Thursday, February 23, 2006
afterall, today`s english remedial was at AVA.
and it lasted for 1 and a half hour.
damn boring lah. and kelly lim was making strange expressions.
anyway, i feel rather guilty.
i`ve been underperforming all this while.
i`ve already known this since long ago.
and i`m always slacking in class.
but i`ve just never felt guilty.
until today when ms liao wanted us to do reflections for our common test.
when i saw my marks, i could only feel lucky.
that was like totally different from last year.
haix.. ceteris paribus, i`ll be the bottom of the class.
i feel so bad ripping others who badly wants to come to this class and not doing my best still.
i just feel like breaking down. it`s just so bad.
i`ve been PASSING! yeah, but with half-marks.
and except for maths, they aren`t careless mistakes.
it`s purely b`cos i don`t know anything at all.
and so far, i think latimer and mrs loh have identified me.
i know it`s my fault. but i just can`t help it.
and somemore, i`m the most attentive during their lessons.
other lessons, i`m not even taking down notes.
haix..
i feel so bad.
i failed once again @ 8:00:00 pm