Thursday, November 24, 2005
well.. i can`t figure out what is wrong exactly. but it certainly doesn`t pay to have a family like mine. sometimes i feel more like a MAID than being the youngest of the family. this god damn mother of mine calls 3 to 5 times per day during the holidays. for people who like your parents and treasure them, you may think they called because they cared about you. but this certain one is different, she calls to order me to do things like mopping the whole house, bringing in the whole load of clothes and hanging out the ones in the washing machine, help her with this and that. i`m not your MAID! and even when going overseas, i`m not let off! she makes me go overseas not for that simple reason of letting me enjoy myself and relax. but she uses me more like a slave. making me carry all the clothes and whatever stuffs. and guess what she takes? she only takes the passport. i guess i`m an outcast in this family. everyone else has had a ride on dad`s motorcycle already. and after like half a year has already passed, i still don`t know what`s the feeling of being on a motorcycle. it`s like as if the motorcycle is their treasure and me being an outcast, am not allowed to touch it. so everytime we go out, the 2 shall take the motorcycle. and poor me, shall rely on the public transport to get me to where i need to. i can only say it`s PATHETIC! well, but i just wonder. when was the last time they got me a birthday present? or when was the last time they gave me something which i was really yearning for? anyway, i guess if such things did happen, then it must be like years ago! way long back into the years when i was still an innocent kid. parents who would take leave to accompany their child.. mine is sort of special. they take leave to bother me. if not, they would take leave and go out themselves, leaving me alone at home. and compared with my brother, his life is far better than mine too. where he has freedom, branded stuffs etc. not that i want branded stuffs but i do want some freedom! he has a TV, VCD player in his room and even a TV antenna. for me, i have those junks like ironing board and sewing machine which i don`t even use at all. how about compared with other people who has about same family background? some already have their own personal computer, MP3, laptop, games CDs, albums etc. mostly from their parents i suppose. i should say i have only 3 albums which i bought by myself. and the others are all OUT. i have neither! not even say from my parents. i`m really sick and tired of leading this kinda life! and lastly, money is safe to be by my side. never entrust them with my parents who always claim to deposit them in "banks". river banks, i suppose.
i failed once again @ 1:27:00 pm
