Friday, September 30, 2005
hey what the heck. spent like hours in the afternoon editing blogskin. and it just doesn't loads yet. damn it. yeah, so after the languages exam. guess it's better, 1 more week to other exams. and what the heck with the stupid fucking invigilator? anyhow accuse people of cheating. blehs. she seems like she must scold to her fill. hahas~ somehow, i feel like as if i haven't done my best. i felt so relaxed in the paper, this is the first time... and i think it doesn't sense good things. anyway, what's done been done. no use wishing i have or have not done my best and no use wishing my results can be better or worst cos it's all done. my answers can't be changed. oh yeah, just came back home from dinner at coffee shop. and i saw a kawaii guy strumming his guitar. so cool~ but sad to say, i only heard him play a while. and i guess he was just warming up. so didn't hear him play any full songs. ahhs~ may exams be over sooner. i want guitar lessons! guitar rocks! JJ rocks! ooh.. superstar concert tonight! oh 29 more mins.. hahas~ how i wish i could go. yay! guess this is weijian's first time out of tekong since NS. he and weichoong so damn ke lian. first day out of NS after 3 weeks and they need to rush for that concert. and then, hmm... think there's a concert in november if im not wrong. and it's Ocean's first public appearance. wondering who the heck he is. hahas~ goddamn.. feeling so bored.. and sometimes i guess it sucks to have Norton on the computer although it can detect virus. some idiots who kept using the computer repeatedly refuse to scan the system. damn it. now im scanning. and halfway using the computer. i don't give a damn. who cares so much.. and it just came that suddenly 3 norton anti-virus scanning windows pop up. what the heck. think there's maths homework to do, isn't it? well, i can't really remember. ooh! tonight there's Ju-On 2 at 11:30pm. i wanna watch it. hahas. and i wonder what's the prob with channel 8 and channel u. channel 8 is like featuring that stupid chow yun fatt's movies every sunday afternoons and that channel u, featuring the damn jackie chan's movie every sunday night. oh but qian ji bian is a nice show! im probably gonna watch it. hahas. haven't touched the computer for long. finally have the chance to do so. it definitely rocks! hmmm... guess there's nothing else much.. just hope my new blogskin works. and i don't know what song to put.. hahas~ okayys.. off to surfing net. hahas
i failed once again @ 8:01:00 pm
Thursday, September 22, 2005
so bored these few days.. nothing to do and not much homework too.. haix.. i loved this tuesday's PE very much.. hahas.. guess the soccer game was fun.. enjoyed myself totally. it rocked! hahas.. then that day our lessons ended at 11:30am cos ms shyam and mr elfie didn't come. chaos in class. never expect a moment of peace in our class without a teacher. wednesday.. well um.. can't really remember it. pearl pop quiz was overall easy but then i didn't revise. becos he already gave us the answers in lessons. hahas. just that i didn't pay much attention. hmm.. tuesday's common test was quite challenging. didn't manage to complete it. and what the heck.. i was looking around.. wondering.. in the midst of the paper. hahas. stupid of me. well then today nothing much happened. i hate art club. hahas. still need go for cca next week. what the heck. it sucks man. hate it. umm.. yeah went home early yesterday and today.. and wasn't used to getting home so early. and i ended up wasting my time away doing nothing. hahas. bought a teenage magazine today cos while peifang was buying 8 days.. i flipped through the magazine stack and saw wilber! ok.. so i decided for awhile and bought it. hahas. since there was nothing for me to do. okies.. guess there's nothing much that happened this week. gotta go. may the time please stop now for i don't want the exams to come. hahas. =) going off now.
