Monday, October 31, 2005
whee~ woke up today and it started raining. stopped after a while. me and mum went to market. it`s been so long since i last went to the market with anyone, yeah? unless you mean a supermarket. ate breakfast then walked around. and she finally bought some food to restock for the holidays. 1 packet of spaghetti, 1 packet of macaroni, 1 packet of the cream crackers, 1 packet of Horlicks and i think 1 packet of butter cheese biscuits. with all those, i don`t have to feel hungry during the holidays. hahas~ after that, went to another market. did some window shopping then went to eat desserts. from there, took 333 to IMM. went IMM. mum bought a pair of heart-shaped earrings for me! which costed around $40. whees~ i`m so happy. just wished i could have a pair of earrings yesterday and today, mum bought for me. totally lovin` it. oh yeah, and today is definitely a good day to go shopping, especially for people who go for sales. 50% discount at World of Sports & Poh Heng. basic tees for $5, polo for $8, and bottoms for $10 going at Baleno. trial promotion at Sportslink, i think 20%? 40% at Sports Connection. there`s just a lot of promotions going on like as if it`s the GSS. we came back and it was like around 3:30pm. made konnyaku jelly. still waiting for it to settle down. so i`m blogging here. and i just went to dig out some books from my brother`s room. found that he have 3 books which i need. and another book which i`m unsure of. hahas~ today is my lucky day, probably. ooh~ tomorrow`s mum`s birthday. and since my brother is coming back today, my mum said she`s not cooking curry fish today. cos we`re going out for dinner to celebrate. whee~ what a nice day. so damn happy.. ((=
i failed once again @ 3:56:00 pm
Sunday, October 30, 2005
feeling so bored today. went to J8 once again. did nothing much. blehs~ wanted to go see albums at Sembawang. so went in, then in less than a minutes time, mum said she ain`t interested in music, so we left. then later i saw the chip and dale plushies. so cute! now i know how to differentiate them. i think dale has a red nose while chip has a brown/black nose. lols~ funny yeah. now, i just finished eating my dinner. BK`s single mushroom swiss burger meal. i love the mushroom and the sauce and the cheese only. i don`t like the beef or whatever it is. hahas~ hmm.. just created a photo blog. not much photos. hahas~ ain`t free, okays? my holidays are gonna be dull. no work. can`t find any. guess i`ll have to stay at home and study? no. don`t feel like. but i promise i`m gonna really study hard next year. provided i get into econs. still gotta spend this stupid holidays doing chinese homework. hais~ BORING! i`m gonna miss school. miss eating fries. miss eating the hip hop ice-cream. and now, i`m craving for that KFC spicy drumlets. wahaha~ i`ve got a big appetite. i`m gonna get fat, right? hahas.. someone recommend me nice storybooks for improving my english? anyway, i hate harry potter. for no reason. don`t know why too. just don`t like it. hahas~ though so many people like it. i ain`t a fan of it. to spend like $50 to buy those new books, sheer waste of money but i thank you guys for contributing to singapore`s economical growth? lols. i`m just so damn bored. wonder when i can get to buy the books for next year. great! mum`s not working tomorrow. probably gotta go out with her again. blehs~ but i guess there ain`t anywhere fun in singapore. hahas~ and mum asked me today if i wanted to learn how to bake cookies. blehs~ i don`t want. so boring. i just wanna learn guitar! i hate cooking but well, actually baking can be quite fun. anyway, i don`t wanna learn it. hmm.. i hope this coming chinese new year`s celebrations with relatives can be in the chalet. hope so much.. hahas~ at least it`s better than staying at home, waking up so damn early, preparing stuffs, cooking, then again, staying up till so late to clear the mess. hahas- just leave the chalet dirty and it doesn`t matters. and the thing is, we can play the whole day, and even thru-out the night. hahas- anyway, the hardworking slacker is now trying to take the role of a guai girl and try to do her chinese work. hahas- i`ll try to concentrate without playing. but i just hate reading those chim chinese words. oh yeah, our school so unfair. got 9 subjects and 8 subjects. other schools only have 8 and 7 subjects. and my mum is like boasting to me about her goddaughter who`s in pasir ris crest secondary who`s got the top 10 for the level position and is opting into triple-science. but then, what`s so much the difference. if i get into that school, i`ll probably be able to get top 10 too right. and who cares about their triple-science? they only have 8 subjects. and even if i get into the lousier classes, i also study 8 subjects. it`s not like there`s a whole wide world of difference, is there? and i`m starting to hate people who likes biology. for the reason that these people are a little cruel. they disect animals, and end their lives. the most important thing is that, they disect some animal parts for examinations or tests, which means they killed the animals, and instead of being sad, they`re happy for getting high marks. it`s like as if you`re being happy for killing animals. yucks! that`s how cruel mankind is.
oh yeah. i just remembered something. okays, i make myself clear first. i ain`t any gambler. nor do i like gambling. hahas~ today`s 4D 3rd prize is my hp no.! wahs~ 8119 lahs. hahas~ if i`m not wrong. and there`s also a 3998. the number of a lorry which once used to be my dad`s lorry`s number. well, anyway, that`s crap. didn`t know there would suddenly be 2 familiar no.s popping out. and the 1st prize.. i can`t remember the number, but i know it`s my home phone no. jumbled up, 9731. i don`t know what`s the no. lols~
i failed once again @ 7:45:00 pm
Friday, October 28, 2005
the journey of 1/5`04 and 2/5`05 has officially ended today. it all seemed so short. especially this year. can`t bear to leave this class which has a special bond in each and every one of us. i wonder how i would have survived these 2 years if not for all those 2/5-ivers.
amanda was a really wonderful chairman with a great sense of responsibility. she`s always getting the class together and putting in a good word for us.
a very clever person who always tops the class. and i think she has the power to motivate people around her to get good results. i guess she grew up on eating sweets. hahas~ but anyway, she`s one great person. and she`s rarely angry. a very cheerful girl. good luck for your studies and enjoy topping your class every year. hahas ((=
also, i`m sorry for hurting you last year. i was just so caring about playing. that i continued laughing when you`re already so angry. i`ve committed a sin, have i? really sorry to you.
chang horng though very noisy and playful, but he still does his duties. the vice-chairman elected because of the loud voice he has. and i guess it didn`t fail to keep us quiet sometimes. um.. perhaps a nice guy who has lots of questions during class. including nonsensical questions too. one who doesn`t think before talking.
then guangjie for keeping our class fund carefully and not embezzling it. we are fortunate to have a responsible treasurer like him. so our money doesn`t get lost easily. hahas. hmm.. quite smart guy bahs? but i think he`s someone who keeps playing computer games.
peifang for being with me all the time and helping me. though you`re not my first friend in this school, i think we`re quite close. hahas~ really grateful for spending so much time with me playing, chatting, crapping, taking photos etc. thanks for always being able to be with me when i`m feeling down. enjoy smuggling food into the library with ya. but it`s a bad thing to do. hahas~
ruimin for crapping with me when i`m so damn bored. hmm.. ruimin`s a real nice gal. i don`t know why the guys wanna make fun of you. but anyway, lots of thanks for being my listening ear and changing cca together. also, thanks for all those lame websites you gave me, sure they have brightened up my days when i`m bored. guess we can`t get in same class next year, can we? hais.. there would be no one to listen to my problems then.
