it was term break. but sadly, that's not the case. it's just the beginning. beginning of the exams which are approaching. i think we got back alot of our english assignments on tuesday. im so disheartened, although Mr G told us not to be disheartened by our results. my standard's dropping. far below my expectations. slacking? perhaps. but i can't, MYE's coming. how can i do that at a crucial time like that? first, it was the composition. the one about our dream house. i got 18 for it. i don't know if i should trust Mr G and write an expository essay for the English Paper 1. i haven't really tried doing those kinda essays alone. and i can't possibly take the risk for my Mid Year. the highest i've got for composition so far was only a 21. and then things started getting bad. my english's dropping. i don't wanna fail. i've gotta buck up. Mr G commented that i've got a good, impactful start for my dream house composition. but all the things went wrong after that. that's why i got an 18. haix. i worked so hard. yet things like that happen, is it because i really can't excel? but nothing's impossible so far as i know. i haven't reached the limit. i wanna ace and get good results. i don't want to start regretting after things are done. it serves no purpose. how to revise? write loads of essays? or what? the thing is, i don't have a great vocabulary, and i don't have those kinda creative ideas. it's like i've already wrote the opening paragraph of the essay as he instructed us to. but as i continue writing the other paragraphs in school, i still get a low score. while others who just rushed through the whole essay in school got even higher score than me. it's not that im slacking or what. it's gotta do with my foundation. it makes me sort of so jealous. i think i should read more newspaper articles and know what's the buzz. hmm. im writing an essay now. hahax. anyone can grade this essay for me? lolx. normally, there's nothing wrong with my Paper 2. but the thing i dread is comprehension and summary. and the diagnostic test. i did badly too. and Mr G was a good teacher i guess. except for all those strange things he like to do. yeah, and my science common test was below class average too. i mean i don't expect to get those 30plus score cause i know i don't deserve it. i didn't revise for it at all. but i got below average. haix. so bad. but it's not like we can revise for such things. those are practical tests sort of, except for a few theory. it's kinda testing on logic. sometimes i just don't understand. it's always like this. i study so hard but people copy my things and get better results than me. i don't know if this is fair. or is it because they don't use their brain cells or what. i don't know. it's sort of always like this. before PSLE, we got lots and tons of exercises and practice papers. friends copy my answers, they get higher scores than me. but i get way lower marks. even the last in class. now, it's happening again. MYE. we're getting practice papers. it's just like no fair. we do our best, put in alot of effort, then some people who are just lazing around get hold of our completed papers and copy it. yeah, im not trying to criticise people who copies answers lah. it's like sometimes, we really can't do it. so we copy. yeah, maybe that's okay, provided you understand the answer. but some pathetic ones are just lazing around. haix. sometimes, being a good student isn't easy afterall, although it's really great to see the good results, at times. but it's not good all the time, people ask you for assignments for copying purposes cause they were lazing or they just throw things to you and call you to keep it or they push the whole idea of the groupwork to you, one person alone to complete the whole thing. yeah, i've experienced all these before and it doesn't seem right. i just don't like it. and even when you help them, some are so damn idiotic and they blame you just cause you get things lost or you didn't do things. it's like, not our fault. but we still get blamed. it feels so bad sucky sometimes, but you just gotta bear with it. sometimes, even when i give my assignments to others for copying purposes cause they were lazing, i feel bad too. it's like a test of loyalty together with friendship. i know it's up to them whether they wanna be loyal to themselves, but sometimes it's like im their friend, and i can't stop them from copying blindly. haix. i don't know if these people understand the meaning of homework. it's just like for practise, not for copying. sometimes, it's really not worth to help some people. haix. kaex, let's get on to today. hmm. chinese lesson first. people were calling lianglu to open the MYE 2005 paper for us to see. lolx. would he be so stupid to do so. he went through with us the format and it was 8am. i thought his lesson ended. but he didn't leave, Ms Shyam didn't come. so i checked timetable. yeah, i made a mistake. his lesson ended at 8:30am which was pretty boring. the guys in our class can't play soccer for the time being, until exams are over. maths. we got the answer keys for the 03 paper. and i was struggling to understand the workings of 1 particular algebra question that i was so damn fed up and skipped that question. i tried working out the answer like 4 or 5 times yet i couldn't get it correct. argh! that was like hell man. so suck. and i was so damn fucked up that i just gave big ticks and crosses to relieve my anger. geography. we did the past year exam paper. it was quite ok i guess. i've gotta study hard for my geography. my common test results are 40 and 31.5 lolx. hmm. after that we went for recess. then it was design&technology. we are expected to submit our pieces by this lesson and i finished mine. mine sucks. i guess i won't have good results for design&technology. i used too little acrylic that it looks so plain. actually i was using more. but 1 damn grave mistake. and i had to redo the whole planning. and i trusted Mr Soh with my piece. ohmygod. he just spoilt it for me. thankx alot. he nailed it the wrong side. and he got uneven things for me. that just spoilt everything. we had to run back to class after that as we were already late. so we ran back lah. lols. and we got the NKF card. aww. damnit. i hate it. and now, right just now, a few minutes ago before i was typing this sentence, i just quarelled with my mother. she don't even believe me. the moment she sees me using the net and typing non-stop for my blog. she says that im chatting with strangers on the net. im always so pissed off. whose parents always wrong their child like this? MINE! it sucks. my father, my brother, my mother. practically everyone in the household thinks i does that. when im not even doing it. why must they have this stupid thing in their mind that always never fail to piss me off. haix. it's no use. so what if i let them see what im doing. they are just trying to invade my privacy. they are very very very damn angry that i have privacy. so they are always invading my privacy. they always anyhow say things without thinking. and it hurts alot. it's just like maybe someone just lost something damn important and everyone in the household just blames me. it's like that. this kinda situation. they never get to the bottom of things and they just blame you cause they are like 'bu shuang'. they think it's fun. i think it SUCKS. are they jealous or what? what exactly are they thinking. i think if i were to do those things one day, it's all due to their influence, their mentioning of the idea and making it drift in my mind. i just want them to respect me. don't invade my privacy. is it that difficult? some people whose parents are overseas don't even get to be with their parents everyday. but i have my parents with me almost everyday. but i don't want it. i hate their attitude. i rather they are those who are overseas all the time. i don't even want to cherish the moments i have with them. it only hurts me most. i rather cherish the moments i have with my friends who are way more understanding and better. guess i just say until here. taking my leave =D

i failed once again @ 8:41:00 pm

today had science common test. 40 MCQs. quite difficult i suppose. but at least i managed to finish them all within the time which was quite possible for all of us. i was doing quite slow too. most of them already finished when i was still doing half way. lols. IT. did the photoshop thingy. today i very attentive, paid attention to her. don't know why. hahas. hmm. then is science. went through the practice paper. and i realised i forgot to do it. =x lols. recess. qi'en beat me. and i pulled her shirt only to realise she never tuck in. lols. yeah, i suppose she's quite childish. hahax. im so guai. =D lols. later, we were taking a stroll back to class cos no need to hurry for english lessons. but in the end, Mr G wasn't in the class yet. lolx. he blew his top? i don't know. another day of wasting our lesson. wasted 15mins. gotta thank the teachers yeah? for their sacrifice to waste our lessons. how irritating can this get. hahax. yeah, he told us our reading test marks. i got 11 over 20. which was quite bad. lolx. hmm. then geography. we didn't really do much yeah. she gave us a handout. and instructed us to do our workbook for the next half hour cos i think she was pissed off by us too. maths! yay, we got back our common test scripts. so happy about my marks. i don't wanna say lah, later people alot comments or what. =D first time no careless mistakes, only that 3marks question i don't know how do. but at least i got try but my answer was still wrong. samuel pro. hahax. hmm. for the nex half hour, we did the pass year's papers again. and i realised i have finished like three-quarter of the paper already. only left the graph question and the one on the units thing. i was so engrossed in finishing the paper. hahas. what a word. kaex. after that, dismiss. but i didn't went off. handed in the CME assignments. then stayed there to watch the guys pull down the thing from 3/7. they pulled down le then only did i leave. lolx. -.-'' cos i thought that it was so entertaining. kaex. nothing much. today's homework i think only got GEOGRAPHY workbook. =D

i failed once again @ 3:33:00 pm

today we had 2.4km run for NAPFA and also science class test. started with reading as first lesson, but instead, we had spot check. lolx. kaex. then later it was mother tongue. went through workbook again. then it was science. administration work and lots of scolding was done by irene lim. lols. yarh. was PE. the one which i dread. 2.4km run! argh. anyway, went through it le. nothing much. me run very slow arhx. clocked a timing of um 16:40 lolx. the bunch of girls after me were like siao one. me finished liaox then they behind me. then they all chiong one. hahax. so enthu like that. actually i could have clocked a better timing. but what's done is done. yeah, i shouldn't have slacked. hahax. i could have overtook xinghao and xinyi if i wanted to, but i was like enjoying myself in the run, jogging slowly. wasn't motivated to overtake them. hahas. ok, recess. hmm. recess so sianx. me bought drink and bun then the bell ring then i had to squeeze all into my mouth. hahax. hmm. english. er.. can't remember what we really did. but i think it wasn't administration work afterall. science. eww yuckx! went through the worksheets and .. TEST. lolx. 30mins without book. and 10min for open book. afterall, she quite good at times lahx. just like bees. if you provoke them, they attack you. she's like that too. hahax. after science was maths. went through the paper. then halfway she became angry. cos instead of paying attention to her, we decided to pay attention to the group of visitors. and we were like so enthu. making far too much noises. so she given up on us. and i was wasting the last 10mins of the lesson. colouring my correction tape with the yellow highlighter and my fingers were damn dirty with blue ink. went to toilet to wash it but to no avail. assembly. the opera thingy. gave me a headache until now. because of all the clangs and clunks and bangs and whatever sounds. so damn irritating. still having headache now. just now went for lunch. waited so long. lols. then 3plus went to class. called peifang buy mentos for me. then owe her $1. lols. hmm. so sianx. i have a headache. -.-'' chinese remedial was until 4:45pm. sianx. i was too busy. busy chewing mentos and breathing and looking around the surroundings and listening to liang lu. lols. DISMISS! went home. hurray. that's about it =D yeah, and i tried sending an sms to my house. fun. some lame people actually taught me how to do this lame thing -.-''

