sian..
today was a bad day for me.
sort of bad.. it seems to be.

first it was maths. then can`t remember what she was doing lah..
probably some lame things only.. i guess.
then it was physics. still all of us sian diao lah...
all the lame things. then i was trying to be a sponsor.
sweet sponsor to few "business partners".
after that was econs. he finally started teaching.
like after 1 full week never teach. GRR!
but then, today`s lesson very confusing.
he spent like 1h teaching a small point but none of us understood.
and his voice is really too ... lah. sort of defeaning. LOL! true.
RECESS!
after that was geography. then it was like BAD for me.
guessed many teachers got bad first impression of me lah..
even ms teo now also. seriously, i`m suay!
actually, it was all misunderstanding lah. but she still so angry.
then later, i think she purposely zheng dui me lah..
WAH LAO!
then it was CME. sian.. then there was a toot boy there.
HAHA! that art club alumni(aka active art member). -.-
went back to class for combined humanities.
then i was asleep for almost the whole lesson.
still very tired now though. sleeping doesn`t help.
now in school library again. trying to do on some stupid treaty of versailles thing.
but it`s rather impossible...

anyway, enough of now.
bad day for me, just know this.. <---

i failed once again @ 2:05:00 pm

today was sian....
a lot people late lah..
before recess was like HELL!
half hour maths. she`s like every opportunity to teach, she must teach... GRR!
then economics. cool! he say got survey before greeting him.
the results was that majority of us didn`t want lessons today.
LOL! so free period. btw, this is called the majority rule.
CME was crap.
RECESS was sian..
chemistry. she first teach lah..
then realised she also like adopting mr g style.
use whiteboard, use laptop.. just that she doesn`t draw graphs.
got back our class test scripts.
i`m so damn happy lah..
mother tongue. crap as usual.
physics. sort of no lessons lah..
then PC! debate of changing seating arrangement.
result: 10 out of 34 voted YES!
so.. ms teo said next term change.
but b`cos of an extra CM, guess there might be some negotiations.
after school. sian.. come school library, btw that`s where i`m now.
and i hacked into peifang`s account cos i don`t have user id and password.
trying to do my economics work due this friday..
GRR!!! and that evil lianglu laughed when i said my IE got problem.
DAMN lah.. not like as if he can lend me his laptop to do schoolwork.
and he still dare give an evil laugh..
get what i mean? TEACHERS ARE EVIL! <--- morale of today`s post.
YAY! by reading this post, you`ve learnt something new!

i failed once again @ 3:22:00 pm

today was bad day for me.
at first, i thought it was only hell.
but then, it was the 18th level of hell.
somewhere near there, YEAH! very unexpected.

wah lao.. all of us expected free periods until after recess.
but then, only mr g didn`t come.
still, mrs yip came in and told us about our mr g. -.-
lucky she didn`t say our lianglu. or the classroom would be repainted.
later was geography. half hour.
she went through our class test 2 lah..
expected to fail. then i failed lah..
and she still dare say she lenient with our class cos we no time do.
she very lenient loh. more than half of us failed lah..
then 3/3 i think not too much failures loh.. what the heck!
get the meaning of lenient now?
then after that, we had chemistry. draw graphs.
mother tongue. thought lianglu photographer then never come.
but then he came lah.. so stupid. and we need to write compo.
sick LAH!!
recess was sian.. canteen very few people.
then was english.. sian activities again.
i have this feeling latimer`s observing me.
and the worst thing is, english common test marks..
she haven`t return. but she said all single digit marks.
oh GREAT! another single digit mark subject.
after that was maths. sian lah.. life still went on..
GRR! she`s just so bias towards some people.
physics lab. completed it fast. then went off.
LOL!



today was really really bad day. bad experience at school.
tons of homework due this week lah.. including the econs essay thing.
SHIT lah..!


tomorrow chemistry maybe get back our class test.
tomorrow start the day with MATHS!
then thursday and friday also. HELL lah.
tomorrow before recess all single period lessons.
tomorrow maybe change seating arrangements.
tomorrow don`t know got remedial or not.