qi`en for letting me "bully" her by stepping her shoes ONLY and nowadays i RARELY do that. um.. a clever person who loves poetry, is it? well, i declare i hate poetry and literature. but then, i don`t have to hate people who likes poetry. hahas~ qi`en is always the one going around asking, "are you all right? sure?" thanks for caring me or i would have died earlier. lols. joking. but i hope to trip you once again.
jasmine for always reminding us to bring things. my first friend in css, i guess? we`ve only been closer to each other after getting into same sec school. she loves science if i ain`t wrong. and she also draws those animes, not sure if she still does that. haven`t talk to her for a long time. sorry for losing your keychain on the bag last year with the guys ah. we didn`t mean it, were just playing. but i guess i shouldn`t have done that. hurt you, right?
charmaine. really grateful to you for staying up till midnight before the ipw deadline just to complete our project. and sorry for misunderstandings. i really wasn`t talking about you in the journal, was talking about some other guys. hahas~ thanks for always helping me pack the home econs food and also, you did most of the cooking.
celisse and binuan. the 2 of you are real cocky. as in funny. damn funny. always making me laugh during lessons. anyways, wherever i am, as long as you 2 are there, i guess i would be laughing my head off with all those stupid things you do. all the clicking of tongues and acting me and my "beng boyfriend" and asking those stupid questions during lessons.
althea and cynthia. you 2 are always doing funny things together. and making me lose my concentration in class. but it`s been fun laughing. it`s all so damn hilarious. all the acts you do. can be comedians when you grow up, i bet.
and the guys..
bryan and hoi meng. the 2 new guys who are together at sometimes. i don`t know what`s going on in their minds. they don`t seem to be paying attention in class. hahas~ and also, they`re most of the time together during breaks, talking and laughing loudly. still can`t figure out what`s it they`re doing.
darren, samuel, ivan. the trio. hmm.. those 3 always talking to their ownselves in class. like as if making a fool of themselves. but they`re trying to do just stupid things to make us laugh. i just hope they could stop talking to their ownselves so loudly.
nicholas and xinghao. i just included their name because we used to be in the same cca. and well, nicholas isn`t so that bad afterall. he`s just trying to be funny. and help. nicholas is just the "pro with video cams" while xinghao is the "slacker". i guess.
jian peng and kenneth. hmm.. still remember the science "project" we did last year on making an object that would hold the heaviest weight in water without sinking. hahas~ it was fun doing it. how you guys kept pouring the water and playing with it. also, running like crazy. and the both of you trying to see who could lead the correct way.
chin hou. KFC. hmm.. knew him since p5? and at that time, i only thought he was one who laughs all the time. but now, i know him as one who`s like perverse. having those stupid thoughts in his mind, how i wish he would go for a brainwash.
yujie and hongming. umm.. these 2 are also the contributing factors to the high level of noise pollution in 2/5. well, actually i guess they can be quite good. but being with them for science practicals sure is dangerous. looking at them playing with the knives. and mixing the chemicals. i`m just so afraid. and experiments always end up wrong with them.
shixu. umm.. don`t really know him that well. but he`s just one whom i ganged up with to make fun of amanda. and other than that, in the same cca as him. he seems to be able to paint well. but i`ve never seen him paint before. hahas~
and to all the other 2/5-ivers whose names weren`t mentioned, sorry for not mentioning your name but i guess you all have at least helped me in one way or another. so thanks and also thanks for including me in class discussions though i don`t give any suggestions at all.
my IPW group.
thanks charmaine for the written report,
binuan and celisse for the presentation slides.
and ms sri for helping with the website.
especially charmaine,
really a lot thanks for staying up so late together the day before the IPW deadline for the written report.
well, honestly, i thought we wouldn`t be so serious about our oral presentation because we`ve already submitted our project in. but i was wrong. the thoughts of being afraid and stuttering and presenting our project to the teachers made us work so hard for it. and we`ve finally made it. we scored quite good for oral presentation right? i`m sorry for pausing during my turn.
and also, i enjoyed the days we watched the project superstar replays and results replays before moving on to do our project. i didn`t know we`d all be so excited and spend an hour watching tv before doing the project. but it was fun.
alas, our hard work has paid off.
2/5 is a wonderful class. this 2 years we`ve spent together. we should have cherished all our days together as a class. 2/5`05 rocks on forever... in our hearts!
i failed once again @ 9:33:00 pm
the last day of school. and it`ll be holidays. i guess we`re all gonna miss 2/5. after 2 years, most of us are going to different classes. didn`t post yesterday cos i was so damn tired. start with yesterday.
assembly in hall. and went to computer lab for our EBiz challenge. thought it was some role-playing game or what.. hahas~ or something like that, with many characters. but it ain`t. it was some stupid game. probably had to do with econs. and i didn`t like the game at all, neither did i know what`s it about. the computer lab was so damn cold. after that, went for recess. and went back to lab. continued with the game. ain`t fun at all. we`re talking about what streams to choose. we ended before 1pm, so we went back to class. we`re too noisy. so teachers came in. did the survey. and after a while, went for lunch. most of us were like so unsure of what to choose. and i guess i`m the only one who hasn`t shown my parents my results. i was so indecisive then. really didn`t know what to choose. at a lost. after that, peifang wanted to call her father and ask him about opinions for streaming. and she wasn`t sure whether to call or not. so i told her to call and ask for opinions. went to the phone and amanda was using, probably talking with her father about streaming too. then i was like so jealous or guilty. i didn`t know. why do they have father whom they can rely on, and can ask them for help or opinions? and i only have a father who`s working 7 days a week and we hardly spend time together. let alone talk. after peifang finished using, we went up to lab. asked her if i should ask my mum for opinions. she said yes. but i wasn`t sure if there was time left. went to lab anyway. wanted to borrow phone from others. but then, suddenly they all came in and everyone was there. so i was too late. then, i was so confused, so mixed up. didn`t know what to choose. was hoping i could go to the toilet and call my mother for opinions or at least tell her my choices before i make the decision. but there just wasn`t any chance to do so. and mr elfie started to say things. started with those simple things. and as he went on, it became more and more serious things about streaming. and i really wanted to cry. for once, i wanted so much to tell my mother about my choices. i regret not deciding with her. i couldn`t hold on. tears start forming in my eyes. but i fought back the tears. i`ve never thought that streaming could be this bad for me. if only my mother hasn`t said all those disheartening stuffs, i would`ve shown her my results and asked for her opinions, maybe even considering seriously. but it didn`t happen at all. i didn`t want to show her my report book b`cos i no longer find the comfort, nor did i`ve the courage to tell her. i really tried hard this semester. but i think i couldn`t improve b`cos i got low marks for geography, design & technology and art. those subjects which were half-year. i no longer feel the sense of security when i`m with my parents. my father doesn`t care about me. and my mother laughs at everything, saying i`m so naive. it hurt me so much that i try to avoid telling them marks or whatever that`s got to do with studies. but i didn`t know why, why i suddenly wanted to cry when i was in the lab. in the end, i submitted without telling my mother. and ms shyam came in to say 19 were unsuccessful. i was 1 of them. i thought that i was probably given a chance to tell my mother about it. but again, i repeated that mistake. i did it all with my thoughts. after streaming, i guess many were feeling so happy and high. but i was still feeling the same mixed feelings. so sad. so jealous. so guilty. i really felt so sorry. but it wasn`t until when we took the class photos that i started feeling better. 2/5`s just a wonderful class. i can`t think of how next year is gonna be. how we`re gonna cope in the new environment. how the guys are gonna look like when they wear the long pants. how 2/5-ivers are gonna miss each other or not. how we would all look if we need to wear the new uniform. how we would all cope with our different streams. guess those are 2/5`s last memories. i thought we really have improved alot. in all aspects. i especially like the 2/5 figure we`ve made. though it was raining, but i guess the photos still came out nice. none of us cared about the rain at all, like as if a stupid rain`s gonna break our bond. although the one with us standing up looks more like 2/S, i guess it`s still a good shot. we`ve never been so united before. all the 2/5-ivers, each is different, and the most important thing is, we`re all united. or at least we`ve telepathy. it`s a special and unique experience for me with 1/5`04 and 2/5`05.