i failed once again @ 7:51:00 pm

lolx. damn it. well. er, yesterday did IPW. sianx. lols. hmm. today gotta bia homework. lols. only finished my Chinese Assessment book. the rest haven't do. all so damn difficult. **** the teachers lahx. actually english is okay, just lazy to do the comprehension. then somemore got 2 papers. then science so damn difficult. alot questions don't know how do liaox loh. maths also damn difficult sia. then i switched on computer, wanted to do bibliography. yeah man, what bad timing. my parents came back when i just switched on the computer. yeah, they just suck alot. they have lots to say. lots of stupid irrelevant things. it's not like they are stupid or what. they just don't believe me. just because the exams are coming, yeah so what? mrs yeo told us IPW isn't everything. we still had other subjects too. yeah. whattheheck. exams aren't everything too. so what if exams are coming? actually, exams are just a revision. a test to see how much we've known on the chapters. yeah, but the students apparently just crammed and mugged for exams. yeah, and the brainless parents will think that students have to study real damn hard for exams. that's what they think. afterall, my parents doesn't even care for me at all. they only do what other normal parents do. bringing me up, feeding me and all those same things. that's what she only does for me. i don't know what i did to deserve this kinda parents. stupid boring parents with a damn idiotic dad. yeah, i thought we got better. but that was just on the surface. he added another damn stupid comment. whatever. my stubborn parents. yeah. they are just there, in my life, to dampen my spirits and make fun of me. whatever that happens, it's MY fault. as if they are some damn big people in the world that they can just blame anyone they want to. yeah, damn it. my parents, afterall, are just a nuisance in my life. greatBIGobstacles. i really feel like scolding them. i don't care if they scold me, reprimand me. i don't know. i feel so lost in the family. as if i don't belong. they just don't understand me. i don't know what else to say. my father don't even believe me at all. haix. i don't know why they don't believe me. or why i hate the things they do to me. is it because of what happened in primary6? yeah, so what if it is. i already told the truth. i know i'm wrong. i know i have to be responsible. but responsible doesn't mean to agree with whatever stupid things the teacher is saying at that time when she is wrong. why must everyone blame me. first, they got all so excited and kept shouting, laughing whatever. then later, they were just like, i forgot what i did. i did nothing. and i have to bear full responsibility. anyway, people do change. at least, they change after they realise what they do is wrong. at least im responsible. i own up, not like those idiots who somehow forgot about what happened and got away scot-free. i don't care. im right. but i've changed. my parents just won't believe me. just now, i just gave my dad a 'bu shuang' stare. i don't care whatever he thinks. im really so damn pissed off by him. when i've enough things to piss me off, homework - jianbao, maths pp, science pp, eng pp. all these have pissed me off enough. and art too. i haven't completed them. and my father wanna be part of it. to piss me off. and my relatives too. everytime i meet them, they tease me, make fun of me. can't they put themselves in my shoes and think of how they would feel? even my parents help them too. tease me, make fun of me. the only one who helps me everytime is my cousin. yeah, but i think somehow her mother don't let her go out with us. and everytime they tease me, no one can help me. haix. they really piss me off. i wanna be normal. can't i? i don't know why they like to tease me. am i funny? or any of my actions are funny? i don't know what's the problem with them. even that day before my birthday, i was feeling feverish and sore throat. but i don't even want to tell my parents. i have MUM and DAD and 1 BRO. my brother was sick. and both of them took so much care of him. no one even had the time to notice me. we cut the cake, but no one even cared to sing a birthday song for me. the only ones who wished me happy birthday weren't my family members. just none of them. only my friends wished me happy birthday. haiz. somehow, i think all these things that happened. and after all these, i've somehow turned more rebellious. im sick of all these. i just want someone to understand me. i think my friends understand me more than my family does. no one in the family remembers my birthday at all. at least my friends know, or they ask. but i don't blame them. they don't have to know all these. but the thing that hurts me most is that the person who gave birth to me don't even know my birthday. she even thinks it's 21st april. haix. i don't even think this is funny. everytime my relatives ask her about it, she hesitate so long. then says 21st april. and i have to correct her. then she would laugh so loud. it isn't just a mistake. it is real that she doesn't know. it hasn't happened only once. it happened alot of times. i've had enough of it. and somehow i think the distance between me and my cousins have drifted, though we chat on MSN. but it seems that we don't talk to each other when we meet. we felt like we don't know each other at all. and im not bothered to talk to them at all. i've had enough at home that i don't wanna suffer anymore outside.

i failed once again @ 3:22:00 pm

lolx. damn it. well. er, yesterday did IPW. sianx. lols. hmm. today gotta bia homework. lols. only finished my Chinese Assessment book. the rest haven't do. all so damn difficult. **** the teachers lahx. actually english is okay, just lazy to do the comprehension. then somemore got 2 papers. then science so damn difficult. alot questions don't know how do liaox loh. maths also damn difficult sia. then i switched on computer, wanted to do bibliography. yeah man, what bad timing. my parents came back when i just switched on the computer. yeah, they just suck alot. they have lots to say. lots of stupid irrelevant things. it's not like they are stupid or what. they just don't believe me. just because the exams are coming, yeah so what? mrs yeo told us IPW isn't everything. we still had other subjects too. yeah. whattheheck. exams aren't everything too. so what if exams are coming? actually, exams are just a revision. a test to see how much we've known on the chapters. yeah, but the students apparently just crammed and mugged for exams. yeah, and the brainless parents will think that students have to study real damn hard for exams. that's what they think. afterall, my parents doesn't even care for me at all. they only do what other normal parents do. bringing me up, feeding me and all those same things. that's what she only does for me. i don't know what i did to deserve this kinda parents. stupid boring parents with a damn idiotic dad. yeah, i thought we got better. but that was just on the surface. he added another damn stupid comment. whatever. my stubborn parents. yeah. they are just there, in my life, to dampen my spirits and make fun of me. whatever that happens, it's MY fault. as if they are some damn big people in the world that they can just blame anyone they want to. yeah, damn it. my parents, afterall, are just a nuisance in my life. greatBIGobstacles. i really feel like scolding them. i don't care if they scold me, reprimand me. i don't know. i feel so lost in the family. as if i don't belong. they just don't understand me. i don't know what else to say. my father don't even believe me at all. haix. i don't know why they don't believe me. or why i hate the things they do to me. is it because of what happened in primary6? yeah, so what if it is. i already told the truth. i know i'm wrong. i know i have to be responsible. but responsible doesn't mean to agree with whatever stupid things the teacher is saying at that time when she is wrong. why must everyone blame me. first, they got all so excited and kept shouting, laughing whatever. then later, they were just like, i forgot what i did. i did nothing. and i have to bear full responsibility. anyway, people do change. at least, they change after they realise what they do is wrong. at least im responsible. i own up, not like those idiots who somehow forgot about what happened and got away scot-free. i don't care. im right. but i've changed. my parents just won't believe me. just now, i just gave my dad a 'bu shuang' stare. i don't care whatever he thinks. im really so damn pissed off by him. when i've enough things to piss me off, homework - jianbao, maths pp, science pp, eng pp. all these have pissed me off enough. and art too. i haven't completed them. and my father wanna be part of it. to piss me off. and my relatives too. everytime i meet them, they tease me, make fun of me. can't they put themselves in my shoes and think of how they would feel? even my parents help them too. tease me, make fun of me. the only one who helps me everytime is my cousin. yeah, but i think somehow her mother don't let her go out with us. and everytime they tease me, no one can help me. haix. they really piss me off. i wanna be normal. can't i? i don't know why they like to tease me. am i funny? or any of my actions are funny? i don't know what's the problem with them. even that day before my birthday, i was feeling feverish and sore throat. but i don't even want to tell my parents. i have MUM and DAD and 1 BRO. my brother was sick. and both of them took so much care of him. no one even had the time to notice me. we cut the cake, but no one even cared to sing a birthday song for me. the only ones who wished me happy birthday weren't my family members. just none of them. only my friends wished me happy birthday. haiz. somehow, i think all these things that happened. and after all these, i've somehow turned more rebellious. im sick of all these. i just want someone to understand me. i think my friends understand me more than my family does. no one in the family remembers my birthday at all. at least my friends know, or they ask. but i don't blame them. they don't have to know all these. but the thing that hurts me most is that the person who gave birth to me don't even know my birthday. she even thinks it's 21st april. haix. i don't even think this is funny. everytime my relatives ask her about it, she hesitate so long. then says 21st april. and i have to correct her. then she would laugh so loud. it isn't just a mistake. it is real that she doesn't know. it hasn't happened only once. it happened alot of times. i've had enough of it. and somehow i think the distance between me and my cousins have drifted, though we chat on MSN. but it seems that we don't talk to each other when we meet. we felt like we don't know each other at all. and im not bothered to talk to them at all. i've had enough at home that i don't wanna suffer anymore outside.

i failed once again @ 3:22:00 pm

yeah. today was a fine day. i love fridays =D fridays rawk. hahax. kaex. started with chinese. went thru workbook. then was maths. eww. we did the maths specimen paper 1. aww! no common tests yet. geez. kaex, then it was geography. went thru workbook too. then went thru the powerpoint slides about how to study for exams. obviously i wasn't paying any attention to it. i was playing with my counters and die. then charmaine commented that i was lame. yeah, i was. hahas. well, no choice. no other things to make me awake mahx. yep, then charmaine hit the dice hard enough and it flew off. for once, i thought it went missing. but i retrieved it back from cynthia when school ended cos i saw it on her table. hahax. yarh, after my dice went missing. i continued with balancing my stationeries on the long ruler. lolx. anyway, i was occupied with my lame things instead of the presentation. hahas. later we had to gather for groupwork. that's when i stopped doing all those stupid childish things. and started focusing on the games thing cos it was way more interesting than that stupid powerpoint slide. yeah, went for recess after that. saw that giraffe. hahax. nowadays he never play soccer liaox. lols. hmm. peifang was queueing up to buy the food. then me keep looking. hahax. then later peifang told me she saw him. hahas. hmm. i got the Habbo Prepaid Cards le =D gotta thank peifang for helping me buy wors. hahax. D&T. mr soh helped me nail the piece le. hahax. hmm. i dont like my work. chang horng's and darren's pieces are so nice. so bright like that. i like the colour of their acrylic. at least they got the transparent one. mine is the opaque blue which is rather dark and it doesn't goes well with the whole thing. haix. no choice. lols. anyway, mine isn't nice or attractive at all. it's mostly wood. should have used more acrylic in the first place. yarh. i did use the machine at the door there. yeah. im not scared of it afterall. it's so fun. so fun i wished i could use it again. but no time liaox. hahas. yeah, that was about it for design&technology. ran back to class to get storybooks and ran to gallery again. which i think was rather stupid. running around just a get a small little pathetic storybook which i didn't even read at all. i think it's so ridiculous. hahas. whatever. the band and drama was quite good. though i don't really get the story of the drama's performance, but afterall their acting skills were quite good. hmm. after that, mdm ros was shouting to the whole sec 2 cohort. so loud that there was an echo all around the hall when she was up in the gallery. yeah, she did it without a mic. poor me. sitting right in front of her. she's done far enough damage to my ears. i don't wanna have ear problems like my brother. hahas. kaex. then we were finally dismissed. yeah, went down to the blue sky to set up the stall for the games thing. hahax. afterall, i didn't do much. eating sweets? hahax. guess that was the only thing i did. dismissed at 2pm. and went back to class. argh, design&technology craftwork due next friday. ohmygod. think i gotta stay back to do some of 'em. hahax. thanks to my slacking ability. -.-'' i overslacked. perhaps. kaex. was dismissed and stayed in class for awhile. then ruimin swept my skirt. accidentally. hahax. she always does things accidentally. =D yeah, it's true. nevermind, me very forgiving de. =D hahas. -.-'' lols. later went off. then went for lunch. didn't eat anything in school. hahax. i hate the school's "cafeteria" food. it sucks totally. so yucky. i don't like it. everything is so oily. except the fruits and drinks and all those. -.-'' yep, there's loads of homework to be completed during this weekend. let's list them out:

