it's lunch time now. but i have no allowance. someone tell me what to eat for lunch. maggi noodle? ahh! just hate my life. maybe i'll just do with eating biscuits. feel so bad. why is everyone around me leading a great life? no, at least a life way better than me. they get stuffs they want, and they don't need to dream and think of the day they will get it. for me, it's totally different. i can only dream and think of when i'll get it and later arrive to the conclusion that i wouldn't get it anyway. hais. people say life is like chocolates, you don't know what you'll get out of it next. what surprises you are going to get. but it's a totally different thing for me. i don't get surprises at all. i mean pleasant surprises. hais. why is life so dull for me? i see no brightness at all. with my family, they only scold and nag. anything spoil blame me. as if i spoil everything in the house. things get lost or misplaced blame me. everything is my fault. it's so unfair. i say it's bias. it's true, but my mother just won't admit it. why don't they blame my brother? why blame me only? then last time when i very young i lied once, and everytime after that, my brother bully me then my mother listen to my brother cos i lied once. and it became i disturb my brother. and i get caned. but this is different. mrs yeo said always the younger ones say nice things to make parents happy then the older ones get into trouble le. but is different for me. so long as i know, my brother have only been caned once. and me, umpteen times. not that it's all my wrongs, but my brother's lies landed me in all this troubles, and he get away scot-free. and my mother don't even believe the things i say. blehs. my brother fail his paper. then he say alot others also fail, he not only person who failed. then my mother just believed me and signed his paper. then i didn't even fail, but get low marks for maybe the history papers, then i told my mother i only one who passed, and she went "hahahaha! very funny" and scolded me. blehs. why can't she even take a step to believe me at all. then that day after the examinations i think it was a wednesday. then my mother came back from work very furious and came scolding me for nothing. then we need to prepare at least some info for ipw the next day, but i was just sitting there watching the television, and my mother came back and shouted "if you dare switch on computer, i chop off your hands." then i just didn't use computer. and next day ipw i didn't bring all the bibliography and survey stuffs. blehs. why must things always turn out like this? then later my father opened a pack of potato chips and asked if i want. then i said i don't want. and my father asked my my mother cane me. NO! SHE DIDN'T SCOLD ME. BUT SHE THREATENED ME. anyway, i just kept quiet. hais. even if she want to threaten me, she don't have to say chop my hand right. hais. can't she even remember stuffs that happened to my hand before and how they "rescued" my hand. the time when i was young and my hand went in with the door, how did they try to pull it out. they don't even remember at all. and my mother threatens to chop off my hand. i know it's just a threaten. but why must she say hand? don't she know that by saying that, she could have hurt my pride. hais. my life is so dark. i've tried looking on the brighter side, but it's always my parents, they never understand me. they make fun of me when we go out with relatives, then when i don't want to go, they don't allow. why must i be their victim, why must they always make fun of me. they feel happy, but i feel like crying. and even when im crying, they still won't stop making fun of me. instead they continued and said things like there's gonna be a flood soon. they just don't understand. they never tried to understand my feelings. hais. whatever. i don't wanna talk about those MORONS AND IDIOTS that i've known since im borned into this world. i rather remember those happy moments with my friends who understand me much more. blehs.

i failed once again @ 12:21:00 pm

haix. life sucks. ahh! it seems as if everything's falling apart. my computer just lagged. how many times has it lagged this month? yeah. great. that's how things get worse and worst when you're feeling so damn "great" and then things happen to make you feel even "greater". then my handphone get stuck again. when can i ever get a new one? probably no chance of getting one anyway. then now it's the holidays, all cooped up at home. then i have no allowance. and im not allowed to use the computer. yeah, how "great" things get. i might just as well starve to death, that's better off living anyway. i still have to put up with the seemingly never-ending nagging by my mother. and i have no conducive environment to study once my parents are at home. the volume of the television set is so loud, as if they are half deaf. and my mother spends like 2 or 3 hours per night on the phone. even when the phone is nearer to her than she is to me, she has to speak very loudly too, that i can even hear her in my room. life has already been bad enough for me after the examinations. it's like i've been crying everyday. then now, liang lu told my mother all those really nonsensical stuffs about me which aren't true at all, and now my mother is disciplining me according to what liang lu suggested. isn't it the same as liang lu disciplining me? yeah, that doesn't make a difference. then suddenly, but i don't know why, people around me are getting new phones and stuffs and supposedly, enjoy their june holidays. it's totally different from me. the stuffs i get are only nagging and those moronic stuffs. and it looks like i really have to thank Commonwealth Secondary for planning my school holidays for me. which of the activities im going to do during the june holidays is planned by me? none! absolutely none. all of them are either NYAA stuffs, dental checkups, submission of work, project meetings, and that liang lu's out-of-the-world suggestion. oh great. i have a nicely planned holiday in front of me. and what more, no allowance. and there's nothing in the house for me to cook. maggi noodles? unhealthy. i can't possibly eat it for 30 days. rice? i don't know how to cook only my portion of rice with a rice cooker that's far too big. maybe spread the grains over the rice cooker so that only 1 grain of rice covers the surface. but i don't eat that much rice too. nothing else for me to cook. yeah, does that i mean i shall starve to death. and there's no one at home too. so there's definitely no one to buy me lunch too. and that leaves me with the final option. that is to starve. in fact, i think more allowance should be given to me during the holidays. partly cos the only way for me is to buy lunch for me. and school food is cheaper, so i need more for the food at coffee shops. my parents only want me to study hard. but so what if i study hard? they don't even reward me. they don't even bother about me. to them, work is more important than me. so why should i really care? see, even when i slack, i can also get 10. but that's good enough if they don't care about me. my life is only confined to homework and school. then at home, my mother order me around like a maid. and does this leave me with the time to revise? yeah, even robots would have to rest. im not even a robot, and they make me work like im a robot. then in the morning, even when it's holidays, my mother kept shouting at my ears to call me do things when i'm sleeping. okay, i wouldn't mind if it was after 8plus. but she shouted into my ears at 6plus. i can't even get a minute of rest or peace when my parents are awake and around me. then sometimes i get really vexed. it's like as if i have no privacy or no rights to sleep. when i sleep in my room, they say i have boyfriend. when i sleep with my parents, they say i scared of sleeping alone. so, what is the right thing for me to do? not sleep. ahh! that's great.