so about today. went to school. on the way, saw a dead frog. damn disgusting. with the internal organs or intestines at its mouth. yucks! and it looks so much like it`s skinned. then we did survey. and went to class. went see mr ah-choo for NYAA things. and he just flipped through my NYAA book and say i can go. duhs -.- lame. then after a while, went to hall. can`t really remember what we did. oh yeah, mrs teo was talking about those crap. about those achievements. dreadful. a school year ends this way and starts this way too. then it was choosing the new uniform. A sucks. it was either B or C. C is very simple. B is a little more than C. i chose B. then it was like recess. we didn`t go for it. instead, the performers got the props ready and rehearsed. we`re really bonded. then we went to the gallery. the last time for this year. i`m gonna miss sitting in the gallery. and then after the 5 min of fame, there was deepavali celebrations and prizes given out. though we didn`t manage to clinch any prizes, i still think that our class have performed well. after that, they announced the selected design for the new uniform. i was so damn surprised that mdm aishah said A. then it was just that she wanted to say how much votes each had. A had only 35. B had 500plus and C had 400plus. so B was chosen.
so that`s about it. another one of my long posts. cyas~
[missing 2/5]
i failed once again @ 3:40:00 pm
Wednesday, October 26, 2005
whee~ today was a nice day! i was so happy with my results today. b`cos we didn`t spend much time in class today. and that means no liang lu. hahas~ i`m so damn happy. though my percentage increase less than 1% and it`s still lousier than my mid-year. glad that liang lu didn`t say anything when he gave me my results. whee~ today was a boring day. 8-9 supposed to clean classroom. but we did nothing. hahas~ anyway, after cleaning. next year, there will still be dust. hahas. then we went for inter-class games. didn`t know about that at first. lucky brought along class tee. phew. then played. 2/5`2 lost 2 games! but it was fun. 2/5`1 won 2 games and drew 1. recess. and 3h talks straight immediately after recess. leg numb. after that, sec 2s still stayed back for results. after school, waited for peifang outside art club room. waited for like 1h plus. saw the teachers rushing for meeting. and ms teo was so damn funny. she ran to the meeting, thinking she was late. i think mr seah was the latest. and he got calls in the meeting. then mr chia was walking to and fro. and he was playing with his keys until he finally dropped it on the floor. at first, i was reflecting on my results. after that, i started enjoying myself watching the sec 1s playing soccer. they played like shit! at least i think so. then later switched my vision to the school field. i think the sec 3s were playing soccer. and i had a bird`s eye view of setting up a soccer post. good, yeah? lols. after that, we went for lunch together. let`s say it`s teabreak. didn`t have lunch. we ate fries, hotdogs and ice-cream. hahas~ glutton eh? didn`t have such a cheap and enjoyable meal for so long. i really enjoyed myself. then we were talking. but i forgot what we were talking about. later she bought i-weekly. newly arrived man. and on the way to the bus stop, we were talking. and i made a stupid(?) promise with her, that`s to put the same options. hahas~ we`ve already decided. so it`s 1st choice - B, 2nd choice - D, 3rd choice - A. lame right? yeah, thought it was rather lame. but it`s fun. and what the heck. damn it! i shouldn`t have failed this essay. or i would have gotten probably at least a B for english. guess what? i was so damn surprised when i saw that i got 69.6 for english 2nd continual assessment. i`m shocked man. how did i ever get that? damn it, guess that`s the best i`ve ever got in secondary school. i would be so proud of myself for that if not for failing the essay badly this time. wondering when we`ll ever know our streaming results.
now let`s talk about my report. i got 85 for level position. guess i`ve got to be contented with this right? considering i slacked for this whole year. i`ve dropped 66 places. i`ve enlightened 66 person. have i? nevermind. i love my remarks man! i show respect to my teacher and peers. good, right? but is it true? i guess it is. except for respecting liang lu and j tan. and i am a very quiet and conscientious girl. and um.. can`t remember other stuffs. but it`s basically all positive remarks. oh yeah, at the end, he said i should be more confident. but he didn`t say to be confident of what? and my personal qualities were good for top 2, very good for middle 2, and excellent for last. can`t remember which is which. lols. and what the heck. ms ng couldn`t key in my name and so i don`t get anything for art in my report. thanks to me for doing so much tiles. and thinking of a stupid name. it all still comes to a stupid thing.. right? no one cares.
i failed once again @ 8:14:00 pm
Tuesday, October 25, 2005
guess everything`s against me today. liang lu suan-ing me. liang lu trying to excite me. and maybe even liang lu cursing me? i don`t know. but i know 1 thing for sure, i`m under a curse. even when i sat on the chair, i almost fell for no rhyme or reason. then computer automatic shut down. [this have never happened before, at the most is only automatic restart.] then what the heck with stupid MSN that i couldn`t use it in the afternoon. then bumping into people for no reason. then no peace today. at school, i had to put up with liang lu`s suan-ing. then at home in the afternoon, i had to put up with the renovation works one storey directly above. then at home at night alone, there was umpteen phone calls. i can say maybe like 20 when i was bathing. see, like every moment, it`s no peace for me. i need to calm down, okay? someone recommend me somewhere it`s so damn quiet and peaceful and not crowded. but not those isolated places. if not, i`m gonna blow up soon. and i guess i`m sorry to nicholas for laughing stupidly at him for no reason. afterall, it`s so childish of me. it ain`t funny. afterall, he`s not that bad. i mean, there`re even worse people around, but the thing is, just try to co-operate with everyone. totally disappointed with my results. don`t wanna talk about it anymore. i guess everything`s fated. so, i guess i`m going for option D? though my physics is better. but i`m more interested in biology. i think i should go for my interests, rather than go for my better subjects which i ain`t interested in, right? i guess i`m someone whose wishes have never ever been fulfilled before. NONE! absolutely. i can`t even depend on myself, i`m so disappointed. guess that idiot`s gonna teach me chinese next year again? ahh.. nevermind. shall give him more problems yeah? thanks alot for suan-ing me all this while. now, i don`t wanna go back talking about it. can`t stand him. so i shall go for biology and chemistry. no way to physics. so tomorrow, we need to take class photos. and remember to bring our class tee. that`s all thanks to liang lu. he came up with this stupid idea. that everyone`s life.. only has 1 sec 2 time. no other. so must treasure it. oh well, what a nice thing right? you mean, he`s 1-year-old all the time? so in the end, i thought i was already quite satisfied with my examination results, but i guessed my overall was way worst off. but anyway, our sec 2 journey is like coming to an end. don`t wanna let it affect me too much. shouldn`t have neglected my studies too much in 1st semester. once i dropped, it`s very difficult for me to get back on track. but i did put in alot of effort this semester. compare my CA2 results with CA1. i`m sure there`s much more As. but oh well, it`s everything about work hard. anyway, i don`t think being clever is good. everyone`s so obsessed with being clever. being the genius. being the best. but if you realise, it ain`t gonna get you anywhere far in singapore. perhaps you might study for the whole of your life for a certain certificate. and you get it, and you die. and you didn`t even enjoy. right, what`s the point then? i think it`s better for people with those talented or special abilities to develop them. that`s better. somehow, i`m like so jealous of weijian. he`s like only 19. and he`s already fulfilled his dream, all by himself. so great! so i guess studying doesn`t get you anywhere far unless you`re those materialistic type. or those whose eyes would glimmer at the sight of money. hahhas~ haven`t told my parents my results. anyway, they can see it on friday. so, let `em wait then. what`s the rush? anyway, it`s me studying. ain`t them. i just hate the fact we have parents.
