haix.. i`m just feeling so stressed.
homework.. projects.. well, that`s MY life.

just finished my journal. tried my maths.
but seriously, i don`t think anyone can believe that i can only solve 1 question out of the 7 questions. just don`t know how to do...
need to do geography workbook corrections.
economics essay due on thursday. not even half done.
e maths 300plus questions on thursday. i`ve only done half.
and do 150plus questions within 2 days. HELL!
history need to find info on sun yat-sen.
BLAH.. whole list for me to complete...
tell me, how am i gonna complete them lah?
WELL, since i`ve decided to complete my homework and pay attention in class, i shall stay up late then, what else? sleep-deprived. i`ll just be a panda lah..

today was rather sian..
quek didn`t come today.. 1 free period.
maths, get back common test. not as what i expected.
but since she say can`t do that way, let it be.
she`s just got authority.. blah!
i seriously hate her. why does she bother so much?
history. got back our class test.
i`ve like forgotten completely about it already...
anyway, i bet i got the lowest lah.. 3 marks. WTF!
anyway, i`ve expected to fail lah..
RECESS!
geography. nothing much happened...
mother tongue. nothing much happened..
except that lianglu was like darn surprised when i didn`t do my work.
wah lao! why does he expect so high from me?
like if others don`t do, i`ll also do no matter what.
i just wished i could do all this. but everything has changed.
i`m just unable to do my work anymore.
i just stand aside and watch them pile up..
just so fed up with myself.. it`s just that lianglu doesn`t know..
chemistry. SUCKS! dismissed at 2:30pm.
i don`t wanna start hating another teacher who`s so kind.
but i really wish she don`t make us stay so late for practicals.
not even time for a 1 minute break. dismissed at 2:30pm..
and rush for CCA.. like what the heck!

there`s geography remedial tomorrow.
hope there`s no science remedial.
LOL!

i failed once again @ 9:47:00 pm

supposed to do geography workbook now.
but somehow, i don`t have the drive to do so.
GRR! i`m so fed up with myself. told another lie.

anyway, sian rule of wearing tie before entering school.
i shall then wear my tie on mondays before leaving home.
but i hate wearing ties. bet that`s gonna suffocate me.
at least don`t have to button the 1st button. or i`ll die.
started off with english. was feeling kinda strange.
kinda distracted. thinking about other stuffs.
not focused on what she was saying. but nevermind.
maths i got a bit better. a bit into the lessons.
GRR! then that mrs loh told joanna to guide me.
damn it. but at least, it`s better than she herself.
but anyway, she said she`s gonna return common test tomorrow.
WHATEVER! hate her. why must she rip me of my freedom?
RECESS! finally..
chemistry. did corrections for common test.
and i was doing my corrections + maths remedial worksheet.
HAHA! finished it so fast. then she gave us time to study physics.
like 2 or 3 minutes only lah.
anyway, after common test was assembly.
then after that, went to find mdm ros.
and i lied to her.. GRR! i really hate myself.. why should i keep lying?
i can see she`s kinda like angry. yet i just lie to get away from it.
HAIX..

went for remedial. no chinese remedial.
then maths remedial already finished.
but i just stayed to complete my barron`s to date.
and also my chinese that book.
then went home le.
SIAN..

completed nearly half of my maths already!
GRR! i`m gonna hate maths real SOON if she continues being like that..

damn. haven`t done my art masterpiece.
doubt i even have drawing block. haix...

i failed once again @ 9:40:00 pm

went to tanjong pagar last night.
had dinner at Ai Sukiyaki. new japanese restaurant there.
it was buffet dinner lah. ate lots of sushi.
then i remembered that i was taking something, can`t remember what. but i took only 1 piece of it. and that guy was staring at me. and later, that guy look like one whole lot of salmon, like perhaps 10 pieces. then he keep taking non-stop. HAHA! i kept wanting to laugh. he was so funny.. and i stared at him like how`s he gonna finish so much salmon.. then he gave me that innocent look on his face.
took a stroll to the MRT station later. then realised that the service has just resumed. but i`m still wondering why it did stop in the first place.
reached home at 9plus. slept at 11plus.
dreamt of giraffe. don`t know why though. strange.
i dreamt that he was totally a different person from what he used to be.
didn`t think of that so much though..
then was awaken at 5plus by my mother who was cooking and making din.
tried to sleep, but then awaken again by HER at 6plus watching tv.
later she finally went out, so i finally slept. and woke up at 9plus.
afternoon went out to jurong west to change the nosepiece on my spectacles.
and my mother dropped my spectacles on the floor.
the lenses dropped out! and now, both of them are scratched.
big scratches! HMPH! i`m so angry. i took so good care of this pair of spectacles.
everyday, i wipe it with the cloth. and wash it occasionally.
and she dropped it. and LAUGHED! and now got scratches.
GRR!!! anyway, later she was looking at the clothes.
then it was taking so long. and i started to think of that dream.
wondered if he really changed that much. but anyway, i shouldn`t even think of him. then i suddenly felt that i ain`t supposed to know him. haix.. so strange feeling..
and later was at the bus-stop waiting for bus. and there`s this guy who alighted the bus and kept looking at me. so i looked back at him for a short while only lah. and i felt that he`s my primary school close friend. but i`m not sure. and if it was him, he`s changed alot. and i started to think of everything. and the dream again.. haix. don`t know what`s happening..
on the bus, i was feeling so mixed up. why did i have to dream of giraffe and meet someone who looks so much like my primary school close friend? but i don`t know why. i just came to this conclusion that i`m not destined to be with them b`cos of everything that`s happening and going to happen soon...
reached home. tried to do my maths homework but i just can`t get the answer. and i was fed up after trying so many times. gave up on it. i just couldn`t focus. it wasn`t like the normal me who could do those easy indices questions anymore.
though i don`t like/love anyone now.. but i don`t understand why i dreamt of that. were we even meant to meet? i don`t know what kinda feelings i had.. but i wish it was just simple puppylove. yet why do i still remember that dream and keep thinking of it now? why do i even want to try interpreting it in the first place? why do i get so distracted by the dream? why did i even dream of that? haix.. i feel so strange.. mixed up.. confused.. i thought maybe i can concentrate better without him.. but i`ve only realised i`m thinking of much more.. i`ve tried to forget everything.. but why does things happen again? i really want to focus on schoolwork and other more important areas.. yet i dream of him for no reason, after i`ve probably forgotten about him.. haix.. i shouldn`t even know of his existence. i really wonder what does that dream means now? why is it this time that i have this dream? i feel like i`ve just got a breakdown.. i can`t continue trying to forget everything.. it just comes back to me so naturally everytime..

i failed once again @ 5:45:00 pm

it`s finally a saturday! no school. GREAT!
but then, it`s still gonna be a busy one for me.
right now, i`m again alone at home. LOL!
and that time, i think on radio? i heard that people who are quiet is probably because they are left alone at home or with a maid, and have no one to talk to. which is exactly the case for ME!

anyway, i`m supposed to do my homework.
remember that whole list yesterday! AHH!
mum`s gone to the travel fair at Suntec already.
hope i can go overseas during march holidays.
HAHA! but then again, it`ll be damn busy lah.

later going to tanjong pagar there.
for dinner at some japanese restaurants.
which is japanese buffets! YAY!
i`m lame lah. LOL!

not sure if i still have drawing block.
GRR!

and i wanna change that nosepiece thingy on my spectacles.
i`ve no idea why they`re turning green.


off to do other stuffs..
HOMEWORK?

i failed once again @ 2:31:00 pm

hmm.. wasted lots of time today. but i think it`s fine.
friendship is always more important than tests cos tests ain`t got feelings.
HAHA! but it was quite fun lah.