i failed once again @ 7:18:00 pm
Sunday, September 18, 2005
bored. left with maths and art. what the heck. 5 art tiles. guess that's gonna kill me. but probably ain't finishing it today. okay.. finally finished my home econs thing. hais.. family.. wonder just what it means to different people.. sometimes i just feel so damn lonely after school. i rather stay in school for revision and go home late than to go back to a quiet home without anyone, unless im in a foul mood and want time alone. sometimes, i feel like friends are better than my family. perhaps, i still don't know how to treasure them. and i can only always hate them for the things they do. ending up to ask myself why do these things have to happen? just can't the family live harmoniously? being the youngest in the family, it gives me no choice to make, i have no say in the family. even what i want to buy has to go through the agreement of the whole family.. sometimes, i just wonder what crap is this.. so now, it's great, i don't even have a pair of decent slippers. i've been wearing the last pair for like years.. and it spoilt. i had to wait till it spoilt that i could get a new one. and guess what? i can't even get a new pair. at that point of time, i was so frustrated. why is it that they can get things they want? because they are older? and im younger, so i don't have the privilege? i guess money is the root of all evil. now, even my father is working 7 days a week. means that i don't see him often. let alone talk. when he worked 6 days a week, we maybe talk like once every fortnight? now.. i don't know what will happen.. just to see him wake up at 4am this morning to work.. sometimes, i feel so sad.. wonder why they want to work so much.. and so this morning i stayed up till 3plus. and went into the room to rest for awhile. and then he had to wake up and work.. haix.. just don't understand. although i don't talk with my father, i feel that he cares for me.. much more than my mother.. i don't know why.. but i somehow sense it all the time he's around.. sometimes, i hope that i can receive birthday presents from my family. or even, a word of sincere encouragement is enough. but what i get from them everytime i show them my results, everytime i tell them my results, everytime i ask for their opinions.. my father says nothing.. and my mother.. she says it's so bad.. i really wish to prove her wrong.. i wanna do something she can be proud of.. i really want to do my best for the upcoming streaming.. i don't want her to look down on me.. i just hope i can improve my literature and english.. especially english.. im aiming for at least a B3.. i know it's really difficult to achieve, but i just wanna prove it to my mother. as for my father, i will just say im contented with the allowance i have per month.. i won't ever dream of having more allowance. and i never approach him for more money in the case of anything, not before, and also not after..
i failed once again @ 9:09:00 pm
Friday, September 16, 2005
whow~ the result of my editing.. lols.. don't know if it's nice to you.. but i just decided to post it so anyone can just save it.. hahas.. didn't put copyrights.. lols.. comments on this anyone?
i failed once again @ 9:57:00 pm
finally, im so happy to be back at home. well, not that i not at home yesterday or what. but went to peifang's house, and her mother stuffed me with food. lols. so full. hmm.. we cooked like so much things. hahas. guess it was quite fun. then we also went cristofori to check out the lesson prices. yeah, then nothing much happened today lah. just that some stupid teachers, i hate them. hmph! so stupid. always only pick on me.. don't wanna say who it is... this blog not password-protected. may be dangerous. cos i also don't know who reads this blog. hmm.. gotta study damn hard lah.. what else to say? history test next week. literature test next week. maths test next next week. english and chinese paper 1 & 2 next next week too. exams are so fast. arghh. haix.. anyway going off. yeah! today music learnt guan huai fang shi. it rocks! rocks so much! cos weijian sang that song before.. which somehow made me aware that there was this song. haix.. i've forgotten about this song like for years.. hahas.. anyway it just rocks, though i still can't play it properly yet.
i failed once again @ 7:49:00 pm
Tuesday, September 13, 2005
for once.. i feel really very tired. haish. i really don't know about my future. when mr elfie said about the what we study now, and our future work is related. then i was like.. i don't wanna be a scientist. but i just know i don't want it, i just want some relaxed work. hais. then sometimes i hope to get into the econs class, cos of the econs subject, which is quite attractive to me. but then again, the marks for it is based on humanities. so afterall, i may not be able to get in. triple science is what i always wanted. but then, i don't wanna be a scientist. and top 40.. i don't think it's easy. and what with the heck of the exam format changing. what the heck. now we don't have to study at all. we just take one exam. they don't test us on contextual knowledge, then how to see if we got learn? MOE still keep cancelling off topics. i think we don't even need contextual knowledge liao. don't pay attention during lesson also can. english paper is just comprehension passage. chinese paper is the zong he tian kong, 2 comprehension MCQ, and 1 comprehension passage. so, we study so hard no use mahx.. wah lao.. now hor, even exams also not like exams. they test us on this kind of reading things. but don't care about what we learn.. want test then test all mahx.. aiya.. anyway, MOE got the rights. they want do what let them do till they grin from ear to ear. anyway, next time singaporeans stupid and low contextual knowledge, it's MOE's plan what, they should be happy and proud of us singaporeans. then there's another problem.. i don't know whether to go JC or Poly. i guess many people in 2/5 would go to JCs in the future. but im not those who is so hardworking.. i just wanna pursue a relaxed life where i can juggle everything i want to do. i don't wanna be obsessed with any single thing. mum said before that i should go to poly. i also feel like going poly. but sometimes, i still feel that JC is a better choice. but sometimes i feel weird, i have made choices, but i just can't choose between them anymore. if im going to a JC, i would want ACJC. if going to poly, i want either Ngee Ann or Singapore poly. but i just don't know whether to go JC or poly. i feel so confused. i really don't know what to do. haix.. people, pls enlighten me. although the time for this to happen will only come in about 2 years time. but sometimes, time really passes so damn fast that i don't even notice it.