- Chinese Assessment. finish whole book
- Art
- Science worksheet
- 2 English papers
- Maths worksheet
- Chinese JianBao
can't think of any others. but i know there's alot. haix. exams, pressure!

i failed once again @ 4:31:00 pm

hmm. brother went back to NS le. hehex. these few days never blog. was like playing then didn't bother to blog. hahas. tuesday my brother came back he like so cold to me. hahas. i think he too sick le bah. then yesterday and today we crap alot. hahas. fun =D yeah. kaex now talk about today. well, we learnt the science thingy. er.. felt a little disgusting afterall. at first, i thought it was just another fun topic. but later i realised it is too detailed. too detailed that i feel so disgusted. ohmygod. hahas. hmm. i still gotta do the geography games thingy and CME groupwork thingy. hahax. yesterday was my birthday =D hahax -.-'' yeah forgot to change my info. too lazy to do so. hmm. gotta go do work now.

i failed once again @ 8:09:00 pm

lalas; now is IT. but me slack again. hahax. me bia-ing through homework. finished the chinese jian bao du hou gan in class. now doing maths. i should say copying. hahas. then later have to colour art. lols. better make sure all this effort not wasted wors. hahax. hmm. i got lots of oxygen =D -.-'' hahax. to ensure my survival to my next birthday. lols. wu liaox. after this recess then maths. maths i think got the paper. hmm. just now was science. teaching chapter 6. hahax. hmm. sianx. HAPPY BIRTHDAY to me =D hehex. yesterday night cut cake le. mango cake from angie the choice. don't feel well yesterday but didn't tell my parents. cos i know that even if i tell them, they won't care one lahx. they so concerned about my brother liaox. haix. kaex whatever. me back to bia-ing/copying work.

i failed once again @ 9:18:00 am

sianx. me feeling feverish now. hais. just now before bathe i measured was 37.1 now never measure le. kaex, came back home at 5 like that. hmm. should have came back earlier. whatever. tomorrow's gonna be my birthday le. =D yay! hahax. peifang go type in my blog just now in IT lab. hahax. yeah, my birthday's clashing with the NKF show again. hahax. happened once 2 years ago. lols. hmm. after recess today was english. well, was okay. did the groupwork thingy on the new school build. anyway write crap also can cause what we want may not be what the juniors want and anyway, we will leave the school by then. kaex. then it was geography. sianx. she went through the 1 thousand words powerpoint slide so fast how to recall. hahax. haix. me and ruimin go asked if we could join green club then she don't reply. she said there's other more important things to do now. whatever, anyway CCAs suspended for time being. maths. er.. did sort of self revision while ms shiyam marked our test scripts. hahas. kaex, dismissed. shuang wors. but still stayed back until quite late. haix. went to take lunch first. then keep seeing that piggy walk around. joshua also lohx. hahax. yeah, just remembered during recess time we saw the crazy guy acting like a vampire jumping around to scare off girls. ohmygod man. something's gotta be wrong in him seriously. the last time i saw him, he was opening a locksmith's drawer in jurong east. ohmygod. kaex nevermind. i knew i took a long time to finish my lunch. hahax. me eat very slow de. then went library to do maths. but still left 10 questions. hmm. very fun in the library. hahas. got 2 sec 1s being our parrots. then they got scolded by the teacher librarian for being noisy. so i purposely go say things again. want to hai them. hahax. me so bad. then later mrs yip came in. i was acting stupid and saying who's that lady. hahax. saying all the stupid things. then the sec 1s wait till mrs yip go into the cybernauts room liao then say she is mrs yip. hahax. overall had a very fun time in the library with the sec 1s. me and peifang sort of crazy. then came back home le. mum told me brother was in hospital cause he fainted during NS training. yeah, he's now back at home. hmm. so i guess he's not coming back on 23rd april since he's back le. hahax. he looks totally different siah. lolx. kaex, stop crapping le. still left loads of homework. plus waiting for dad to come home with the 'roti mum' bread and 'old chang kee' yam pie for my dinner. hahax. me go sketch art first.

i failed once again @ 7:44:00 pm

sianx. now is IT lohx. slack nia. haix. maths common test was a little hard. hmm. all the stupid indices. hahas. kaex lah. so sianx. damn it. after this is science. sure very sian. no doubt about it. hahax. then recess le! =D haix. sianx. yay! today no CCA. hehex. today gonna be a good day bahx. yar hor. tomorrow my birthday le. =D hehex. i think yesterday my mother go IMM buy cake for me! hahax. from Angie the Choice de. lols. can't wait for my birthday to come. just a reminder: in the Bay Dynasty history, 14 years ago the tomorrow is when a Genius was born. =D -.-'' wu liaox. lalas; so sianx IT. most is play computer bahx. hmm. someone wanna help me buy prepaid cards but not sure whether going or not. sianx. me lazy to go. yay! next week common test should be last for the semester le bahx. =D kaex. cant blog anymore.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY! from peifang
i'm beside her tat's y!

i failed once again @ 9:06:00 am

yay! today got back the chinese common test le! so happy wors. can't believe it. highest score so far this year. okx, anyway reading was first today. didn't manage to read much today cos of the poem recital and the good news. kaex. after that was chinese. didn't do much anyway. science. didn't do much too. PE. ran 4 rounds round the field without the basketball court. so happy! i didn't walk. first time. hahax. me slacker. kaex, recess. wasted food once again. bad soul. im so bad. me accidentally sprayed water onto the liming or whatever, the class chairman of 2/4. hahax. then later i went away. like as if i just wanted to spray water on her only. okx. english. did administration work again. then it was science. double period. ohmygod. damnit. she went through the whole chapter liaox. and i was in a sleepy mood lohx. haix. kaex. maths. we went through the indices worksheet. well, ms shiyam's strange. at first, she said the common test's gonna be very hard. then she said we can score if we study hard. but she said the test is quite hard, need make full use of the time today. ok, she's giving us no clue no hint as to the paper. okx, whatever. assembly. hmm. international friendship day. yeah, another nice performance again. =D beginning to like assemblies nowadays =D hehex. so fun. school's starting to get better. but today i was so sleepy and like ignored alot people. then so evil of me like that. give people the cold stare. hahas. kaex. went back class after assembly. didn't go for lunch. didn't feel like it. chinese remedial came! whoa! so happy. me got a high A1 for my chinese common test. so happy siahx. my hard work has paid off. =D as i've said, school's starting to get better. hmm. is it? today i didn't ... hahax. whatever. kaex went back home only at 5:30pm like that. so late wors. hmm. tomorrow got common test. ok. =D got IT hahax

i failed once again @ 8:55:00 pm

haix. at first thought today the interview was at 3plus. so i slept until 10plus. then later bi nuan called me to say is around 1pm to 2pm. then me go print interview questions and survey questions. then later 12plus charmaine called to ask whether she could come cos she went out too early. then my mother just came back. and i haven't bathe and stuffs. so i told her later. and later after i bathe. she called to say she was outside my unit. i was like surprised. hahax. let her in. hmm. later wasted time. then went out to meet bi nuan. hmm. took 188 to clementi. then later we got lost. lost in singapore. then we went to expressway. wanted to take taxi. but found out taxi cannot stop at expressways plus the fact that most of the taxi were already hired. no choice. took 154 back to clementi. then take taxi to the vet. hmm. finally get there. what the heck. hahax. then the vet wife's was mrs tham. so coincidental. hahax. he like very famous worhx. people talk about him also. hmm. took pictures. then give survey. then went home. spent about 4 hours in total. hahax.

i failed once again @ 6:25:00 pm

ooh. just received a call from my brother who's in NS. lols. me crazy. too bad mum went out with her colleagues for dinner. or else she would have a nice chat with him over the phone. hmm. without my brother around, me like so bored le. no one to control me. no one to help me with my work. no one to teach me. no one to crap with me. no one to quarrel with. haix. hahas. all so bored now. now, i understand how's it like to be the only child. yeah, you can play the computer whole day with no one snatching computer from you. you won't have people to quarrel with you. but you have no siblings to play with. hmm. think that's about it. i only wish the next 2 years would pass quickly. lols. ok. now let's go on with the day at school