today was quite okay bah.
started with PE. had to run 3 rounds only.
but i slacked at the thought of 3 rounds and i probably came in last.
LOL! i promise i won`t slack... i really won`t.
then we went to play frisbee. learnt to throw it.
i was suay suay facing the glaring sun..
eh, i`m seriously dumb. priscy was throwing the frisbee.
she`s hit erika with it already and i didn`t even look out for the frisbee she threw.
but luckily, it only ended beside me. perhaps just touch my leg.
then the 2nd time, mr lim was demonstrating to the whole class.
he threw the frisbee real high into the air. then i couldn`t see it.
later turn my head again, then saw it very high and far.
and suddenly, it dropped beside me. like what the heck.
i`ve got no feelings it`s coming. well, just lucky it didn`t hurt me.

it was e maths today, cos we wanted that.
and at first, it was real sucky.
she was sort of indirectly suan-ing me bah. sort of..
i was damn bo song.
and she still gave an indices worksheet 220++ questions.
we`ve gotta do all by next thursday. SUCKS!
i wanna take 0 to divide SUCKS to give me the answer infinity.
anyway, i was drawing on my notebook about how UNIMPORTANT that was.
but then, the next period, it turned better.
i just hope to clear all misunderstandings of her.
and even if she hates me, i hope she`ll just POINT IT OUT to me.
instead of beating around the bush.. i can`t stand this.
just be straightforward. say it in front of the school i also don`t care.
as long as it`s STRAIGHTFORWARD..

then it was physics. NICE! she wasn`t angry.
i`m so happy.. she thought us what was out of the syllabus.
and she taught us all those acceleration, velocity stuffs.
it was finally back to those fun lessons already, which i`ve been yearning for.
and i enjoyed myself. all of us laughing at her craps.
she said so clever when we told her we an alternative way to find distance.
and we broke into laughters. i really LOVE her..

RECESS!

economics. guess what? he stuffed us with homework.
i`m still not prepared to know how thick it`s all gonna be.
but economics is real fun.. i`m just gonna pay attention.
i love economics! ((:

CME! david ng came. yay! ruth ng won`t be back till march.
most probably lah. and i`m so happy. like everyone else is.
LOL! he thought us economics again.. HAHA!
i simply like him. he`s starting to be our tutor already.
but we shouldn`t take him for granted.. i still feel we should let him teach us CME.

geography. we went through the tables for the tropical forests.
mdm ros seemed to be in a good mood today.
HAHA! stanley was saying 32 when mdm ros was randomly picking register numbers.
and she really said 32. so his file got checked. seem kinda funny..
oh yeah, and she told me to collect the worksheet on monday.
i just hope i won`t forget to DO it or COLLECT it..

after that, i took a long time to pack my bag.
`cos it was so heavy. but i don`t feel like it.
anyway, just squeezed the books in and went to library.
then waited for like half an hour. sec 2s were noisy.
HAHA! reminded me of our IPW days..

then we went to JE library together.
went popular first. then went mac to eat.
after that i went unimax to bind my geography workbook.
that guy was real luo suo.
finally proceeded to the library.
took stroll first before finally settling at the 4th level.
spent like an hour plus there catching up with each other.
instead of studying for physics. but at least, i had FUN!

after that, 5plus.. accompany peifang go popular again.
then later she took mrt and i went to ntuc walk around.
later walk out and went to nearby shops to see.
and finally went for dinner with my mother...
and i finished the whole can of limeade so fast. i was damn thirsty.
went home after that.. took a bathe.
now i`m trying to concentrate on my geography workbook.



yeah anyway, this march holidays i`m gonna work hard.
i`m gonna re-copy my notes for geography and economics.
and i also wanna buy JJ Lin`s cao cao.
but i want Gong Shi Jia`s new album too.. don`t know what name.
LOL! anyway, i`ll try to get at least JJ Lin`s one.
as for Gong Shi Jia`s, shall see if i`ve the monetary means..


haix.. hope to go overseas during march holidays.
seriously hope to. i wanna take a break.
but i doubt i can.



weekend homework:-
1. E Maths WS Written Work by Thursday 2nd Mar
2. E Maths HW in notebook by Tuesday 28 Feb
3. 2 Economics Essays with LOADS of graph by Thursday 28 Feb
4. CME WB p13 to 14 or something like that by Thursday 28 Feb
5. Geography WS by Monday 27 Feb
6. Geography WB p60-61, 68-69 by Tuesday 28 Feb
7. Art Club poster by Tuesday 28 Feb
8. Art Club Scrapbook by ??
9. English Groupwork by Thursday 2 Mar

basics:-
1. Barron`s 1100 words
2. English News Article
3. Econs News Article

musts:-
1. STUDY for physics common test

remedials etc.:-
1. Chinese Remedial on Monday 27 Feb, 2:30pm
2. Maths Remedial on Monday 27 Feb, 3:30pm
3. Art Club on Tuesday 28 Feb, 2:30pm
4. Geography Remedial on Wednesday 1 Mar, 2:30pm at AVA
(unsure of sciences` remedials)
5. English Remedial on Thursday 2 Mar (time and venue unsure)



no need to remind me of MORE stuffs...
neither do i want more stuffs to pop up!

i failed once again @ 8:11:00 pm

afterall, today`s english remedial was at AVA.
and it lasted for 1 and a half hour.
damn boring lah. and kelly lim was making strange expressions.

anyway, i feel rather guilty.
i`ve been underperforming all this while.
i`ve already known this since long ago.
and i`m always slacking in class.
but i`ve just never felt guilty.
until today when ms liao wanted us to do reflections for our common test.
when i saw my marks, i could only feel lucky.
that was like totally different from last year.
haix.. ceteris paribus, i`ll be the bottom of the class.
i feel so bad ripping others who badly wants to come to this class and not doing my best still.
i just feel like breaking down. it`s just so bad.
i`ve been PASSING! yeah, but with half-marks.
and except for maths, they aren`t careless mistakes.
it`s purely b`cos i don`t know anything at all.
and so far, i think latimer and mrs loh have identified me.
i know it`s my fault. but i just can`t help it.
and somemore, i`m the most attentive during their lessons.
other lessons, i`m not even taking down notes.
haix..

i feel so bad.

i failed once again @ 8:00:00 pm

GRR!
there`s ENGLISH remedial tomorrow.
extra 1 hour with latimer. OMG!
at least i ain`t the only one suffering under her clutches.
3/4 people joining us tomorrow too.
not sure of the venue. hopefully is theatrette.
or i`ll be sweating terribly in class like last week.
LOL! i feel so bored during remedials.
but if go theatrette, i can`t daydream leh.

