Thursday, August 04, 2005
haix.. i regret things i had done. so many people got A1 for the history common test. and then i got A2. not that im jealous. but i just regret. why hadn't i paid attention in her class? cramming, obviously isn't a method. i did that the night before the test and i got an A2. probably, it's not bad. but i know i could have done better. she have thought us 8 chapters. so many lessons. she broke chapter 4 into 2 lessons. and i listened to only 1 of the so damn many lessons she had actually taught us. and what was i doing during the other times she was teaching? i was fiddling around. looking in my file. staring out of the windows. looking around the class. everywhere. doing anything. but except listening to her lessons. i always tell myself to listen to her lessons. but i always fail to do so. halfway thru, i would wanna sleep when i start dozing off, and then i would fidget around. and in the end, once again, i've learnt nothing. as for today, i was quite awake. but.. i was thinking of school sucks. i was scribbling it around on the books and the notes, reading the essays in the book and resting. i think she noticed, but she didn't care. perhaps, i really need some idiots who can irritate me enough to be sitting beside me so that i can pay attention during her lessons. but for j tan lessons, i guess it's all about terrorists attacks. wonder what has that got to do with our cme syllabus. im trying to pay attention in class during cme but she always want to talk about terrorist attacks. does she think the examination questions will ask us about the london bombings or the 9/11 attack? it's just so impossible. and she even gave us a worksheet on bombings. what the heck. here i am trying to focus on cme and there she is telling stories that are never-ending. and so everytime this happens, i try to pon her lessons by going dentist or toilet. recently, she realised that. hope she not going school tomorrow. or at least make her forget about the worksheet. cos i didn't even bother to take the worksheets in the first place. blehs. and then if she were to know, bet she would scold. cos she knows i always trying to pon her lessons. blah blah. just gotta focus on history. please don't let me sleep in her lessons. duh.. byex. going off. =D i wanna change!
i failed once again @ 10:24:00 pm