well. today walked to school and was walking behind Mr. G. lols. the way he walked made me want to laugh. and with that bright pink shirt. hahas. ohmygod. lols. so funny. ok. reached school. went to class. er. waste time. assembled. hmm. all the basic things lahx. but today we started off with a few good news. the band got Gold for the SYF central judging. the Red Cross got some award too. and the old school building. which is the current one. will be demolished and a new building will be built. yeah, great! cool, isn't it. but we don't get to enjoy the privileges. only the 2N and 1E/N people will enjoy it. and of course the new batch of students. but nevertheless, we can still explore the new school building when we are going back for our O levels results. =D at least we get to see what's it like. for the time being, which is from next year onwards, we will shift to the old Yuqun primary and current Boon Lay primary building. that small school. which looks so old. and which is damn hot. well, i don't know if we will be able to survive in that school anyway. but nevermind, we have no other choices. and with all the upgrading or renovating works going on, how are we going to concentrate? lols. hmm, after assembly was chinese. had the SA1 listening comprehension. lols. liang lu a little blur ler. he go get secondary 4 scripts for us. hahas. then i think got 1 story is about the stamford raffles(shi dan fu) lols. hmm. but we write name le. but i don't know what's he gonna do with the papers. then we talked a little about the chapter 15. last chapter of 2A chinese textbook. yay! hurray! anyway, my computer is somehow lagging a little bit cause of the Norton AntiVirus Scan. lols. hmm. nevermind, it will be fine after the scan is complete. =D just gotta put up with it for the time being. after chinese was maths. well, as most of us expected we did graphs again. yay! that was the last graph. lols. so happy. oh, am i gonna miss graphs? i doubt so. since there will be a graph question in the maths common test next week. lols. i don't remember doing any revision today anyway. geography came. hmm. gamemasters! we played games. quite fun. but i only gotta play 1 and a half games. lols. lack of time. our game is the worst one i suppose. only like 2 or 3 people patronise. and it is like all rubbish so people couldn't figure out the answers to the crossword puzzle. should have prepared prizes. that would be fun and great. RECESS. lols. hmm. keep seeing someone de. lols. nevermind lahx. anyway, he like purposely wanna be late for lesson or don't know what. sit down in canteen until like 10:50 only then go buy rice. then slowly eat. everybody went le only left that table. then mr seah went over. hahas. lols. so funny. hmm. design&technology. well, got to rearrange my pieces. lols. hmm. chang horng's piece was damn nice and his was transparent acrylic. darren's one was quite nice too. nicholas' one is not so good. he's always trying to be the best to do everything and end up doing everything wrongly. lols. he's far too blur. never pay attention. got everything wrong and made a fool of himself instead. lols. nevermind, everyone makes mistakes. me too. yay! today's lesson was great. mr soh helped me get a new piece of wood and drill hole for me. cos he said there was no time to glue the pieces together le. so good. thought of asking him to round off the corners. but nevermind. don't ask too much from a person. it's better to ask next lesson. cannot wang en fu yi. must ying shui si yuan. lols. hmm. we went back to class. and got a storybook. then went to gallery to watch the performance. whoa. damn nice. really enjoyed myself. that was the best performance i've ever seen. i mean school performances of course. then dismissed. went back to class. and i decided to fiddle around. then that peifang go squeeze my maths into my bag cos i was wasting time. lols. whatever. later go out le. hmm. saw qi'en at the void deck there. then she said her friend doesn't want to go back to primary school. so i go and say you're childish and immature. then left. went to bus-stop. 176 immediately came. hmm. i donated 50cents to the driver. lols. i forgot to take out my ezlink. then end up only got a $1 coin in my pocket. cos my wallet in my bag. my pocket no space put le. then just threw the $1 inside. lols. whatever. went McD to eat. then went to take neoprints. hmm. not really nice lahs. cos i wanted to press No. but accidentally press Ok. then no choice lorhx. anyhow go decorate. i think that's what to expect from a $4 per neoprint machine bahx. lols. the shop at Lot 1 is way better. can choose much more shoots. but of course more expensive. but i rather use the Lot 1 machines. lols. then went to library. only for a while then went back home. cos peifang say nothing to do. sianx. then reach home. yay! i first to reach home =D. lols. wu liaox. hmm. then use computer till 5:30pm then go off. go rest and bathe and eat. hmm. then 7plus came back again. see what i mean. my brother went NS then no one to control me. so everyday computer computer computer. lols. hmm. mum haven't come back. so boring. nothing to do now. when is mother's day. lols. just now i went to see the blogs of other people. anyhow see. lols. too sianx. wish my mother would be home soon. but so what if she come home soon. the house will still be so quiet. without my brother's presence. haix. sometimes, i don't even feel this is a family. it's all so quiet. all you can hear is the sound of my typing and the sound of the fan. haix. my father came to peek at me! what the heck. i was enjoying blogging until this happened. SIANX. why must they do this. damnit lahs. just cause i use computer almost everyday doesn't mean that im playing. people like qi'en are also online everyday what. what's wrong with that. damn it. gotten really tired of them. everytime come peek at me do what. then i minimize this window don't let my father see. he like bu shuang like that. what the heck lorhx. i should be the one who is bu shuang. who call him come peek at me. everyone has the right to have their own privacy. if my parents really have no idea of how to respect me, then i guess i really shouldn't respect them anymore. that's what i always read. before you demand respect from others, respect them first. i respect them yet i get nothing in return. so i shouldn't respect them. easy as that. hmph. exams doesn't mean everything anyway. just cause exams are near and they say i can't 'play' computer. which is a wrong term to use. it should be 'use'. to correct them in their poor english or poor eyesight. so what if exams are coming. i know we need to study. but what about normal lessons? are they cancelled just because exams are near? no! that's the answer. just cause exams are near doesn't mean the earth is gonna stop rotating. or whatever they think. i really hate the way they think sometimes. the way they think is really far too different from how i think. that's why i always don't get to do the things i want to or get things i want cause 'expensive', 'too free is it?' and so on are coming out of their mouths. i wonder why they can't be more understanding. all my cousins got handphones and games and whatever. and one of my cousin who is P3 already has a handphone lorhx. i don't know what i've done to deserve this lorx. my cousin actually started with a 2100 but then keep changing like every few months lorx. while me started off with those damn old phones. lols. whatever. then their parents like make them relax. while mine? stress me up. then their parents don't demand anything from them, just that they must be more clever than their parents in whatever they do. while mine? yar, they don't really care about my studies afterall. and the only things in their mind are gifts and presents. and stressing me up. i don't know how to continue with lives like this. no respect. no freedom. no privacy. no space to relax. everything is just PRESSURE and STRESS.

i failed once again @ 7:39:00 pm

hmm. what happened today? well. started with english. we had a diagnostic test. comprehension - no summary. cool. =D managed to finish it. i was rushing to finish it as i thought the Mr. G's period only until 8am. then i finished le. bell ring. then he never go. i see timetable. is until 8:30am. then i just fiddled around with my stationery then time's up =D geography. hmm, went through workbook answers. then we did the group work. the games one. we are doing a crossword puzzle. well, said out le. no fun. hahas. hmm. after that was the special CME. hehex. saw someone walk past. then later ms tan that idiot was in the class. but i didn't really pay attention then took out the IPW things. then look out window. lolx. that's a benefit for sitting beside window. hmm. not saying what we learnt. lols. who would wanna say that. hmm. saw him walk past again. lols. then later recess. saw him outside chemistry lab. hahas. should be punished bahx. then we went HOD room outside fall-in. mrs lim talk talk talk. then we can go le. lolx. hmm. later after recess go up he still outside there. then we went up to class. hmm. then later see other people go off liao he still outside. hahas. confirmed bei fa lahx. lols. then later some of us also got scolded. hmm. we wasted time. slowly come out of class. then stroll to science lab. hmph. how come cannot go chemistry lab. everytime go biology lab de. hahas. hmm. i was behind melissa. then ms lim wanted those behind melissa to go back class. then we strolled back until she scream. so we run. hahas. then run back again. then poor wenyi had to run with the pain cos of evil ms lim. she's a devil in disguise. hmm. then when outside there she said oh how precious is time. we shouldn't waste time. cos it's a very tight schedule. aiyo. got so many labs, why fred? ohmygod-ness. hahas. yu jie did all the crap in the lab and ms lim saw it then scold him. lolx. me pathetic. still don't know how to light the lighter. know why? cos i non-smoker. hehex. then english. hmm. can't really remember what we did. oh yeah, went through holidays homework. lolx. so long ago le. hmm. anyways, Mr. G's a little ********* bahx. i wrote in my journal this sentence: i went to my friend's house and we enjoyed ourselves. then his only comment for my whole journal was: what did you do at your friend's house. why's he so interested. hahas. chinese. went through lesson 14. then he said tomorrow may have listening comprehension. then when he was teaching, the 3/7 people go drop a stupid note. saying Hello Do not touch. using an apron. then keep hanging. then he called hongming go pull it down. immediately after he said that. the thing went up. then later come down and hongming went to pull it. hahas. the whole thing came off. then they throw it in the bin. lols. just now when i was coming to school, saw him cycling to school. lolx. hmm. IPW. today's IPW was ok. the mentor helped us photostat our surveys =D goodie. lols. hmm. nothing le bahx. haix. im just beginning to hate someone from our class le. lols. not telling.

i failed once again @ 3:20:00 pm

it's in black. highlight to read.
today had reading. well, i found myself so engrossed in the ERP book. i was surprised too. hmm. i don't really like sitting at the front afterall. at least im register no.2 it's better. or i would be seeing many people trembling. haix. i don't find this in the least funny, especially during pledge-taking. but i don't understand why im surrounded by childish people who laugh at that. then during reading period. the PSI index for noise pollution was very high. should know who contributed to it. lols. then later went to class for lessons. peifang told me my poem was in the competition. hmm.. well, i don't know why lahx. mine is so bad. so lousy. hahas. all is repeating same thing only. don't know which stupid teacher selected that. anyway, there are other more stupid poems. lols. then it was CME. eww yuck! >.< sounds ="D.">

i failed once again @ 8:28:00 pm

today after IT was science. classroom feeling empty. especially me that area. infront me no one. two sides beside me no one. behind me no one. feel as if im isolated. i got SARS. im isolated from all of them. lols. something went wrong with nicholas today. he ran around the school to borrow a 'dunno what' from the TA to find out that ms lim did not need that. lols. laughing like hell siah. then went for recess. quite early yeah. i think so. then it was english. hmm, got back our english common test scripts and i realised i was so lucky. and althea said i was cool cos i missed out 1 point and could still get 21. lols. i wonder if i didn't leave out that point, how much would i get. hahas. hmm. during english, nicholas went missing. and the class said that he went 'chinese dance SYF' lols. funny. but childish. hahax. then althea sat beside me to ask me the maths killer. after that was geography. nice lesson we had. funny. mrs lim also a little crazy today. bingcheng had to sweep the whole level. hahas. then later there were 'grasshoppers' in the back row. lols. mrs lim is very into BGR by the way. then it was maths. we did extra practice for the coming maths common test cos half the class was away for their SYFs. lols. hmm. dismissed. then er, went to put bags at library. then went for lunch. hm. saw joshua. and heard him saying he burnt his hand. haix. so careless. so ke lian. this few days always see him with teachers, don't know he offend them or what. haix. anyway, that doesn't bother me. lols. but just felt that yesterday and today keep seeing him. sianx. lols. then me bought nasi lemak. 80cents. i no money. then gave $10 note. then she returned $9.20 change. then i was holding onto the 20cents with the notes. then later the 20cents slipped away and hit my shoe. wanted to take it but then it rolled and rolled and rolled until the tables at the drinks stall there that side. then i was like !@*$%*(@%$ then lazy to go get it lahx. no big deal. 20 cents only. why be so pathetic. running over the canteen just for a 20cents coin and leaving your nasi lemak which cost 80cents on the stall. yet, when i tell this to some people, their comments were - rich mahx. so don't care the money. ... haix. im not in that so pathetic state lahs. hahaz. then later went library. hmm.. read the almanac for kids or something like that. then the 8-) stands for wearing glasses. but if we use it for MSN, it is nerd. lols. then :-* or something like that was a kiss. lols. then later went for cca. then saw the other cca peeps on the stairs so walk with them. wah laox. the sec 1 go say the word sex so loud lorx. anyway, she very irritating lohs. i think offend alot people liaox. then cca that junior go say the seniors girlfriend boyfriend. then that girl sit with nicholas, she go say oooh. wah laox. she very extra larh. then later she very ... lohs. she go ask me how is your boyfriend/lover? wah laox. i was like !@%$@*&! damn it lohx. irritating. why must ask this kinda questions to make me angry. haix. later we were supposed to do storyboard, but we practically slacked. secondary 4s never do at all lohx. then later they say must do finish then can leave. then i anyhow draw. then i don't know the storyline. then the senior say accident? then i just anyhow agreed. can go off can liaox. hahax. then go back home le. hmm.