GRR!!
but at least dismissed earlier on friday.
glad that it`s friday soon.
i just wanna sleep all my troubles away.

i failed once again @ 7:16:00 pm

today was BAD, except for coming back early.
started school with history first.
i did FIND the pictures, but i forgot to print it out in a hurry to switch off the computer last night, so i had to come up with an excuse and say that my printer`s ran out of ink.
i don`t feel like starting the day off with a lie, but you can`t expect me to tell her that i forgot to print but i remember to find. that`s a very stupid answer...
then we had mother tongue, though i thought it was maths.
had to move into our study groups lah. and i just shifted to the table beside me with all my other subject homework without my CHINESE book. that`s like utterly stupid thing to do.
it was maths. it was truly a BAD day for me, especially during maths. she starting to learn our names, nothing wrong. and i was the suay one today. she asked me what we learnt yesterday. so i just said nature of roots. she had no reaction, then thought she didn`t hear me. so i repeated my answer and she said, watch your lines. and i was like ??? then they were all asking me to stand up. WHAT THE HECK lah. answer then need to stand up. like you so grand, FUCK lah. want me stand then call me stand before i answer lah, make me say so many times liao then still never tell me. then later i think she bo song or what. kept calling me for ABSOLUTELY nothing. i was so tired when she was going through the questions so i started stretching myself. is there anything wrong? YES! she had to ask me if there was any problems just cause i stretched. like WTF. then now i bo song lah. then later she talk crap so i just somehow become daydreaming again, daily routine... and she was talking crap lah. what do you expect? i don`t want to listen to crap and then she had to call my name and asked if i`m BORED. like it totally SUCKS lah. was so darn bo song with her. nothing wrong with learning my name lah. but she doesn`t have to call my name every few minutes for every minor thing i did right? was so darn bo song and decided not to bend the rules. so just tried to act so awake and happy, like SHIT lah... was so happy when her lesson over. over the moon!
geography also wasn`t good. problem with geography files and she scolded us for half an hour. or more than that cos it dragged into our recess. another BAD experience. she`s probably suffering from pre-natal blues lah. lucky she didn`t ask for yesterday`s worksheet or i`d die lah. cos she was like damn angry with us for everything.
RECESS! went to carry geography books up lah. saw her face very black as in lian hei hei.
economics was rather fine. perhaps the ONLY time i enjoyed myself today. he wanted us to do an activity. and i drew a real steep supply curve. so he wanted me to re-draw one. and i re-draw. somehow my mind is much more creative than others` so i always came up with strange supply curves. and he saw my new curve and he said you`re a problematic person! HAHA! that was real fun. then later somehow, he was wearing a DERRICK nametag on his shirt.
english. that was super boring as usual. she said she wanted to go through the clementi town passage, finally. and guess what? she spent like 40mins drifting off to other topics from Q6. after that HELL period of time, she realised it and came back to that topic to tell us the answer. and she probably took 20min to say the answer. so within 1h, she went through 1 question. GREAT GREAT! i`m so darn prepared for my O levels English paper already, even though it`s next year.
physics we did lame things lah. all those slackers! SUCK lah. just `cos she`s blur sometimes, we shouldn`t bully her and give her false information. imagine someone doing that to you. and b`cos of those IDIOTS, we`ve lost 3 periods for physics lah. perhaps they feel they`re so darn clever they can get distinctions for the common test. but that`s totally their own problem lah. and b`cos of those IDIOTIC person, we spent 1h that day doing 1 correction and half an hour today filing 2 worksheets. if they think that`s wise time-management, i seriously think they`re free from stress lah. so why complain? it just SUCKS that there`re such idiotic people in our class. now, we haven`t learn any physics stuff though common test is next week. DISTINCTIONS? dream on..
PC. did worksheet for chemistry remedial.
school dismiss. went home.

TOTALLY FUCKED UP TODAY BY THOSE IDIOTS AND THAT SUPER SUCKY TEACHER WHO LOVES PINK!

i failed once again @ 3:56:00 pm

SUCKS lah.
my parents seriously doesn`t give me a life.
perhaps they`re not even stressed at all.
HAIX.

another one of my posts for venting anger.
well, but seriously, doesn`t anyone come online often?
i mean people our age, it`s common.
even albert, doesn`t he?
but those real LKK people just won`t understand.
i can`t even use the computer.
and they keep yakking non-stop.
and i seriously have no time to myself lah.

imagine leaving home everyday at 6plus.
and reaching home at 5pm.
then after that, i get phone calls calling me to do this and that.
like WHAT the heck`s wrong with them?
it`s not like they have homework from office.
but we DO have homework from school. so please lah.
can`t even do things themselves and blame others.
and just be glad i would do those. yet scold me everytime i forget.
how do you expect me to remember so much?
i`ve gotta study, and you tell me to do loads of things.
i find it much more stressful at home than at school.
i`ve gotta do TONS of things within 1 minute.
and now, they blamed me b`cos the water bill`s so expensive for last month.
WHAT THE HECK HAS THAT GOT TO DO WITH ME LAH?
FUCK OFF! AREN`T YOU ALL PEOPLE TOO?
WELL, I KNOW IT LAH. I`M NOT STUPID. I`M THE ONLY HUMAN IN THIS HOUSE.
I JUST FORGOT THAT THE REST ARE PIGS OR JUST GHOSTS!
THEY DON`T CONSUME AS MUCH WATER AS ME, HUMAN.
and it`s not like the first time i`m allowed to touch water.
i`ve always been using it. why this sudden increase and blame me?
TELL ME! WHAT HAS THAT GOTTA DO WITH ME?
WHAT`S THE FUCKING PROBLEM WITH ME?
WHAT`S THE FUCKING RELATIONSHIP IN BETWEEN?
just b`cos i`m the youngest. everything gets pushed to me.
b`cos they know i can`t talk back. but i always do.
and my mother said i waste alot of water while washing my clothes.
LIKE, I`VE BEEN WASHING MY OWN CLOTHES FOR YEARS.
AND SUDDENLY, LATELY, I WASH MY CLOTHES THE WATER BILL RISE ALOT.
GREAT SURPRISE LAH. KAO BEI. SHE NOT HAPPY THEN WASH MY CLOTHES FOR ME LAH. DON`T WANT THEN STILL KAO BEI SO MUCH FOR WHAT.
i just don`t understand what`s the problem with them?
just cos my brother serves NS they talk with him everytime he comes back.
and no one actually bothers about me at all. i sick they also don`t care, they care that he`s sick even when it was my birthday. i don`t even know what is WARMTH?
and i just wanna let them know i`m not one to be pushed around.
even people from 3/2`06 or 2/5`05, they aren`t even related to me by blood.
we are all related by shit, probably. but i feel so much better with them.
at least no one bothers me. and i know i have not much friends.
but that`s so much better than an idiotic family i have here.
i doubt anyone even knows about my problems?
i seriously feel that i deserve better treatment from my family lah..
i`m also a human, i have feelings, UNLIKE them who are so heartless.
they`re the type who goes round pointing fingers all at me even without thinking.
it makes me feel so bad... and i ain`t allowed to do anything..
i come home late cos i study at school, and they ask why i`m so late.
and when i`m not studying, they say i should study.
but, it`s like i face books at least 10hours per day lor.
so bloody hell irritating. they don`t understand anything at all. and everything is my fault. i shouldn`t even have been born into this world. i`m so tired of this everything`s my fault theory. but does it necessarily have to be me? they always seem to be correct.
i`m just always wrong. JUST DON`T DRIVE ME UP THE WALL.
you know why there are so many teenage suicides...

i failed once again @ 9:33:00 pm

i`m seriously DREAMing. i wanna take back my words.
my target for history class test will not be reached.
i spent the 1st 10mins looking around the class at others.
after which, i spent 5min writing SHEER CRAP.
and another 5min half sleeping, half dreaming...

anyway, i`m so sad. can you believe it?
samuel`s not REVIVED. oh whatever.
i`ve already expected it when dean was revived.
but samuel really sang WELL, really great.

today was so tired.
physics we spent the whole period doing our own PHYSICS work.
then, maths. rather boring lah. not really sure what she taught.
CH history. double sianx. cos of test.
RECESS!
geography. ros didn`t come today. THANKS alot.
cos i didn`t complete my comparison table. LOL!
i`m such a good geography rep. -.-
chinese was super sian. spent like half hour grouping ourselves.
then another half hour teaching while i dream away.
chemistry. buay tahan. then fell asleep many times.
seriously wasn`t aware i was actually sleeping until she suddenly used the mic.
HAHA! but she didn`t teach anything today lah.