i failed once again @ 10:15:00 am

ahh! god help me please! or someone. hahas. kaes. nothing is wrong. but im still brooding over that 477.5/700. oh god. how worst more can it get? now i don't even wish to get back my report books next term. yeah, cause my percentage keeps dropping and it never rises. like the stocks that keep dropping, who would wanna buy it. ahh! someone help me with my subjects please. i regret so much. i should have done better for my science and geography. now, it's like all my fault. ahh! the design & technology, geography and art marks are finalised for the year. and how am i gonna make changes to it. i have no chance to improve in those subjects. ahh! at least for geography next year. well, i don't know when will i ever start taking things seriously. i've always been letting opportunities slip by and then realise what a fool i was to let go of such good chances. ahh! why am i always like this. i feel so bad and guilty about my results. i shouldn't have come online during the examinations, i should have been studying hard and revising. but, what's the use of knowing it after the examinations? why am i always like this? i just hope i would come to my senses and do all the things i won't regret. sometimes, i just hate myself for being so stupid and dumb and still slacking through. haix. even before i got back the results, i already knew it sucked. but then, why did i go get it? for the sake of knowing my results could suck even more than i expected it to? ahh! i don't know. i don't know anything. i just wanna buck up, pull up my socks, and improve. it's so fascinating to slip 8 places down. and i've definitely learnt a lesson this time round. im not gonna repeat the same mistakes. im not gonna go down the drain. okay, since don't know which of the 2 that is liang lu or my mother said that if i could put all my heart into it and study hard, i could get 1st, then why not i try it out? everything's worth a try, ain't it? yeah, since people think i can do it, i shouldn't let them down. moreover, i should have confidence in myself too. and i should also work hard towards my goal. rather than to slack around then cry at the end of the day, regretting all that i've done and only coming to realise the mistakes i've made when it's already way too late. yeah, so im really gonna study hard, okay, i will try to bear with temptations to use computer or sms-ing or slacking. yeah, im gonna prove it to everyone that i can do it, i don't want to let anyone down. and i wanna be happy at the end of the day. so i promise myself i would study real hard, as in really. and revise through. and read more storybooks. ahh! lols. and complete assignments on time. im not gonna play and slack throughout anymore. im gonna change. change for the better, and i believe i can do it. i will not let down those who are expecting my results. yeah, that's what im gonna do! i can strive. just put in more effort! and im gonna work hard from now on. so what if it's only left with 4 months, there's still around 16 weeks to the year end examinations. and im really gonna study hard within these 16 weeks to satisfy myself with the results i get at the end of the day. i believe i can do it! and i can do it! and now, no one is going to stop me from what im going to do.

kaes, yay! i finished the english flyer. wonderful. eh, but i spent like 1 and a half hours doing it. and i really hope it would help in my year end results. ahh! it's 10. i've gotta go. im not going to slack and play the computer. and yay! tomorrow im going out. to peifang's house to play the table tennis and also to the library to do homework and borrow books. yay! i can do it! =D gotta go. byes.

i failed once again @ 9:44:00 pm

yesterday went to school for meet the parents. hmm. went to canteen can't find him. then went staffroom. then suay suay just reached staffroom he auto come out. sianx. then they talked for like 15minutes like that. and he said amanda's english was 81. pro loh. what else. hahas. then stupid him showed my mother the self evaluation form. blehx. and told her my results deprove alot. and said i everyday go internet. but i don't know how he knows about this. spy? hahas. kaes. then he said my english very bad. must read more books and newspapers. and suggested i should go to the library since it's so hot nowadays. and now my mother's making me go to the library at least twice a week. blehx. and he told my mother about the project and everything. blehx. his mouth is really big. XXXL size? who knows. i don't know about it too. i'm not interested in measuring his mouth size cause my measuring tape will break due to his big mouth. and oh ya, how come his english so bad? oh my god. i thought he said read more english books and newspapers can improve english? then how come his english.. well, i'm speechless about this. hahas. or maybe his allergic to english? well, anyway, and i don't know which of the 2 said that if i could put my heart into it and study harder, then i will be able to get 1st position. oh, god. why give me pressure. blehx. now i have to thank liang lu for so many things he 'helped' me. making my holidays worst than ever. making me busy, no peace, no rest. ahh. how am i going to survive? yeah, but anyway, it's quite true i've deproved. i slipped 8 places. blehx. right to 10 now. and if i were to continue at this pace, i know i won't be able to get streamed into triple-science. ahh! god help me please! haix. it really looks like i've really gotta work extra hard and put in extra effort from now on. and peifang told me some of the things he said are just made up by him. and i don't know why. in the report book remarks whoa so unbelievably good. well, it was something like: A very hardworking girl who puts in a lot of effort in her work, Jingwei is quiet and conscientious. An exemplary student, indeed. Keep it up. oh yeah, how good it sounds huh? but what he told my mother was 100% different. totally different. there was nothing similiar. or nothing in the remarks that could be linked to what he told my mother. blehs. he suckx. haix. who does he think he is exactly? just a teacher and he told all those stupid things to my mother now my mother is like forcing me to do things i don't want. banning me from computer, twice a week to the library. ahh! a teacher who can force parents to force students. oh how great. i thought he was great in class, but he's really "GREAT" in front of parents. blehx! damn it. haix. enough about that stupid big mouth road-measurer liang lu. hahas. that's what my mother said about the name liang lu.

kaes. haix. i feel so bad. it's like each time i get back my report book, my percentage drops. right from last year's SA1, it was 72.7% then became 71.3% for last year's end of year and now it's 68.2%. blehx. oh my god man. i really have to buck up. ah! i have to work hard! but is anyone willing to coach me in english? haix. blehs. yeah, anyway im supposed to do the english flyer now. not to blog. hahas. thankx to liang lu again! blehx. i can't play computer now! sucks!

i failed once again @ 7:28:00 pm

can't retrieve friday's post now. was posting such a long entry. and it's the third time in 3 days my posts are gone. so now here i'm reposting. well, that day after that, went sms-ing ruimin. but then, there was nothing much to say and nothing much to do. yeah, my mother's "great" huh? i just helped her applied for NDP`05 tickets and she repaid immediately by pressing the computer's switch. another long post gone. blehs okay, as i was saying, it was 11plus. time passes so fast. yeah now, let me list the homework again:
English
1. 3 book reviews (typed & illustrated)
- 1 on The village by the sea
- 2 on books of own choice
2. 2 comprehension exercises from Reading Rites
3. 1 composition from MYE EL P1`05
4. Project (Flyer)
Chinese
1. Yi Lun Wen (600 words)
2. 2 Ying Yong Wen
3. "Xi You Ji" Project
Maths
1. BPGHS Maths P1 & P2`04
Science
1. 17 free-response answers questions

think that's all. can't think of more. as i was saying that day, it's about creating websites and me. am i childish? do i have childish ideas? or is it mr ang against me? first, it was the html project. we went to ruimin's house and did until 5 or 6plus. in the end, he accused us of using dreamweaver and made us all do individually. then, it was the year end project. creating website using dreamweaver. at first, i done some in the computer. but eventually, someone made my computer crash and i had to redo the whole thing. and i stayed in library like everyday until library closes just to do it. some of them saw my project and commented it's nice. i'm not bragging. in the end, i get a C! he's like so heartless and inhumane. i've spent all my effort. then now, it's about ipw. we were seeking help for our 'door idea'. it was like months and we hadn't get it back. then ms sri said mr ang rejected it cause it was too childish. what the heck? we spent alot of time getting this idea and trying to make it. let's see, if you were me, how would you feel? happy? i doubt. anyway, forget about this stupid mr ang who's just downright inhumane.

okay. it's saturday 28th may 1am now. i'm just writing all this down so that i'll blog this. yeah, 9 more hours to get my results slip. but i don't even feel excited or happy at all. in fact, i've got a hunch that i didn't do well this time round. my science could have been way better. and my art would have been nicer, if not for the brown smudge i accidentally made on it before handing it up. i know i'm not talented or what, but my art would have been better. yeah, this is the last chance anyway. for the NYAA famous artist painting chair. yeah, i wasn't even supposed to get the chair in the first place, but i think she somehow changed her mind. and i'm really giving it my all. i really have to paint nicely and do a good job this time round.

okay enough of all this. for your info, as i was jotting down this on the school's foolscap paper, i realised this is so long it could've been an essay if not for the singlish. starting from the "play enough of all this...", it's my second piece of foolscap paper. and my hands are getting really tired.