someone damn lucky wors. gonna get handphone siah. lols. as long as below $100 is free hors. so fortunate not like other people. lols. that person recently got 2 SHE CDs, acer computer set. rich hors. like $2000+ liaox. parents still buy phone for her. who more fortunate than that person. lols. no one in our class bah.. agree? not like me hors. get 3 year old LKK phone. become antique le mah? then the SIM card also me money lehx. i gonna broke liaox. lols. that person the parents so teng her. spoilt her le lahx. cannot so good. cannot everything she wants also give her. but nevermind lahx. almost 90% of the parents in singapore dote on their children alot. want what give what. rich rich de. then everything also show off. haix. they SPOILT liaos lah. they won't know how to be independent lex. then anything happen, tell parents. see how fortunate those kids are? understand what i mean? but i won't ever get to understand the meaning of family harmony. cos my parents always scold here scold there. nag nag nag. everything i want they also won't give me. now, i don't even dare to tell them the things i want. i just think, if im able to get it by my own. i ownself get it ler. don't even bother about my parents. i tell them and they scold me say must focus on studies. everytime say this niax. sianx diaox. i rather not have a phone now. i rather just leave it be. i rather not use it. i rather dunk it in the bin. i rather throw it in the sea. my mother certainly doesn't know the meaning of privacy. cant i just have a little freedom? 1% ? cannot! haiz. that's what my parents are. pa/ma, i want the newest, latest PDA, 3G phone, i want go watch movie. OK! no problem. that's what 90% of the other parents are like. im so unfortunate to have a family like that. haix. a few days ago, i just said about my father. now, it's better. but it's my mother now, she opened up my drawer and took out all my money. then when i went into my room, she quickly put back. haix. is that considered STEAL? haix. then later i call her get out she go take my handphone. ta ma de. cb lah. i don't even have privacy at all. i rather slammed it on the floor just now. let it spoil rather than let her invade my privacy. life's so hard. life's so difficult. why should i carry on? my friends commented that i was clever to get 19th in level last year. but my parents. why? mother - er.. ok. father - hmm. can improve right? haix. as if im gifted, sure can 100marks everything. haix. and i even need to hint my mother so many times until she said 'oh clever' the way she says it. it seemed so fake. it's just from her mouth, but not from her heart. people have tuition or other courses. cheapest tuition per month maybe $50 per subject bah. i don't even spend at that. then people can have things they want, go cinema or anywhere. haix. i wan watch movie also cannot. EXPENSIVE. it's my money im spending. it's not theirs. why would i even want to spend their bloody filthy money too. i rather starve to death or waste that $80 per month. primary school days were just way much easier. not much use of computer. no stress. no competition. haix. sometimes, i feel so bad. what's the big deal about being clever? so what if im clever? well, im clever and most people are like whoa. i rather be average. and be able to get all those things. CAMERA PHONES, MUSICAL INSTRUMENTS, EXTRA COURSES, CDs, VCDs, DVDs, MP3s. whatever. the things you want you get it. it's not like this for me. the things i want will go outdated and i still haven't get it. in fact, i don't even have a chance to touch the things i want. sometimes, im just so jealous when people have camera phones, or new stuffs, stuffs like that. even privacy would make me jealous. i don't even have these. life's just so hard. all the things i want, i can't have them. even my brother is way better than me, $200 budget for his phone. and his bills are paid by my mother. im just so pathetic. he FAILS his exams and my mother went to meet his principal like 2 or 3 times. but my mother never scolded him before, im always the one who is scolded. the one who is blamed for everything. computer spoil also blame me. haix. i thought many people would say that the younger ones always say sweet things and the older ones get punished. for me, it's all opposite. maybe to you guys, home is the best place to be. but to me, i rather be straying outside. understanding the pains of the world outside. rather than to get tortured at home. school is the best place for me. or at least, i rather go to the library where there is a conducive environment. and that's why. i don't like to be home early. i rather go other places. haix. home is just not a suitable place for me. it's a place where all my problems arise. a place where i have lots of difficulties to cope with living. a place where i do not have privacy. a place where i don't even feel comfortable at all. haix. don't feel like blogging anymore. cos the more i say, the more terrible i feel. and i already crying right now. crying just because of home. home is a place which makes me cry. that's my definition of home. i don't know if any of you guys have homes like this too. anyway, i really don't wanna say anymore. i just had enough of it. i feel so terrible. so sad. so depressed. i just can't control my tears anymore. if only there was someone who i could confide true feelings to... HOME is TORTURE

i failed once again @ 7:37:00 pm

lalas; lols. now is IT lesson lahs. just slacking so i came here. hmm, today IT finally got learn Photoshop liaos. great man. but im lost in the lesson. don't know where she is. hmm.. just had chinese common test. was quite ok. only the 'gai zheng bing ju' i don't know how to do. lols. it's so difficult. yay! later got CCA after school. i so happy. lols. the last CCA before exam. =D hahax. i think today maybe watch some film or what de lahx. hehex. haix. so sianz. just now morning assembly so late go. then no choice. gotta sit at the front. at charmaine's place. lolx. see? the class sitting position would go all wrong without me there. wahahax. lols. lucky she went for SYF, if not she gotta sit at the flag pole there. lolx. haiz. gotta go liaos. later kena ban for 1 month. so sianx de.

i failed once again @ 8:57:00 am

haix. today started out as a good day and gradually became worse and worst. reading was ok. got so tired of that book although i just started it. after that was chinese. didn't really do much. only revision for the test. the projector no power supply so most of the teachers were fed up. lols. science. got back our common test scripts. yay! i got 39. lolx. not very good bahx. but i so happy wors. cos i never study for it and i got an A1. whoa. so happy. yeah, when ms lim was going through the test papers, she kept emphasising on the word 'calcium' for no reason. don't understand why. that was the high part and after that, things started getting worse and worst. lols. PE. went to hall for NAPFA. hmm. first station was standing broad jump. oh great! i got 143cm just the E grade. damn it, can't it be 1cm more. then at least it would be D. whatever. sit and reach. hmm. tried my best but could only do 31cm. which i think was the same as last year's. inclined pull up. aww! that sucks. only managed to do 1. haix. if only i could do just 1 more. i was struggling to do another one anyway. then people were saying lift up your chin. come on. 1 more. whatever. haix. i tried my best but still can't do it. so angry with myself. 4 X 10m shuttle run. what the heck. i was so stupid. i wasted don't know how many milliseconds which made a huge difference to my timing. when he said start, i was still standing there only until after a few milliseconds past and i started running. and i started running at a slow pace. oh my god. hate myself. sit ups. this is my best. hmm. did 32 sit ups. A. yay! lols. but isn't that good compared to others lah. hahas. i'm so unfit. lols. recess. then peifang was looking for me. lols. i was just right in front of her. but she didn't know it. perhaps she was busy sighting boys. hahas. who knows what's on her mind right. hahas. then it was 'bouncing donkey's' lesson. well, i think he managed to kick his bouncing habit off successfully. applause for him. but who knows if he continues bouncing all the way back home. only god knows perhaps. got 21 for the english letter writing common test. lolx. i so proud of myself wors. improve by 8 marks since the exercise lehx. the exercise got 4 people fail. and im one of them got only 13 marks. lolx. improved by 8 marks. -.-'' cos i not doing it seriously. hmm. science again. can't really remembered what we did except for going through the test scripts. lols. then it was maths. graphs, graphs and more graphs. lalas; think im getting better at it. assembly! hahax. no idea why i wanted to put an exclamation mark. lolx. just felt like putting it. cos full-stops are so boring. hmm. 6th student council investiture was held during assembly. lolx. could see the councillors. hahax. so happy wors. then saw the procedure all those. the current president went for outgoing speech. then new president went for a speech and lead the pledge. then current exco-s passed handfuls of sand to the new exco-s. then new councillors got the badge and don't know what letter. this year new councillors never wear the white shirt. hahas. then graduating councillors got a certificate. and the current exco-s got a hug too, from mrs terence. or however her name is spelt. hmm. then later some secondary 4 graduating councillors staged a dance performance. hmm. not very nice though. then someone danced so slow, then the shirt still so big, then like very not sure of the steps. hahax. so funny. lolx. dismissed! hurray. saw * when going to class. then later do maths worksheet first. hmm. sat at the window seat. just prefer to sit there. don't know why. then some idiots went to close the window. so hot liaox still close. lolx. -.-'' then i went to open the window beside me. qi'en went to sit beside me. then i was like so distracted. then qi'en hit me, and asked me the maths question. later she told me to put studies first, relationship after. just wondering why she told me that. then everytime i look out of the window, she will either say that or say im looking for my boyfriend which i obviously don't have. haix. im too distracted. far too distracted. even 1 person walk pass i also gotta look out of the window. lols. haix. went to pull out qi'en's shoelaces. then later when i leaving, she cut a hole through my paper. hm.. then i got up and ready to go. she called me sit down. then i ask her why. and she told me. studies first, relationship after. -.-'' haix. so sianx today. no homework. lols. looking forward to cca tomorrow =D hehex. yay! tomorrow got IT again. so fun.