went out to buy titbits.
and i realised i didn`t bring my wallet.
WHAT THE HECK. resort to borrowing from peifang.
then went back school and go art room.
rather slacking session we had today...
did nothing much loh. and eating in art room again.
i know my presentation was darn lame lah.
but no choice lor, since everyone had to present.
OKAY! i`m obsessed with colours, can?
LOL! i wanna it be damn colourful till i yan hua.
-.-

now, come home le.
relieved. no more tests for this week.
getting chemistry common test back this thursday.
i wanna know my economics test marks. HAHA!

anyway, gotta do my geography stuffs.
and i didn`t bring back my geography textbook lah.
GRR! dammit.

i failed once again @ 6:50:00 pm

feeling high. finally, early dismissal. at least not so stressful lah.
anyway, just now came home, and then bathed.
and went to clementi. after that, went to IMM. and came home.
by that time, it was like 4:30pm? LOL!
now gotta go study history class test for tomorrow.
this one really must put in alot of effort lah. and it`s SBQ somemore!

anyway, today so damn slack. 1st time i don`t feel stress at all.
COOL! hahas. everyone get caught by security guard to wear tie.
though i`m an exception. he was probably too happy catching people to notice me lah. HAHA! i`m so smart.
went to class and had to go to assembly liao.
hmm.. after assembly was english. she spent 50mins talking to us about attitude, using time wisely, and other of her LIFE stories.
after that was maths. went through those questions as revisions.
finally finished my TYS questions, and the worksheet, and the textbook one.
i`m so happy. seriously, i LOVE a maths more than e maths.
don`t say i crazy lah. but the level of satisfaction you get from completing an a maths question is more more higher than completing an e maths question lah.
after that was recess. didn`t go down. went toilet call my mother. HAHA!
then later go back class get ready for common test.
common test was quite okay. i`m quite confident with my answers.
really hope this results can be a high A1. HAHA! but i`m disappointed.
i didn`t do the factorise part after i found the values for a and b.
and i also don`t know how to do question 1(b) but somehow n=17 popped out.
LOL! -.-

tonight will stay up late again.
watch campus superstar revival.
hope dean and samuel or adriano will get in.

BLAH! tomorrow got CCA.
at least ruth ain`t back yet.


HISTORY HISTORY HISTORY! YES I CAN DO IT!

target:-
A2 or B3 for history class test tomorrow.

i failed once again @ 5:24:00 pm

HEYS! feeling so full.
went to bukit batok for dinner.
LOL! my mother was so funny.
the person asked her yao ji pan bai fan?
and she said bai ge. HAHA! was laughing away.
then later settled bill and it came up to $59++
my mother wasn`t quite happy, cos they never give her see the bill.
neither did they give her the receipt.

hmm.. then walk walk around there.
and came back home. took taxi. it was so near..
BLAHBLAH.. took taxi there and took taxi home.
LOLS!
and then, my brother cut the cake.
the cake was real nice! as in the appearance and the taste.
it`s from secret recipe. some chocolate fudge cake.
ate already and now real FULL!

oh yeah.. actually wanted come back early tomorrow to rest.
instead of revising history with peifang.
but then, mum wants to bring me out.
haix... it`s so stressful. i need time.

YAY! in the afternoon, i finished all my A maths homework!
but other homework i never do lah.
anyway, also not due tomorrow. HAHA!
later then go do, and i`ll continue to revise my A maths!

target:-
A1 for A maths common test tomorrow!

i failed once again @ 7:33:00 pm

2nd post of the day.
seriously addicted to blogging lah.

hmm...
the crow culling people came to our estate.
and i was having dinner at the coffeeshop by the roadside.
and i didn`t know they were there.
suddenly heard a LOUD BANG
thought it was a real bad accident, so didn`t turn to see what happened.
but my father said it was the crow culling team.
so obviously, i didn`t have my dinner in peace lah.
they fired 3 shots. only 1 shot succeeded to bring 3 crows down.
the rest missed the targets. LOL!

and also, on the way to the coffeeshop.
on the field-y area there, the path was flooded.
OMG! but luckily, i walked out of that area when the waters was only up to my slippers.
or else, my feet might be thoroughly wet by the time i reach there.

YAY!
i done the france thing already.
feel like doing on another country, it`s so fun.
but i`ve gotta revise my maths and finish my homework first.

target:-
A1 for coming A Maths common test.
it`s possible. i just need more practice.

i failed once again @ 9:37:00 pm

i`m so BORED now.
shall find on FRANCE and also on the FASHION TRENDS.
i`ll motivate myself to do them.
ARGHH!

anyway, went out today.
watched campus superstar replay till 11:30am.
then 12pm went to GIANT meet my mother.
went GIANT for window shopping.
then went to secret recipe for lunch.
i ate fish and chips while my mum ordered a cake and a coffee.
after that, went TS. saw JJ`s new album.
he looks so COOL! but the songs don`t know nice or not.
somemore very expensive, blahblah..
then went down again and i saw converse fair @ IMM.
like what the heck!
anyway, i bought 3 pairs of ankle socks for $9.90
ain`t converse one though. it`s kappa.
converse`s one is 2 for $9.90 and it`s like too small for me.
and came home already.

OKAY! now off to do my work...

i failed once again @ 3:23:00 pm

LOL! guess i`m seriously addicted to blogging.
well, but i rather be addicted with schoolwork.

listening to ni bu zai by adriano at khim`s blog.
he sang real nice lah, but he still out.
OH WHATEVER!
and for the past 1h or so, i`ve been logging in and out of MSN.
IE connections problem. WHAT THE HECK!

wah seh. very tired now.
OMG! didn`t realise it was actually raining.

but anyway, let`s talk about school today.
nothing much happened.
PE ran 2.4km i`m still in the 17 minutes plus range.
17:06, i guess so. BLAHBLAH!
we`re gonna break record. 7 week into term 1 and haven`t even played any games before.
LOL!
maths as boring as usual.
physics was scary. quek came in looking very angry.
but when she left, she didn`t have that angry-ness already.
LOL! ashley was so funny. kept calling her cherquek.
then there were some temporarily deaf people. or perhaps they`re obsessed with physics.
RECESS! changed shirt and revised econs and went to find mdm ros.
ECONS test. hmm.. should say it`s quite okay though i totally didn`t expect this kinda questions. some are quite tricky too lah.
CME. let`s see, he helped some people with geography. -.- free period again.
geography. went through workbook corrections then do corrections then handed in and we went through a poem. that`s all we did. she tends to dismiss us early on friday. ((:

OMG! my geography CT 1 marks being displayed in 3/2 and 3/3.
not sure about other classes. but luckily i didn`t write my name on the content page.
or it`d be even worse. BLAH. thought she only photostat for our class.
HMPH!

seems to be little homework this weekend. not sure lah.
from what i see in my notebook, it`s like only 1 page.
but last week`s was like 2 pages plus. WHAT THE HECK.

anyway, a maths common test on monday.
everyone must jiayou! pull up your grades.
HAHA! i must do my best for this already.
cannot achieve a just pass standard again.
haix...

and there`s also history class test on tuesday.


that`s all for the day.
hope to have a wonderful weekend, like i can even get one. =.=

i failed once again @ 2:24:00 pm

whoa. guess this week`s probably 1 of the best.
since we had no remedials yesterday, and for the 1st time in weeks, i can finally sleep at maybe 10pm?
i seriously need my SLEEP! if only i can buy SLEEP with money..