and i'm wondering who's selected for the remedials. basically, the HMT one doesn't concerns me. so it leaves me with geography and maths. as for maths, i heard it's only for those failed. so i don't have to attend. as for geography, i'm not sure. but next semester's already history. what are the geography remedials for then? i've no idea. but qi'en said maybe annie lim was 'kiasu'.

let me see when i'm going back during holidays. yeah - sort of holiday planning.
1. NYAA camp - 1st june
2. NYAA recreation - 6th june
3. Dental check & submission of famous artist painting chair - 15th june
4. flag day - unconfirmed. but i don't think we need to assemble in school.
5. twice a week to the library all cos of liang lu's fault!
6. submission of IPW`s first draft - 8th june
7. IPW meetings - unconfirmed
8. Xi You Ji project - unconfirmed
whoa. so much

okay, feeling rather tired now. i've got to wake up at 8am tomorrow. mum wants me to go bank with her tomorrow before meeting liang lu. so, i guess i'm turning in now. so, bye & nitex. though it may not be night now. it's morning. hahas. okay enough crap. yeah, guess i'll do my NYAA camp packing soon when i have the time. i'm looking forward to that camp anyway. hope it would be a fun one. i've always loved camps too! yay! lol, yeah, 4th page of our school's foolscap now. well my handwriting isn't big anyway. and oh ya, bouncing tigger's back in CSS to teach. so far, he's been called Mr. G, Ajam, Gerald, Michael, Donkey, Burglar. what other names? orange-freak? hahas. somehow he loves the colour orange. that is. well, now i'm off to post for yesterday and today in another one.
PS. this is friday's thing.

i failed once again @ 6:54:00 pm

okay now i come post. today woke up at 8plus. then cleaned up and ate. after that wondered around the house and went ironing my uniform. yeah, just for school. then off i went to school. was walking slowly since i wasn't looking forward to it anyway. yeah, then suddenly saw peifang at the gallery outside there. hahas. somehow that motivated me to walk faster. but i don't know why. i feel so strange. feel like i can't blend in. people were carrying their report books, chit-chatting away, and laughing. treasuring the last day of school. but i was feeling nothing. i don't feel anything. and peifang kept talking to me about giraffes. saying they had been absent in the zoo for 11years i think. and saying that giraffes are back in the zoo. i don't know why. i feel so down today. but anyway, after the stupid thing which was held in the hall, i went home straight. haiz. i have no mood to go to the food fair`05 at all. i don't feel like going. i don't wanna squeeze in the dark canteen. i wanted to be left alone. i feel so left out. i guess many would be celebrating now. but i feel like crying. i know i didn't do well. but why is people saying i've done well. haix. but i know for myself that i haven't done well. there really is room for improvement. but i don't know what i've been doing this past few months. hais. tomorrow is gonna be a bad day for me maybe. but i hope it turns out good. i hope what you guys said would turn out true, only if a miracle would come true and i could get good grades. why, why must you all think highly of me? i might let you all down. haix. i think i'll just wait for the results to be out tomorrow. but somehow, i have a hunch that my results aren't good. im not even nervous or excited or what. i feel normal but out of place. but anyway, i just hope a miracle will happen. Pray God please.

i failed once again @ 2:37:00 pm

hmm. school holidays starting tomorrow. yet i've gotta go to school. blehs. to collect the stupid report book. stupid. another waste of time again. it's like really true. getting into commonwealth secondary only taught me how to waste my time effectively and i learnt nothing else. don't feel like blogging anymore now.

i failed once again @ 12:12:00 pm

hmm. okae lah. i come post again. blehs. hmm. today morning i think when i was coming to school it was drizzling. and i think i came a little earlier. cos nothing to do at home. and now i don't know why everyone at MSN is signing in and out and all the things are popping up. it's irritating. stop it please. hahas. kaes let me continue with the day at school. assembled in hall for assembly and after that there was a competition. competition among the teachers and staffs. to see who is able to go up on stage and talk most. hahas. yeah, they said alot of different things which i've already forgotten by now. that was a blabbering contest, i suppose. then we went back to class. most of us were surprised by the reading quiz. i thought it was after school too. hahas. i didn't manage to finish the book. but it was okay, i suppose. then it was geography. 1 and a half hour geography straight till recess. but at least that wasn't the worst we had, the worst was 2hours straight. yeah, hmm went through workbook. and she took ms tan's lesson! ahh. i like ms tan's post examination lessons. i like the fun and interesting activities. i miss it. hahas. kaes. recess. then it was science. long time no lab lesson. yeah, but anyway, chapter 6 and 7 no practical lesson. but i miss practicals. hahas. it's been quite a long time since we've last done it. today's science lesson i was sort of unlucky. i was picked on to answer the question: "explain how the sperm gets into an egg." or something like that. yeah. then there were guys who were picked on before me. but they got it all wrong. and at first, she called "jingwen". so i didn't care and i went on doodling on the book. someone corrected her. blehs. hahas. then i no choice loh. hmm. then ruimin keep laughing then i look at her and my mind went completely blank. so i flipped through textbook to look at notes. then can't find. or maybe have in textbook, but it didn't catch my attention. but anyway, after a while, the answers suddenly came to my mind out of nowhere and i answered. then she said it was correct. and those 'wu liao' people were clapping. lols. that question difficult meh? why must clap when correct. lols. i see no need to do it. hahas. kaes. that was science. and she spent such a long time yet she haven't finished chapter 6. english we did filing. the lesson was gone then. and i was writing crap for the summary which we were supposed to do before. lols. then chinese. we only left half hour for chinese. cos mrs yeo left late and we left for hall at 12:45pm. lols. hmm. i think we only handed in chinese file, ying yong wen and composition. and qi'en said she lost her paper for the composition. and i think liang lu said her 'huo gai'. lols. and i was like laughing away. hahas. well, i didn't mean to laugh. but the way he said it really made me laugh. then we went to the hall for dental talk. only for secondary 2s. don't know why. but anyway it's good. we skipped IPW. and we were dismissed earlier. lols. hmm. then went out eat. and later went back to find liang lu. i was finding his extension no. then found it. but i saw a paper there. i curious. then pick up and see. it was the edusave deduction form. but then it's different. some souls went to write Pupil's name: Dorothy Tay Bee Hian and Parent/Guardian Signature: Mummy Tay. hahas. so funny. who's mummy tay? then i called liang lu. no one answered. later peifang told me he outside. lols. kaes. NYAA. very funny. hahas. we kept hitting the balls to people's leg or not hit to the table beside where the students were helping to peel onion and all those for tomorrow's food fair, i suppose. hahas. kaes. very funny loh. then the warming up that run i keep telling peifang about mummy tay. asking who it is. then i saw the teacher running. and so i cursed to slip. hahas. then end up become peifang and i laughing and running slowly. later dismiss le went to find mr lim. hmm. then asked him and he said any kind of windbreaker also can, don't need according to school rules. phew. hahas. and he said the track pants also a little bit colour also can, cause difficult to buy mah, within short time. hmm. then went back le. raining again. hahas. went back then i first watched television. then later i ended up sleeping until 6:30pm and i woke up. father was bathing. so i asked to try the can opener. i succeeded but i spoilt the can opener. hahas. then my father go repair while i bathe. hahas. kaes. think that's all about today.

