Sunday, February 26, 2006
went to tanjong pagar last night.
had dinner at Ai Sukiyaki. new japanese restaurant there.
it was buffet dinner lah. ate lots of sushi.
then i remembered that i was taking something, can`t remember what. but i took only 1 piece of it. and that guy was staring at me. and later, that guy look like one whole lot of salmon, like perhaps 10 pieces. then he keep taking non-stop. HAHA! i kept wanting to laugh. he was so funny.. and i stared at him like how`s he gonna finish so much salmon.. then he gave me that innocent look on his face.
took a stroll to the MRT station later. then realised that the service has just resumed. but i`m still wondering why it did stop in the first place.
reached home at 9plus. slept at 11plus.
dreamt of giraffe. don`t know why though. strange.
i dreamt that he was totally a different person from what he used to be.
didn`t think of that so much though..
then was awaken at 5plus by my mother who was cooking and making din.
tried to sleep, but then awaken again by HER at 6plus watching tv.
later she finally went out, so i finally slept. and woke up at 9plus.
afternoon went out to jurong west to change the nosepiece on my spectacles.
and my mother dropped my spectacles on the floor.
the lenses dropped out! and now, both of them are scratched.
big scratches! HMPH! i`m so angry. i took so good care of this pair of spectacles.
everyday, i wipe it with the cloth. and wash it occasionally.
and she dropped it. and LAUGHED! and now got scratches.
GRR!!! anyway, later she was looking at the clothes.
then it was taking so long. and i started to think of that dream.
wondered if he really changed that much. but anyway, i shouldn`t even think of him. then i suddenly felt that i ain`t supposed to know him. haix.. so strange feeling..
and later was at the bus-stop waiting for bus. and there`s this guy who alighted the bus and kept looking at me. so i looked back at him for a short while only lah. and i felt that he`s my primary school close friend. but i`m not sure. and if it was him, he`s changed alot. and i started to think of everything. and the dream again.. haix. don`t know what`s happening..
on the bus, i was feeling so mixed up. why did i have to dream of giraffe and meet someone who looks so much like my primary school close friend? but i don`t know why. i just came to this conclusion that i`m not destined to be with them b`cos of everything that`s happening and going to happen soon...
reached home. tried to do my maths homework but i just can`t get the answer. and i was fed up after trying so many times. gave up on it. i just couldn`t focus. it wasn`t like the normal me who could do those easy indices questions anymore.
though i don`t like/love anyone now.. but i don`t understand why i dreamt of that. were we even meant to meet? i don`t know what kinda feelings i had.. but i wish it was just simple puppylove. yet why do i still remember that dream and keep thinking of it now? why do i even want to try interpreting it in the first place? why do i get so distracted by the dream? why did i even dream of that? haix.. i feel so strange.. mixed up.. confused.. i thought maybe i can concentrate better without him.. but i`ve only realised i`m thinking of much more.. i`ve tried to forget everything.. but why does things happen again? i really want to focus on schoolwork and other more important areas.. yet i dream of him for no reason, after i`ve probably forgotten about him.. haix.. i shouldn`t even know of his existence. i really wonder what does that dream means now? why is it this time that i have this dream? i feel like i`ve just got a breakdown.. i can`t continue trying to forget everything.. it just comes back to me so naturally everytime..
i failed once again @ 5:45:00 pm