AHH! there`s PE tomorrow. but i think it`s no longer 2.4km.
thank GOD! you saved my life and my breath. ((:
and FRIDAYS just well mean early dismissal!

overall, today was sorta real boring.
we had CME first, but he somehow became our maths teacher. LOL!
then it was english. she wanted us to visualise the stuffs. BORING, definitely!
hmm.. can`t really remember what econs was about, probably about the market and stuffs.
then it was maths. AHH! m loh took over liao`s lesson. needless to say, it SUCKED.
she returned us our class test, i`m so damn happy. i got 10.5 out of 20.
HEY, at least i passed. i really didn`t expect to pass, especially when all i was doing were crap.
then later i realised i copied a question wrongly. and was like DAMN i`m gonna fail.
but she just said nevermind b`cos i still got the right answers miraculously.
thank GOD! you`re so on my side, yeah? ((:
RECESS! went down again today. went to see ros with geography file. BLAH! need to see her again tomorrow.
history. seriously i don`t know what she was on about.
most probably not paying attention. LOL!
mother tongue. real BORING. he spent the whole 1h to tell us chengyu gushi. OMG!
and after the bell rang, he played a song and it was attracting loads of people.
MATHS. uber sian-ism.

then after which, still have english remedial.
for like the 1st half of it, latimer was talking about HER stories. which ABSOLUTELY has nothing to do with an ENGLISH remedial. it ain`t LATIMER remedial.
then she started on the comprehension thingy. well, she seems to be observing me all the while. first, she sat on the table behind and beside me. then later she sat on the table beside me. and she called me to mark the answers the people written, but somehow else did it. so later at the end of the remedial, she was so eager to ask me what i`ve learnt.
and due to the fact that i was dreaming away, looking at the band conductor, i just gave a stupid answer when i saw the word inferential on the paper.
but anyway, i was real glad it ended.

GOSH! probably can`t sleep at 10pm anymore.
i realise we`ve got econs test tomorrow.
oh, but anyway, haven`t i been like passing all the tests so far with half-mark?
that`s so gonna be my trademark. -.-
and econs test is over 25 marks, so i`m probably gonna get 13marks? oh well, given that it`s ceteris paribus.
but at least i get to sleep at a time earlier than i usually do.
like at least 1 or 2 hours earlier. PHEW!

oh yeah, i wonder why teachers like saying things like before some people turn into giraffes. but anyway, it`s LAME! giraffes? no. lions are better, SIMBA! :))

i failed once again @ 8:30:00 pm

YAY~ ness.
some good and bad things happened today.
but more good things happened, of course.
well, there wasn`t any history test today!
but it`s gonna be soon though, she said that.
and kokila was way too blur, so i don`t have to do extra work.
LOL! she wanted those who didn`t complete the stalin ws to do SBQ from textbook.
she did went round to check, but mine was like only did less than 5 questions.
so i placed my worksheet, and used my file to block it, so she can only see my first 2 answers.
and she see it. and she walked away, and she smiled at me.
OMG! i`m so gonna like her. HAHA!
then she asked us to take out our history books, and i didn`t bring.
so she asked who didn`t bring. shiqi raised her hand, and she asked her why didn`t she bring.
then later i guess she was looking at the seating arrangement, and i raised my hand, but she didn`t see it, HAHA! cool.
hmm.. chinese was sian as usual. yeah, doing other subject`s work due today.
maths was super slack. she just went through some graphs on the board and gave homework.
then geography. well, also super slack. when through answers, then gave homework.
and i`ve gotta bring my geography file with everything inside. LOL! i musn`t forget!
and then, RECESS!
one of the RARE times i went down to canteen, and so bought some food.
and was surprised to see rm wor!
econs was super slack too. gave us 10 handouts and then left with 15mins for proper lesson.
english was super slack too. like 15 minutes spent on that thing. then she spent the rest of the half an hour to test us our diagnostic test marks and who`s down for remedial and other administrative stuffs. don`t ask me why she took so long, she`s CRAPPING. and also, she changed our deadline for the feb 16 thingy. YAY!
physics. can`t help laughing at mdm quek. she went round the class picking our litters and then told us to pick up litter. like what else are there for us to pick? then she said I'M VERY ANGRY AND DISAPPOINTED. and i was laughing away, at her tone. she doesn`t sound angry or disappointed at all. then later she blabbered more crap, and i kept laughing.
PC. OMG! saw ms teo. and i realised this morning as i was walking out of my estate, the ms teo lookalike beside me was actually her. HAHA!
COOL! no remedials today. dismissed early. GREAT! like as if one of the few times only.
but tomorrow, i`ve remedial again. BLAH. and, at least i passed it. borderline pass though. LOL!

i failed once again @ 3:36:00 pm

SUCKS! 10:54pm already.
and i haven`t done my homework yet.
don`t know what to start with.
not really sure how to sketch graph for a maths.
lazy to plot graph for physics.
don`t know the corrections for geography.
AHHH! i`m so gonna be dead.

what the heck.
i`m really getting slacker as each day passes.
like this few days, keep dozing off in class.
and never take down notes.
HAIX. i feel sort of guilty.
3/2`s too competitive for me. i can`t stand the stress.
i need wise time management. but so far, i`ve only been slacker.
even PE, CCA, i also slack. i ain`t my usual self anymore.
BLAH. i really need lots of sleep!
i really need to change. can`t go on doing other work during chinese lesson.
can`t go on not taking notes during geography.
can`t go on laughing at mdm quek for nothing during physics.
can`t go on yawning non-stop during maths.
HAIX.. when can i ever do this?
in the first place, i don`t think i belong to 3/2.
not as in the way people treat me or the way i treat them.
but i only got into 3/2 as a matter of luck. i wasn`t supposed to be there.
i think i ripped siqi of her chance to get in. and i still don`t do well.
it`s so guilty. haix...

i failed once again @ 10:50:00 pm

MONDAY!
hmm.. school was okay today.
we finally got our yearbooks!!! COOL! i waited for so long.
LOL! we received during remedial.
and i started viewing page to page. after which, i started on maths.
didn`t bother about chinese. and later liang lu came, he say don`t so rush.
then tell us hand in remedial work next week. so good, right?
he`s absolutely GREAT! treat us so good. ((:

today was so damn sleepy.
during english didn`t wanna copy down those things.
but to save myself from all the yakkings, i decided to copy, slowly.
after that was maths, really damn tired.
eyes kept closing, yawn non-stop. i think she noticed me.
then was recess. waited for peifang. didn`t see her anywhere.
so decided to go wash my face first, or i`ll sleep in class.
LOL! walked slowly and i saw her coming up.
so i strolled to the toilet and waited for her to catch up.
i was darn tired today.

during common test, i was like sleeping.
well, chemistry common test.. maybe okay okay lah.
AHH! next week still got A maths common test.
gonna die.

and we haven`t started on our english project thingy.
what the heck. latimer says she doesn`t need soft copies.
SUCK! she very dua pai.

DAMN.
art club tomorrow.
is it creative media design?
i`m eagerly waiting for it!!
HAHA! but before that, i shall stay up tonight to redo my scrapbook.
AAHHH!

oh. LOL!
my brother`s planning to study aerospace in engineering school of either SP or NP.
and he`s gonna be enrolled 1 year earlier than me, so i have a chance to go different school as him.
i wanna go TP for digital media design, but that`s a bit too far for me, guess i`ll take like 1h plus to travel there everyday.
but SP`s IT school the courses not bad too, but i agree with qi'en that SP`s courses are too general, they offer too much and don`t seem to specialise in anything.
AWW...

anyway, i shall come online again later to redo my scrapbook.
i`ll go bathe now. and watch campus superstar too.
i need to relax!