tomorrow is Food Fair 2005. blehs. im broke. someone spare me money please. i feel like buying the bears. hahas. kaes. hmm. anyway, i don't wanna spend much there. im alone. hahas. only go school for that stupid seminar. blehs. and mrs lim walk very funny loh. her way of walking. then me keep imitating the way she walked just now. open leg very big. hahas. then me and peifang kept laughing. hahas. then i went to demonstrate on the staircase. and i said maybe she won't do it. cause her skirt might tear if she does so. hahas. and yeah, anyway she don't know about the flag day yet. lols. byes. Yin Cha Yang Cuo start le!

i failed once again @ 8:28:00 pm

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i failed once again @ 8:14:00 pm

hmm. today rained heavily. then got damn drenched. soggy shoes and socks. lols. wrinkled feet. wet shirt, wet skirt, wet bag. lols. assembled in hall and also reading period. but today's reading period sort of became lecturing period. hahas. mr singh was talking about the stupid seminar which we have to attend on friday. and im alone. blehx. people with their parents and me alone. im a loner. so lonely. hahas. then mrs lim was blabbering. forcing out all the stuffs she could think up of about the recycling corner out of her mouth after saying the do's and dont's. well, but luckily mr singh had something else to say. so we were saved from that blabbering. anyway, i think she's sick or what. her voice doesn't sound normal. hmm. then we were supposed to report to incubator for health screening. but eventually no one knew about the time slot for our class except for the staff, i suppose. then we went back to class for CME. and we did the coding thing. to decipher. that's the MENSA thing. yeah, 1 period went past. science. ms lim came in to tell us we were supposed to go for health screening at 8am. in the end, 2/6 went first and so we had to go at 9:15am which clashed with our IT lesson. so i suppose no IT test. at first, IT test was before examinations, postponed to after examinations, and now? i have no idea when is our IT test then. class of slackers. slackerous class. hahas. hmm. health screening shows nothing wrong with me. and while we were waiting yi hui was playing the piano. playing Tong Hua and other songs. no need to change spectacles. well, it doesn't make that much sense to change my spectacles so soon. and i've also nothing wrong with my back. hmm. went back to class to waste time. 10am! recess. kaes. then after recess went back to class for maths. no maths test on common errors made afterall. ahh, but i want the test. i wanna give it a try. hahas. but anyway, it's good to try it out. since it's not counted, yeah then we can learn from our mistakes. but instead, we did the worksheet on changing the subject of a formula. well. haven't finished till now. left 2 questions which i don't know how to do. but i'll try. hahas. i promise not to slack anymore. i will work hard. cos this time round i slacked so hard during normal days and mugged during examinations. and i've nothing proud to say about my results. niche. guess it should be changed to team building. hmm. we played cannonball. and i don't know why peifang had to come to our group then ended up becoming 8 girls that group and 10 girls this group. then we had to run longer distance. blehs. it's team building mah. kae lah. mother tongue. told us about our holiday homework and we formed our groups for the project. yeah, then he also showed us the past years project. wonderful! sorry, my vocabulary isn't that great. pardon me if you think i should have used a word with a stronger extent on the project. well, art. strolled to art room. then saw amanda and a group walking back to class. and a group walking to art room. no idea where to go. we are right at the T-junction, as jasmine says. lols. then later jasmine and a group was walking away from art room and asked us if there's art or where should we be going now. yeah, then i told her amanda walked back to class. and later after that, we decided to go back to class. and amanda appeared. lols. what nice timing. but at least it saved our time for going back to class and back to art room again. ended up we have art. but she was talking to other pupils. and she only wanted those with As for art to stay behind. yeah, but i extra. then she said my painting was okay, and i could paint. so i ended up taking the chair too. hahas. hmm. then no geography i guess. then go back class and go home le. hmm. then saw my senior at the void deck there. and she told me to go for CCA. she said it was a short one, just telling us about the holiday activities. but in the end i still went back home. i slacked again. i can't believe it. i just told myself i wanted to work hard. hmm. hahas. does this sound stupid? im not trusting myself. blehs. guess this was just about the day at school. slept at home throughout the afternoon. and i've got to go. heya, there's IPW tomorrow. which i suppose will be boring. hahas. a fact that can't be changed no matter what. lols. yeah, byex. gotta go. and i spent half an hour posting this entry. =D

i failed once again @ 7:31:00 pm

FORGET ABOUT BLOGGING. DAMN! TYPED OUT SO NEATLY ALL THE WONDERFUL THINGS THAT HAPPENED TODAY AND ....... LOADING...... CONNECTION TIMED OUT! SUAY. KAOS. NOT BLOGGING LE.

i failed once again @ 3:40:00 pm

woo. so fast 9pm le. blahs. can do nothing le. cos i wanna go watch Yin Cha Yang Cuo. hahas! addicted to that show bahs. hmm. tomorrow got the health screening le. hais. blogging last minute now. aiya. just remembered tomorrow need to bring chinese file. but then.. that day after chinese lesson i don't know lend who le. think is kornelius or who. blahs. blehs. forgot le lah. eh, forget about it lah. nevermind. hmm. just now came home during break. yeah, then got drenched on the way to school. gawd. damn wet. lols. printing art report right now. going off soon. Byes! tomorrow got IT test, thursday got reading quiz. life is stressful. but nevermind. hahas. i will ADAPT de. hees =D

i failed once again @ 9:04:00 pm

hmm. now in IT lab for IT. nothing to do. can't use internet except for AsknLearn.com blehs. that's such a boring site. hahas. whatever. we missed 2 PE lessons le. 2 times in a row. but nevermind lah, since we still have NYAA recreation mah. haix. Mr G's back to CSS again. lols. bouncing tiger. what was his full name again? anyone can repeat. hahas. just now Mrs. Yip was reading his name and it sounded like such a long name. hahas. hmm. friday still gotta come back for stupid seminar. wah kaos. sianz. wish can skip loh. argh, stupid! later NYAA pushed up le, to 2:30pm or so. yeah, then 2h to wander around. nothing to do. blehs. another waste of time. so that's why i say come to CSS only learn how to waste time effectively. hais. wonder where to go later. the school's surroundings so sian de. nothing to go. nothing to play. haix. now "they" having PE. lols. hmm. yay! today no MT, no Liang Lu's lesson. but i saw him cycling to school. -.-'' aiya. don't blabber anymore le lah. that Ms Sri checking on us liaox. sians!