i failed once again @ 7:25:00 pm
back from school. just knew there wasn`t art club today. shouldn`t have wasted my precious time going. but i think we`re going back during holidays. damn it. hope not. just took my lunch of a packet of fries.
to begin with, today was a nice day at first, but later became a damn bad day. thanks to that stupid idiot liang lu. anyway, today wasted 1 period reading. and naive me thought lessons would be pushed up. damn it. then went back to class for survey. stupid surveys to kill our precious time. and that stupid j tan came in. damn it man! today really damn damn suay lah. tmd. she asked all of us for our parent`s contacts and talk crap. then when it was my turn, i was taking some time to recall my mother`s handphone no. later halfway liang lu came in. walk walk walk and bo liao loh. he those kind sure like that one. then he and j tan like wearing couple`s shirt or what. both their colour so similar. and they today like so close to each other. whatever.. don`t care. anyway, i doubt that IT illiterate liang lu would go round blog-hopping. and even if he does, i don`t care about it. cos he first suan-ed me today. then later inter class games. went down. damn hot. can`t open eyes fully. and those stupid ants keep crawling. later saw spider. decided not to sit there. blehs~ then after that recess. went to change. then go for recess. after that was practice for the STUPIDLY "creativity" show. liang lu came in. told us to discuss. so amanda briefed us all. later they crowded around. and i don`t know what the heck they doing. so didn`t bother. then that sucker liang lu call me go join `em. tmd! fan si ren. then the guys not discussing, he don`t care. cb. he blind lah. then later he too free or what. keep taking photos. fan si ren. then we all hide our faces. and that stupid childish liang lu climbed up the chair just to take some damn photos. how i wish he could fall and sprain his ankle and spoil his camera and knock his head. i don`t care. i`m not watching what i`m blogging. cos he suan-ed me. and i`m really angry. then later go there crowd loh. then later he showed us a clip of that chao ji bian bian bian. then later he said those who go online very often, can call `em go download and get some ideas. when he said that, i was thinking like, what the heck, illegal downloads learnt from teacher. then later he stated jian peng as an example. later he say, some girls also go online so often for so long. then i didn`t really heard that lah. cos i wasn`t really listening to the crap he said. then later he said my name, and i knew it was another bad thing. TMD! just how much must he suan me? very irritating. ccb lah. i endure very long already loh. then later he came back with our results. showed us by each subject first. then thought was okay. he sucks lah. people fail other subjects he don`t say. later he see i fail literature then he say, "wow! so many people`s literature so GOOD!" to excite me. ma de. this time round before moderation no As at all, call good ah. ccb lah! he idiot leh. really sou gou le. but for the sake of seeing my overall, i stayed and see. so i was 10 in class. same as mid-year. percentage think i dropped. then that stupid liang lu was reading out those clever people the position. i think he purposely. to excite me. but nevermind. i don`t care at all. didn`t expect him to read out my marks then i think he purposely said 11th position`s so i won`t think he trying to suan me. after that, he purposely go say, WOW! our class 10th is like 80th is level wor~. chee bye lah. this time i type out the word cos i really frustrated. ta ma de. can stop suan-ing me or not. people from good mood let you make until want cry liao. go hell lah. chee bye. he don`t like me then just leave it. but can don`t suan me so much in 1 day right? chao chee bye. kan ni na. i really sou gou le. i really can bei ta qi si. whole day keep suan-ing me. even if your hobby is suan-ing instead of teaching, can stop suan-ing me and turn to suan others? kao bei one. stop suan-ing me lah. very [chee bye]-ic you know. ta ma de. people do badly guan ni pi shi. people want to be stupid cannot ah? everybody knows your english sure fail one lah, maybe Z26 who knows, but people can get C5 people happy, you not happy, just laugh, just shut up, people fail literature, you can laugh and let your teeth drop, laugh all you want, but please stop saying things to excite me can or not. you think you clever, you go study lah. think you last in universe in those subjects loh. people want to fail is none of your business kaes? it`s my wish to fail, can? happy? you think you understand me alot meh? as if loh. you just believe everything my mother says blindly. and think you`re so very clever, and start suan-ing me. cHEE BYE! SUCKER! TA MA DE! KAN NI NA! KAO BEI! that`s all i wanna say..