LOL! my mum`s terrible.
i came back today and she told me she found her specs.
then i was like okay, great. then she showed me her specs.
GOSH! the frame was like broken, seriously, badly.
the frame was like being twisted as if it was a wire.
and she told me she put it in the washing machine.
so, SEE HOW ROUGH WASHING MACHINES ARE!

AHH! something`s wrong with me.
been having stomachache since yesterday.
but seriously, it isn`t like normal stomachache.
like every don`t know how long, it`ll have this sensation in my stomach then less than a minute, it`d go away.

oh yeah. some stupid number called me today.
i only realised it after school.
and it called during common test. LOL!
the number was real weird.
813577772064
WHOA!

i failed once again @ 7:05:00 pm

YAY! everyone`s left already.
now for the cleaning up..
well, still left with physics TYS and life pack.
even though i stayed up till 4am to do them.
it proves i`ve got too much to handle.
okay. seriously, i`m gonna study hard for CHEMISTRY.
heard from seniors about failing it.
and i don`t wanna fail, so ...
LOL!

anyway, today was kinda fun.
bored in the beginning.
ate and watched tv and did our homework.
after that, around 4plus or 5plus, went to play BADMINTON.
real nice time. played till 6plus. totally exhausted.
but i would still wanna play.
it`s like so rare for me to play badminton.
anyway, i can start selling shuttlecocks already.
i`ve got like maybe 6-8 dozens of them.
COOL huh?

anyway, gotta have a bath soon and shall start on revision.
i`ve evolved into a super guai kia overnight.
3 CHEERS.
ceteris paribus i`d get 9 A1s for O-level.
HAHA! but i doubt ceteris paribus.
AWW.

i failed once again @ 7:24:00 pm

WHAT THE HECK!
i bought a new bag already.
LOL! i ought to be happy, don`t i?
oh well, but the zip`s got some fucking problem.
trust me to spend $40 without checking carefully.
i just checked if the zips are zippable.
and i came back, saw that the zips don`t work together.
SO.. my parents will change 1 for me.
HAHA! haven`t done my homework yet.
i`m so gonna be dead. unless i stay up tonight.
went out the whole day today.
then tomorrow, not free cos of CNY celebrations.

went to the market with my mother this morning to get all the stuffs for tomorrow.
but then, we couldn`t get everything.
also went to visit 1 of my relatives who was injured.
and by the time i was home, it was 1plus.
rested for awhile at home. went to westmall at around 3pm.
late lunch at Mos burger`s. and off to bag-searching.
LOL! first went Converse. then Sportslink.
saw a deuter bag at sportslink for $49.95 or $49.90.
but that was too expensive for me. i guess.
proceeded to OP. i didn`t want to go. but mum dragged me in.
so i looked at the bags. and mum kept insisted on me buying the OP bags.
but i gave stupid excuses like too many people using, later mixed up and stuff.
so in the end, i didn`t buy it.
after OP, went to World of Sports. not much bag + too expensive.
then to Sports Connection. didn`t see any i like.
anyway, seems like what mum suggested for me are being used by others.
so i didn`t want them.
went to Yellow. spent a long time looking at the bags there.
but in the end, i didn`t buy theirs. so it was kinda wasting the salesgirls time.
after that, went to Zinc. all the backpacks are like placed so high.
like WHAT THE HECK. i`m not a giant.
so anyway, didn`t bother.
in the end, went back to Converse to buy it.
it`s an old design though. and i bought a pink one.
not sure if there`re still pink stocks.
mum`s brought it to change now.
and anyway, i`m not a PINK freak.
well, i do like a hint of pink on bags, shoes, watches etc.
but definitely, i hate them on shirts, even though i have loads of them.

damn. i`ve gotta do a book review for my cousin.
anyway, this goes to show how good i`m to my cousin.

BLAH.
ate some sushi from Sushi Deli and yusheng from Sakae Sushi for dinner.
don`t know why need to be from Sushi shops though.
HAHA!

tomorrow`s gonna be hell.
i`ll stay up tonight to complete at least some of my homework.
gotta wake up early tomorrow.
then help out with the chores.
and i`m gonna be all alone at home, toasting onion rings, nuggets etc.
AHH! unfair-ness.
there`s gonna be loads of food tomorrow.
catered otah and satays.
sushi, soon kueh, waffles from IMM or westmall.
and all the home-cooked food.
nuggets, crab claws, hotdogs, onion rings, chicken curry, noodles, claypot rice etc.
that`s what i can name for now.
and btw, i bet it`s not gonna be a nice one tomorrow.
cos not much people are coming.
AWW! but hopefully, it leaves me time for my homework.
HAHA! i`m evil. -.-


gurghhh. i hate making colours for my words.
but no choice. or everything will be in WHITE.
LOL! so to save people reading, which is like only 2 or 3, from boredom.

oh yeah. i saw dave today. my primary school friend.
in fact, i didn`t see him. we were at the escalator and he turned round.
LOL! anyway, i feel he still has that innocent baby face look.

i failed once again @ 8:49:00 pm

YAY! i`m feeling HIGH.
i just changed my blogskin.
i still prefer this kinda simple ones.
LOL! so long since i ever used any photo editing software already.
had a nice time editing it this afternoon.
like, i edited the picture and sorted everything out within half a day.
i`m so proud of myself. -.-


COMMONWEALTH`s featured in the news.
that`s so uber cool. 4 with 9 A1s. prodigy.
and there`s the 2 extras walking so near to the camera to qiang jing tou.
DISGUSTING!
guess monday`s assembly would be based on this topic.

anyway, my background music is YMCA, if you still can`t figure out.
i know it doesn`t really fit with my skin.
but somehow, i just wanted it. it`s my blog anyway.
the song reminds me of those FUN days.
AWW.. how i miss `em.
like now, i like 3/2, but everyone`s so busy.

well, going off now.
SAD, ruimin not online tonight.
LAME. no one chat with me till midnight?
joking.
so tired. eyes drooping.
and tomorrow gotta wake up early.
AHHHH! sunday gotta wake up early too.
tell me, when can i ever have a break?

i failed once again @ 11:29:00 pm

WHAT THE HECK. almost unbelievable.
commonwealth`s the BEST in the WEST.
with 4 people scoring 9 A1s.
mrs teo was darn happy and excited.
and just announced it over the PA system.
but then, due to the commonwealth scream.
i couldn`t make out the 3 min long(?) speech.
oh well, commonwealth scream.
screaming from classes to classes.
and of course, DISRUPTING the lessons.
i`m curious who`re the 4 prodigy.
talking of that 4 prodigy, i`m sure our batch will have more.
b`cos there`s 2 classes offering 9 subjects.
and economics students need good english standards.
but i`m an exception though. ((:



today was quite good in school.
assyaraf`s and joanna`s birthday.
hmm.. PE sucked as usual though.
but it soon got over.
i was practically slacking lah.
clocking 17.55 for 2.4km run.
LOL!
i didn`t do my standing broad jump though.
i just skipped cos i don`t wanna jump.
and mr lim was like stupid.
we were getting ready for shuttle run.
and he told us the girls to space out.
so i moved to the right, and he called us move left.
and so i moved to the left.
and i wasn`t even ready and he blew the whistle.
STUPID! and i just didn`t want to run.
cos i felt my shoe was gonna drop out.
and he told me to RUN, NOT JOG.
i was like ya, ya, never wait for people ready!
anyway, he finally called me jingwei instead of jingwen.


then it was a maths.
was so damn sleepy after PE for some reasons.
began dozing off.
then i was lost in the lesson.
later look at board, all the things she wrote seemed alien.
so i asked her and she repeated.
and i wasted her time. sort of thwarted her plan too.
she actually wanted 1/2h for a and e maths each.
but b`cos she had to re-explain for me,
there was only 5 minutes left for e maths.
HAHA!


physics.
she was damn hyper today.
and she was excited too.
totally funny.
and she was saying thank you oh thank you ei thank you really thank you a lot cos someone helped her with a minor task. can`t remember what though.
but i was busy laughing at her thankfulness.
LOL! like, how many times does she have to repeat?
and she wanted to brief us before lab lesson.
so she spent like 40mins briefing us in class.
and later went to lab, less than 10mins.
just played around with the equipment and left the lab.
we`re only doing it next tuesday.


