Tuesday, June 28, 2005
haix. don't know whether to join art or library. after ipw today, went back class. felt strange, cause no girls. then later i realised need to take weight. then went down, but they say mr (ah) choo not there. then i went back class, still no girls. feel strange, then tried to read books but just can't concentrate. ahh! don't know what's wrong with me today. i just can't seem to concentrate on my own work, but in class teacher teaching still can concentrate. haix. during common test i was wondering which question to write, and normally i would like those sorta argumentative ones. so i actually chose question 4, but then after writing that i agreed with that point, i realised i couldn't even think of anything. what the heck loh. so i no choice, change to 1st question. then that one anyhow write, sure die lah. then is PE. actually thought take height and weight, but then still need run 3 rounds, but lucky lah, in school only. hahas. now i can't even do 1 IPU. lols. then later go back class for literature, but then mr singh never come. and then it was fire drill. yay! mighty fire drill, saved us from that stinking stench. eww yuckx. then walking down there me and peifang keep talking and ending up walk until other classes rows, but amanda kept pulling us back. hahas. then after that went back class bo liao for a few minutes before recess. later change shirt and suay suay class locked. hmm. go recess. then is mother tongue. hate liang lu. haix. but then i lucky loh. cos the passage read until cynthia le. then need 3 people sort of summarise and pick out the points. then althea done it. and later he say next one. i was like about to stand loh, but lucky he after a while say other people name. hahas. if not i also die. hmm then maths. got ritual de. ms shiyam says it does help. proven to work. but not proven on me. so, too ke xi loh. hahas. then ipw damn sianx. after school dismiss, no time for lunch. went art room to request join that as 2nd cca, but cannot, they say clash. haix. then must quit film and video. ahh! but i want join library too. hahas. =D haix. nothing to say. byex.
i failed once again @ 4:25:00 pm
Sunday, June 26, 2005
haix. school's reopened tomorrow. sho boredd. hahas. just now i was so into the homework mood that i actually managed to finish chinese composition 600plus words, english comprehension with summary, chinese newspaper review, chinese comprehension. whoa. can't actually believe it. most probably is because school reopen tomorrow. english should be nevermind, cause she don't collect the books often. hahas, so can slack a little. right now the homework i left with is the 2 summaries and 2 projects. ohmygod! gotta finish reading "xi you ji" within this week. somehow gotta force myself into the mood of reading. haix. scared tomorrow late for school, can't wake up. hahas. don't look forward to going back school lehs. so stress. this holidays ending i like it so much. beginning actually i was like sort of forced to do homework and cannot come online. then after camp i everyday morning play until evening. so angry with myself. then this last few days i tried to control myself. and i finished my homework happily, no stress! so great. hahax. haish. aiya. got scolded by mum yesterday. saying i used up my prepaid so fast. and it's like $18 only. 60 free sms. no free talk time. so damn lame. what the heck loh. people $20plus in a month also nevermind. blehx! sucks loh. then i said that. and she said different what. people rich mah, we poor mah. poor.. poor your head lah. poor then everytime go out still go buy useless things for what? buy useless things to show that we poor is it. siao! poor still buy 5 room flat. poor still move house last time. poor still anyhow spend money. poor still buy new phone. poor still switch on aircon everyday. poor still everytime buy clothes. poor still subscribe broadband. poor still keep using phone non stop. poor still keep fish at home. we indeed very POOR wors. too POOR until do all those DAMN NECESSARY things. haix.. perhaps my life isn't destined to be a good one. now, after she scolded me for using the handphone, which is lame, cos what for give me a phone if she scolds me when i use it, i don't feel like owning one anymore. firstly, it's so old, don't even have colour. then she scolds me when i use it, what kinda logic is that loh. scold people when they use handphone. -.- might as well take the phone and throw it away loh, i also don't mind at all, those kinda old phones, go rubbish chute maybe also can find a newer one. blehx. somehow my mother is one who must do something all the while when she's awake, haix. then if she never watch television or cook or play computer games or iron clothes or bathe or talk on phone or chat with father or read newspaper, then she will look for something to do. and that something always result in scolding me. haix. now school reopen hope is better.
i failed once again @ 9:10:00 pm
Saturday, June 25, 2005
today woke up at 10plus. no breakfast. bathe and changed into school uniform.. actually wanted to go the market for lunch, but heavy rain. so bought my lunch downstairs, and i saw kenneth. lols, think he didn't see me, no idea lahx. after that, mum told me peifang called. lols. and that qi'en! called her 3 times on her phone and she didn't reply. in the end, i called her house. lols. and she was coughing, i guess. later went to school, go art room slack. then went down check if bus here. then helped carry chairs. carry up the bus. then waited for ms ng to come. then the bus set off and went off to JE there. go there, slack at first. then qi'en very shuang.. lols. think wenbin went for tuition.. haix.. then me and peifang over there painting the legs of the chair, so pathetic. spent like 4h on it. blehx. completed. went wash up. it was 6plus. felt hungry. went buy coupon. later go back our stall, they said mrs teo gave them coupons and asked us what we want for dinner. but in the end, they never buy for us.. so we went to buy coupons again. what the heck. saw our school drama performed, and that stefanie sun sang songs. and that education minister. lols. then later walk around. 9plus went home. 10plus reached home. so tired. now 11plus. haix. legs very tired lahx. whole day squat and stand.. only sit for maybe 30mins. then everyone was over there asking how much is each chair. and we had to keep saying for auction. then they keep buying drinks for us, lols. and i drank 2 cans from them. ;o lols. free of charge. hmm. nothing else today le loh.