i failed once again @ 2:47:00 pm
Monday, October 24, 2005
we`re gonna make our choice for streaming soon. and i`m here being still so indecisive. today started off with reading. spot-check. he didn`t check me though. he just asked where charmaine was. needless to say. people like me, so guai, i won`t violate school rules one right, that`s why he don`t wanna waste time checking me. he rather eat? hahas~ um.. so after that, i couldn`t concentrate on reading. looked around... and waited so long. until finally we`re dismissed. then went to class. chaos cos no teacher. went to toilet slack. then went back class. wanted to crap with peifang. but saw ms shyam coming. then go back seat. blehs~ she told us our total overall. and said some things. to end up all her lessons for the year. then after that was home ec. mdm aishah came. people went play scrabble. but i thought it was just a stupid and boring game. didn`t bother. crapped with peifang. later recess. did nothing. then go see the JC and poly posters. talking crap. blehs~ went assemble. stupid idiots talk stupid idiotic stuffs. went back to class. english. peifang wanted to ask for year overall, but i ain`t interested. knew i get C6. lols~ no point asking. then i stand up, then she say she move. so end up didn`t ask. anyway, i expect C6 lah. if you call me ask maths, i`ll ask. i`ll only ask for good things. not bad things. then later mrs yeo ownself come. and told me my essay was so really that damn lousy that one of the moderators wanted to give me a 5 out of 30. ahh! then she was interrupted by her students. so she went off, without completing what she wanted to say about the other moderator. so i was left there, thinking... reflecting.. then i just came to this conclusion that english is gonna do me in one day. first, it was maths. the reflex angle. i didn`t understand what is reflex. so i lost 1 or 2 marks. then geography too. about those maps thing. asking what congruent or whatever. and at that time, i didn`t know what was congruent. and again, i lost marks to it. now, it`s as well the whole essay. and i failed literature too. damn it! i`ve never ever passed any literature final examinations before. i really did my best for it. but i just had to fail it. what kind of sucking theory is this. i worked so hard. but i just couldn`t do it. hais~ it`s totally different from geography. i completely gave up on geography in the 1st semester and ended up with a 63.5%. but i told myself to work hard for literature. no matter how much i don`t understand about it, yet in the end, i`ve proven myself the fact that i can`t do it. in fact, i didn`t even give up. say whatever you want, but my level of understanding is low. anyway, teaching english by giving exercises isn`t for me. those stupid exercises have nothing to do with the examinations. so i do well in those stupid exercises. and went it comes to examinations with a totally different format from those stupid exercises, i do badly or FAIL. so next time, i think i`ll have to learn english through mathematics or science or any other subjects. why can we learn mathematics, science, literature, history, geography thru english, but not learn english thru those subjects? haix~ anyway, later was CME. most of the girls got A for it. and only 1 desperate guy got A. which is nicholas. lols~ then was talking about j tan. about fats issues. then some lame people like ruimin and gang, went to toilet during history to try out the clearasil thing? lols~ and i was wondering why they wash face wash so slow. hahas~ took so long. was history already at that time. ms ker came to ask if me and peifang staying in same class next year. told her we haven`t decide. haix.. streaming just sucks~ later decided to ask her stupid questions. asked her if she teaching sec 3 history next year. and she said she not sure yet. then she asked if she teach, will we still take history? and she said no? i nodded my head and said would take lah. but anyway, i can`t take literature. lols~ then later she walked to my table there. took my watch up, and asked if it was mine.. er. guess that was stupid. lols~ later she came to me and told me to remember to wear my watch to the assembly. lols~ oh yeah. i remember. i think during english. nicholas was trying to get into the class from the back. but i didn`t bother. just sort of squeezed him with that table. and laughed at him. then he somehow managed to get into the class. he looked at me, and asked me, "what`s so funny?" like as if i laugh, is his business. blehs~ i have the freedom to laugh okaes! hmph! think he`s so great ah? blehs.. always only do stupid things in class. later went assembly. no more gallery le. this time must go hall. long time no go gallery. i`ll miss the gallery. hahas~ so assembly was stupid crap talk about the clearasil things. blahs... wasted almost 1hour plus. blehs. if not can go home at 1 o'clock liao. later they talked about the 5 mins of fame. blehs~ stupid lah.. anyway, that`s our last effort as a class, i guess. hope can take part? lols. but i guess we would probably do stupid things... hais~~~ so nothing else today. ahhhhhh!
i failed once again @ 3:09:00 pm
Saturday, October 22, 2005
today didn`t do much at home. woke up and played hyper relay. it`s not that fun like gunbound or maple, or are they considered fun? hahas.. but it tests our reaction. so i just played it. then ate lunch. after that, brother used computer. so i watched Drink.Drank.Drunk with my mother. not nice one. so slept. until 4plus. then wait until 5pm. watched the channel U show. don`t know what`s the english name. until 7pm. half watching and half mopping floor. then 7pm went to eat. eat le then read newspapers. and half watching channel U news too. until like around 8pm then parents came back. then 8:30pm when my brother finally finished bathing, i went to bathe. then after that, came online loh. practically the day. whee! tomorrow taking bus 52. hahas~ i`m so excited cos it passes by NP and i can finally see how NP is and know where it is.
but i don`t know i should go poly or jc next time. blehs~
right now, i guess i can`t think so far ahead. it`s better for nature to take its own course. currently so damn bothered with streaming. don`t even wanna get back my results slip for this year. i know it`s gonna be bad. it`s so exaggerating to drop from 2nd to 10th. it`s sheer crap. i guess i`ll just be happy if i can manage to be even in the top 5 in class. can`t think so much. it all just sucks! haix.. triple-science or bio-chem? i have no idea. what ever with getting back our science results. why must my physics be the best among the 3? i hated it so much. should i take chem with physics instead? i don`t know anything. everything ain`t going right. haven`t told my parents about my marks yet. i just felt like it`s me studying. no point telling them. and i don`t wanna let em choose the stream for me. i don`t wanna study for their sake. it`s me studying. not em. i can`t make another mistake. i`ve already committed a great mistake by letting em choose my secondary school option. and i won`t ever repeat this mistake. i badly want triple-science. i`m willing to really study hard for it. but i don`t think i can make it into the class. everything is different now. i can`t make a choice. it`s just THAT difficult. or if i choose to go other classes, i`ll just continue being a hardworking slacker. i don`t know what to do.
another week. and i guess 2/5`s gonna split up. two-fivers entering different class. after 2 years, we`re breaking. just a cruel reality. no one can accept it. but everyone needs to face it. i just feel 2/5 is a class with very strong perseverance. although we`re noisy, we still produce results at the end of the day. for this EOY, we ain`t last for maths already. no one failed history. lowest was C5. i guess that`s a 2/5 achievement. and during sports day, although it was a bad start like as if there was a curse, we didn`t blame people. instead we were more concerned for others than the competition. yet, in the end, we still manage to get some winners. we`re people who aren`t disheartened easily. and i love the fact that we always manage to get away from punishments scot-free as a class.
whee~ next monday`s superfunkies will feature weichoong and derrick! i`ll not miss it. hahas~ definitely gonna watch weijian`s performance.
just now while sleeping in the afternoon, had a strange dream. dreamt that mrs yeo was seeing me personally. as what she had said about for the essay. does it signals bad? haix. i don`t know.
do i have any dreams to fulfil? i don`t wanna live for the sake of others anymore. i wanna fulfil my wishes. but i`m so saddened to see each opportunity pass by and each dream die off. is a miracle just possible? i always tell others to be optimistic. but now here i am, being so pessimistic. haix~
anyway, this is a long post in such a long time. and it`s all b`cos of streaming. that leads me to writing this. i don`t know what to do.