i failed once again @ 3:52:00 pm

today did my art. well, it looks like holy shit. just crap. all i did was paint the areas green and added a hint of other colours to the necessary spaces. it really does look like shit. no choice. hmm, so bored. just one of the boring sundays. all at home. with nothing to do except to breathe. searching for a new blogskin. sundays are always full of boredom for me. haix. had a MSN chat with ruimin and qi'en yesterday. then ruimin said her pull-ups very pathetic. yeah, just like me. hahas. we are the pathetic twosome in class. lols. then qi'en said her shuttle run and something else is pathetic. lols. can't really remember. me too, im pathetic. all my results are pathetic. im not fit. i just wanna fit. lols. too little exercise i have. so far, my best award for NAPFA is only a bronze. almost got a gold for my primary 6 NAPFA but i only did 2 pull-ups. sad. i really wish i can do my best tomorrow. and run my best for 2.4km. all im asking for is just a silver award. it's not that hard. but i don't understand why i can't do it. haix. nevermind. i will try my best tomorrow. wish me success for getting a silver please. hahas. im pathetic. mondays. i hate mondays. but love fridays. lols. tomorrow gonna have maths remedial again. anyway, my cousin just told me she would be bringing her mother for a neoprint on mother's day. yet, she wasn't sure when is mother's day. so am i. lols. can't really remember. anyone who knows just tag my board please. and with the right answer. don't know whether to get my mother anything. she's always nagging. complaining that im not giving her anything on mother's day. so i feel so stressed up by her. feel like getting the <> for her. but im not sure. currently, it's still on sale in TS stores for $29.90. hmm. only this price at TS stores. i can either go Westmall or IMM only. still gotta decide first. lols. she's been collecting the discs. my father bought her the 1st and 2nd series last time. now she's left with the 3rd series. exams are coming. and i still need to revise. plus all those stress. hmm.. talk about this matter some other time. exams are really coming. lols. in a few weeks time. somehow i feel im really stressed up, last year i was always counting. 1 more week to NKF charity show. 6 more days. 5 more days. 4 more days. 3 more days. 2 more days. 1 more day. then it arrived. lols. but this year is completely different, i was like so amazed when i knew the NKF show was today. lols. this year, all the things come and pass quickly. as if it was just a dream. i've not much memories of what happened. lols. except for all those major ones, of course. yeah, anyway, i just received a birthday card from NTUC income yesterday. quite innovative one. last time it used to be so boring. but these new cards are much better. nice and interesting yet simple. just like our class tees. just hope time would stop and tomorrow would never come. or at least let me pass through tomorrow peacefully. haix. just heard my father say that my brother stands no chance of entering NTU or NUS. haix. is that the outcome of slacking? i think i better start concentrating and focusing now. afterall, i don't really think ... haix, im gonna hunt for a skin now. for my blog.

i failed once again @ 4:00:00 pm

yesterday wanted to blog. i had so many things on my mind. so many things to say about. to blabber about. but i waited until 11plus still cannot use blogger. so just went off and decided to blog today. but i would have forget so many things already. nevermind, let me go on about today first before getting onto yesterday. well, today was awoken in the morning at 10am by a call. but i did not receive the call. i just have this habit of not picking up the phone if it disturbed me. lols. then later 11plus my mother came back from market. yeah, this is one of the better saturdays. relaxed. no IPW meetings. no rush for anything. no meetings with my cousins. haven't had this kind of good ol' saturdays for very long. and i liked today. just went to see the friendster astrology thing, and it says i have a good day with most of the people. unlike yesterday and thursday, which i have a bad day with most of the people. and i really feel that this is true. nevermind, say about this later. watched the MTV Mandarin Top 20. lee hom's song was first. then cyndi's honey was second. then the rest all i forgot. but i know got lin jun jie one. long time also never watch that show le. finally can watch. hahax. i think this is the best day i ever had since my brother left for NS. just wondering how he is doing. he never call back one. hahas. hmm. well, after taking my brunch, i went to do my homework. finished most of the homework. i think im only left with art. very satisfied with myself today. i felt relaxed doing the homework. not in the least stressed up. feeling high. but today's not a schoolday. so bad. if not, i think it would be a better day. anyway, i stayed at home today. didn't went out at all. but hasn't got homesick. well. i think that's about all for today. yeah, and i think me and my father's getting better. we are not ignoring each other that much. we are not getting each other into trouble. it was good. had a very good feeling of a good daddy. yay! but there was lots of this flies. and there were 5 in my room. one flew onto my body and kept pestering me until i realised it on my shoulder. i hit it off and smacked it to death. the other 4 were on the light. so i went out of my room and switched off the lights. and there were 5 in the living room too. but now no more. hmm.. sad. my piggy's dead. can't sing anymore. got to cut up it's body to change it's heart so that it can sing for me again. too bad. haven't learnt biology about disecting body parts. lols. and i would not do that to my pig anyway. ok, let's talk about yesterday.

friday - 8th april 2005
hmm. not a very good day. just like thursday. during chinese, we learnt the 'gong han' again. chang horng 'begged' mr. liang for the 'peng you' song. i think he likes the song alot. everytime mr. liang brings his laptop along, chang horng will 'beg' him to play that song. and i was happy i did not slack during lessons. then it was maths. we went on with the graphs. i still don't understand about where to draw the x and y-axes. too confused. and anyway, i think i ought to use my new spectacles. i can't see a single thing on the overhead projector with my old spectacles. and that's probably why i can't concentrate. so bad. then it was geography. hmm.. mrs. lim forgot to bring our test papers. then she actually said we will go for 10am recess. the usual lower secondary recess. and i didn't like it. bad. but later someone sort of saved us from going to the lower secondary recess. kel vin went to our class. then mrs. lim went to get our test papers and passed it to him. then he gave out before mrs. lim instructed him to do so. lols. but after that, mrs. lim called him to give out and he gave it out lahx. lols. then ruimin said she went to kick him with her shoelaces cause he went in so suddenly. hahas. funny. lols. haiz. this time my geography results was so bad. it is a proven fact. can't be changed. and i don't know why i had this heck-care attitude with the test papers. i was so frustrated with my results. i knew it was difficult but i really didn't expect it to be this bad. 31and.a.half! what worse can i expect? that's the worst i've done. so sad. i really regretted not studying for it. even people who usually get lower marks than me beat me. with much more marks. let me see. the previous test i got 40. one of the best in the class. highest was 45 if im not wrong. now i got a 31.and.a.half! one of the worst in the class. excluding those who failed. aww. really done so bad. and when i flipped open the papers, i was really feeling like 'what?!' don't know how she marked the papers. some pages have ticks. some pages have crosses. 1 page have both crosses and ticks. i don't know what she's doing. and i really was pissed off. didn't really bothered to tally up my score. i deserve this score for not revising. then went for recess. then it was Design&Technology. he teached us about nailing. and what the heck. everything's going wrong. i did all the wrong things. and later i realised my piece of work is wasted. i've nailed it the wrong way round. utterly pissed off by this. how worse can this irritating situation with me get? anyway, i think im bound to fail Design&Technology afterall. well, at least most people passed their theory test. while me, i got an E8. depressing. how to change the fact of what's been done? maybe. maybe i can really change it by improving my workpiece. but i just did a wrong step. and i realised i can't do anything else. or put it another way. to at least cover up the fact. i've to get at least a B4 for my workpiece. and after doing all the wrong things, will i ever get a B4. probably yes. in my dreams. so now, see what i mean. i really got a bad day. the test papers. the workpiece. i really got to believe the friendster astrology thing. things weren't working out for me the past 2 days. it's really so bad that i hate it. just when i thought things were getting better, it got worst. so sad. nevermind, it's over. put the past behind us. let the bygones be bygones. don't talk about those saddening things. it was PC. we had to go to the hall. urgh. it's the NKF card again. i hate it. NKF's got a good way to get money from the public. i just wonder if the staffs in NKF ever donated money to the patients. stupid but touching talk. had to raise funds again. i hate it. i don't know why. my family's not willing to donate. relatives are not willing. mother's colleagues are not willing. friends not willing. since they already have a card. no time to ask the public. no door-to-door. old friends not willing. lazy to meet up. maybe i will donate a few bucks. to NKF, i don't think that's enough. i don't even plan to approach my mother this year. last year, i got scolded by her for nothing just cause i approached her with the card. my father didn't wanted to donate. my parents called each other to donate. but none did. begged my brother to donate. afterall, i helped him last time. but he didn't help me afterall. really feel like crying. im so useless afterall. somemore, the exams are nearing. i don't even have the time to go to the public. i feel so sad. why must all this happen? primary school days are still better. i have no troubles. i have nothing on mind. i have no desires. we don't need to raise funds. all we had was fun. those were the times i really enjoyed with my friends. secondary life is tough. im stressed. have lots of problems. lots of troubles. had to raise funds. no fun. all we had is homework. i really hate it. why must life be so tiring? ok after PC i went home. later went out to library. was ok. met up with my parents after that. went for dinner. i ate a plate of fish&chips rice. quite nice although i waited long for it. after that, went back home. yeah, that's about it. for yesterday and today. long post. lolx. hahas. yesterday night qi'en was freaking me out by saying those grossy stuff of the yet to dry up wound on her leg. think her platelets are dying off really fast. hahax. ok. enough long le.