after school today went library.
wasted alot time there.
then got this 2 crappy guys over there.
cos we were sitting at the bookshelves there.
then they walked past. then later walked back to pop his head..
and he opened his eyes wide and said ooh.
later, we decided to walk around library.
then walked past them and suddenly they ah choo so loud.
fake one lah.. sort of scare me..
after library, went popular.
finally bought a new pencil case.
bought same one as peifang. but different colour.
HAHA! i chose orange. not that i like orange a lot.
but well.. it`s nicer to me.
then after that, went home. took 105.
suay lah.. boarded a bus which couldn`t reverse out of bus bay.
i was sitting by the window. aircon was like maximum power.
then i looked out the windows. millions of cm cube of exhaust fumes coming out from the pipe.
in the end, after 15 minutes, they then told us change bus.
STUPID lah..
then reach home liao..
SIAN!
ooh.. our performance has started. wonder how`s it.

i failed once again @ 6:37:00 pm

so far, came back home done nothing constructive.
today and tomorrow. slack days at school.
this afternoon was like eerie lah..
went to 7-11 buy stuffs. `cos $5 can get disney badge.
i was hoping for the simba one. but no luck yet.
stupidly, both of us got the cinderella one. YUCK!
then went back school. i smuggled maggi mee in.
LOL! then i felt real strange. raining. sky a bit dark.
then school was like seriously damn quiet.
i was having that eerie feeling.. seriously.
different from reaching school at 6.30am or camp feeling.
it was more like sneaking into school feeling.
but then, that feeling disappeared when i heard chang horng shouting...


today i felt totally different. not myself lah..
but at first, it was like empty spaces in class.
then the thing with kokila coming in for english.
cos she got the timetable wrong, all mixed up.
then she stretched her lesson into english.
when i started losing interest in summary.
and began taking out my book to read after dreaming.
recess and back to class.
got maths. she teach logarithms. sian-er than usual.
assembly. so few people..
all the absence of those people really sort of dampened my spirits.
plus the rain.. something just seemed to be missing but i can`t locate it.
well, though the 2 behind me were really lame. but i just couldn`t laugh.


then think about it.
tomorrow`s gonna be even worse lah..
like almost half the class gone to esplanade by 8am.
then the rest of us. will be restless lah..
plus the fact that we`ll have to do our own work.
i rather the teachers were here to teach.
it`s gonna be like damn slack and sian..
and it`s like half the day free period.
then more than half the class gone.
seriously, tomorrow will be hell for me lah..
though there`s still the lame ashley..
but then, no lessons no jokes no laming.
HAIX.. then i think maybe wednesday we`ll change seats.
but then, wednesday 9am start school.
no PE! still, i not so happy lah..
like all these things happening.
on wednesday, it`s either super high or super sian.
then afternoon don`t know got remedial or not...
but thursday start. we`re all gonna return to those busy days.
all remedials again. CCA. no early dismissal.
to those sian days.. i can`t imagine all these are actually happening.



all of us hope the public performance will be a success lah..
haix.. but all these things happening.. really hell for me.
i somehow pity those performers. their hard work. effort.
everything they put in. all those late nights for them..


also, not only we`re back to those normal busy days.
but cme will now be taught by ruth ng.
which will be like super duper sian..
and last year artclub, help her with so much stuffs.
then that day she asked if i`m a new member..
haix.. and the art club tee. $11 after subsidise $5.
rather acceptable price. but then if you see the shirt.... OMG!


haix.. today wasn`t a good day.
all those performers away.
then tomorrow... aww. all i hope is lianglu not here.
it`s enough. anyway, sounds like i hate language so much.
but then, the teachers we get are all so nasty and mean lah..













think this year`s gonna be over like fast.
haixx.. and think of it.. it`s gonna be o levels next year.
then the teachers would come in and tell us that during the start of school.
like what they told us this year too..