i failed once again @ 9:28:00 pm
Friday, October 21, 2005
blehs~ today was a short day at school. didn't enjoy the day. got back most of our papers except literature and cme i think. first thing we got was science. glad mr elfie took j tan`s lesson. or she might go on saying, "as far as cme is concerned, i think everyone should get at least a C". - J Tan. this is gonna be made famous soon. anyway, science was bad. many failures in our class. and my worse part was chemistry. but i failed by 1 mark. i couldn't believe this but anyway, i hate physics so much and i got 15.5 for it. hahas. like so damn tyco. highest among my 3 sections. as i said, science was just bad. no A1s. 2 A2s. then alot failures. haix. bad~ i got B4. hahas. tyco bahx. didn't study leh. only flipped book before examinations. then next was maths. i guess is still okay lahs. yay! A1.. hahas~ maths also tyco. but i did lots of practice until i was fed up. then was english. whee~ i did badly. 14 for compre. hahas~ at first it was 12. thought why so bad. then later check and it was 14. but still fail. hahas~ but summary better lah. 11.5 so didn`t fail for paper 2. mrs yeo told me my essay damn lousy. went off point. 3 checkers - 2 moderators, 1 marker. all say i cannot pass. kaos.. then gotta see her personally. guess really bad lahs. who knows? maybe 0. hahas.. anyway, no one failed for overall. so i guess don't need detain for english. other subjects i don`t know yet. after that was recess. didn`t feel like eating. then history. surprised that ms ker wasn`t in class yet. hahas~ everytime she`s like so damn early. today don`t know why late. anyway we got back our papers. highest across level was 92.5 damn pro lahx. highest in class was 87. 11 A1s. 12 A2s. im the majority one. A2 lahs. can`t get A1 for history le. no A1 for any humanities subject. blehs~ then it was chinese. did badly too. get A2 for overall SA2. if not paper 2 i get like B4. hahas~ from A1 to B4. then that stupid ll was over there saying, "this time exam cannot 'bei'(memorise), so SOME GIRLS who used to get high scores now very low scores." then keep smiling at me. er xin~ i wanna puke sia. then later he give us hols homework. siao lah. so many. tmd! then later PC he keep saying stupid crap, say until very fan lah. don't care him. just go sleep. hahas..
i failed once again @ 1:33:00 pm
Thursday, October 20, 2005
hais~ somehow i have this feeling in me. that i`m someone with no dreams. well, i do have dreams. i`ve dreams to fulfil. but there`s this one stepping stone. you know, a major one - which i guess most people have - and that`s my mother. she`s always stopping me and preventing me from doing things. i just can`t get it right. it`s like as if.. everytime my father is around, she`s so good to me. and won`t scold me at all. when my father`s not around, she starts scolding me and threatening me. what the ....! i don`t know what grudge i bear with her in my past life. sometimes i don`t even feel like this is family. i can`t get anything from this. let`s not say about materialistic. i can`t even get the feeling of family warmth and comfort. the warmth i get is probably from anger.. lately, i just feel there`s alot of things bothering me. anyway, i`m used to it already. people who don`t spare a thought for others. people who agree blindly. people who keep irritating others. i just have to put up with it. i see no point. but that`s just for the sake of living on, hoping for a stupid miracle which won`t happen.
wonder when we`re gonna select our streams. i just ain`t looking forward to it. people who keep looking down on us. it just sucks. just b`cos it`s 2/5. but what`s the big deal? we`ve got people commenting on us. commenting on how bad we`re. saying we`re stupid, trouble-makers, noisy, notorious and so much more. it`s just so childish of them to have these thoughts. b`cos we`re last so we`re last. but sometimes, last is better. i mean, who would wanna die first. and anyway, the teachers should know this. that we`re not classed according to our T-scores. so please don`t look down on us. that`s just like another stepping stone. always praising people from 2/1 to 2/4 and when it comes to 2/5, it`s like, the class famous for chaos. everything`s so unfair. they`ve never spared a thought for us before. all they ever have is their childish thinking. it`s like as if we`re doomed.
just hope i won`t be streamed into last class. not b`cos of the fact it`s last. but it`s just very irritating. i just want others who`ve been looking down on us to feel how we felt. but somehow i guess i have a possibility of entering that class. unless i can manage to squeeze into triple-science. i just don`t know.
blahs~ now i got to go. `cos there`s this obstacle blocking my way. calling me to HELP bring in the clothes. like as if she`s helping in any way. have she ever helped? i`ve been keeping in the clothes everyday and hanging the load of clothes everytime. does she ever HELPS?
i failed once again @ 6:04:00 pm
tired. woke up at 9am. walked around looking for things to eat. nothing to eat. went to bathe. felt very hungry. ate 1 banana. tasted disgusting. no choice.. cos i was really hungry. and there was nothing else to eat. after that went out. to harbourfront to eat. went to dine at dragon gate restaurant. the food is quite nice. that's the advantage of the a-la carte buffet. but the thing is.. around 85% of the items have prawns. so that makes everyone bored of it. and we ordered too much to finish. so we ended up throwing the food on the tables so we won't be charged extra for not finishing them. well, but then, guess that's the worse table i've ever seen. what a mess! it's like as if we don't know how to eat. after that, everyone was so full. went shopping.. nothing much. me and my cousin kept looking out for the nutritional facts of products. wondering how much fat they have in them. then later around 3plus. they settled down to eat. ate ice-cream and bread and drank coffee. i was interested in none. watched them eat. i just felt full. hahas~ then walked for awhile before going back home. reached home around 4:30pm. nothing to do. wondering how's the flyer job? hahas.. wish i can get employed by some kind souls. mum says she wanna take the new bus service 52 this sunday to explore. hahas~ i want too. b`cos it passes by ngee ann poly. hahas~ my stupid reasons.. i just wonder where NP is. so that's about the day~ feeling rather bored now.. school tomorrow. hope it won`t suck as much as i`m expecting it to. anyway, i can`t wish that my results are good already. cos everything`s done and cannot be changed. but i think i`ve done my best. especially for history and literature. the others i have nothing to say.
i failed once again @ 5:52:00 pm
Wednesday, October 19, 2005
today woke up at 7:30am. walked around until 8am. ate a piece of bread for breakfast. then it's 8:15am. don't be surprised at the rate i eat. hahas. after that, i went bathing and it was 8:30am. called peifang to tell her im leaving. to go her house. in the end, we were on the phone for 15mins. so i left at 8:45am. reached her house at 9:30am. went round playing at playgrounds and fitness corners. hahas~ then around 10plus went her home. she said channel U 10am got Food for Life. i wanted to watch. so switch on tv. wait so long still all advertisements. impatient. she watched the tv program listings again. she corrected her mistake and said it was 10pm. guess her piggy eyes problem getting worse. after that, go video conversation with my cousin. then we wu liao loh. then we 2 person play minesweeper with her. hahas. sure win one~ anyway, i one person play with her also can win. hahas~ but she's still first on the list! i`m behind her. i`m 2nd. hmph! blehs~ after that, peifang went to play maple. i nothing do. decided to take stupid pictures. waste her camera battery. hahas.. after that, we did stupid things. lame things. whatever. went to KFC for lunch at around 2pm. was a little full then. so i ordered Shrooms burger meal. and she ordered the chicken meal. she waste. she only finished one of the chicken. hahas! but then, if i were her, i might not even finish so much. we were laughing away at the chicken. it was so damn big. hahas~ like around the size of a McD burger. hahas~ after that she went back. i took 99 to jurong east blk 218. walked to the McD to ask for part-time jobs. they say they want those can work damn long ones. so cannot. so from there walked to IMM. ask again at McD. don't have. then go LJS ask. also don't have. go Mini Toons then see but is full-time. then Burger King don't have. blehs~ everything also don't have. hahas. walked back home. it was almost 5pm. argh.. tiring day. yay! im gonna watch YUMMY YUMMY today. nice show~ Ben`s so cute! hahas.. then planned to dl maple tomorrow. so can play. mum thwarted my plan. she`s not working tomorrow! hmph.. going out to eat again.. i just can`t understand lah.. she just so enjoys taking leaves to go out and eat. oh my god! is eating that important that she must apply leave? it's really funny.. definitely not looking forward to friday. guess we`re getting most of our papers back on that day. finding a new blogskin. hahas... so bored nowadays even before it is holidays~ hope to get a part-time job.