PS. Qi'en is married! But not sure who. I just noticed a ring on her 4th finger today. Oh my god. Can't believe it. But it's true. Just gotta accept the truth. Accept reality, don't hide away from it.
i failed once again @ 11:21:00 pm
Friday, June 24, 2005
hahas. today's ipw was damn fun. we were crapping loh. yeah, actually that probably helped lah. helped to raise our spirits. so we actually did quite alot today lah. hmm.. we go irritate people in msn bah. then laugh non-stop like that. like yesterday. keep laughing. lols. wondering tomorrow how. laugh again? ohmygod. then that's 3 day laughing. lols. hmm.. really gotta stop laughing lah. no stomach very empty like that. hahas. so hungry. never ate lunch. lols. we so guai, do project until fei jin wang shi sia. lols. we so hardworking horx. kaes lah. except for crapping part to keep our spirits up.
i failed once again @ 6:54:00 pm
haix. just watched the superstar results live telecast from the studios. hmm sugianto and darryl are out from the guys group. and jia xin and candy voted out from the girls group. hmm. didn't expected darryl to get booted out. cause like all the judges say he so handsome, maybe no girls want sms for him. hahas. so touching at the end. lols. looking forward to next week's episode. but school's reopened then. can't keep playing computer and watching television. hmm. nothing much bah. lols. i like that weijian. although he is blind, but his sings really well loh.
i failed once again @ 12:02:00 am
Thursday, June 23, 2005
lols. nice name. me and peifang just saw a hua hua gong zi at jurong regional library today, and we couldn't stop laughing. today go library, was supposed to do homework. in the end, we ate and laughed non-stop. hmm. at first is at 4th level eat fries, then melissa saw us. and she waved her hands, probably using alot of force, and we laughed. then after eating fries, got distracted by other people again. later i suggested go entertainment circle there, so i went there see got space or not. then no space, so i went to poh kim to see the vcds. lols. then peifang say she kept calling me, but then i cannot feel the vibration. lols. later go back library then saw her sms and calls. hahas. hmm. then later i suggested go down cafe there do homework. then we ordered egg sandwich, in case they call us out. lols. then we spent don't know how long eating it, cause very full. then later saw the waitress spill the drink on the customers, and we laughing away at her clumsiness. hahas. hmm. then later we finish le, actually started to do homework like that, then we look around, everything seems so funny to us, that we laughed non-stop. then peifang said we laugh laugh laugh too noisy, that's why the person sitting at the table beside us wearing headphones. lols. then later laugh at people eating. cause got 1 the man eat spaghetti so damn fast. like 5minutes. then we laugh. later we shift place. then we eat until very what, make until the floor around us very dirty. then i go kick the bread, but can't kick far. lols. then later saw a lady ordering 3 meals but not eating. then we thought how she was going to finish it. and kept laughing. then later her children came, and we realised. lols. then they finished and left. hmm.. then suddenly got a girl she sat at that table and ate very slow, then we thought how come people sit that table eat so fast, she eat so slow. then later i turn my head only, keep seeing her using so much force to cut the meat or don't know what, then use tissue wipe her bag, and then later saw a food from her plate fly out. hmm. later her mother come, then her mother took don't know what from the plate, it was something big. and she keep squeezing it into her mouth. then laugh again. then got a little girl dance around. then we saw the guy at the table beside us taking a 1L milo pack and opening it, so we laughed again, like so exaggerating. then later i keep seeing people squeeze things into their mouth cause it's too big. after all this, nothing funny in the cafe le. then i saw nicholas wearing a red flowery shirt. told peifang. and i suggested the name hua hua gong zi. lols. then we went laughing. then he went to the cd there look at things, so we keep saying stupid things that he's doing to make us laugh. then later he took a magazine and went up. later i saw him going to the children's section. hahas. then meanwhile, me and peifang decorating a banner for "Hua Hua Gong Zi's 1st ever Public Appearance" at Jurong Regional Library from 4:30pm to 5:30pm. well, i guess hua hua gong zi is a busy guy lah. then later we make until very exaggerating, we left at 5:30pm. then i went 333 the bus stop. so we went separate ways lah. then later at the bus stop waiting for bus, and i saw that hua hua gong zi, so suay. then i sms-ed peifang. and peifang replied saying that she wanted to ask if hua hua gong zi got follow me home. lols. then on the bus, i keep wanna laugh at him, but then i tried to bear with it. if not people think i'm crazy loh. hmm, this is just about today loh. laughing non-stop. and eating non-stop. poor mouth of mine. then later i came back watching television, halfway slept. then 8:30pm suddenly woke up, so i just watched the Superstar, hmm. later 11:30pm i wanna watch the superstar the results. is live telecast de =D hahas. but so late, but i must watch cos it's nice. lols.
i failed once again @ 9:24:00 pm
wah lao. ta ma de. yesterday i 12plus slept. and today morning purposely 8am wake up to do ipw website. i was still feeling so tired, but then i still woke up and did it loh. i didn't even played any games or what. i was like so concentrated on the website, trying to do it. then after 2h plus of hardwork, i finally managed to complete the layout and the links. and that stupid idiotic moronic fucking sucking cb-ing kb-ing dreamweaver went sot and everything's lost. gone. chee bye lah.. wah lao. things why always like that. i really in bad mood loh. our ipw really gonna fail lah. sucker! actually wanted to do yesterday night, but mum hogging everything in the living room. then so i purposely woke up early at 8am to do and i was so tired. FUCK la! if the computer's okay, either internet or dreamweaver not okay. why always like this. SUCKS. i really feel like crying loh. our group need to redo the whole written report loh. wah lao. and then our stupid mentor also never tell us written report need what. in the end we all wrong lah. redo whole thing, everybody happy lah. chee bye loh. go to hell lah. always hurry us to do things then never tell us single thing about written report. ta ma de. then we need to redo whole thing and print it out again. waste of paper and ink loh. then later going library with peifang. probably evening then return, or maybe meeting mum. and after that, come home. later mum hog computer then i die lah. kao bei lah. mum don't understand at all. her games are much more important than my stupid projects, to her. i really so damn angry lah. chee bye one. everything sot lah. now everything in this household really having problems lah. good lah. then with that stupid neighbour doing stupid things and increasing noise pollution, how to concentrate on work lah. kao bei. just wish everything was back to normal. like last time. IPW gave me so much problems. now i wanna cry over it. but crying just doesn't solve anything. and that stupid dreamweaver. SUCKS la. chee bye one. fuck off man. was trying so damn hard and so damn concentrated on it, i was not even chatting or playing habbo or surfing other webs or listening to songs while doing it. i only opened ipw related files. and then i saved everything i done. but then i tried to save the interview and everything went sot. and my hard work is gone lah. kao bei lah. it sucks big time. IPW has really done me in. giving me loads of stress, and making me cry over it. and we're meeting tomorrow morning. unless you want me to do the website in the midnight, or i probably can't finish it. then mum's always playing the computer when she reaches home. eating also by the computer. then i can't even use. until 9plus then give me use. then say 10pm i must switch off liao. if she does this again today, how am i to complete it by tomorrow morning lah. chee bye dreamweaver loh. if that stupid thing was fine, then everything would not be gone. tried redo-ing all the steps but still can't recover the way it was. lastly, i would like to say THANKS ALOT FUCKING SUCKING DAMN IDIOTIC MORONIC KAO BEI DREAMWEAVER.