i failed once again @ 7:48:00 pm

today had a good day at school. feeling high. after school went out with peifang. go McD eat until like 11plus then go my house. then we crap there. later 12:30 then go out. then 188 alot people liaos. the bus-stops are chaotic. all the sec 1s shouting. damn lorh. this batch of sec 1s sure don't know how to behave. blehx. then went to take 105. saw nicholas and joshua. blahx. then the nicholas asked us where to alight. -.-'' lame. lolx. then later 1plus reach stadium. bad day for the rest lahx. kao beix. then reach stadium everyone like so engrossed in their own activities lorhx. other classes like so enthu(siastic) lohx. then our class like so uncooperative like that lor. frisbee we won 2/6 then lost to 2/8. blehx. nevermind we did our best. but i don't know why. i just feel as if our class is cursed this year. last year we got champion in sec 1. this year we aren't doing that well. i was watching them play frisbee with 2/8 but it was like 2/8 scored 3. and we are still 0. but we managed to score 1. so? time's up. well, im not saying this to spite the players lahx. just feel like so bad lorhx. this is one of the worst days i ever had lahx. frisbee lost liaox we went up. then peifang told me 4/1 won pushball. then i looked over. sianx lor. their game ended liaox. then later they play with don't know which class for champion. but they lose lahx. wah laox. everything im so interested in, they results really disappoint me lohx. kaoz. damn it lah. what a bad day. then later 10 by 50m race. our class real suay lorhx. wenyi first runner but she fell then she still continued running. not blaming her. just pitying. so suay lohx. first runner fell liaox. then she had to get up and run with the pain. wah laox. i won't even care about running liaox loh. yeah, but i think wenyi was thinking about the class. good of her to do so. then i think our class last. but i think still got team spirit lahx. me watch until this part really don't feel like watching anymore of it liaox lohx. everything's so bad. class cheer no one enthu(siastic). everything like that lor. but at least got class spirit. then later me wanted see 4/1 the 10 by 50m. wah laox. they also suay lohx. second runner didn't get baton from first runner, wasted time. then third runner didn't get baton from second runner. damn it lahx. everything's going my way. then the last runner run quite fast still couldn't win lohx. what the heck lah. but things started getting better when it was girls 4 by 100m race. we came in 2nd. then later the guys i think came in 2nd too. then 4 by 400m girls came in 2nd too. and 4 by 400m boys came in first. this was the better part bahz. wah laoz. at least better than the beginning lor. beginning like shit lahz. everything going against my way. then before we went off, we took class photo lahx. then went off liaox. sianz. then later waited so long for 183. cos 105 so many people liaox. me too pissed off to get up and squeeze along. around 7:30pm reach home lohx. sianz. wanted to bathe then my mother went in. then i waited for awhile and wanted to go bathe, take my clothes liao. then my idiot father go bathe lor. kao bei lah. everyday snatch toilet with me nia. go hell lahz. cannot let me first arh. he home from 4 plus still don't wanna bathe. wait until me want go bathe then snatch with me. **** lahz. damn pissed lahz. everyday snatch toilet with me. stop it lahx. can't gimme first is it. will die arhz. not that i will die lahz. but at least da rang xiao lahz. or not when i not bathing then quickly go bathe lahz. me everytime switch on water heater liaox then go get my clothes. then you outside toilet see whether the switches on then quickly go bathe liaox. cb lah. wah laox. you think i so free is it? i your maid is it? everytime allowance so late then gimme. somemore i never complain to my mother lohx. me so good liaox. what more you want. want me die then happy is it. everyday know how to piss me off nia. last time i prefer you over mum, now you really piss me off everytime i see you. i just don't understand why things change so fast and suddenly. can't my relationship with my father improve. now, we are like loggerheads. everytime he talk to me, i don't answer. me just don't be bothered to talk to him lahz. everytime let him see result. he say so lousy. then last year i ask him if i should take up hcl. he said up to you. you want, you take. wah laox. like that also can. i know this my future lahs. but at least gimme a little moral support can? wah laoz. then that day i left my school diary on my bed, then he went into my room and opened the diary. kaox. respect my privacy lahz. you wanna get retribution when you're too old is it? then everytime me go eat, and computer is on. you go use. ok lahz. nothing wrong with that. is acceptable. but why do you need to open my files? you can't trust me is it? can't trust me just disown me all you want. do all you want with me. i really don't care. i don't mind. whatever. piss me off all you want. my education you don't care, next time results not letting you see. not even o levels. let's just carry on with our lives separately. i don't need this kind of irritating fathers. and you don't need me too. i can't help you in anything anyway. sometimes, i just feel you don't even regard me as a family member at all. everyone has took a ride on your motorbike before. at least twice. me? zero. i sprained my hand and you wanted me to take public transport. all the way from toh guan to jurong point there. can't even pity me. then me saw doctor wanna go back and do homework with my bandaged right hand. you still won't let me take your motorbike. do you think im left-handed? or you simply think i can write even easily with the bandage on my hand. i don't know what you were thinking. and anyway, at that time, it was already quite late. so dark. mum called you fetch me home, you refused. and you said that if i want faster reach home to do homework just take taxi. then why do you need a motorbike then? just take a taxi. - that's what you said. do you think i really need someone like that? everything you promised me are broken too. you gave me comfort when i was younger. now, everything totally changed. it's as if im just a tenant in this house and you're a busybody trying to spite me. i really don't like this at all. it's just so irritating. even my exam results, if you are not happy with it just say it directly. i will try my best to improve. you don't need to beat around the bush before getting to the point. you think it's fun? just stop it lah. and anyway, i don't even think you've even praised me before at all. edusave bursary. 2nd in class. 246 for psle. what's all that for? for my own sake. you don't even praise me at all. if you really thought all this was for my own good, then let me tell you this. if i were a dropout. who can't get a job. i can't support you when you're old. but if you like that, then that's nothing wrong. i don't care. just don't understand why everytime you have to anger me. until now, i don't even let you know about my tests or my marks. why must i let you know? you will only say bad things. im really sad by all those you said about me. ok. enough said about that. now is 8:56pm and i will go bathe now. no choice. bathe liaox then go eat le. haix

i failed once again @ 8:16:00 pm

yeah! today had a fun time at school. lols. except for stupid CME. i hate that ms tan. blehs. just now after IT we walked down the stairs nearer to our class. hahax. then i purposely looked into 4/1 don't know why. then saw him. i think he was sitting at the back. maths lesson was after recess and ms shiyam gave lengthened the deadline of the maths killer assignment 5 until next monday. kind soul. hahax. great! now i can relax. then was niche. today's lesson was fun. enjoyed it. pretty easy. cos we didn't learn much today cos of time constraint. then when walking to hall that time, we were strolling slowly. then i saw someone outside the physics lab. hahax. then later i was looking at him, then suddenly saw mr lim at the stairs there. so quickly ran down to the hall. haix. stupid mr lim. then later mother tongue we learnt the 'gong han' thingy. yeah the lesson just went by like this, then we went for art. hahax. just hear her talk crap then sit there wonder around looking around then dismiss le. after that, me go class take the bag then left liaos. then peifang almost forgot about me having to practise the pull-ups. then i hint her. then later we were about to walk out of school liaox, she suddenly remembered. then had to go fitness station do. haix. i don't know why i suck at it so much. i can't even do one simple pull-up, pathetic. then me was just dilly-dallying. saying the bars very hot. lols. then later i lay down. then the ian walked pass. then he saw me. he call me jia you. haiz. as if i can do 1 lohx. hahas. im so lousy. then peifang helped me to do 10. later we walked out of school, saw him again. wahahax. then saw althea they all and yihui they all discussing about the class tee. then me and peifang decided to go along with them to jurong point so that we can get the class tees too. but i went home first. to put down my bag and get my handphone. then later we late le. hahas. but we went for lunch first. then later like 4pm like that then get the shirts. then we split and brought it home. =D and we also ownself took our own shirts. hahax. then went home le. reached home about 4:45pm le. lolx. nice class tee we have but it's quite simple. =D

i failed once again @ 7:39:00 pm

lalalas; now in IT lab after reading, CME and science. wahh. stupid miss tan or whatever her name is. she's so damn stupid and annoying. irritating pest. her lesson so boring sia. wanna doze off and sleep. zZzZz. but then i took out the pumpkin pie to read it. too eager to read. then put under table read very troublesome. so i took it out. put on CME book then read. damn her. me got caught for reading it. lols. she called me to keep it. so i keep it under the table and read it. lolx. that's also called keep it. she went off after the class, and i took out my book to read. lols. who cares so much about her? my education has nothing to do with her. blehs. science came, the heart thing again. so sianx. but lucky this lesson i managed not to yawn. lols. then now IT lorhx. hahax. later is recess le, hurray! then maths - 5 times boring. niche - 3 times boring. mother tongue - 4 times boring. art - 10 times boring. lols. rating scale. then can go home le! yahoo, finally can go home early liaox. so happy. yeah, yesterday night after i switched off the computer at 10:30pm my mother called me to go drink the bird's nest she prepared. and she told me not to waste any cause it's expensive. lolx. didn't really enjoy it. not that nice. then later my father sleeping liaox. then he don't want. blehs. my mother asked if i want 1 more bowl of it. oh my god man. im so full. can't take in anymore. and it isn't very nice too. hahax. ok lah. but once in awhile still okay bahx. lalas; yesterday got cca. discussed about the spongebob squarepants thingy. then gave the roles for everyone. lolx. actually last week already confirm liaox. but then sec 4s stepping down. so redo lohx. then later that "... ..." keep asking me to be co-producer, leader of editing group blahx. then i said don't want. he asked me why. ... lolx. but i managed to not be co-producer and leader of editing group lahs. hahax. then me had to act as the mr. krab or whatever in the spongebob squarepants. lolx. then gotta find the picture or something. lolx. then got the sec 1 boy he so funny. he wasn't listening to him talk. then he go ask him, what was he asking talking. then the sec 1 boy said he couldn't hear him. lolx. he talk so loud he still cannot listen. hahax. then later he go ask him, you know what is spongebob squarepants. he said yes, then later asked him you know who sang it? he don't know. then he told him is avril lavigne. and added in that he knows it now since he've told him. lolx. then he asked him you know who is avril? he said don't know. hahax. then he asked 1 final question, you know who is jay chou. then he said yes and "... ..." said he is just a typical chinese guy. lols. then he asked me to be the other characters, then i said no. cos i don't know who they are. hahax. i only know the patrick and spongebob lohx. then later he called me be the mr. krab cos everyone needs to act. lols. hahax. being a sec 2 is quite good afterall. hahax. he gave me alot to choose from. hahax. then he later very what lohx. go say until very ... he told me. you know spongebob squarepants. there is a character called mr. krab lah. and you go and find about it, so you can get roughly the idea of how it looks like. then you get a picture of it and think of how you want it to look like. lolx. can't really remember what he said. lols. stupid. mr. krab. lols. anyways, i think sec 4s won't have a chance to view it as their farewell present. hahax. too bad le bahx. so sad for them. hahax. don't want say anymore. later ruimin say i .... lols. and anyway, yesterday i had a very enjoyable chat with her yesterday. hahax

i failed once again @ 9:14:00 am

lolx. practical tuesdays at school with common test and cca. lols. was feeling sick during common test and felt like going home but then i did manage to endure until the end. today's common test was damn easy. well, at least way easy than i expected it to be. lols. well, guess i will be able to score at least an A hopefully. lolx. but i did not study for it anyway. after common test was IT, damn sianx. then sometimes i really hate peifang, wahahax. cos she really done her best to piss me off. lols. but i think is same for both of us lah. then science. oh yeah! got peifang to do my science worksheet for me. wahahax. nice way of using her. science hell man. sucks yeah. then recess. ate the biscuit. lols. after that was english with that boucing guy again. i think he got rid of his bouncing habit le bahx. lolx. then geography. sianx. not getting common test scripts back on thursday but on friday. hey man, that's gonna be bored. then maths. learnt the graph thingy. well, a little confusing. lolx. cos i did not pay much attention. then later me stayed awhile in class after dismissal. then wait around 5mins that annie lim never come. so i went off le. lolx. since is she want meet us, then she should come, not we go. lolx. and i just found out my worksheet was with bi nuan hahax. then went for lunch, didn't feel like eating. but ate a plate of rice. then eat a little liao stomachache, so i decided not to finish it all and i went to squash the rice until it looks so yucky. then i returned the plate. went library. read garfield comics. lols. then later went 4-6 see got people inside so we stayed outside. then later ruimin say go ava. blehx. so stupid. climbed up 2 storeys and down 4 storeys. extra exercise yeah. cca was pretty sian. watched all the films again. then went through the spongebob squarepants thingy. -.-'' all crap. lolx. i don't even know what's spongebob squarepants. just wondering what it is. i only know of 2 characters spongebob and patrick. blehx. then i had to act the mr crab? or whatever. i don't know how it's spelt. lolx. yeah, damn it. got loads of maths homework due this week. argh damn, pressure is what ms shiyam's giving us. hahax. somehow, i feel that cca nowadays rock! yay! lols. at least we are doing something. as in something useful, not some basic things like breathing, whatever. lolx. as in related to f and v stuffs.