i failed once again @ 8:43:00 pm
Sunday, September 11, 2005
so damn bored. came online to find that su dong po's info.. hmm. i really have nothing to do. it's raining heavily outside now. left alone at home. parents in malaysia and brother in NS. haix.. feel so much like a loner. even used computer until sian liao.. although i've only used it for like half an hour. watch television then there's no nice programs. call me to study but i don't feel like the mood to do so. haix.. really hope there is something i can enjoy now.. nothing to do.. not looking forward to tomorrow. haix..
i failed once again @ 5:32:00 pm
Saturday, September 10, 2005
hmm.. feeling pretty bored now. yesterday night watched 'one more chance' and then 'a tale of 2 sisters'. didn't finish watching the ghost show cos i was so damn tired after going out for like almost the whole day. actually i don't think it's scary at all. blahs~ still managed to get such a good night's sleep. hahas. but then, i only slept 7 hours. 8plus woke up by the stupid workers outside who were painting the block. they were so damn noisy even when the windows are all closed. still can hear them talk. tried to sleep but then they too noisy. hais. stupid. hahas. shit lah.. i still left with 2 tiles to paint. school's starting again soon. so fast. hais. wei choong also in NS by now le.. wander how derrick looks like now. hahas~~ but sure can't go superconcert loh.. what the heck with exams and parents.. blah. anyway, i just can't believe why no chinese homework. so damn relaxed. so bored now... nothing to do. tonight got superstar finals replay. feel like watching. but so late. 11:30pm to 2:30pm. i just wanna see weijian loh. =x hahas. hmm.. nothing much bahx..
hahas.. this is a very simple wallpaper bahx.. done by me.. not very nice lahs.. haix. i wanna buy the superstar album. think weijian's song in it is tian kong. lalas; now going off for brunch le.. lols.. hmm.. im still waiting for my mother to buy me that slippers she promised me. today JJ's at IMM at 5pm. so good. don't think i can go. so late. haix. yesterday creative sold 50 Neeon MP3s for only $199. what the heck~ so damn cheap.. the one i've always been wanting. ahh~ lols. normal price is $329. but i think it's still worth the price. lols. gonna save up for it. =) really going off for brunch now. and so happy, finally completed that stupid CME stuff. hate j tan. lols. hahas.
i failed once again @ 11:32:00 am
Thursday, September 08, 2005
woo~ it's already past midnight.. ohh.. it's gonna be 1am soon. ahh~ im still awake. not that i can't sleep. but i was doing the CME project thing. whew~ finally finish the racial harmony. blah. and have to wake around 8am tomorrow. so that's around 7 hours of sleep for me.. phew~ at least... at least i get some sleep. but someone must call me up tomorrow. hahas.. or i will sleep like a lazy pig. lols. hmm.. it seems like we have so little holiday homework. or have i made a mistake? im only left with english composition and the literature. well, anyway that's good. so there's time for me to revise. must study hard for chinese wors~! lalas; im so bored. not much people are online. hmm.. i didn't know i would be so hardworking for a god damn CME project. "so far as CME is concern, you should pass" that's what J Tan always say. but why the heck did i put in so much effort for the project... hahas.. no idea anyways. but guess that's still good, ain't it? blahs. anyway, i gotta go. have a sleep. at least have 7 hours of peace and sleep. blahs. whole day on computer today. sorta addicted once again? no idea. but then, i won't be using computer tomorrow anyway.. so guess it's okay.. duh~ really gotta go.. pretty late. well. byex.. nites everyone.. nice sleep. nitemares of me~~! hahas ((=
i failed once again @ 12:41:00 am
Monday, September 05, 2005
hais.. so bored now. just came back malaysia today. reached home around 5pm. so far haven't touch any holiday homework. hopefully can finish within these few days then relax. hahas. got chased out of school on friday. sort of. lols. anyway slack slack. nothing do. lols. then came back home and mum went out. so i went sleeping. lols. later got fever. 39 degrees. i so unlucky one, always beginning of school holidays sick. this time is sore eyes, flu, sore throat, fever. stupid. hate it. then saturday gotta wake up at 5am. cos going malaysia. even more stupid. hmph! i don't even wanna go. then i so sick still force me go. somemore my mum only take a sling bag containing our passports. then i have to take the bag containing all our clothes. so heavy. hate it! should have protested with her. lols. then go there she see salon cheap. then call me go cut my hair. what the fuck lah. my hair so short still cut. might as well cut botak. that's better right. more worth it mahs. kiasu! siao one. now i look like a boy loh. or if you say i don't look like one, then im a stupid kuku. ci xiong nan bian. blehs. thanks to my mum's kiasu-ness. cut hair $9 so must cut alot hair, even when my hair already so short. that one she say is call cheap. to me, i say is waste of money. everytime hair so damn short, see salon cut hair cheap, then go cut. cut non-stop. -.