i failed once again @ 8:02:00 am

im so bored. nothing to do. but haven't completed chinese composition yet. not sure if we need to complete the 2003 practice paper. i haven't done the comprehension part, so if need to do, im gonna lose interest or whatever. hmm. woke up and went westmall. went there alone to meet my brother and parents. so tired. saw my brother. then waited like hell for my parents. it took them so long to get to westmall on the motorcycle. that's why i don't like going out with them, but anyway, i haven't gone out with them for quite long, so i just went. and anyway, my mother said she was gonna buy the spectacle band cos there's quite a number of spectacle shops around westmall. yeah, so i went. then in the end, she did not buy it. but anyway, she went all the way to jurong west to buy it for $2. well, cheap huh? travelling from westmall to jurong west. lols. bet she's too free anyway. i won't bother going that far just to get a small little pathetic spectacle band anyway. everyone's so restless now. yeah, nothing to do. nowadays, i don't even feel like coming online, well maybe online just to blog. cos i really find it so boring. no one online to chat with. nothing to do online. the most i do on the computer nowadays are listening to songs. but always listening to the same songs make me so bored too. and holidays are here soon. well, maybe im gonna be homesick. being cooped up at home the whole day. maybe not the first week. but we still have to submit our IPW 1st draft on 8th June which clashes on my brother's POP. anyway, i don't know why. everytime i get a chance to go to his camp, it will clash with something. but this time round, actually i knew about his POP date. but i forgot about it. but nevermind, he's only got 2 tickets anyway. so i guess i won't have the chance to go too. i don't know why, but ever since after examinations, i feel as if days pass so quickly. but it's just only like 1 week after examinations. strange. this week's not gonna be a nice one, i suppose. staying back on tuesday and thursday. but anyway, i have nothing to do at home too. anyone knows of any nice websites please tell me. im really gonna be bored to death. the first week of the June holidays is filled with NYAA and remedial activities. and then after that, i suppose we will rush our IPW. and then we need to do the NYAA Art activity. i don't know how long it's going to take us. but anyway, i hope we can finish that as soon as possible. and in the meantime while doing all those things, we can't forget about the stack of holiday homework and also the english project. at least it's individual work, which means we can take our own time to complete it, but the problem lies with that i don't know how to make a brochure. lols. and then i still need to revise. but anyway, i doubt im doing it. yet, i have to revise. as in really. all my grades really deproved alot. hmm, think this is gonna be the busiest holiday i've ever had. well, no choice. but im so free now. with nothing to do. nevermind, im off to find more things to do. reading blogs, listening to songs, singing, and what else? 3 day holiday is already making me so bored. and what about 1 month holiday. i can't picture it nor imagine it. just hope time would pass quickly as i complete my work.

i failed once again @ 2:40:00 pm

so boring. lols. nothing to do now. my younger cousin is sometimes like irritating. especially on the net. asking me stuffs all about neoprints and telling me all about them. i think she's really like spending way too much money on neoprints anyway. i think she have already spent like seventy odd dollars on neoprints since the start of the year already. it's like so amazing. yeah, and she's only primary 6. she ain't even focusing on her PSLE at all. and she's even thinking of getting into bukit panjang government high. well, it's not like i despise her or what. but i think it's really time she starts revising. she is clever but she doesn't want to study at all. anyway, it's her life, she can live it and decide for herself. hmm. next week ain't gonna be nice. tuesday no CCA, yeah it rocks! but there's NYAA till 5pm. well, NYAA is fine but i just hope the timeframe won't be so long. then wednesday, there's Niche and Health Check Up. hmm.. are the secondary 4s gonna get their injection? lols. anyway, it's not funny, since everyone will get it. and i heard it's quite pain. then thursday there's NYAA again. ahh well. great week, yeah, it fulfills the requirement of the exercising thing. i wanna go swimming. haven't went swimming for long. hope the camp can come faster! i don't know why. but i just love camps. think they just rock. it's so fun. hahas. hmm.. should have bought JJ's third album the time i went to 'sembawang' with peifang. hahas. now i regret buying all the not nice de song. hahas. and it costed like $20.50 whereas the JJ's one only costed like $17.95. hais. yeah, that's the reason why i'm broke. im saving up all my money. trying not to eat outside but always going back home to eat. what else to say? well, anyway this post is just for nothing. it has nothing to do. it's just sustained writing i supposed. topic is now. yeah, things on mind now. hahas. i really have nothing better to do. read ruimin, wenbin, yihui, peifang all their blog. went to friendster. ahh, what else can i do? lols. don't feel like doing IPW anyway. hais.

i failed once again @ 5:19:00 pm

hmm. vesak day today. nothing to do. woke up then started watching tv. watched the channel 5 that show in the morning. very funny show. i forgot what's it's title but it goes something like national blah blah vacation. then later i watched water boys. then young force. then nothing to do. slept. i didn't wanted to sleep anyway, but was really too tired that i eventually dozed off. hahas. later my mother came back then press doorbell. yeah, that's what she does all the time. so i woke up lah. then i went to bathe. she said wanted to go people's park but i don't want to. then she kept calling me go bathe. then i bathe. and she told me suddenly no one wants to go out. yeah, stupid! nevermind, now here i am playing the computer and listening to songs. rocks. but anyway i don't understand why everytime me and my brother makes spectacles, after a few weeks my brother will say he needs another spectacle because of this and that. yeah, then he gets it done the next day. so unfair. i tell my mother i want things then she say ok lor go out see have or not. blehs. BIAS. yucks! ER XIN

i failed once again @ 4:38:00 pm

hmm. today woke up at 8plus. then later go out with mum to eat breakfast. then i walk to school. hmm. stupid. i didn't know saturdays go school must sign in de. so ma fan. then anyhow sign in loh. alot maths olympiad people. then i walked around looking for charmaine, binuan and celisse. then tried going library there. library locked. go computer lab, all entrances there locked. lols. high security sia. later nothing to do liao anyhow walk around school. then at the slope there saw liang lu riding his bicycle. ... lols. hmm. actually wanted to see the sms loh. cos no teacher around anyhow take out won't get caught de. hais. later he asked me why i come school loh. then i told him for ipw. then he asked why other members not here. then he tell me call them... lols. wu liao. hahas. he just now take out his handphone.. hmmm.. quite old de. maybe older than mine, i guess. haix. later he go away liao then i walk up the slope. lols. actually wanted to see sms lah. then the maths olympiad i think they released or what. then nevermind loh, anyway saw charmaine and celisse come le. then we go take lift. hahas. still can't get to computer lab then no choice loh, come my house do. then so tired. hmm.. charmaine very hardworking. very enthu like that. then me and celisse like keep slacking or what. hahas. well, anyway i think this is one of the best meetings we had. yeah, we at least managed to do things loh. today i very happy wor! =D not just because the IPW but IPW also a part which made me happy though i was so tired. school rocks! hehes

i failed once again @ 1:54:00 pm

fine day at school, i suppose. chinese. we did nothing much. mr liang wanted to log in to school cockpit to let us see our results, but then cannot connect to the site. then he showed us our marks. hmm, then later chang horng wanted 'peng you' so he played for us. the song is okay, but the problem lies with the mtv. why must take so close-up shot of him? hahas. then people were laughing away. then it was maths. self evaluation thing for 15-20 minutes and then we got into groups of 3-4 to discuss maths paper 2 corrections. we finished early and so we started playing bingo. then it was geography. and bi nuan kept asking mrs lim whether she got 'wu ding' or not. hahas. i don't know if she's crazy over that song or what. she was like looking for people who have that song. then she was singing tong hua throughout all the lessons i guess. then it was recess. nothing much. recess over le then i felt like buying biscuits. then i went to buy. went to dt room outside there eat. then teacher so late come. so i finished it already. hmm qi'en kept wondering what's inside that big blue recycling bin. and she kept looking inside. bless her to fall inside, so she can have a real nice view of the contents inside. yeah, then later jasmine and odelia went around saying that qi'en wears ... lols. nothing much. later mr soh came. then we went to the air con there. nothing much. played 'my 10cents'(translated in english). later changed to 'zhong ji mi ma'. i don't know 'zhong' 2 times bah. then later bi nuan keep saying 'ah beng boyfriend' ... lols. later mr soh give us see the results. think he helped me pass loh. i 41 for CA. then he give 57 to help me pass. i get C6. think lowest leh. ah, nevermind lah. got pass can liao. my work so disgusting, i rather not take it. i didn't claim it. just let him throw away suan le. so nan kan. then PC. get the reply slip for meet the parents session. 8am-4pm. ah don't think parents will come. eh but nevermind lah. holidays can right? but then i doubt she will take leave loh. then saturday not sure can or not. never ask. lols. nevermind lah, she don't go then i don't get report book only mah. hmm then later talk talk talk with peifang. before she went for hmt. then later she got to go liao then i go back home loh. then watched 'just married' wah lao very funny lah. but i slept for half hour. hahas. too sleepy and tired lah. nothing to do now. blahx. not sure when doing IPW leh. tomorrow? but where? ahh whatever. i didn't ask too. i forgot. lols. then i just found out we're handing in 1st draft on someday. and that day clashes with my brother's POP. wah whatever. just see first loh. coming liao then decide more lah. then gotta bia ipw liaos.