oh yeah.. and there's this very irritating site called www.firstgameshome.com which keeps sending me junk mails calling me to play pool. stupid! uhh.. but at first i thought it was people send me.. but now i think it's auto send. and the lame thing is each people send 3 to me. and all their hi-scores are the same at 11,543. is it like sheer coincidence or what? CRAP man! pissing me off.
i failed once again @ 9:22:00 pm
Tuesday, October 18, 2005
yay! just watched 6:30pm news. and weijian's been signed on by PlayMusic! cool.. hahas.. im so happy. cos he will be releasing album. lols. im just perhaps over-excited? hahas.. will be looking forward to his album. hahas~
i failed once again @ 7:03:00 pm
3 days of complete boredom at home. blehs~ and with high level of noise pollution. gonna be deaf soon. can't stand it. nothing to do~ there's no fun place in singapore to go to. there's nothing fun for me to do. there's nothing nice for me to listen to. there's just nothing for me! blehs~ guess it's gonna be like hell! blahs! argh.. looking forward to school holidays.. but need to go find jobs.. blehs~ but then i still wanna take up guitar! nothing to blog about.. nothing to say about~ blehs..
i failed once again @ 10:53:00 am
Monday, October 17, 2005
pre-exam.. stress!
post-exam.. sucks!
damn bored.. nothing do. feel like going out tomorrow. but nowhere to go. and no one to go with. at home is damn noisy. what the heck with the renovations going on above this storey.. it's like MUSIC VS DESTRUCTION! sucks!
okays.. so EOYs finally over! no celebration.. today went playing badminton and go playground too.. blahx.. then come back home awhile got this stupid renovations. non-stop until now. it sucks! giving me a headache. been editing photos all afternoon.
definitely not looking forward to friday. why can't the marking days stretch over the weekends? hahas.. well.. anyway, this CME exam is stupid.. asking us about school values. duh~ anyway, i cannot score as high as i used to. lols. all thanks to that j tan who keeps talking about her "experiences"
gonna ask my mum about guitar lessons later.. don't know if she allows.. but i really want it badly! haas~ i've fallen in love with guitars.. i love guitar.. blehs.. anyway, it's better to take up guitar lessons than to be bored up at home, right? lols. whatever. there's no nice game to play. there's nothing to do. i'm also addicted to editing pictures. hahas~ my hobby?? -.-
i failed once again @ 4:34:00 pm
Sunday, October 16, 2005
went to batu pahat yesterday.. nothing much.. the reason why i wasn't online. and today there's like flooding in malaysia.. thoroughly drenched.. and my poor feet.. had to step on muddy water. then today came back singapore... ahh nothing much else
i failed once again @ 8:06:00 pm
Thursday, October 13, 2005
blahs.. exams are finally over! whee~~ today science ended at 10am. then after that went to lot 1. take neoprints~ hahas.. we love taking neoprints after exams. took one $8 and one $9. hahas. i love the $9 one. it rocks. so nice! =DD hmm.. after that we go shop shop.. then hungry so went to eat the KFC spicy chicken drumlets. quite nice! we weren't supposed to eat that before oral, hahas~ but i just couldn't resist it. the posters are tempting me! while eating, we were discussing what to do later and looking at the neoprints. then i thought of going to a playground. so after eating, we walked there. um.. around 10-15 minutes walk from lot 1. went to choa chu kang park. actually i didn't wanted to go there. but then the one i wanted to go was way further... so we went to choa chu kang park. then we didn't play lah.. we took photos. hahas~~ so lame wors. but it was fun.. then climb here climb there~ everything also wanna take.. hahas~ end up taking 100plus photos? lols.. later walked back to lot 1 again. about 2:30pm already.. actually wanted to take 188 direct go back home. then peifang call me take MRT with her.. then thought that MRT would be faster.. so accompany her on the MRT. and went to JE. after that took 105 home. saw chingyang.. then later there were a stupid bunch of guys don't know from which school occupying the whole of the last row, just behind me.. and saying stupid things.. blehs~ very irritating. look at them, as if they look so matured, but they are so childish.. mimicking superhost's contestants and saying digusting things.. after that, 1 stop before alighting, saw mr chia. blehs~ then i pretended not to see him.. then later alight le.. i think got a slight drizzle. then went home.. now online loh.. so tired day.. im still gonna watch yummy yummy! so nice. ben rocks! he looks so cute.. like a mouse hahas.. but it's still so cute. and that hong kong actress. she's so chio!! lols..
i failed once again @ 4:08:00 pm
Wednesday, October 12, 2005
maths exam today. guess i didn't do well. especially paper 1. paper 2 i should have already deducted 5 marks. what the heck. hais. anyway since it's over. im not going to let it bother me. tomorrow's science. and after that, all the major exams are over. except for oral. but i don't know how to revise oral anyway.
guess this week's gonna be a difficult one for me. gonna go malaysia during the weekends. probably dead tired on monday. blehs. and no chance to see my brother. hahas. hate my mother. damn it. just because i refused to throw the rubbish, she locked me out of the house. sucks. but it's better without her anyway. umm.. well so, i slammed on the door twice and it created quite a loud noise. so mum, being afraid, let me in. hahas. eh, anyway, what she always does has no use. it only serves to make me braver than before and do bad things. well anyway, i guess someday i might do something bad once again, because she is forcing me to release my anger. so, who cares about her...
i failed once again @ 12:25:00 pm
Tuesday, October 11, 2005
today's literature exam was sort of special to me.. cos i had a lot of extra time. and guess what i did. i drew pictures of chip and dale, simba, snoopy, mickey.. etc. crap! hahas. anyway, i won't probably score good for literature. tomorrow's maths paper. i must do my best. hahas.. feeling bored now. usual exam days~ blehs. it just sucks.
i failed once again @ 11:41:00 am
Monday, October 10, 2005
whew`
1 exam down
3 more major papers
1 oral
1 cme
to go..
gosh~ how i wish this week can just pass man.. exams really suck. no doubt! hahas.. anyway, i screw my history exam. lols. -4 marks already. cool man.. i wrote wrong answer for the strikes and riots thing. should be due to politicial, social and racial & religious reasons. damn i write crapp man.. i wrote the reasons for riots and robberies in 19th century. i realised the mistake. but time was up.. anyway, what's over is over.. no amendments. just get it over.
don't really feel like studying for literature. guess im gonna screw another paper tomorrow? most probably. i love the pearl. but i hate poetry. just felt so much like - poetry? it sucks! that's it.. i don't even know what's the meaning of literature.. gosh.. i hate humanities exam.. a waste of my precious pen ink.. may MOE provide pens for exams.. my pen ink is gonna finish soon. before history exam there was like still half. after the exam, around a quarter left. see how exams are just a waste? waste of paper & ink..