i failed once again @ 10:30:00 am
Wednesday, June 22, 2005
haix. i know everyone has problems. but why can't problems just be solved easily? just now, mum just came back. and called me to wash my bag. so i went off to wash it. around 30mins later, my brother phoned for me. and at that time, mum was playing some computer games while dad was changing the water for the fish. and my mother just told my brother i was bathing. no one actually knew i was sitting at the chair. doing nothing. as i stared hard at the fish tank. can't believe everything will go wrong one day, when my brother left for NS. looks like afterall, he's the one who brings the family together. i didn't expect that there will be problems with the fish too. the pump wasn't working, and there was lack of oxygen. perhaps, i've been neglecting too much to realise all these. and i tried to switch on the television set, it couldn't be turned on. more problems. so i just sat there, wondering about all the problems. why are there so many problems. i never thought such things would happen. just amazed at how things happen. haix. everything can just happen, afterall. so nothing is impossible. just that, whether you are determined or not. the family's like so cold ever since brother left for NS. mum's hogging the phone and computer and television every night. while dad's busy with his fish, newspapers or magazines. and for me, busy with the television and homework. we were all in our own world, too deep into it, that we didn't even realise what's happening around us. and mum was like so rude yesterday, peifang actually called me, and mum called her to call later cos she's chatting with other people while hogging computer and television. it doesn't seem like we're family at all. dad didn't joke like he did last time. mum didn't care as much as last time. my brother seems to get further and further away. haix. well, probably mum didn't care as much cause she wants me to be independent. that's maybe a reason. but she's scolding non-stop. somehow, i don't really feel that this is holidays. firstly, we didn't even go overseas at all, not even JB. secondly, there's too much homework and projects to do that i have no time to relax. probably the same for all. thirdly, mum's been scolding and shouting non-stop. i rather call us the torture-days. it ain't as good as before. perhaps this is just a part of growing up. but the only thing i still don't understand is why can others have those gadgets and gizmos they want and i can't. i wouldn't mind spending my own money on those stuffs i want, but they just don't allow, saying it's a waste of money and stuffs. it's like everything every teenager wants, they say it's a waste of money. so does it mean that to me, everything that every grown-up wants, is just a waste of money? if only i can get all the things i want, then my wishlist would be full. full of stuffs like handphone models, personal laptop, creative neeon, albums, vcds, movies, bags etc. afterall, if you ever realise, the things in my wishlist are rarely stroke off, because i can't get them. that's why i ain't putting so many stuffs there. and well, now. great. i don't even know if i have a bank account. i'm not being lame or stupid or caring too little. it's just that mum made a new account for me and UOB and transferred all my savings from POSB over there. then later she withdrew all the savings and put them in some finance. great, i can't withdrew money anymore. cool, huh. and the allowance they give, is like so little. i go out with friends or relatives, spend money need spend own money. lunch use own money, no one ever cooks or buy for me, not even in holidays. haix. everything we need for school is bought with my own money too. haix. and my phone's top-up card is paid by myself. things i call my mother to buy when we go out without my father is paid by myself. ezlink card top-up is by myself. haix. i have to pay for these things myself and mum keeps calling dad not to give me allowance for no reason. say i qian her money. i should say she qian me bian lah. kao bei. then all my savings i also can't know where it is. just like in the movie i not stupid loh. then every alternate years, my hongbao money is she take and ownself use de. so sucking loh. people gimme that as ya sui qian and she take and spend on stuffs she like, without considering how i feel. what the heck. by right, i should have over $1000 in my savings le. but she everytime take my money use. ta ma de. i got give her permission like that. the thing i hate most about her is that everytime we go out with relatives, they keep comparing see who more hardworking, who help mother with housework. wah lao. the things she does is wash her OWN clothes, wash vegetables, iron HER OWN clothes, bring in clothes sometimes. these is all the housework she ever does. and the rest cooking, mopping floor is dad do de. and my clothes i wash myself. dad's and brother's clothes use washing machine. and then everytime my aunt asks if i got help her with housework. mum don't wanna talk. then my aunt touch my hand and say it's so smooth, so i never do housework one loh. then everyone say i lazy. kao bei lah. my hands after doing housework still smooth you all jealous is it? jealous then go cry lah! cb. then that time mum was making dumplings. and i help her with the li zi. don't know what's that called in english. lols. make until both my hands so damn wrinkled. and my aunt said, my daughter got help me with it leh, how about yours? and my mother just went quiet. what the fuck loh. it's so irritating. after helping her so much, people thinks im just soooooooo lazy. call them go die lah. anyway, i also don't think that my hand is smooth loh. is they lame lah. stupid suckers. to hell you go, man. and that idiot is currently nagging and there's sort of alot of noise pollution, so being environmental-friendly, im logging off. thankx all IDIOTS.