i failed once again @ 3:57:00 pm

today was damn boring. geography 2h straight, can't pay attention. had to fidget around. no break. too boring. wanted to sleep. then it was cme. that story was quite nice. and fun too. yeah, but i didn't listen to her at first and i was just looking around. hahas. hmm. recess. then science. went through the paper. finally finished going through, well, that took like 4 periods is it? science lessons will resume only on next tuesday. i guess most of them are interested. lols. she gave us our CA + SA scores. and i got A2. damn. yeah CA was 90. then combined was 82.4 and then SA was 64.5 cool eh? i made such a great deprovement. i can only regret loh. but regret got no use lah. then english. i don't know how we actually managed to spend half an hour putting all the worksheets in our file and submitting it. yeah, no filing. hmm, slow and steady huh? lols. then i think it was chinese. we went through the paper. then nothing much. ipw was in library. had to squeeze. then we go squeeze loh. then later the mrs loh say form another row. then i a lil bu shuang lor. people keep calling us go in front. so irritating.

i failed once again @ 7:51:00 pm

sianx. wednesday. got NYAA recreation. got the pack list for the camp today. nothing to comment about it. today raining. morning assembly in class and went to gallery after that for NYAA camp briefing. went back to class for CME. got back our results. bad! then it' was science. nothing much to comment. it's the worst times i had. quarrelled with parents yesterday night over the rights to use computer for IPW. i'm giving up habbo permamnently. until streaming is over. i don't care. my parents just won't understand. they care more about their work. they don't even bother about me. only care to scold me when my results were out. none of them wants to attend the meet-the-parents session. anyway, so what if they go? they will probably sit there idling around or my mother will sleep. and i'm not so hardworking this time round, i'm not going to persuade them to go. the teachers don't give report book also nevermind. i don't care. i don't need it anyway. all my parents will say is nothing. yeah, you guys say my maths is good. but my parents don't think so. the full-mark for my first common test was nothing. my mother didn't say anything. i don't need their sarcastic comments anyway. all i can hope for now is good results for chinese. yeah, so what if i get good results. go back show my father and the techno music will start playing again. nice huh? probably that's how my brother got hearing problem. anyway, they don't even bother. they only care about my brother. that time he fainted just before my birthday, i was having fever, but no one cared. they were all attending to my brother. and he was supposed to return to camp the next next day. yeah, i was at home then. my parents at work. yeah, i received like up to 5 or 6 calls from both of them for me to wake my brother. they don't even care about the troubles they had given me. they didn't care. my friends aremore to me. they mean much more. like peifang, accompanying me all the day. and qi'en was always there to help me when i was sick. yeah, all this. they cared much more than my parents. my parents want me to get good results. but when i get good results, they didn't care at all. when i get bad results, techno music will start playing automatically. this all just sucks alot. i really feel like leaving for good.

i failed once again @ 9:16:00 am

resumed normal school hours. no idea if it's great. lessons pushed up 1hr that is 2 periods. yeah, ms sri wasn't informed, i guess. and we sat there wasting time once again. science came. before i post the rest, i just wanna say to all those who knows of the existence of my blog: Please don't ask me stupid questions like how much did you get? and whatever that's irrelevant. i just wanna concentrate on studies. don't come bothering me. and yeah, my SIM card has only $4.22 left. SMS me all you want but i may not reply or even bother to see your messages. only if i think it's urgent then i may reply. yeah okaes. think this is it. got back our science paper. 24/30 for MCQ. i thought it was great. well, for my capability. but bad news came simultaneously after this. 24/40 for B and 16.5/30 for C. yeah, afterall, what's that excitement for? i shouldn't have been so happy afterall. what's so good for me to be happy about? a B4 for science MYE? that's just not it. anyway, i bet it's gonna affect alot in my SA results slip. yeah yeah, 90 for CA. 64.5 for SA. my mother go meet-the-parents session let's see what ms lim gotta say about it. what the heck have i been doing man? oh god. 25.5! great. i just gotta improve. recess. english. what can i say? i thought my only problem with english was paper 1. but i was wrong, really wrong. ah, think my father's gonna get a english tuition teacher for me soon. 15/30 for letter writing. it has never been this bad. there's just gotta be something wrong with me. 36/65 for paper 2 excluding summary. 9 for comprehension cloze and 3 for synthesis. it's really that bad. i just have to believe it. nothing can be done to change it. 9 for comprehension cloze! the worse in my life so far. normally i would get like at least 14 or 15. and 3 for synthesis! maybe a 4 or 5 will do. im just so sad. even with the summary, i can only get 51 for maximum that is. but it's not easy to ace summary. 56/80 for SA2 english paper 2 last year. that's how life went for me. things get worse and worst. but it's not like i slacked. ask around me, at least 75% will say i didn't slack. it's just my capability, i guess. geography. maybe that would be better. but in the end, i still got a B4. 63.5/100 lucky for me that's the last geography paper this year, or i guess very soon i will be failing it. maths! i thought this was the paper where i would be doing better. but sadly, the results still disappoints me. don't go around thinking that 78 is good. that may be good for you, but it's a totally different thing for me. i need at least 80. that's my aim. out of the 4 paper we got back, i've only scored 1 A1 and 2 B4 and 1 unknown. that's really gonna affect me tons. alot! afterall, my last hope left is mother tongue. and i really and seriously do hope to get an A1 for the paper. i'm just so disheartened. at least when i got back the diagnostic paper, Mr G said it was quite well done considering the fact that we've not been taught and told us not to be disheartened. but now, it's the MYE. this kinda results. can i be happy? never can i be happy until i get streamed to triple science. haiz, the most i can do right now is to fake a smile. fake it! but i really don't want to be forced to put on a fake smile. there's nothing that i'm happy about. the more i think about it, the more i wanna cry. it's not like i'm scared or what, but i really am hurt by these kinda crap results.

i failed once again @ 2:02:00 pm

today went school for NYAA. at first is boring talk. then later start playing liao, i rather not play. hahas. after NYAA went to lot 1. was 11plus. then we went around looking for CDs of cheaper prices. peifang went around comparing cos she broke. hmm then sembawang sold $18.90 so she bought. diao~ 5cents she also wanna save. lols. then i bought the idol dramas that CD. is song de lah. $20.50. lols. hmm then went for lunch at Mac. went to 4th level take neoprints. ooh. today i took 4 times. yeah, met my cousin and her friends. hahas. altogether today i spent $37.80 if i`m not wrong. wah seh. broke sia. hahax.