oh yeah.. noticed that there`re quite some concerts held in april.
LOL! my birthmonth. -.- but then... don`t think it`s gonna be pleasant.
with all these things happening. i don`t get things right.
and mid-year exam. then meet-the-parents.
i know my mother doesn`t want to go lah..
but then she don`t go, i don`t get results.
and she most likely would go on saturday..
i don`t wanna a repeat of last year stuffs.
like lianglu telling her all the bad stuffs of me.
then show my evaluation form to her.
was like so what lah..
i thought he do for fun. cos he can`t read english very well.
so all wrote crap, and he showed my mother.
also, so far, my results are not very good lah..
especially for combined humanities. i can`t say i put alot of effort in it.
but i really do give a try no matter what.. then it`s still pointless cos they see nothing.
and english. latimer was really nasty and mean at the beginning.
and no matter what she does now, i just can`t change my impression of her.
even other teachers have said that she`s really tough... not that i don`t wanna learn.
but i just feel she`s too hard on us. and her crap lessons nowadays..
while people laugh, i feel she is just too eager to tell us all her stories.
haix.. sometimes, i really hope they can experience what we`re going thru.
all the teachers and adults put things so easily. as easy as ABC..
but i feel that actually, the ones who understand us are very very few.
maybe.. maybe it`s all this stress and pressure that i`ve lost my old lame and cheerful self.
the crazy and noisy me and in primary school who had no pressure at all and could get so good results. everything`s different. i prefer peace now. like think... how many people knows that i`ve a lame side too? who has seen my lame side? the amount is very very little compared to primary school. and by the time we graduate.. i don`t know what`s gonna happen.. what would i be like? well.. but no one certainly knows.. there`s actually like maybe less than 5 people in this world who truly understands me. or perhaps, no one even understands me.

i failed once again @ 9:07:00 pm

DAMN! haven`t completed any homework yet.
maths remedial worksheet done halfway.
geography workbook done halfway too.
hmm... but i was redo-ing my a maths notebook.
from 3pm to 12am yesterday.
and my poor finger was aching.
had to put plaster lah.. which was like stupid.
but then anyway, there`s not too much homework this weekend.


recently been addicted to television.
watching the commonwealth games.
LOL! lucky today`s the last day of it.
thank god. or i`ll still have to continue watching it.
hmm... quite funny. i`ve seen all singapore winners for table tennis twice liao..
HAHA! but then, it`s all china people`s talent. none pure singaporean.


feeling strange. ignore me, i`m just posting random stuffs.
last night 1plus slept. this morning 8plus wake up.
and i feel so awake. not wanting to sleep at all.
totally different from when i`m schooling.
LOL! perhaps school is much too boring for me.
=x


ARGH! still usual sundays for me.
my brother was so good yesterday.
HAHA! but then he went back last night liao..
AWW...
now i`m alone at home.
since dad isn`t driving taxi, then he and mum went out.
and i`m abandoned temporarily.

feel like sleeping late tonight.
the feeling`s just so great.
but then, later can`t wake up in time for school.
LOL!


just read sunday times.
well.. not all. only a few articles.
i`m not one who reads like at least half of the articles lah..
i only read 1 to 4 articles per day. HAHA!
then saw the article about teen sex.
i was like so fed up? LOL! what the heck.
of course, there are extremes who do that too often.
but then, they must also consider the fact that there are a plenty who has never done it before.
and they interviewed 20 with sex experience.
like what the heck. it`s so obviously zheng dui us.
at least find a few without experience.
and also.. it`s all the media`s fault. always exposing us to such stuffs.
like what lianglu said, we`re also matured earlier..
and they said average age is 15.5...
it`s supposed to be 18-19 like that lah..
WAH LAO..
and also, since they say is secret.. and they`re still publishing in the newspaper.
HEY! get the right meaning of secret lah..
they like that post 'teenagers` secret'.
then we can also post 'government secret' or 'media secret'.
just because of the tammy thing.. now it`s all like that.
and even so, what`s wrong with sex?
it`s not like those people who conducted the survey or published to article hasn`t done that before. and what gives them the right to publish this kinda articles in the news? well, cos they`re older than us and it gives them the rights to do so.
CRAP!
and i guess that so soon later.
they`ll be publishing different ways of having sex.
then, we`ll all be amazed at such strange ways, perhaps.
who knows. they just scrape for anything when they have no news.
that`s their job. they can`t afford to lose it.


anyway, shall return back to normal sunday mode of rushing homework.
i mean, later. LOL! not yet the time.

enough for today. nothing to say.

i failed once again @ 9:58:00 am

next week gonna be a slack one.
but then, new timetable has no more slack days for us.
AHH! now only monday a tiny bit slack.