i failed once again @ 9:25:00 pm
haix. nothing to do. supposed to do ipw webpage. in the end, spent 6 hours on the computer playing and chatting. what the heck. i can't even concentrate. really done for it. bored. mum's probably gonna scold me when she gets back. hmph! for using computer whole day. and playing somemore. haix. i'm so bored. tomorrow going library with peifang. but just now we kept crapping in the end, never say meet what time. -.- lols. mum just called. called to make me do housework again. boring! call me help her bring in the clothes and then hang out all the clothes in the washing machine. blehx. as if i'm maid like that. order me about like shit. hmm. finished hanging the clothes. mum will be back soon, and that's probably when i'll start doing IPW seriously. lols. peifang gave me someone's blog address and i went, and it was so damn funny. hahas. and i was laughing like hell. lols. hmm. nothing much today too. haix. afterall, i probably won't be calling my parents to buy that pod lite plan. cos i think that plan cannot buy phone one. is can buy phone, but not at the cheaper price. haix. so no use. if i want, then phone + plan together. i don't want buy separately. lols. haix. but all the plans got free sms, then is $20plus. too expensive lah. lols. mum and dad sure won't buy de. whatever. haix. so sad. :( lols. starting on ipw now, byex. stupid mosquitoes are biting me. ohmygod!!!! idiotic. haiz. was looking at the photos we took at the vet cos need to print out some. and it looked so damn disgusting. ohmygod man. haix. blehx. whatever. feel so sick about those photos. hmm. 5 more days to school reopen. blehx. bored. nothing to do except homework and projects. lols. hate my life. hahas. haix. people who read my blog. can gimme suggestions? suggestions on which cca should i join as my 2nd cca. lols. but i only choosing either green club, art club, and library club. don't know which to join. haix. i know peifang will keep calling me to join art club anyway. lols. cos im clever, so i know. =D -.- haix. f&v is really too slack le. can't stand it anymore. so must find one 2nd cca to join. lols.
i failed once again @ 10:32:00 am
Tuesday, June 21, 2005
haix. today sms-ed too much le. blehx. wasted alot money. no choice. prepaid. haix. will try asking for plan. =D probably tomorrow. now so late, they gonna sleep le. even if they promised, later tomorrow they probably forgot. hahas. whatever. haix. long fingernails. long hair. need go cut soon. =x hmm. so bored. and anyway, not doing ipw tomorrow. cos stupid school library not open. what the heck. our group can be the suay-est group in the cohort bah. go vet there we sort of toured clementi, in the end, took taxi. lols. then everytime we go back school do, library closed. -.- and then when i collected it, lmf say our project really very bad. then our design was rejected, because it was far too CHILDISH for the 'mature' teachers to accept. haix. then we spent so much time redo-ing these stuffs. what the heck. hmm. tomorrow is ownself do le. do whatever we can do. then friday meet up. ohmygod. before i realise it, i`m sort of dead lah. tomorrow at home, supposed to do ipw. then thursday going library with peifang. friday doing ipw in morning. hmm, saturday need go school, for that stupid nyaa chair thing. haix. then im left with sunday. probably enough to finish all my homework and stuffs. then the last thing left, 'xi you ji' project. haix. dead. probably, i guess. lols. hopefully not going out on sunday. this is my holidays. i've gotta mark the end of it soon, but i don't wanna. i want 1 more week for me to do whatever im still left with. ahh! whatever. i can't just go on dreaming loh. gotta go lah. mum nagging and shouting and whatever. :(
i failed once again @ 9:35:00 pm
haix. now is tuesday already. another 5 days to school reopen. haix. this morning woke up feeling so damn cold although the fan is only speed 1. then now feeling strange strange. like a little giddy. feeling so bored. too addicted to computer. everyday from morning online till night. what the heck. im not even doing my homework or revising. haix. still dreaming of getting into triple science. hard task man. stayed up yesterday night to finish reading a library book. instead of starting on the 'xi you ji' book. lols. feeling so damn bored now. no one to accompany me at home anymore. haix. at least last week my brother was crapping, but he went to NS le. posted to somewhere so far away. haix. ahh! giddy spell acting on me again. im bored to death man. what the heck. nothing for me to do. haix. i rather it's school days. so fun. not bored. but i just can't focus on lesson. end up results so lousy. haix. i wanna change seat. i don't wanna sit at the windows there. everyone walk pass then i will have to urge to look out. it's like so what. then never listen to what teacher talking. especially geography. don't even know what the heck she saying or is she even teaching at all. chinese is ok. but i still don't like him. hahas. at first, beginning of the year, hate him. a few months later, i found him okay. then now, i hate him to the core. hahas. all because of his stupid comments. hmm. science lessons are okay except for the crazy raging ms lim. lols. don't know what's the problem with her lah. maths is okay, but a little boring, taking down notes every lesson. then english. hmm. enjoyable bah. like her crap and stuffs. lols. but if mr g, then cannot concentrate. cos everytime see him bounce around, cannot control myself liao. so big guy, and still bouncing around, and what an orange-freak he is. what else. nothing bah. haix. having literature this semester. im done for it this time. better hope not to fail it. but anyway, our IPW is already bad enough. hmm. 12:54pm le. logging off soon. to be GUAI and do my homework, which i think will end up reading storybooks, watching tv, sleeping or sms-ing. lols. i just don't like homework. still don't know what to wear for be yourself day. wondering if there's PE. whatever. ipw sucks. lolx. haix. 4 weeks of holidays, no one bothers to do it. haix. what's the use of researching info non-stop. hahas. don't know anything lah. whatever. haix. im just saying crap. lols. like to chat with ruimin. alot topics to chat about: height, people, handphones etc. lols. yesterday mainly talked about handphone and allowance. lols. then found out that there's such a cheap plan. so cheap loh. and 700 free sms. what the heck. hahas. try asking my father buy it when my prepaid ends. hahas. im so evil. lols. hmm. then only yesterday did i found out that the You Fu the ending that song is ou de yang's Man Tian Xing. lols. hmm. the beginning the song i don't know. never hear at all. lols. cos i always so late off computer. haix. bored bored bored. boredom's gonna kill me. byex =]
i failed once again @ 11:11:00 am
Monday, June 20, 2005
hmm. today went school to collect ipw file. then lmf was over there blabbering on and on non-stop. saying what our group has done is not sufficient and it's not appropriate and done it the wrong way and blah blah blah. loads of crap. hmm. after that went back. that's about it. went to school just for the files and to hear a very 'da pai' witch speaking. lols. then went back home le. so noisy. renovating works in progress everywhere. so ma fan. haix. then nothing much happened today lah. just crapped and crapped non-stop. school`s reopening. brother just went back to NS today. then what else have i to do? haix. it`s so boring. even before school reopens. how to get on after school reopens. haix. and the xi you ji project also haven't do. haix. i wanna get a mobile plan. but mum and dad doesn't agree. haix. i wanna new phone. i just want colour and camera and bluetooth and maybe mp3 lah. no mp3 then nevermind. but no plan then phone very expensive lah. saw the T630 is like around $248 lah. haix. i don't know lah. life`s just like so bad for me. people all got mp3 or even walkman. have loads of albums. have those good phones. everything also branded. all gizmos and gadgets also have. but me different lah. i get new phone also no use lah. cos if i get hor, i probably only can get those kind 1 or 2 years de liao. whatever. then so what if i don't want all this. then parents keep saying this saying that. saying im stupid. saying im bad. saying im naughty. nagging all the time. always wanna fight. things are so different. different that sometimes i hope im just a small kid, 3 or 4 years old, satisfied with a small dumb doll. now it's all so different. i've grown. i've realised much more things. i'm not easily satisfied with a small little doll anyhow. i want stuffs. stuffs like handphones, mp3s, whatever.. but my parents just won't understand. i also don't know why. then see people have mp3, handphone, albums, whatever. they don't need pay for it. but everything i want i also need to pay for it. my cousin's like way better than me, but too bad she doesn't realise it. and she goes off using her money to take loads of neoprints which her mother took and threw away. haix.. but at least her mother treats her nicely and rewards her with things she want often. unlike mine. and my mother doesn't understand me at all. she buys all the childish stuffs for me. things which are disgusting, and childish - but to her, it's nice. she don't understand me. so we always end up quareling. shouting at each other. and she orders me about all the time. don't reward me with stuffs i want. haix. perhaps she still thinks im a small lil kid. satisfied with everything i have right now. but she doesn't know what i feel. haix. LIFE SUCKS! when will life ever turn for the better for me?