[[ when is mum returning. blahs. ]]
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today someone birthday. hahas

i failed once again @ 3:53:00 pm

hmm. today woke up 10:30am. don`t call me pig ah. cos i only sleep at 2:30am. whoa. long time never sleep till so nice liao. from 2:30am sleep all the way until 10:30am then wake up. hahas. my father don`t know what time sleep. but as i know, he 1:30am like that still awake loh. today 1:30am like not much people online liao. nothing to do. so sianx. then go offline loh. hais. then later don`t feel like sleeping. so i went to read village by the sea. then i started reading from the beginning in my air-con room. so relax. then read until like damn sian loh. so go sleep. cos nothing to do. haix. so nice to sleep. in air-con. lols. it`s not like long time no sleep in air-con room lahx. but it`s like i seldom switch on my room air-con loh. hmm wake up le no breakfast. my father went jurong west buy. then i watch channel U. lols. then watch until 1pm. later i very guai. i go read village by the sea. until read 2 chapters ah. still at chapter 3 now. lols. hmm then come online le. then grandma call. call to tell me my cousin`s results. lols. say her english is ok, but chinese not that good. then her maths 52. .. lols. primary 1 nia. then just now i watch channel U hor, got alot the shows commercial mah. then very knn like that loh. like almost 80% of the ad i saw on channel U hors, all is saying that the teenagers very bad. kao bei. adults very good meh? adults smoke, drink, gamble, divorce. this call good ah? everytime their those shows use to 'zhen dui' the teenagers nia. f*** off loh. say we bad. -.-'' we bad then why care about us. if we that bad hor, then they give up on us liao loh. still care about us for what? everytime say things like teenagers got attitude problems, very difficult to bring up, very defiant, very interested in that thing then get AIDS. it`s not like all the people that suffer from AIDS in singapore is teenagers loh. no adults meh? they like that say us. then it`s like they`ve never been teenagers before ah. like they role model loh. who started dying hair? who invented things to grab our attention? isn`t it all adults? cb. what do adults think they are? they think they can control the world is it? they clever lah, they superb. then do wrong things in front of us young people, we innocent, we don`t know, we go do, then in the end they blame us, but have adults ever reflected and asked themselves this question: 'who was the one that lead us to the wrong path?' they always realise in the end that it`s their own fault and then blame us. that`s their thinking. they think everything we do is wrong. everything they do is correct. we have no freedom. we have no say. we have no rights. i don`t know what makes them think they`re so great.

i failed once again @ 2:34:00 pm

today is another sianx day for me and i think i`m gonna be on computer for like half of the day - that is probably in the morning. yeah, my mother reached Bangkok yesterday which is like around 11plus or 12am. bet she` s still sleeping right now while i`m posting this. yeah, go Bangkok to shop, so they probably wake at 9plus, a little early before the malls open. today i no breakfast. ahhh. eating biscuits now. still very hungry. ahh. lunch ownself settle again. whoa. sian. monday actually said liao wanna go JP before NYAA cos i scared i late. so go with peifang better. then i think they change to 8:30am. wah lao. sians. yesterday friday the 13th i couldn't blog. something wrong with blogger. then i kena ban 2h on habbo. hais. now it`s raining. nothing for me to do. none of the habbo radios are online or playing non-stop hits. ahhhhhh. ultimate boredom. i want to come online. but i want to do nothing. someone help me with this please. and i`m going crazy, now i like to say the phrase, "who call you do that thing so many times?" actually is used to say my habbo friend which is also my ex-classmate. then now i too addicted to that phrase. even using to others le. lols. and those people were asking me, "what thing?" lols. i`m too bored. so i did that. someone accompany me go shopping, go play, go library please. i really very very sian. i`m stuck at home. yesterday, today, tomorrow, monday. ahh. right until school resumes. and my mother told me my RV cousin got 52/50 for his maths exam not sure paper 1 or paper 2. then chinese get 92/100. yah, he clever lah. i stupid lah. cannot ah. stupid RV people, all like very show-offy. my cousins. my ex-schoolmates. seriously, i`m kinda starting to hate them. it`s like so damn irritating. RV, so? i don`t know why RV people change once they enter the school. acting like they don`t know you. asking you for exam marks. is different school. got different standards lah. damn them. yeah, and i haven`t seen this kinda paper before. i said my cousin got 52/50 for his maths paper. yah, i can`t beat him loh. that one not typo. is cause the setter who is so stupid set this paper. questions worth of 50marks. then later add a bonus 2-mark question which is optional. yeah. my cousin got it right. then nothing is wrong in the paper. so 52. kaox. like that also can. what the heck. then the other paper get full marks also then become 102/100 ? siao. the teacher who set their maths paper obviously has no brains. wah lao. hope his other maths paper fail ah. then that 52 now very nice. get back other paper go cry liao. argh. i know i very evil. but who call them show off. want show off come say to me can liao mah. don`t need call your mother tell my mother then call my mother tell me. wu liao. i really no mood loh. everytime exams their paper very fast get back. get back liao then go show off. fun meh? i feel very pissed off by their stupid attitude loh. show off got what use? think they`re world`s most intelligent kids is it? hahas. last time he in DLSS results very good hor. i in JPS results very bad hoh. PSLE he got HMT still win me only 6 marks. who call him show off. wah now damn pissed off. stupid habbo. go every FF game wait 40mins. then later i haven`t play yet. they say close. at least say earlier loh. kaox. ahh. no one online for me to chat with. now is 8:48 am le. mummy still sleeping bah? hahas. ooh. mama wake up le bah? 9:30pm. wahhs. so good worx. hope she`s fine. must enjoy. hope she come back soon. =D yeah, and me and peifang got telepathy. that day on the mrt train. i forgot what we said. at the same time. then that day in canteen we both say "hen re leh" at the same time. then i go crazy laughing le. then annie lim walk here walk there. i laugh non-stop. sorry if i keep repeating myself ah. cos i editing this post at 12:22pm. yeah, my mother`s shopping. i suppose. so sad. everyone`s at k-radio sorta ignoring me. whoa. so petty idiots. yeah. RV-ians very kao bei. like K-Radio people. the same species. if only this species would extinct. hahas. lols. wah kaox. aiya i haven`t eat lah. now 12:54pm. lazy go buy. lazy go cook. AHHHHHHH! ryanmin on habbo sucks lah. keep kicking. knnccb damn loh. don`t surprise i use so foul language also. cause i say liao. i in bad mood. then lucky i only one at home. no one piss me off. haix. someone`s so impatient on Habbo. yah, mean no harm lah. but is true loh. i bad mood so don`t come piss me. msn i also don`t feel like replying liao. i rather appear offline. yeah, habbos and RV-ians pissed me off. hate `em to the core. ah, whatever. then monday gotta report in PE attire at 8:30am in parade square. yah, another great thing. goddamn. why`s it so irritating. stupid NYAA. why keep changing. yah, NYAA affects mostly secondary 2 pupils and now examination period. then stupid teachers go talk about NYAA things when most secondary 2 pupils not there. ah, what the hell. then gonna blame us if we don`t know. it just suckx loh. tmd. very fun ah. or they stupid. they don`t know. everything`s going wrong. just went wrong right after the examinations. handphone sot. fridge siao. boredom. mother overseas. brother in ns camp. yah, what kinda life is this. i rather it`s still examinations anyway. it would be way better. at least nothing went wrong during the examination period. now exams over. we gotta do IPW. back to IPW. i rather exams. no one wants to do IPW. it`s like everyone`s still slacking. including me. seriously i very foul mood. so if anyone decides to come and ask me stupid questions or irritate me, just forget about it. i think habbo`s way better than my friends anyway. at least they don`t irritate me asking me stupid questions. yeah. whatever. i want my ma come back soon. ahh. missing her. just now dad bought dinner for me. breakfast and lunch never eat. lolx. me too lazy. hais. life after the exams really suck alot. just hoping my exam results won`t suck as much. or that RV cousin will go off boasting around in front of me. and of course is very irritating and i always get pissed off. it`s so a stupid thing to do, and rather childish i suppose. it`s not like he`s PRO in the world or what. yeah, 3 more days to 5th month hc. lols. credits finishing. although i bought alot that day. can`t control myself. JUST DON`T IRRITATE ME TODAY!

