Tuesday, February 21, 2006
SUCKS lah.
my parents seriously doesn`t give me a life.
perhaps they`re not even stressed at all.
HAIX.
another one of my posts for venting anger.
well, but seriously, doesn`t anyone come online often?
i mean people our age, it`s common.
even albert, doesn`t he?
but those real LKK people just won`t understand.
i can`t even use the computer.
and they keep yakking non-stop.
and i seriously have no time to myself lah.
imagine leaving home everyday at 6plus.
and reaching home at 5pm.
then after that, i get phone calls calling me to do this and that.
like WHAT the heck`s wrong with them?
it`s not like they have homework from office.
but we DO have homework from school. so please lah.
can`t even do things themselves and blame others.
and just be glad i would do those. yet scold me everytime i forget.
how do you expect me to remember so much?
i`ve gotta study, and you tell me to do loads of things.
i find it much more stressful at home than at school.
i`ve gotta do TONS of things within 1 minute.
and now, they blamed me b`cos the water bill`s so expensive for last month.
WHAT THE HECK HAS THAT GOT TO DO WITH ME LAH?
FUCK OFF! AREN`T YOU ALL PEOPLE TOO?
WELL, I KNOW IT LAH. I`M NOT STUPID. I`M THE ONLY HUMAN IN THIS HOUSE.
I JUST FORGOT THAT THE REST ARE PIGS OR JUST GHOSTS!
THEY DON`T CONSUME AS MUCH WATER AS ME, HUMAN.
and it`s not like the first time i`m allowed to touch water.
i`ve always been using it. why this sudden increase and blame me?
TELL ME! WHAT HAS THAT GOTTA DO WITH ME?
WHAT`S THE FUCKING PROBLEM WITH ME?
WHAT`S THE FUCKING RELATIONSHIP IN BETWEEN?
just b`cos i`m the youngest. everything gets pushed to me.
b`cos they know i can`t talk back. but i always do.
and my mother said i waste alot of water while washing my clothes.
LIKE, I`VE BEEN WASHING MY OWN CLOTHES FOR YEARS.
AND SUDDENLY, LATELY, I WASH MY CLOTHES THE WATER BILL RISE ALOT.
GREAT SURPRISE LAH. KAO BEI. SHE NOT HAPPY THEN WASH MY CLOTHES FOR ME LAH. DON`T WANT THEN STILL KAO BEI SO MUCH FOR WHAT.
i just don`t understand what`s the problem with them?
just cos my brother serves NS they talk with him everytime he comes back.
and no one actually bothers about me at all. i sick they also don`t care, they care that he`s sick even when it was my birthday. i don`t even know what is WARMTH?
and i just wanna let them know i`m not one to be pushed around.
even people from 3/2`06 or 2/5`05, they aren`t even related to me by blood.
we are all related by shit, probably. but i feel so much better with them.
at least no one bothers me. and i know i have not much friends.
but that`s so much better than an idiotic family i have here.
i doubt anyone even knows about my problems?
i seriously feel that i deserve better treatment from my family lah..
i`m also a human, i have feelings, UNLIKE them who are so heartless.
they`re the type who goes round pointing fingers all at me even without thinking.
it makes me feel so bad... and i ain`t allowed to do anything..
i come home late cos i study at school, and they ask why i`m so late.
and when i`m not studying, they say i should study.
but, it`s like i face books at least 10hours per day lor.
so bloody hell irritating. they don`t understand anything at all. and everything is my fault. i shouldn`t even have been born into this world. i`m so tired of this everything`s my fault theory. but does it necessarily have to be me? they always seem to be correct.
i`m just always wrong. JUST DON`T DRIVE ME UP THE WALL.
you know why there are so many teenage suicides...
i failed once again @ 9:33:00 pm