today`s chemistry test was quite okay.
but then again, chemistry tests are always tricky.
you do it with confidence of getting probably A1, but then you fail it.
YES! that`s what chemistry is about.

we had no lessons from 12:30pm today.
but somehow, mr g gave an order of leaving only after 12:50pm.
well, we ain`t that guai.. some of them just left immediately.

hmm.. today PE slack.
waited for mr lim but then found out he was having a brief meeting.
so we did warm up exercises.
as the word warm up suggests, we did it rather slowly.
and we had trouble counting and so we had to count 1.. 2.. 3.. 7.. 8.. 12..
somehow we had a mental block.

YEAH! no PE next week.
which means no 2.4km!

omg.. i`m yearning for so much things..
LOL!
o1. a pencil box
o2. jj`s caocao
o3. nicholas teo`s zhu da zhang dong liang
these are 3 which i must get, sometime.
and, of course after that, the list goes on...

okay.. i found out the meaning of humanities.
it`s the plural form of the study of human culture.
well, i`m not so that interested in human culture.
and as a human, i know we don`t enjoy writing loads of essays.
but that`s what we`re doing currently.

oh YEAH!
darn css library said i owe them a book.
and i didn`t even borrow any book this year at all.
the most atrocious thing was that the title was sweetie love.
DAMN! stupid lah..

ms teo is simply great lah..
why`s everyone saying her boring?
she told us the answers for the A and B thingy of the class test.
and i was right man..
but the thing is.. i couldn`t memorise the characteristics..
so there again, my marks go..

i feel so dumb..
haix.. when i looked through all our hopes and expectations of being in 3/2, i realised that many are very good in their english or at least they have a strong vocabulary. then for me, it was like a totally different case altogether. i think i know what`s the problem with me.. i can`t apply the stuffs i learn.. then it goes all the same for other subjects too.. like maths, physics, chemistry, econs, combined humanities, geography etc. and this is even worse because kokila, liao and g likes to use what seems like chim english to me. then i have even more problems understanding them. also, i realise that however slack or mischevious or lazy one may seem in 3/2, but i have a real strong feeling that they go home and revise and practise on their own, which is another different story for me. i get home and i sleep. then i eat. then i do homework. and watch tv. and sleep. i lead a different lifestyle from them. and i`m sick entirely of only able to turn in to bed only after 12am everyday then i`m even starting to sleep in class...

i failed once again @ 6:43:00 pm

this week seems to be a good one.
at least, i think so and hope so.
let`s see how school goes for tomorrow.
hmm.. so happy. from monday to thursday, each day reach home earlier and earlier.
tomorrow... still don`t know whether to go library or mark my unmarked stuffs in class and do corrections.

HAHA! suddenly felt that haven`t been chatting on MSN for so long.
all i do is sign in and get disconnected. this whole process repeating itself umpteen times.
i so wish for my internet to get better so i can chat with peifang and ruimin.
feel like so sian without crapping with ruimin. HAHA! i seriously wanna crap..
and i feel so strange like as if i have left some homework undone b`cos there`s no peifang to ask me whether i`ve completed my homework and studied for my tests. AWW!

AND.. i realised! that i don`t know what`s the meaning of humanity. OMG! i`m in triple humanities and i don`t know what`s the meaning of the word. seriously, i don`t remember any teacher telling us what`s the meaning of it even though at the beginning of term 1, all the teachers would always come in and 'remind' us we are the triple humanities class. but, sometimes i still feel like strange. i don`t see any difference in the subjects taken between us and other classes. somehow, i just can like 'dump' economics. LOL! or just forget about it. even though i seriously love it. well, i just don`t see any difference at all between us studying economics and the others studying all the same old typical subjects which has been offered in the school for like years of history.

can`t really absorb what mr g taught today. i only know what is price floor and price ceiling and the case studies. but the rest of the stuff he`s been drawing and talking about, i don`t understand. oh well, perhaps he`s talking crap. and i think he`s using too chim english words. like efficacy, evasion etc. you may know these words, but not the same pleasant case for me. i seem to have problems understanding what the heck he`s teaching probably b`cos of the language. AHH! well anyway, no choice, afterall he`s an english teacher, or at least he taught english as a trainee teacher last time. no doubt he uses chim english to confuse us or only me?

