Friday, October 07, 2005
exams are coming..
another 3 days
and it's history
i really wanna do well for history
i know i can do it.
but i just don't wanna do it.
i don't know just what is happening.
i just wanna ace it, but it's just that difficult for me
literature..
i have no says about it.
i only know about the pearl
if only i could get a B4 for literature
and i would be elated.
somehow, no matter how hard i tried
i just can't understand literature..
i don't know what it's about.
i don't understand literary devices.
im just a stupid fool..
everything in a poem to me is imagery.
it makes no sense.
people can find irony in the poem, but i just can't
no matter how many times i read it.
i really hope i can just get at least a B.
for this might probably be my last literature paper.
mathematics..
i must get at least 80.
i can't let it go down.
i must continue to ace it.
66 to get A1 for my year overall.
but i must get better than an A1.
whatever it is, every single mark counts
as what ms shyam said.
double weightage.
science..
my best subject in CAs..
yet the worst in my SA..
why is it like that..
im gonna really work hard.
though i can't get it right out.
i must really do my best for this.
like how i did for ct 4.
english oral and CME..
im not caring much about CME.
as it is anyway, after the english oral
i may be spending the whole weekend in malaysia.
so. but what did j tan ever taught us?
she's so into terrorists attacks.
i don't understand a bit of CME.
i used to do so well for CME.
now i don't even know CME
'cos j tan's not teaching.
i really oughta put in all my efforts for oral.
that's probably gonna decide my english grades.
it's double weightage.
though it's most impossible for me to get A for english
i must just work hard..
chinese and english is over..
that's the rest..
can i ever get into triple-sci?
i badly wanna get in.
but who doesn't wanna get in?
my grades are falling.
it's most atrocious.
how many positions have i fell behind?
i know it myself..
i really regret..
why had i not studied hard in first semester?
i just feel so bad..
it can no longer be the same..
somehow.. i have this feeling
if i can't get into triple-sci.
i would wanna give it all up..
i see no point in me studying..
i guess im too stressed..
but again,
if i could somehow manage to squeeze into triple-sci,
i would really give it my all.
i would do my best..
it no longer matters much..
my dream might be dashed..
right now, i just wanna do my best..
strive for it..
i really can't bear to see people getting ahead of me..
i feel so bad for giving up earlier this year..
this musn't happen this time..
im probably doomed..
but anyway,
the teachers are all so good..
i musn't let them down..
i've really gotta do it.
how mrs yeo helped us with our essays and problems..
how ms shyam helped with the maths problems even when she's having a flu..
how ms ker spent so much time repeating and printing notes for us..
how mr elfie used interesting ways to teach us and entertain us..
how mr singh kept asking if we had any questions..
i really am thankful to them..
they are always there to help
a team of dedicated teachers..
forever helping us..
even though we were intolerable.
and also..
mr soh
somehow, he helped me pass my D&T.
although i get a C, he had given me much more than i deserve for my craftwork.
or perhaps, he felt guilty for spoiling the whole thing..
and..
mr liang lu..
somehow i hate him..
but i don't understand how i managed to get an A for CA2 chinese
i got a 50 for my journey to the west quiz..
i guess he somehow helped..
though he's irritating at times..
i still think he's okayy..
for keeping the whole class quiet
so that we can concentrate on studying..
all these teachers..
have an impact on my life..
i must do my best..
im not giving up till the end!
I CAN DO IT!
i failed once again @ 1:37:00 pm