ok so now im back at home.. wishing for so much things.. wishing for guitar lessons. wishing for many impossible things.. damn.. it's so bored now.. can't think of anything to do.. i wanna play games.. but i don't know what game to play.. the world is so big.. yet nothing interests me.. i rather be bored to death.. ahh~ i hate lonely afternoons at home.. then again, when mum comes back, she shouts and scolds for no reason.. after that, it's like cold war. then dad comes back. seems to know nothing.. and he's like so innocent. then morning wake up.. mum nags at me to go school. always saying "still don't leave, later late ah" as if man.. for more than 500 days, i've been going to the school at the same time range, yet i've never been late. it's like as if the school change assembly time. blehs. just so bored.. there's just no live in this family. maybe there's just too wide a generation gap. the parents just don't understand us.. they keep referring back..
oh man.. what a great time it was in the past.. saying "you don't know, last time we live in kampongs.. do this do that.." great.. when was the time machine invented? it's like as if they are still living in kampongs. get it clear, it's HDB flats. there's a whole world of difference man.. or perhaps they are just too dumb to get anything right. what do they know? it's like as if they know everything.. let's say.. they were forced to do laundry, cook, wash, look after siblings.. that's what they always say.. but i wonder.. don't they have a mother that does those things? or do they have a family of a million that so many people needs to help in laundry, cooking and washing.. the only things i think they do are watching shows in somewhere, play marbles, play 5-stones, play hopscotch, and maybe do some sewing? most of them don't study.. if they say that in their time, they were forced to do things they don't like.. i don't know what things they are referring to.. based on my analysis above. okay.. so what do they think? they think we enjoy the stress we have. they think we like exams.. they think we like taking examinations for certificates..
whatever it is.. they just enjoy to live so much in the early 20th century of theirs.. anyway, they piss me off..
i failed once again @ 12:13:00 pm
Friday, October 07, 2005
exams are coming..
another 3 days
and it's history
i really wanna do well for history
i know i can do it.
but i just don't wanna do it.
i don't know just what is happening.
i just wanna ace it, but it's just that difficult for me
literature..
i have no says about it.
i only know about the pearl
if only i could get a B4 for literature
and i would be elated.
somehow, no matter how hard i tried
i just can't understand literature..
i don't know what it's about.
i don't understand literary devices.
im just a stupid fool..
everything in a poem to me is imagery.
it makes no sense.
people can find irony in the poem, but i just can't
no matter how many times i read it.
i really hope i can just get at least a B.
for this might probably be my last literature paper.
mathematics..
i must get at least 80.
i can't let it go down.
i must continue to ace it.
66 to get A1 for my year overall.
but i must get better than an A1.
whatever it is, every single mark counts
as what ms shyam said.
double weightage.
science..
my best subject in CAs..
yet the worst in my SA..
why is it like that..
im gonna really work hard.
though i can't get it right out.
i must really do my best for this.
like how i did for ct 4.
english oral and CME..
im not caring much about CME.
as it is anyway, after the english oral
i may be spending the whole weekend in malaysia.
so. but what did j tan ever taught us?
she's so into terrorists attacks.
i don't understand a bit of CME.
i used to do so well for CME.
now i don't even know CME
'cos j tan's not teaching.
i really oughta put in all my efforts for oral.
that's probably gonna decide my english grades.
it's double weightage.
though it's most impossible for me to get A for english
i must just work hard..
chinese and english is over..
that's the rest..
can i ever get into triple-sci?
i badly wanna get in.
but who doesn't wanna get in?
my grades are falling.
it's most atrocious.
how many positions have i fell behind?
i know it myself..
i really regret..
why had i not studied hard in first semester?
i just feel so bad..
it can no longer be the same..
somehow.. i have this feeling
if i can't get into triple-sci.
i would wanna give it all up..
i see no point in me studying..
i guess im too stressed..
but again,
if i could somehow manage to squeeze into triple-sci,
i would really give it my all.
i would do my best..
it no longer matters much..
my dream might be dashed..
right now, i just wanna do my best..
strive for it..
i really can't bear to see people getting ahead of me..
i feel so bad for giving up earlier this year..
this musn't happen this time..
im probably doomed..
but anyway,
the teachers are all so good..
i musn't let them down..
i've really gotta do it.
how mrs yeo helped us with our essays and problems..
how ms shyam helped with the maths problems even when she's having a flu..
how ms ker spent so much time repeating and printing notes for us..
how mr elfie used interesting ways to teach us and entertain us..
how mr singh kept asking if we had any questions..
i really am thankful to them..
they are always there to help
a team of dedicated teachers..
forever helping us..
even though we were intolerable.
and also..
mr soh
somehow, he helped me pass my D&T.
although i get a C, he had given me much more than i deserve for my craftwork.
or perhaps, he felt guilty for spoiling the whole thing..
and..
mr liang lu..
somehow i hate him..
but i don't understand how i managed to get an A for CA2 chinese
i got a 50 for my journey to the west quiz..
i guess he somehow helped..
though he's irritating at times..
i still think he's okayy..
for keeping the whole class quiet
so that we can concentrate on studying..
all these teachers..
have an impact on my life..
i must do my best..
im not giving up till the end!
I CAN DO IT!
i failed once again @ 1:37:00 pm
Thursday, October 06, 2005
these few days in class.. im starting to become crazy.. especially today. about the whole day laughing in school. since examinations last thursday, i haven't enjoyed as much as today. during history we were still guai guai.. revising.. science also.. until after recess like suddenly become totally crazy. during maths.. we were playing with blu-tack. making ramen.. rings... purple gold... ruby... roti prata... etc. damn funny. then during english.. actually we wanted to revise. but ended up playing with those blu-tack again. after that literature, i was playing with the blu-tack thru-out his lesson. then don't know what mr singh or who said what then some people turned back and look at us.. and i realised it after a while. so i stopped laughing. then turned out mr singh was talking about cynthia. hahas. then peifang was not playing with blu-tack, so i go and ask her:" eh, you not making ramen ah?" and we ended up laughing. later she go colour some blu-tack purple and i ask her:"you making purple gold is it?" lols.. so whole literature lesson was laughing.. so fun today. then she bought i-weekly. got cute cute pictures of weijian. rocks man~ hahas.. he looks so cool even he's guang tou. hahas. nice! so nothing much
i failed once again @ 3:22:00 pm
Monday, October 03, 2005
got back maths common test. not so good. im so happy with my results! hmph! gonna work hard towards history.. because i found out that my 30% grade is still not that bad yet.. i thought it was 60plus.. but ended up it was better.. so i must really do my best for the end of year exam. i must at least 80 for my history in report! my humanities already worse enough. history must be better. science also must work hard. maths and literature are those which are quite comfortable. so i don't need to mug in the dead of the night.. hahas.. lols. there's PE tomorrow. hope can play soccer. today we made pancakes. made a whole mess. hahas.
i failed once again @ 5:41:00 pm
Saturday, October 01, 2005
today woke up at 12pm. then went down for breakfast. saw 2 sec 1s from our school. both living in same block one. blehs~ then later watch television. almost 3pm liao i go sleep again. sleep until 6plus. hahas. then wake up. go eat again. then go bathe. then eat dinner. hahas.. now playing computer. so shuang.. =x but of cos, there's bound to be exam stress manx.. hahas.. and what the heck. i still can't see my new blog. damn it!!!
i failed once again @ 7:59:00 pm