bad he didn`t return us econs surprise test today. i have a tiny luck today.

hmm.. yeah. i got 60% for geography class test. so happy! i know it isn`t that good. but at least i somehow got maintain my standard, though drop a small bit. and also, i don`t expect good results like this for the latest test we took. and that weiyao topped again. DAMN IT lah.. he`s just so damn pro. or maybe it`s just his strategy of using old slightly yellowish papers. what the heck.. and he doesn`t have the marianne chong guidebook at all. so totally unbelievable!
i don`t know why other classes say geography teacher not good but i like her. she`s so great, cool and funny. HAHA! when ashley was calling phyo for something, she suddenly looked up and asked who called her. LOL! well.. she`s quite okay lah.. at least better than mdm ros =x

next week then can get back chinese class test cos i think chongkeng haven`t took it. he read out our marks lah.. i got 76%. still within A1 same range. but compared, i`ve drop alot from that 90%. still, i didn`t expect this rather good grade b`cos i wrote wrong format and i don`t know 4 blanks. i wrote wrong 1 idiom. and i got 1 question wrong for comprehension. rather surprised. (:

YAY! i suddenly feel so happy. but then, my results also not as good. but at least, i`ve put in effort. YES! i`m gonna do it. i`ll really do my best for mid-year which is like my post-birthday present...

shall go deal with my homework.
i want my internet back. GRR! waiting in vain...

i failed once again @ 3:12:00 pm

HAHA! it`s almost 5pm..
dismissed at like 3:50pm only.
so early.. but then i rather spend in school.
if i come home, i always spend my time doing things which are not in the least productive.
LOL! i only do productive things at night.


today.. as usual.. another boring day.
and latimer was saying she had ex-boyfriendS.
well.. well.. say what she wanna say. but beat the hell out of me, and i`m still not gonna believe it. anyway, what`s with the silicon stuff. DAMN! she loves talking about these stuffs. and she was talking about biological human interactions. how those sounds can be wonderful.. GOSH! is it a must for her to talk about these stuff? anyway, end of nightmare since today`s the last lesson of the week. COOL!

probably getting back chinese class test scripts tomorrow. it`s better we never get back since he`s always delaying.

today`s geography test was murderous. i almost died. YES! and that teacher seemed so cruel. oh whatever, don`t judge a book by its cover. most of us are probably gonna fail the test. LOL!

got cme tomorrow. hope ruth ng not back. HAHA! imagine facing her every wednesday and thursday mornings. OMG! how bad is that just gonna be?

slept in maths lesson today. DAMN! oh great.. but she didn`t call me. somehow, just couldn`t bear with it anymore and i just dozed off, unintentionally. dozing off for like god knows how many times. and a few minutes before her lesson ended, i was sleeping away until the bell ring.


shall go off now. yet to bathe. LOL!

i failed once again @ 4:55:00 pm

OMG!
i don`t want this day to turn into a bad day for me..

but anyway, so damn suay..
half of my economics textbook is now soaked.
AHH! i`m gonna get myself for this...! $40plus...
i just can`t believe it.. my dear economics book!
shouldn`t have brought it home... GRR!

and i`m having loads of junk mails nowadays.
218 mails for not logging in for like 4 or 5 days.
and 131 mail from yesterday to today. COOL!
but i have no time to see them..

oh yeah yeah..
mother`s day in may..
so art club gotta make some cards again.
like anyone even cares to buy it.. GRR!
or do we even sell it at all?
but then exam`s in april end.
at least it didn`t clash with my birthday.
still, bet there`s gonna be a problem creating my IC.
either i forgo revision or i`ve gotta go late. LOL!
well, hope NAPFA test is before my birthday.
okays.. i just realised tests are all around(my birthday)...

yes. and teachers are saying RV`s way better.
let`s just see then.. but i still dread waking up early.

geography test tomorrow.
and i`m NOT dead. though i haven`t learn.
well, GOSH! i don`t know what to study for chapter 6.
can`t find any kind of decent notes for that.

and the journal about role model.
what she said is true.
i don`t have a dream. i don`t have a role model.
and i`m really having difficulties doing this.


anyway, i shall go off.