-' cheap meh? add up and see lah. cut 1cm then pay $9. extremely "CHEAP" wors~ still cut till damn short. the person already say cannot too short, later look like boy. then my mother say SO LONG SO LONG. LONG her head lah. my hair also not her hair. next time i know what to do liao. help her save money. so must say MY HAIR NOT YOUR HAIR, I THINK IS SHORT ENOUGH, NOT LONG YET, NEXT TIME DAMN LONG THEN CUT, THEN CUT TILL SHORT, SAME PRICE, CHEAPER WHAT... this at least make sense loh.. especially to those kiasu people. but my mother's brain can't think too much. just see cheap then go liao. this type no help liao. now cut hair till i look like a boy, she say this is call STUDENT LOOK. yeah yeah.. so DAMN STUDENT LOOK wors~ i've fallen in love with her mind of STUDENT LOOK that a girl must have her hair so so so extremely short because she's a STUDENT and MUST HAVE A STUDENT LOOK. how about a boy leh? must have STUDENT LOOK then KEEP LONG HAIR ah? or just BOTAK? wah lao.. her brain bo eng one lah. really so suay loh. have a mother like her. hais. but life just need to go on. still so bo bian lah. this kind of mother i really can't stand loh. next time i think mothers must have a mother certificate liao. this type hor sure fail one. bring me go out so i can help her carry things. then everything must ownself pay. watch, spectacles, shoes, bags. even school stuffs also. then this i don't really mind so much lah. cos anyway next time grow up is like that one mah, it's just a matter of time. but she don't let me have this and have that. wah lao.. she want to have so strict controls. go adopt one child and control all you want lah. but then i think she bo lui give lah.. hais. then we got own room, but no room privacy. our money also quite dangerous lah. jia zei nan fang. sometimes money just anyhow take shuang. then hongbao money every alternate year is become hers. really dangerous lah.. next time grow up people got savings liao hor. i think i still no money one. then now my brother NS liao got own bank account and card so mother cannot anyhow take his money. so i have to suffer loh. she anyhow withdraw my money put in this account that account. then withdraw then put back. then withdraw then create another bank account. then put money. then later withdraw and put back another bank. then later go close down bank account then set up new one. wah lao... this thing hor mei wan mei liao de lah.. can do every week like that also don't care one. siao one. like that don't even have interest at all. it's like everything i pay by myself loh.. see all the money she takes. my room also can call junk room. or STORERM no. 2 liao. whatever things she don't want put in my room. now hor the bags all in my room stack till can compete with the windows. then all the drawers stack and stack also can compete with windows. then those bedsheets all squeeze into my cupboard. then the sewing machine spoil liao still put my room. wah lao.. spoil liao still put there. also not antique, bo value one. still keep. can't stand her loh. then hor her thinking of a STUDENT is as follows:
1. Cannot watch MOVIES. Until you graduate from University. (like that i don't know how cinemas earn so much money)
2. Cannot use computer 3-4 months before examinations. (don't know what the broadband so expensive for lah)
3. Cannot go out with friends to shop. (then i don't know how some people who are friends have the same clothes one.. ahh so coincidental all the time leh)
4. Cannot SMS too much. - not more than like 20 per month. (cool lah.. i wonder how those companies earn money liao)
5. Cannot talk on phone. (i didn't know phones are R21)
6. Cannot watch television too much. - maybe around 3-4 hours per day. (lucky our house no cable tv subscription)
7. Must STUDY all the time. (du si shu lah)
8. Cannot have things we WANT. For things we NEED, then must consider long long.
9. Must sleep by 10pm. (no time do homework and revise liao loh)
10. Use internet can only search information. Cannot CHAT or PLAY.
ok lah.. at least these are some loh.. these all rules so damn strict. even stricter than school rules loh.. siao one.. don't wanna say liao.. say till i angry or sad..
i failed once again @ 7:57:00 pm
Thursday, September 01, 2005
today woke up with my eyes red. yeah.. so that's it. i got sore eye lahs. so went to see doctor. then later 1plus. saw bryan at the bus stop. lols. don't know why everytime go polyclinic will see him at the bus stop one. then went westmall. ate lunch. went shop around. saw melissa. went back home. then watch tv awhile. then come use computer. blahs.. nothing much.
i failed once again @ 5:12:00 pm