RECESS!


economics.
well, still as boring.
he said he`s going slow these few days.
b`cos the concept`s difficult.
but he`s back to going fast next week.
but he`s already fast enough.
at least for me.
oh well.. LOL!
but i still enjoy economics.
and he told us about the o levels results stuff.
saying we`re triple humanities.
so we ought to do real well.
cos our CSS humanities standard are going up.
and there`s a history made by the history grades.
BLAH.



CME.
he was late for like 20minutes.
so there wasn`t any lessons.
just some crap session.
like what he said, he would tokcock with us.
LOL! and many stupid things.


geography.
ros rocks, somehow.
especially when she dismisses us early.
today`s lesson was quite brief.
going through answers and introduction of chapter 4.
so, i didn`t learn anything as of yet.
and she was talking about how everyone`s gonna cry.
at the adam khoo`s workshop next year.
and huangyi bet with her she ain`t going to cry.
oh yeah, some stupid guys were saying winnie-winnies instead of willy-willies.
but somehow, mdm ros didn`t get the joke.



DISMISSAL!
yay-ness.




today was so funny.
people were imitating latimer.
and saying STEWPER. the pronounciation of super.
which she insists so much on.
in the passage, it was super intelligence.
and when they imitated it, they said stewper STUPID.
LOL! can`t help but to laugh.
and the tew-ee-sion.



i`ll really try hard.
i promise not to slack anymore.
i`ll not copy the WHOLE homework from others anymore.
i wanna succeed on my own.
i don`t wanna depend on others on EVERY SINGLE THING.
i believe in myself.
i can do it.
i just need more time.
GIVE ME TIME.

i failed once again @ 1:56:00 pm

i have so much things on my mind.
but i don`t know what to say.
life seems to be so boring for me.
i just wanna go back to the P5, P6 days.
when everything was just so relaxed.
you don`t have to fret about anything.
you do anything you want and nobody cares.
when everyone was so innocent.
i wanna joke with everyone again.
i wanna live a carefree life.
but i guess it`s impossible.
i don`t know what others think about me.
but i don`t care.
it`s what they think. i can`t change it.
i may be irritating.
i may be proud.
i may be selfish.
i may be idiotic.
i may be a bitch.
i don`t know what people think.
and people don`t know what i think.
so i guess it`s fair.
i seem to be so depressed nowadays.
i don`t have appetite.
i`m easily distracted by anything.
i`m unable to concentrate or focus.
i don`t know why.
somehow, i feel i don`t have a true friend.
we seem to be drifting further and further apart.
and i realise, our friendship never torn us apart before.
we never seem to have conflicts.
i just think things aren`t that perfect.
i seem to be a loner.
i`ve lost my talent of speech.
i ain`t able to speak as freely as when i was last time.
i`m also irresponsible.
i don`t feel like being a geography rep.
i`m doing all the wrong things.
making tons of mistakes.
not telling people what to do.
and i myself, don`t even know what to do sometimes.
i feel it`s all wrong.
as each year passes, i become more slack.
right now, i`m already satisfied with a JUST PASS.
totally different from when i expected As.
and i`m in 3/2, for god`s sake.
even today`s a maths paper, i know i`ll fail.
i somehow wanted to break down during the test.
i just couldn`t do anything.
i wasn`t able to solve anything.
i wanted to cry then. for not being able to do anything.
ANYTHING at all.
i was tearing papers. and doodling all over.
to vent my anger.
and i only completed 2 or 3 questions.
which means i`m gonna lose at least 8 marks.
i know i`m failing.
i didn`t care about anything at that moment.
i just knew i was failing the paper.
i couldn`t do anything to help myself.
i felt so useless. i just gave up.
i just felt this bad.

i failed once again @ 7:38:00 pm

yay! today was great.
except for latimer again.
well, anyway, BIG THANKS to ruimin
for saving my LIFE.
she was making a scene when some people didn`t bring their newspapers.
but what the HECK.
we`re dismissed so late, how to buy newspapers.
-.-
anyway, darsini was so funny going on about how tiny the small was.


GOSH! gotta redo my geography mindmap AGAIN!
that`s the 2nd time. cos i didn`t elaborate.
i might as well print out chunks of info if she wants ELABORATE!



feel liang lu`s a better person now.
the way he treats us.
totally different from last year.
everytime his lesson, i do other homework while he teaching.
he also don`t care. but he probably knows.
today PC chat with him.
was like dreading it and hoping bell to go off soon.
but things didn`t go MY way.
still, i found it quite okay.
HAHA! and i said i have problems with ENGLISH.
not that i really have, but i have problems with latimer.
LOL.


collected our copper sulphate crystals today.
mine was like real small bits.
more like the size of sugar.



came home after chemistry remedial today.
and my father was watching that gao xiao hua mulan.
so i watched for a while.
later too tired, went to sleep until 6pm.
haiz... this few days everytime sleep at 1plus.
can`t hold on anymore.



dad`s hurt his foot.
and i think it had to be stitched.
gross!
stitching reminds me of joel and his knee?
a primary 6 friend.
but his was real gross. DISGUSTING.



anyway, shall do my homework first.






SUCKS!
tomorrow going PJC.
and she still suggested for us to go ACM.
AHH!




oh yeah.
i`m gonna become a saddist soon.
under influence of latimer and kokila.

i failed once again @ 8:31:00 pm

SUCKS!
damn FUCKED UP.


firstly, i haven`t completed my homework due by tomorrow.
AND this is the 1st time my mother leaves the newspapers in the office.
so, what exactly can i be happy about?
and it`s so late now, i haven`t started on the Charles Manson thing.
it`s just pure LUCK A Maths test ain`t tomorrow.
OR i`ll really be darn stressed.
just what`s the problem with FUCKING latimer?
bringing newspapers on every english lesson.
definitely SUCKS lah. like who ever goes round bringing newspapers to school.
and almost the whole copy too. she`s ALIEN!







i don`t wanna blog more.







DAMN FUCKED UP.








LET ME RELAX!

i failed once again @ 9:36:00 pm

another night of rushing and staying up late.
yesterday, it was for pairwork.
now, it`s for art scrapbook.
guess i`ll only be able to turn in after 12am.
if this happens everyday this week, by sunday i`ll be way too tired to celebrate the last day of CNY already.


anyway, i`m feeling so HIGH now.
1. for completing my maths remedial worksheet.
great satisfaction for me to complete it by myself!
2. for all those crappy talks.
LOL! can`t hold on but to laugh out real loud.



but i wasn`t like that in school today.
cos of LATIMER. she spoilt my mood.
WELL, seems that she`s got something against me.
she might as well change our country.
and change all our chosen stuffs.
SUCKS!
and what the heck`s with the chernobyl or what thingy?
i couldn`t catch the 2nd one.
cos i was laughing away at the strange things.
guess people thought of me as crazy to laugh at that.
but i just couldn`t hold it.


came back late today again.
like 6plus then leave school.
came back, finished up my maths.
did my chemistry. went to bathe.
and dinner while watching campus superstar.
and halfway through, came online to do work again.
i`m so HARDWORKING. i know!
now staying to do more of the art scrapbook.
cos i`m waiting for campus superstar results show.




geography common test.
i`m done for. a lot stuffs were crap.
miracle if i can get A1, though i wish i can.
LOL! who doesn`t? -.-
and m loh says she`s probably returning our common test tomorrow?
oh SUCKS! definitely not looking forward to it.