AHH! my dear economics book...
pity it.


hope there`s no remedial tomorrow.
and YAY! we have no cca next week.
uber COOL lah.. i didn`t know ruth ng was that sort..
but it`s still great anyway.
one thing to note, the art club tee is gonna be disgusting.
i rather not have the tee.
than to pay god-knows-how-much for that disgusting tee.

signing off..

`-----jingWEI.

i failed once again @ 7:27:00 pm

today came back a tiny bit earlier.
hmm.. didn`t turn out to be a bad day too much.
but of course, there`s still the bad parts.
like failing my SS common test and getting a single digit mark.
and also being late for art club without knowing ruth`s back.


well.. today started out quite bad i guess.
but anyway, physics was first. felt strange. half the class was away. and there were some stupid 'arguments' over what colour sticker for our portfolios. and somehow, someone was trying to be 'so unique'. oh YEAH! -.-
then it was combined humanities. though joanna kept saying she would fail, i was like not affected by what she said at all. cos i know i`ve really given all my best for this paper. SERIOUSLY and i mean it. but then, when she mentioned there were 14 failures, i was shocked. it was like one-third of the class. and i felt so much that i`ll be 1 of them. but i still had the confidence that i may have a just pass score, which i would be satisfied with already. but then, bad news came as i failed the test. another 1 digit score. i feel so sad. that was the test which i really gave my all, but i still failed. i really felt like breaking down. i agree with kokila, i may be dreaming in term 1, but that was the test which i put in the most effort for in term 1. i just really want to pass my combined humanities for the first time. but i just couldn`t. then still, we can`t drop that subject, which makes it worse for me. i improved by like 9% from the previous one but i still failed. i think i`m the only 1 in 3/2 who`s always been getting a single digit score for combined humanities assignment or tests. i don`t know why. when i have that confidence in myself, i just had to fail. then when i do not have any confidence, i pass. should i just forget about the word 'confidence' totally? and when she went through the paper, and told us how to go about answering, i felt so much i hate the subject `cos it`s somehow similar to literature. i just wanna drop it lah.. but well, choiceless. i`ve gotta hang in there, like what latimer always says.
then it was maths. another uber boring lesson. can`t really remember what she taught.
RECESS! sian. thought it was gonna be d-day for me since there`s econs and chinese afterwards. in which i feel i haven`t done well for the tests.
it was econs. no idea why mr g always love saying today`s lesson gonna be boring than usual. oh whatever. then there was this part he said 'GEE! blah blah..' can`t remember fully. but stanley was saying GEE! and mr g started splitting personalities and talked to his 2 split personalities, making us laugh. LOL! he returned the feedback thing. and desiree`s one was funny lah.. was damn lucky when he said he wouldn`t be returning the darn surprise test papers so soon.
english was like story telling lesson. latimer couldn`t resist but to tell all her stories. WELL... i`m sick tired of them all.. role model. okay, i just realise i`ve no role model. i`ve no one to look up to. how am i gonna rush out the journal by tomorrow? perhaps crap shall just do. anyway, our 1h english lesson somehow turned into story telling.
mother tongue. he spent half an hour going through gong han. then i forgot what`s after that. anyway, i was real tired. and he confiscated that greeny thing that was fascinating all the guys. HAHA! i think he thought padey was playing with his handphone or sms-ing. BAD GUESS for him!

dismissed. went for lunch in school. like one of the few times. then went out to buy chocolate to satisfy my cravings. after which, we were late but still rushed to art room. then was real damn surprised to see ruth ng. WTH! tomorrow`s cme. ARGH! ruth`s back... not a good news to be spread around. and i hope not too much people knows. HAHA!

oh sucks. there`s geography test tomorrow. i really wanna do well. i`m in triple humanities but i don`t seem to have a niche subject at all, let alone saying about humanities subject. i promise i`m gonna study real hard. but then again, i studied so hard for the previous test, but it turned out to be of not much use. GRR!