i failed once again @ 4:18:00 pm

haix. came online actually wanted to just print out the picture for my english trading card. still finding a picture. lols. can't find one yet. just now was reading other people's blogs, then suddenly i heard a buzzing sound. argh! damn it. it's those irritating pesky little wasps again. somehow manage to fly so high and come in. hahax. then my mother came out and i told her. she just ignored me. hell damn it. bad day for me! lols. then my brother came out when he heard me saying about those days, took a look at the wasp and went off. and he came back with a pink file. yeah, and a small little card dropped out. and i suddenly realised it was my file. what the heck. oh damn it man. and i was screaming. hahax. finally he gave the file to me. lols. my file is once again saved by bay jing wei. wahahax. lols. lame. later my brother go get the lighter and lighted it on the wasp. oh my god man. just so disgusting. maybe all biology people are just this disgusting. and my brother said it was the cleanest way to get rid of it. yeah man, i was like so damn pissed off. and he left the wasp in the middle of the living room to rot. lols. tomorrow wake up must remember not to step on it. lols. yeah, anyway, i hadn't had a peaceful sleep for long. suffering from what called insomnia? lols. always turning in at 10plus but only sleep at maybe 11plus. haix. just hate this days. too much stress. all nightmares. no sweet dreams. lols. yesterday had a real bad dream so far, don't wish to elaborate on it. real scary. oh my god man. damn it. everytime i have nightmares about murders, monsters etc. haix. why can't i have a peaceful night?! at least no dream is better than a stupid nightmare to scare my guts out of me. hell damn it, there's science common test tomorrow. informed of it only today. what the hell. darn her man. well, practically and theorically, i think most of us don't have time to study for it. lalas; i didn't study for it yet and im not gonna study for it. just too many to do, too little time. lols. still have to do the science ws and english trading cards thing. homework's piling up. mid year's coming. and all those blah + bleh. tralala; seems like im in a happy mood. the childhood prodigy hahax. is buzzing off now.
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i failed once again @ 9:49:00 pm

today a stupid day and annoying day for me. woke up with a sore throat. then later drizzle, so went hall for assembly. no squeezing. lols. then after that, sec 2s gotta stay back while mdm ros told us about the nyaa sports. then after reading was chinese. er.. went through the chapter 12 words. then he told us we have to self-learn the chapter 13 words and read the story to answer the questions behind. blehs, hell. he's slacking again. not teaching. wahahax. after chinese was science, the crazy and fury ms llim came in. and then started raining. and i caught a flu. hell ms lim yeah. lols. she's my jinx perhaps. then she crazy, gave us answer sheet and took it back and made us copy. blahx. i just can't stand it anymore. afterall, i don't like her that much. cos ms tan was replaced by her. and now her stupid fury attitude, scolding us. blehz. don't like a teacher like that. then came pe. sucks, hell, damn. lols. 3:16 for 1st round then came in 2nd round we had to stop just cos of that stupid rain which isn't so heavy afterall. that idiot. damn it! me put in full effort in running. and -blank- then blahs. no timing. heaven's just blind. only hell has eyes. you know why? cos heaven take it's sight for granted. wahahax. too bad. after that, we ran in the canteen. so many people, so dark, so small space. wasn't motivated to run at all. damn slow jog. lols. slack lorhx. then stretching. blahx. as usual. then later frisbee players went for training? lols. had to break into groups of 3. and stupid nicholas was there asking which girl doesn't have a group? lols. he's far too interested in girls. then later suay suay me gotta join nicholas and hoi meng. damn hell. was in a good mood and didn't want to anger mr choo, yeah, so i immediately went over while that peifang stood there. blehs. damn it. then stupid nicholas is just so clumsy and dumb. the floor is so slippery. blehs. hoi meng threw the frisbee to me but i missed it then it flew to the stairs there. the one leading to the pond. hell, damn it. so slippery and i couldn't run. then that stupid nicholas wanted to take the frisbee. so he sort of pushed me while trying to get the frisbee and he slipped. then at first i managed to hold onto the floor for support. and damn it, that nicholas made me slip down and i was lying so stupidly on the floor. duh. -.-'' stupid. then later rain start pouring onto the blue sky stage and it was hell damn slippery. managed to grip onto the ground with my shoes. didn't slipped on the stage afterall cause i've already adapted to the slippery-ness of the stage with the water. lols. there isn't such a word in dictionaries you buy outside, but there is such a word in my own personal dictionary. lalas; joking. haix. after that was recess. raining cats and dogs so i was just too lazy to walk down to the canteen, cause by then we would be walking down and then walk up with no time to eat. blahx. english. got kenneth's paper with the hell shit of heng chang horng is a gay. lols. just don't know how to enhance such a kind of sentences but i managed by adding some words and it became talkative heng chang horng is a gay, unbelievably. can't think of any other adverbs or adjectives to add in, really. lols. science. blehx. stupid ms lim. heck of her. damn her to tell us about the common test only today. and expect us to score high. yeah, that's inhumane of her. hell. idiot. freak. moron. whatever. the heart diagram was pretty disgusting. didn't enjoy the lesson at all. yeah, all her lessons practically sucks. that's one statement i've finalised. a new proven theory by bay jing wei. lols. im a new scientist? -.-'' maths. argh. alot of maths homework. seems like ms shiyam's tying us down with lots of work these days. assembly. boring. twisted tales, public speaking and the video show of don't know what. then that hell idiot. wanted us to stay back. blahs. he's got control over us. seems like 2-5's got a real bad reputation in the school. then went back to class for maths remedial, didn't wanted to take lunch. didn't have appetite to do so. preferred to be left alone. haix. finished maths ws 10 and left at 3:20pm i suppose. yeah! went back home! finally, now im blogging. judging the way i am now, i don't pretty much feel like going to school on thursday. rather send my brother off for ns. blahx. and that peifang keeps saying that is not an excuse. yeah whatever. jealous?! he's my immediate family member. and i am concerned. wahahax. just feel so much like skipping school and staying at home. lols. but i just can't neglect my studies! blehx. wait till that day arrives and we'll see. and somemore, there's frisbee! haix. just feel like splitting myself into 2, so i can fill in the 2-5 spirit and at the same time be with my family seeing my brother off for ns. but in life, we have to prioritise, which i don't know how to. well, bad situation for me. can't see him for 3 weeks even until after my birthday. haix. gonna have a lonely birthday this year.

i failed once again @ 3:47:00 pm

lolx. the title suggests my blog. well, today went for damn advanced birthday celebration for me 14th birthday. well, went all the way to rama thai at tanjong pagar there. then it summed up to like $110. lolx. i think my mother too rich or what lorx. february my brother birthday we go Thai village sharksfin restaurant eat until like $250. then now go rama thai eat until $110. siao lerx. but too bad for me, cos i don't really enjoy eating those stuffs like sharksfin and crab and fish and lobster whatever. those seafoods. lols. once in a while still ok bahx. but eat too often le. till now i also sianx of it lohx. well, don't understand the taste of my parents. hahax. i just don't enjoy seafood at all. not even fish or prawn. fish fillet- yeah, i enjoy it. lols. me like food like vegetables(except cabbage,brocoli and celery) and chicken those bahz. lols. seafood so expensive, yet they still like to eat it. ... lols. after eating went to the og @ bugis. then my mother so damn funny, she saw a dress. then she went to unzip the zip infront, then the whole thing came unzipped until can see the lining inside. then she can't zip it back. lolz. so funny. then later we were standing in the middle of the road. then there was an overhead pass above us and those height limit thingys beside. then my mother pointed to the height limit things and told my brother that they can go opposite by walking the "overhead pass" lols. me laugh till like siaox. then later went the bencoolen, father bought a watch. lols. then took 197 to jurong east. walk walk for a while. then later come back home le. finally. lols. so tiring day. from 11 to 7. haix. rather stay at home. but later get homesick. me always june and year end holidays get homesick de.. lols. then came back home liaox do the maths 8c till finish. then now planning to do art. but lazy.. haix. so sianx. just wishing i could have a new phone. an mp3 + camcorder + bluetooth phone. haiz. or at least wished i could have the creative Zen mp3 player. it looks pretty cool lohx. haix. but i know all these dreams won't be fulfilled de. =( haiix. now, i think my father gonna get himself a new phone when his plan expires. haix. wish can have the buy 1 get 1 promotion like last time de. lols. then i would have a new phone le. cos my brother in army cannot use those high tech phone and my mother just got a new k508i. lols. if only that would come true, but me still gotta wait until like next year for his plan to expire. haix. why can't he subsrcibe 2 years lohs. go subscribe 4 year de. haiz. if only i could have a mobile plan then that would be better. haix. then can change phone every few years. so sad. i want new watch, new phone, mp3. haiz, why is it that i have so much desire ? so much to wish for. haix. if only i could get those things i want. like some people in the class. they tell their parents what they want today and they get it tomorrow. why are my parents so different?! why am i born to them?! why can't my parents understand me as i grow up?! why ?! why?! why?! i just don't understand it. haizzzzzz... life is really so.. wad ? i cant find a word to describe it.

i failed once again @ 8:31:00 pm