i failed once again @ 7:21:00 am

exams arent over yet. 1 more day. gotta bear with it. ahh. so sad. stupid Habbo. i hate Saffron. eew. lols. i take part in so many competitions yet i never even win 1. what the heck. im not that free loh. im so unlucky. Saffron's so idiotic. 29 people participate. 10 winners. i never win. yuck. everytime let platodino win contest. then he everything also have. rares. so unfair. what the. maybe platodino's and Saffron's account be hacked. -.-'' quite impossible lahx. but i really looking forward to that day. it really suckx. i hate them. cooking lunch now. =D lolx. aiyoh. i die le. whole day playing computer worx. but lucky exams ending.

i failed once again @ 11:59:00 am

blehx. let's talk about today. had science exam. 1half hour. i thought it was so short. argh. yeah. i finished within 45mins. half the allocated time. heard that got people cheat. aww. bad. lols. not sure. yupx, cme. i flipped through that book. =D im so hardworking. a few girls were caught late for cme. yeah. that teacher was real strict. but as a defiant class, i think it was the worse teacher we met. lols. ivan was quite daring. saying lame things in the midst of the exam and doing things which might make people think he's cheating. lols. he's even talking back to the teacher? lols. after the exam. stayed awhile. listen to liang lu talk. and then me and peifang went loiter around void deck. doing nothing. we finally decided to go JRL after a very precise decision we've made. off we go, went popular first. did nothing there. then strolled to JRL. read mags. went back. came home saw computer on but no one using. immediately hooked on habbo. brother made lunch for me. =D then he let me play computer. so good. lols. nothing much happened. bought teens. got wilber pan poster. =D -.-''

i failed once again @ 8:19:00 pm

lalas; hello blog. lols; felt like long time never come blog ler. hehex. not free. hmm.. 2 more days. i would describe it. 2 more days to end of exam stress. no more exam stress. oh, how great can it get! that's gonna be great. aww. just could be better if my father's going overseas with my mother as well. then i can have the whole house to myself. great way to release stress yeah? lols. great idea. but can't be done. 1 more art and 1 oral to go. relax time. break time. lols. no revision needed for this 2. major exams all over. cool? but somehow i feel like it's so fast. i thought it was just the beginning of the year 2005. now it is the mid year i suppose. and very fast, the year's gonna end. 2/5 will be separated. lols. haix. i don't wanna think about the sad things that are about to come. how bad can it get. no exams tomorrow. cool. should be going bugis junction on thursday i suppose. lols. i want a 3230. it looks so cool. video, MP3, bluetooth, camera. oh. all that i want. i want it! but i doubt i can get it. $398 with plan. too expensive i suppose. how am i ever gonna get it? even if my parents allow, oh $398. borrow from loan shark? lols. and i want a Zen Micro. yeah, it's cool too. somehow, i don't like iPOD. i don't know. perhaps because of its size. yupx, just came back from dinner. well, habbo-ing now. currently still can't get the prepaid cards. called 4 stores today. all out of stocks. probably going somewhere further on thursday after oral. im loving habbo. HS and K. both their radios rock. free listening to song. wah. lols. i want alot of things. i want <> <> <> <> <> <> whoa. so many things. im greedy. mwahahax. =D lols. may exams be over quickly. normal school days rawk. the year has past so fast. i wanna change CCA too. that F&V is boring. no fun. lols. time passes slowly. haix. oh yah. i also want <> lols. im still dreaming in my own world. oh well. im gonna go broke soon. spending a few ten bucks on habbo cards. probably 36 or 45. and then 20 to top up SIM card. and holidays well, im gonna spend alot. i just spent 13 today. argh. lols. im pathetic.
-- byex --

i failed once again @ 7:04:00 pm

chinese exams is over. still left with 4 papers and 1 oral to go. can i survive it? hahax. yay! just found a new blogskin. hm. i like the bear. but it took me quite awhile to get the tagboard done cos of the background colour. yeah, today the invigilator was a little eager to give demerit points. he's looking out for people with long fingernails. stupid thing to do during exams. hmm. i wrote the 1st and 5th question for paper 1. not very sure bahx. hmm. argumentative essay again. lolx. im starting to sort of like argumentative essays and sort of hating narrative and descriptive essays. finally it's the weekend. relax. lolx. habbo's gonna release rollers soon. pretty cool. feel like buying it. but i'll see first. im not that free. mother's day coming again. haix. lols. still haven't find a famous artist's painting yet. gotta do it by this weekend. aww.

i failed once again @ 9:16:00 pm

argh. exams are here. started yesterday. unpleasant. couldn't get to sleep on tuesday night. was tossing and turning. and i finally got to sleep don't know at what time. waking up at times and getting back to sleep again throughout the night. until i had a nightmare, very bad one which scared me out of my wits. stared into space during that moment. tried to sleep, but couldn't. alarm went off and i was so glad. time to wake up. english exams was a little challenging, hard. currently hunting for blogskins and listening to wilber's song. haven't been on the computer for long. cos of exams. gotta study hard. today's geography exam is easy except for the structured questions. and what's the sahara thing? i bet no one from our class gets the answer correct. how evil of her. yuckx. anyway, i don't want her help. cos she can give them answers now, but what about during O-levels? hope they die a terrible death then. the world is always unfair. today had to stayed till 10:50am cos liang lu wanted to go thru the format with us. yeah, he has already done that before. nevermind, refresh memory. aww. how i wish my parents were at home, to ban me from using computer. im just not concentrating, not revising. tomorrow's chinese. life's just life. next monday is science? or maths. not very sure. none on wednesday. great. art and oral on thursday. free on friday. and the next weekend's got the best. mother in bangkok. brother in NS camp. yeah, wished my father weren't at home. i just wanna relax. aww. just want the whole house to myself. just wishing time would just pass faster during the exam period. exams are so boring. $5 for each A1. $2.50 for each A2. $1 for each B3, B4, C5, C6. -$10 for every D7, E8, F9. based on what my mother said. haix. june holidays is gonna be damn boring. homesick. feel like taking up badminton courses. but it's like so impossible. people around me. people i know. getting new phones. getting camera phones. haix. life is just so unfair. anyway, i don't think im able to get a new phone. at least not until after i've graduated from commonwealth that is. computer just lagged. argh. modern technology makes me feel like a nerd.

i failed once again @ 2:08:00 pm