i failed once again @ 7:43:00 pm
Sunday, June 19, 2005
haix. sianx. probably going back to school tomorrow to collect ipw file, but im lazy to do so. such a stupid thing to do. blehs. whatever. feel like going library to concentrate on my homework. but somehow, feel boring alone. haix. hmm. bad day for me bah, not that bad too. haix. morning when parents back from market, mum started ordering me about, doing this and that. then later wanted to eat breakfast, found out only left 1 pack of noodles. and i hate fried noodles. so i spent like 1h there doing nothing. eating strand by strand and squeezing the noodles. whatever. didn't finish it, not even half-way. who cares? i didn't say i want fried noodles, i already said bee hoon. blehx. idiot. after that went IMM. haix. mum and dad asked if i want buy new phone. then say $99 for C117. ohmygod. lousy phone. what for pay $99. haix. no use lah. then mum asked whether i would want it if it's free, as in they pay for it. but i don't want. haix. then dad asked if i want another lousy phone. $135. haix. all no camera at all. haix. what the heck. no use lah. rather use that old no function phone than to spend 100-plus on another new stupid no function phone. what's the difference? just that got colour. got use meh? haix. so what if im using a BW phone. haix. so what if it's outdated. i don't care. just take things as they come. what for be saddened just cause of a lousy phone. so what if people have colour phone, 3G phone, whatever.. blah. so what? rich ah? famous ah? got use? just show off nia. and it sucks loh. well, not that i hate people with those good good phones lah, but i hate people who goes around showing off their good good phones. lols. -.- what's the point of showing off? waiting for it to get stolen? hahas. nice point. =D lols. whatever. after that went around level one. then go giant. mum bought the jeans for me. 2 for $9.90 now i've don't know how many pairs of jeans. but i know it's alot. lols. -.- but i don't wear them often. blehx. and i only like to wear 1 pair out of the so many pairs. lols. the others for showcase. hahas. -.- haix. actually mum wanted buy the zipper shirt 2 for $9.90 too. but quite tight. then the bermudas 2 for $7.90, it's too loose and baggy. lols. i think smallest size is XL. lols. so never buy too. haix. after that walked one round before going mac for late lunch. 4 of us shared the buy 2 evm free 1 evm thing. lols. and dad bought the love hits for $3. lols. after that, went to level 3. go commercial. then TS. me and my brother crazy. fooling around and whatever. then my mother saw this astro boy on stage. and she said "cha-dish". yeah, the way she pronounced it. then my brother and i went around commenting each other "cha-dish". lols. hmm. went best denki. then later go see the making of initial d at the info counter there. and got the car on display too. looks quite old. lols. hmm. think that's about it. byes. signing off, write more another day.