STUPID ME.
ran back home then back to school today.
to get a PATHETIC chinese book.
then, copied all answers from behind.
and just dumped it aside.
went on with MATHS.
shouldn`t have wasted my energy.
but too bad cos i`m GUAI!!!!









-.-
-.-






LAME


enough of crap.

i failed once again @ 10:15:00 pm

haven`t touched my homework.
OH GOSH!
went to temple to pray this morning.
then for lunch at west coast.
and mum suggested going to IMM.
so we went, and looked around.
went GIANT, to see foodstuffs for celebrations next sunday.
and ended up with Sushi, waffles, soon kueh.
the rest, we`ll probably buy next saturday.
after that, went round to other shops.
to see my bag. can`t find one that i liked.
all the bags in IMM are so disgusting?
WHATEVER. guess going bugis sometime to get one, perhaps.



now, i`m using the computer not cos i wanted to.
but my brother told me to use it. -.-
anyway, i just came to blog and the class forum.
then, i`ll find the cheng yu gu shi thingy.
LOL! and i haven`t started on the art scrapbook.
which i guess is the same for most others too.
((:



DAMN.
almost forgot there`s a COMMON TEST tomorrow.
MONDAYS. how can i forget it?
it`s gonna be a part of school, somehow.
and geography. don`t really understand all the stuffs.
HAHA! but i`ll really study later.
after i`ve attempted my homework.




for now, i`m going off.

i failed once again @ 3:31:00 pm

just came back from cousin`s house.
loads of people still there.
including my parents. home alone now.
i enjoyed myself there.
but still, not as much.
it wasn`t how it used to be.
my cousin`s injured her leg badly and is in a cast now.
she didn`t come today.
no one to bully, no one to disturb us.
i hope she gets well REAL soon.



somehow, i miss 2/5.
after all the chats with ruimin.
she reminded me of those times.
i really feel sad right now 2/5 is separated.
everyday in school, we see 2/5-ers`05 so happy.
including me.
but when someone mentions about 2/5`05.
i`d still prefer it to 3/2`06.



somehow, i always tell myself to cherish people.
and all the things around, before they`re gone.
BUT, i can`t bring myself to do it.
sometimes, when you wanna part, you feel like crying.
but then, you laugh instead.
it`s always like that.
when you look back, you can only be so sad.
when someone`s or something`s gone,
the memories are gone with it too.
like somehow, you`ll forget the existence.




i shall stop being emotional right now!



but i`m really paranoid.
all the mishaps.
at the beginning of the year.
i`m gonna get real careful now.


i`m liking ruimin`s blog song.
it somehow fits my current mood.
but i think welcome to my life would even fit better.
i feel a different person now.



oh yeah.
CNY celebrations at my house have been postponed.
gonna be a real nightmare.
imagine staying up late on a sunday to clean the house.
then the next day you have chinese and maths remedial.
what the heck.
just hope i don`t oversleep.
cos i don`t set alarms on monday.
HAHA!

i failed once again @ 6:23:00 pm

DAMN!
i just realised we`re going to cousin`s house tomorrow for CNY celebrations.
well well, that`s just life.
bet i can`t finish this pile of homework.


and there`re 3 tests next week.
1. geography common test
2. a maths class test on wednesday
3. economics class test on friday
GREAT!
and i haven`t realised we`re actually having so much tests.


feel strange.
suddenly wanted to stop listening to chinese songs.
felt that too normal. as in perhaps too commercialised?
don`t know.


HECK.
i don`t know what albert einstein did.
i can`t remember.
LATIMER sucks.





i don`t feel myself.
SOMEHOW...

i failed once again @ 10:11:00 pm

supposed to be finding info for the ART.
but i spent god knows how long at the forum.
and it`s became 8:20pm now.
i`ll wanna watch ji po ju le bu and lv zheng xin ren wang.
and half-way having dinner when parents bought back for me.
so, i guess i`ll have to do it some other time?
AWW! i`m angry with myself. for not being determined.
and guess what?
our class idea`s for CIP are rejected.
at least i think so. WHAT THE HECK!


well, went to library after school.
stupid ungentleman people all around.
anyway, i don`t bother about them.
left around 3pm and went to popular.
bought a binder, some pens and correction tape.
then went to take bus back home.
105 just left. so decided to wait for 52 or 183 since they`re beside each other.
waited for HELL and finally 52 came.
and happily, on my way home.
HAHA! by that time, 4plus already.



WELL, decided to do on music now.
after i saw a book on it at the library.
MUSIC ROCKS!
i`m trying hard to get exposed to english songs.
haha. so people must recommend me more.



i`m going for dinner now.
cos my dinner`s da bao-ed back already.

i failed once again @ 7:46:00 pm

there ain`t too much homework today.
and i`m feeling lazy.


SHUCKS!
there`s PE tomorrow.
and 3/3 ran 7 rounds and practised for NAPFA.
likely, that`s gonna happen to us too.
and so, i`m gonna be dead meat.
i can`t run 5 rounds but they`re running 7.
oh. but i did x-country before.
but by hook or by crook, i`ve gotta do it.
or whatever mr lim wants us to do. BLAH.
my standing broad jump is like less than 150cm.
HECK! and i can`t do even 1 IPU.
that`s it..



we are probably baking cookies to sell for our CIP.
and HECK, i placed myself under the shopping category.
which is on 5th Feb, this sunday.
and i just realised that i`ve gotta go to the temple!
BLAH.. WHATEVER.
but 11th Feb isn`t gonna be a choice.
people are coming to our house for CNY.
can`t expect my father to be away, and me away too.
and my brother probably away too, right?




i`m starting to like lianglu.
true that he treats the upper secondary better.
oh, what BIAS!
latimer latimer..
GOSH. i`m gonna be so dead.
first, she said she`s gonna observe people who tends to be neutral, i`m one.
then, she said she`s gonna observe me because of my lousy comprehension skills.




mr G didn`t come today.
we had 1 and half hours of free period straight till recess.

i failed once again @ 4:24:00 pm

there`s like only 2 homework today?
the barron`s and the maths.
the only 2 i can think of.


ms latimer`s making me hate her even more.
WELL, my hatred for her`s gone deeper.
thanks for nagging at me.
i do what i like, why care so much.
BLAHBLAH..
and i certainly have the right to be neutral.
everyone has their own says.
so just SHUT UP!
also, we can only see effects in the long run.
if we see it like only after 35mins, isn`t it too fast?
WHAT THE HECK...
different people different thinkings..
and oh GOD, heck latimer`s changed our famous figure to albert einstein.
however it`s spelled.
totally SUCKS! but luckily, we haven`t even started yet.
so that means we don`t need to redo.
but the thing is, we need to RUSHHH..
BLAHBLAH..
and she`s got the right to reject our work.
which i think she most probably will.



anyway, i guess my physics stuffs are all wrong.
i didn`t care about it.
i knew they`re probably wrong.
but i was lazy to redo.
HAHA! i just wanted to get home.
so tired..


that`s like enough for today.

i failed once again @ 5:49:00 pm