Wednesday, November 09, 2005
blogging once again. perhaps i`m suffering from something called post-streaming results sickness. hais. econs? somehow i really feel it isn`t for me. i`ve always known i`m weak at humanities and all i did was nothing but went forward taking a big risk putting my 1st choice as triple humanities because peifang was putting that too. then secondly, i`ve always wished to go into a poly but right now, here i am, waiting for around 2 months to pass before i start studying a JC subject. then, i do not like business yet i still chose something for business. oh god, how more dumb can i get? i really feel darn stupid. it`s like crap. why am i doing something that`s so stupid? triple humanities? econs? JC subject? business? does it all fit me? well, none does. i`m feeling useless now. i feel so much like giving up even before i`ve even started. isn`t that gonna make me out to be a total failure. anyway, i`m still quite a bit surprised. not as surprised as yesterday though. and still figuring how i managed into econs. i still don`t understand. i`m just a slacker who doesn`t cares much about study. and then, they stream me into econs without the consideration of others who fared better than me. gosh! what`s the world coming to? i really don`t know. but i feel strange. how liang lu wrote that comment in the report that i show respect towards teachers and i can work well in teams despite him knowing i don`t respect him and i`m always reading or sleeping when there is class discussions. then now, i got into econs despite my lousy results. i don`t know what`s happening. oh yeah, i wonder what`s my register number. is it 2 once again? hahas~ i hope so. i love the number 2 which brings me luck. and i somehow am fated to be with jasmine. always streamed into same class as her. from P4 to P5 then P5 to P6 then P6 to sec 1 then sec 2 to sec 3. hais. when it comes to streaming, perhaps 6 is fated with me too. well, from P4 to P5 i got into same class as 6 people from P4 class. if i`m not wrong. then later P6 go 1/5 6 people from jps went same class as me.
你的心情总在飞
什么事都想去追
想抓住一点安慰
你总是喜欢在人群中徘徊
你最害怕孤单的滋味
你的心那么脆
一碰就会碎
经不起一点风吹
你的身边总是要许多人陪
你最害怕每天的天黑
但是天总会黑人总要离别
谁也不能永远陪谁
而孤单的滋味谁都要面对
不只是你我会感觉到疲惫
当你孤单你会想起谁
你想不想找个人来陪
你的快乐伤悲只有我能体会
让我再陪你走一回
i was looking for lyrics and i found this. it`s dang ni gu dan ni hui xiang shui by zhang dong liang. and i found that this was quite suitable.. somehow..
i failed once again @ 1:45:00 pm