i failed once again @ 7:49:00 pm
Saturday, June 18, 2005
haix. 2nd time i posted today. ruimin should be happy that she gets to read my blog. hahas. =D must thank me. haix. father's day coming. in another 28minutes. lols. nothing to do now. haix. brother's going back to NS on monday. that leaves me alone from next week onwards. haix. sad. )= haix. still left with loads of homework especially chinese. argh. i feel so dissatified with myself. my results are so bad. haix. is it stress? i don't know. haix. i feel so sad and bad. i could have done better. afterall, maybe it's stress. too much stress doesn't help, kaes. haix. holidays still stress. i've really gotta do something about it. how to relax. haiz. ohmygod. may be returning to school on monday to collect the ipw file. haix. what a stupid thing to do. tired. turning in soon. i suppose. haix. i don't feel like doing homework. i wanna read books. oh what's the problem with me. hahas. at first, i did so many homework. after the camp, i read books. then after the week when my mother didn't work. i started playing computer games until now. haix. no homework done. i need to change man. really. lols. choiceless. stress. byes
i failed once again @ 11:32:00 pm
ahhas! lols. back to my blog. hmm. holidays ending in one more week. may time please pass by slower. fatty heng. nice name. lols. my brother and me - we are crazy. hahas. we went to the coffeeshop together yesterday. i haven't went there for long time. then suddenly i saw this fatty heng stall. then we went laughing. so lame. 2 fools laughing in front of the coffeeshop. then just now as we were walking back home from bus-stop, i asked my mum whether she had eaten the fatty heng noodles before. she asked me what's fatty heng. and i told her it's the stall. and she said that the noodles are quite nice. then asked if my brother ate it before. and i went laughing at him. hmm. today went to clementi. haven't been there for long. me mum and my brother shared um turtle soup, ginseng chicken soup and dumpling soup for lunch. and there were eggs in that turtle soup. um.. turtle eggs. eww. looking gross. my brother ate 2. and left 1 more which no one wanted to eat. lols. went window shopping around. haix. actually wanted to go swimming but i don't want. lols. i spoilt my brother's goggles that time. now no more goggles. hahas. and no one wants to buy for me. neither do i want to do so. cause im lazy. yay! submitted the art that story to ms ng. another homework off the list. but there's still loads more waiting to be completed. haix. im too addicted to computer again. =x i wanna watch project superstar! lols. but i always never watch. lols. haix. byex. ruimin, i updated le. =D lols. ohmygod. next semester have literature. what the heck. gonna fail it man. =x
i failed once again @ 4:31:00 pm
Thursday, June 16, 2005
yoohoo! finally done a new blogskin. done as in edited the codes. =D feeling great i suppose. went to school yesterday, to submit the chair and for dental appointment. oh no it's 10pm. i gotta go. hahas. blog fast. hmm. yesterday was funny. sms-ing and calling ruimin in the art room to hear her ringtone. lols. hahas. i like it. =D then after that went westmall. go in arcade half-way they call us out. lols. hahas. hm. ate the OR fillet burger meal. went PO to buy MO. wondering when it will arrive. hmm. supposed to go lot 1 tomorrow. but found out today that the cards there are selling off. so we went to westmall today instead. went there buy the cards and library. and go home. lols. hmm. i like this new skin! =D but am i done with it yet? lols. hahas. see got time then go edit more. lols. haix. yeah. my father got the e-balloting ndp tickets. lols. hmm. i wish i can go. hahas. oh my god. holiday's ending. 1 more week to go. and i've still alot of homework and projects. ohmygod. this holiday is real fast. not even time to revise. ohmygod! haix. can it be prolonged? lols. haix. better go off now. haven't been blogging much. byex. i like this skin! hahas. im bored. bored with playing habbo. but not with homework. cos i haven't done much.
i failed once again @ 10:01:00 pm
Tuesday, June 14, 2005
haix. went to escape today. tired. sianx. lols. hmm. woke up at 7plus. then 10plus reach there. started playing. god! i regretted going for the go-kart man. lols. the queue was so long, and i didn't know how to drive too. blehx. and i started on the advanced track. =x lols. didn't even tried the beginner. hahas. then up there 1st round i was turning here and there cause i lost control. but 2nd round was better. hahas. at least managed to be stable lah. hahas. hmm. then i drive too slow become drive 2 rounds nia. =x lols. what to do with me, clumsy? ahha. lols. don't know how control mah. somemore then keep shake shake shake i can't stand so keep brake brake brake. =x hahas. later went play wet & wild. nice. it ain't as scary as the one in genting. genting's one is way higher and steeper. and that, you definitely get drenched throughout no matter where you sit. but the wet & wild was different. the first one not nice. like so short only. like playground like that. the 2nd one was better. but still not so fun too. just only wanna get drenched. cos it's so hot. hmm. then went play pirate ship. sit middle only. =x lols. hmm. then 2nd time sit pirate ship got a siao girl. sit middle over there scream non-stop throughout ride. and the whole load on board was laughing at her. hmm. the kite flyer was ok lah. lols. then the rainbow very slow. damn slow siah. not nice liao. was supposed to be fast de mah. then the family coaster sit until backpain. keep banging. the aeroplane thing was BORING... DUH! the choo choo train was !#!#!%#*^%#!$#!$#@ -.- STUPID... DUH! hmm. the flipper ride before i left was the most thrilling i suppose. ohmygod. why did i ever went for that ride. and my aunt was over there saying. just a few more times, and you'll get used to it. ahh whatever. regretted getting on it. was closing my eyes most of the time. beginning was ok. but when it started to go up and flip, i can't stand it looking at the ground. so close eye. hahas. and i didn't even dare to take that ride. yet my cousins want me to take the pepsi thing. that flip over one. oh god. and they purposely flip it for thrills somemore. luckily i didn't take it. suppose i vomit. hahas. okaes that's about it. then took 1hr train back to JE. 98 to meet family at coffee shop. went for dinner. finished 1 100plus before father came. drank coke. finished halfway during meal. later went buy heaven and earth orange tea. and came home. hey man, i like the dinner! very nice. got this very crispy thing. hahas. and i kept eating it. i've eaten that crispy thing once in a restaurant but small servings. but this one was bigger. and it's very nice. ;] lols. =] very nice. then walked back home. walked past school. suddenly remembered need go school tomorrow. and oh yeah, my cousins went genting. w/o me. hahas. heartless creatures. no lah. joking joking. anyway, after going escape, genting ain't that fun. it's just cooling. lols. and they'll be back tomorrow. somehow, i'm already like sick of going genting anyway. like 5 or 6h journey there. then no food. later suddenly go eat, then don't feel well. then always first day rest. so tired. then next day so early wake up and play. blehs. and the rides ain't as thrilling as escape. lols. except the corkscrew, the hanging coaster, the solera shot up, and the boat one. yeah, genting's boat thing ride was way higher than escape's one. lols. other than those few, it ain't as fun as escape i suppose. what more, you save like 6 times less time travelling. hahas. hmm. gotta go do book review before i return the book. lols. oh yeah, wondering which phone my dad was mentioning about that time saying i have to fork out $160 for it. hmm. ask tomorrow. then consider. =] good deal then give him money. hahas. i so bad. =x lousy phone, don't buy also can. hahas. byex. go do book review. then zZz too tired.
i failed once again @ 9:01:00 pm
Monday, June 13, 2005
hmm. wanna find new blogskin again. this is not nice. lols. haiz. having sore throat, i guess. damn. whatever. i haven't been well ever since after the camp. with all those sore throat, cough, flu. what the heck. haix. went scamming on habbo yesterday. that was the most earnings. hahas. for one game only, and earned so much. haix. feel like going out. but don't know where to go. and im somehow stuck to home. lols. tomorrow probably going to escape. haven't confirm yet. either wild wild wet or escape. hmm. looking forward ba. today was woke up by my mum's call. blehs. 7:50am only. and she called. called me to bring in the clothes. and she just left 20mins before. oh what the heck. and hahas. my brother went to type www.sggirls.com on the internet browser. hahas. later mum see then he die. lols. but i went that site before. but i clever. i use the Open there to go. then address not on the internet bar. hahas.
