Tuesday, October 25, 2005
guess everything`s against me today. liang lu suan-ing me. liang lu trying to excite me. and maybe even liang lu cursing me? i don`t know. but i know 1 thing for sure, i`m under a curse. even when i sat on the chair, i almost fell for no rhyme or reason. then computer automatic shut down. [this have never happened before, at the most is only automatic restart.] then what the heck with stupid MSN that i couldn`t use it in the afternoon. then bumping into people for no reason. then no peace today. at school, i had to put up with liang lu`s suan-ing. then at home in the afternoon, i had to put up with the renovation works one storey directly above. then at home at night alone, there was umpteen phone calls. i can say maybe like 20 when i was bathing. see, like every moment, it`s no peace for me. i need to calm down, okay? someone recommend me somewhere it`s so damn quiet and peaceful and not crowded. but not those isolated places. if not, i`m gonna blow up soon. and i guess i`m sorry to nicholas for laughing stupidly at him for no reason. afterall, it`s so childish of me. it ain`t funny. afterall, he`s not that bad. i mean, there`re even worse people around, but the thing is, just try to co-operate with everyone. totally disappointed with my results. don`t wanna talk about it anymore. i guess everything`s fated. so, i guess i`m going for option D? though my physics is better. but i`m more interested in biology. i think i should go for my interests, rather than go for my better subjects which i ain`t interested in, right? i guess i`m someone whose wishes have never ever been fulfilled before. NONE! absolutely. i can`t even depend on myself, i`m so disappointed. guess that idiot`s gonna teach me chinese next year again? ahh.. nevermind. shall give him more problems yeah? thanks alot for suan-ing me all this while. now, i don`t wanna go back talking about it. can`t stand him. so i shall go for biology and chemistry. no way to physics. so tomorrow, we need to take class photos. and remember to bring our class tee. that`s all thanks to liang lu. he came up with this stupid idea. that everyone`s life.. only has 1 sec 2 time. no other. so must treasure it. oh well, what a nice thing right? you mean, he`s 1-year-old all the time? so in the end, i thought i was already quite satisfied with my examination results, but i guessed my overall was way worst off. but anyway, our sec 2 journey is like coming to an end. don`t wanna let it affect me too much. shouldn`t have neglected my studies too much in 1st semester. once i dropped, it`s very difficult for me to get back on track. but i did put in alot of effort this semester. compare my CA2 results with CA1. i`m sure there`s much more As. but oh well, it`s everything about work hard. anyway, i don`t think being clever is good. everyone`s so obsessed with being clever. being the genius. being the best. but if you realise, it ain`t gonna get you anywhere far in singapore. perhaps you might study for the whole of your life for a certain certificate. and you get it, and you die. and you didn`t even enjoy. right, what`s the point then? i think it`s better for people with those talented or special abilities to develop them. that`s better. somehow, i`m like so jealous of weijian. he`s like only 19. and he`s already fulfilled his dream, all by himself. so great! so i guess studying doesn`t get you anywhere far unless you`re those materialistic type. or those whose eyes would glimmer at the sight of money. hahhas~ haven`t told my parents my results. anyway, they can see it on friday. so, let `em wait then. what`s the rush? anyway, it`s me studying. ain`t them. i just hate the fact we have parents.
i failed once again @ 7:25:00 pm