i failed once again @ 8:34:00 am
Thursday, June 09, 2005
dreadful day. went to see doctor. didn't wanted to, but was forced to. me and my brother both went see doctor. haix. i don't know why i had to see a doctor just because of cough. blehx. sheer waste of money, ain't it? ooh. my brother's got a temperature of 39.4 and me i got a temperature of 35.9 how high and how low. hahas. well, yesterday went to my brother's POP. he didn't march cos he had fever. he only performed in the 2nd part, which was the hat-throwing part. so touching. hahas. haix. don't really feel like blogging. bubbyex.
i failed once again @ 4:25:00 pm
Tuesday, June 07, 2005
haix. it's 10:07pm. lols. rushing IPW to submit 1st draft tomorrow. why am i always like that? idling around when it's still early and then rushing through everything at the last minute. i hate my attitude. i hate my way of doing things. i wanna change. lols. now here im using, and there my mother is nagging. whatever. i really got some serious things to do anyway. was so engrossed about the Zero to hero show that i didn't know qi'en sms-ed me. oh gosh. hahas. didn't know i was addicted to tv too. since when. lols. yeah. my father wanted me to give him $160. so that he can buy me a phone. don't know what phone though. lolx. but i know it's a colour and camera phone. that's all i know. aye, but i rejected it anyway. but haix. i turn down things easily when i don't like it. that's just me. gotta believe it. well. i have a few hundred bucks with me right now. it ain't a problem. but the way i rejected it, i don't know. it's just me. lols. oh yeah, i don't know what to submit for the 1st draft. and no one knows eventually. haix. whatever. i don't know what to do too. haix. what to do now. im so bored. dont actually feel like doing the individual report. but whatever. just finish it up since i've already started doing it. lols. haix. boredom! lols. gotta go do report liaox. byes
i failed once again @ 9:41:00 pm
was jumping about and shouting cause i saw a cockroach. lols. kaes. i know cockroaches aren't as big as us and we have no reasons to be scared of it. but the cockroach i saw was quite big. ahh! it was at the door. then i told my parents. no use. mother on phone chatting. father sleeping. whatever. just let the cockroach crawl around. kaes. then later it went under the computer. ohh! what the heck. now i don't know where's it. hahas. yay! 3230 price dropped le. but not so much lah. cheapest i saw now is $348 with 2yr contract. i really feel like i should get a plan, man. i can't go on with a prepaid. hahas. haix. yeah, yesterday saw the Creative MuVo mp3. not sure how many mb. it was $200plus. forgot. hahas. haix. mum's not working today and tomorrow. that's it! im gonna be killed by boredom man. hahas. but we're doing ipw today. gonna get sleepy. it always happen when we do ipw. i will feel so tired. hahas. tomorrow going tekong for brother's pop. god. i have no admission ticket. hahax. but my brother said they won't make you go all the way back so it means i can go in. oh great. hahax. whatever. gonna be busy man. haix. still left lotsa homework. feel like going out. so boring to get stuck up at home with ipw. hahas.
cancelled ipw meeting today. yeah, that would be way better for me, i suppose. lols. hmm. just went blog-hopping reading blogs of 2/5-ers only. and realised alot of them had changed skins. me too. but i don't like mine. hahas. whatever. god. hahas. mum just brewed me a herbal tea and wanted me to drink a cup. eww! not that i don't like herbal tea, but it's so sour. have been trying to finish it for the past 3hours i guess. too sour for me. hahas. can't believe it. im actually looking for a new skin again. hahas. so tired. so bored. nothing to do. mum's sleeping. and i guess she would call me to off the computer when she wakes up. haix. whatever. im so bored. bored to death.
i failed once again @ 10:53:00 am
Monday, June 06, 2005
yeah. spent the day outside. hmm. went to school for NYAA and dance first. supposed to meet peifang at 7:30am. in the end, i set off at 7:30am thinking i was late. hahas. that's sort of my habit. im always late. rarely early. so don't keep meeting me outside. hahas. or you might be waiting till impatient. didn't see her. then thought maybe she was in school or what. try calling her, phone off. blehs. then went to school, she not there. so came out again. and saw her. ooh. first time see her so late. lols. kaex lah. hmm. then we go school loh. then is NYAA liao. stupid mr choo made the table tennis group do 10 push ups, but i didn't manage though, was slacking. whaddeheck man. ms lee was way late and she didn't get punished. hahas. ran 3 rounds. sweat extra much today. and later felt giddy. so just sat at the corner. later play play until 10am then dismiss. then got dance. assembled. then went to blps hall for dance. and i fell twice while dancing. so damn suay. i mixed up all the steps then later can't catch up so fall. hahas. once on the stage, but i was at the back lah so i don't think anyone saw me falling bahx. hahas. then once is when the whole cohort dancing. sian. after that go back css. then dismiss. then go eat outside school and got someone crapping there. ended up until like 12plus lols. then go jp. wait for 187 damn long sia. 20mins? ahh. whatever. then go there buy wallet and ipw file. then return library books. the rest of the time we just crapped and whatever. lols. later 4 like that go home. then 4plus reach home. almost home. then went bathe 5plus liao. watch tv till 6plus. and now here blogging. now having headache and my right leg muscle aching, probably walk too much. lols. whatever. great day out. ahh! no flag day. mrs lim said it's cancelled. so sad man. i was looking forward to it. blehx. whatever. off for dinner. blehx.
i failed once again @ 6:56:00 pm
Sunday, June 05, 2005
oh well. it's the same routine i guess. except way more boring that i fell asleep in the living room with the television on and my mother talking loudly with my aunt. god. i didn't actually imagined i would ever manage to sleep in this kinda situation that's so noisy. ahh! perhaps i was really too tired man. guess that was the sweetest sleep i had for such a long time. and i wasn't supposed to come online right now yeah. i just pleaded with my mum, saying i just had to print something, which was just a rather lame excuse. but whatever. don't think she buy my story though. but anyway, im just making this post a fast one. i don't know why. i keep forgetting about my template. forgot to relink yihui. time to get a new brain. hahas. okaes. im gonna relink her. i will remember this time, i hope so. hahas. hmm. going skin-hunting. and oh yeah, it's 9:11pm right now. the water boys has started. i wanna watch it. lols. it looks quite interesting. hahas. can't miss it. and tomorrow there's dance. eww yuck stupid. but luckily it's finale. that's way better i suppose. hahas. today's the teenage idol semi-finals? oh. i didn't know that. at least until ruimin pointed it out to me. lols. but it's at orchard. but i didn't feel like going just now, so didn't bother. hahas. even if i wanted, it's so 'last minute' don't think i can get to go, even if i pass my mother, but what if my aunt start blabbering. hahas. im still chatting. sort of planning how to spend tomorrow whether to go out. and i feel like buying this and buying that, but im just broke. i didn't get allowance last week. ahh! great june holidays this is gonna be. oh, 1 week has passed. my brother's passing out. whatever. and someone's birthday tomorrow. im broke. hmph. don't get you birthday present. hahas. whatever. im so busy right now. multi-tasking -- yeah, that's it. hmm. i've such a long wishlist. let's see what i want.
#o1. Personal Laptop
#o2. N3230
#o3. Creative Neeon
#o4. Deuter Bag
#o5. JJ's 3rd Album
#o6. Ocean's 2nd Album
#o7. OP wallet
#o8. learn a sport - badminton, bowling, basketball. whichever. i mean with coaching.
#o9. Nike or Adidas Sport Shoes
god. i have 9 items. how do i get 'em all done? and somemore, this are all the materialistic ones. the non-materialistic ones i also have. but im not listing them out now cos i just found a skin. and yeah. im editting it right now. kaes so off i go.
i failed once again @ 8:58:00 pm
Saturday, June 04, 2005
now listening to songs. hmm. im starting to get all confused and mixed up by IPW. what must we submit? im still not sure. i just can't get it right into my mind. something's seriously wrong with me. and anyway, we are not doing it at all. so i guess nevermind. but think of me slacking again. ahh! i feel so bad. hahas. and for some particular reason, my computer is sort of lagging. but i don't know why. i have no idea. anyway, i just saw today's Saturday Review in Straits Times. i guess it's pretty true. right now, im listening to songs, surfing net, blogging, chatting, and trying to do some work. ohmygod. multi-tasking. will we future be empowered by robotic people like us, the present teeenagers? lols. pretty strange. oh ya. and i don't know what to do. i haven't any idea what to do. it seems like the end. or doomsday. ahh! nevermind. cool man. i loaded a page for like 5minutes and it came out that the URL is no longer available. what the heck. wasted my time. ok. well. we said to submit IPW 1st draft on 8th june. then i realised it clashes with my brother's POP. then my mum wants me to go for my brother's POP. but anyway, i would like to go too, i believe it's a rather new experience. a fresh one too. haven't been to Tekong before. lols. then now, i don't know what we are supposed to submit for 1st draft. then i realised we haven't done much. and in the end, i can only say that i haven't got a file too. ohgawd. how's this gonna fare or fail. worst of all, it clashes with my brother's POP. it's the last thing i hope would happen and it happened. shiet man. submitting it later than 8th june is no problem with me, but maybe there might be a problem with that mrs loh. who knows. i don't know. lols. haix. everything's getting to me. and liang lu just gave us more work during the camp. oh gawd. how great can it get. no rest. no time to relax. these few days im feeling so tired. yawns. haven't replenished fully? ahh. i don't know. but anyway, i feel like getting a new skin. im getting tired of the bear too. lols. but i never seem to get tired of simba. hahas. cos simba is so good. it won't betray me. it won't talk back to me. it won't argue with me. lols. now my mother and me are having sore throat. on the verge of having no voice. lols. can sore throat be spread around? i don't know. lols. and she's coughing. yet she's drinking cold stuffs. lols. what the heck. she doesn't even care. lols. and she added lots of ice. oh god. how can she even get better. duh. and nowadays, my mother keeps browsing the classified sections, sorta lookin for jobs. but who knows anyway. and she's been talking to my father about jobs. i haven't a clue what's happening anyway. haix. no break. i should say. what kinda holidays is this. but anyway, i've gotta stop blogging now and do what im suppose to do.
i failed once again @ 12:09:00 pm
Friday, June 03, 2005
wee~ back from camp yesterday. had sore throat. then no lunch. ahh. well, lunch i ate some biscuits. didn't have the appetite anyway. yeah, then i went sleeping. later i received umpteen calls from my mom calling me to do this do that like as if im her maid. and hell, i was down with sore throat, headache and fever. in the end, i had to resort to hanging up the phone because she was irritating me with her calls and i wanted to sleep. yeah and so i went on sleeping, with the television on. oh great. this camp is like hell training. hahas. first thing we went into the camp. mdm ros was pissed off by group a. then she sort of vent her anger on us. ahh. and im damn suay. it's grouped by register number. but what the heck. liang lu was the teacher in charge of our group. hell man, can't i even have a moment of peace? then we had to unpack all our stuffs. and i made a whole mess cos i literally poured out everything and had to squeeze everything back again. so stupid thing to do. then we did icebreakers. and then it was tent pitching. and we had field cooking. um. overall. i would say the field cooking food was much better than the catered one although ours was a little overcooked. the catered food was like shit. i didn't even want to eat it. and anyway, i didn't finish it. i only ate like one-third of it. and i threw it away. cos the food really sucked. and i had no choice. okay enough about the food. after the field cooking it was land expedition. and stupid liang lu walked beside me. and asked me those stupid questions like my parents job and crap so much. duh. but i don't like his crap. it's all stupid. then later walked back. so tiring. and ahh nothing much. at night after dinner had the tower building. and um seriously i cant remember much. but i didn't enjoy this camp so much. it was freezing cold in the hall and i've had muscle aches all over due to the sleep. and ruimin was there rearranging her sleeping bag and tossing and turning the whole night. lols. hahas
i failed once again @ 10:54:00 am