i failed once again @ 5:05:00 pm

HEADACHE!
don`t know why.
just seem to have a bad headache.
every monday afternoons especially.
perhaps i just can`t stand chinese and maths remedial.
really giving me real bad headaches every week.
and it`s always on MONDAYS! can`t think of any other days.
neither can i think of any other day of the week where i would get headache on a weekly basis.
today`s headache probably the worst.
since from like 2pm till now.. 8 hours?
and i even forced myself to sleep in the evening.
yet still woke up with a headache. ARGH!


the HEADACHE probably made my day BAD!
i would so wanna conclude i love mondays. but then, why do i always have headaches on monday? oh well... what other choices do i have? anyway, can`t do anything or focus too hard cos of this headache.

today was BAD b`cos:
o1. i came back home with a real bad headache from school.
o2. 1h was wasted cos there wasn`t chinese remedial. i slept for 15 minutes.
o3. i forgot to bring my english 5 year series. but she didn`t scold. HAHA!
o4. there was a stupid english common test, which was damn HARD! yes, i mean it!
o5. i made 1 careless mistake in the e maths class test and lost 2 marks to get my first ever A1 for e maths, or just maths, for academic year 2006.
o6. there`s CCA tomorrow. i don`t sound enthu enough.. HAHA! haven`t done my poster as of yet.
o7. the IE connection! this thing has been on my mind for a week? YES! and it definitely sucks.



IS TOMORROW GONNA BE BAD TOO??

i failed once again @ 10:14:00 pm

damn tired.
back from genting yesterday.
reached home at about 11:30pm.
had a bath then read some magazines.
and slept after my hair dried.

hmm.. saw sinhuey yesterday.
she was disgusting or just pure rich.
applying such a thick make-up.
which, in the end, made her face look so fake.
HAHA! she went to genting.
and she actually played in the theme park.
we took the same bus as her.
LOL! not so lucky lah..
we took the 707 company bus number 9106.
we took that bus to genting on wednesday.
she took that bus back to JB on saturday.
and the resting places were the same.
my cousin was like .... hyper?
LOL! we finished dinner and was waiting to board our bus.
then a lot of 707 buses came.
and she was chanting 9106 all the way.
until it finally came. sinhuey`s family went down.
and my cousin shouted that it was her sister.
so in the end, sinhuey didn`t dare to come down.

anyway, having minor muscle ache and bruises.
1 swollen bruise on my arm.. much better now.
and 2 dark obvious ones on my knees. 1 on each side.
i`ve absolutely no idea how i got them.
and muscle ache is due to 6 rock climbing trials within 2 days.
and 218 junk mails! COOL!


shall update on that few days.
BEAR with it if you wanna read.
gonna be wordy.. perhaps.


15 march
woke up at 5am. strange, wasn`t in the least bit tired. though i slept at like um.. 12am or 1am the previous night. cleared the singapore custom and waited for my cousins for like 20mins. then my cousin ran up the stairs to tell us they were eating at the stairs. DAMN! and so we proceeded to clear the malaysia customs. and went to wait for the bus. LOL! the bus had a faulty door. and for some lame possibilities me and my cousin came up with, we laughed non-stop. the bus left at about 9am. and reached at about 3pm. no cable cars. bought a box of chewing gums at RM8. checked into the hotel. long way there. `cos it was tower 2. and went for lunch at marrybrown. hmm.. watched pink panther. quite funny. i mean, really. but then, me and my cousin were laughing at the inappropriate parts instead. and shouting and clapping. kinda lame. and we were spitting out the popcorn seeds everywhere. after that, went for dinner. then my cousins went for bowling. and i went shopping with my mother. hmm.. then bought a cheesecake from starbucks. my mother bought a coffee. and she was like so unhappy with the price hike. HAHA! went back to our hotel room to eat. then watched television and slept. was so damn tired that we didn`t bathe. except in the morning. LOL!

16 march
breakfast. then played in the indoor theme park. sian... went for lunch at pizza hut. then they went for bowling again. so i played in indoor theme park with my cousin. LOL! met my other cousins after their game and continued playing indoors with them. hmm.. played until 6pm. went for dinner. saw how those people killed the seafood. disgusted. they just smashed the fish on the floor. EWW! then after that, continued playing indoors again. and waited and waited and waited and waited for what seemed like hours for our parents to get 3 or 4 bottles of milo from the casino. so we went to mcdonald`s to wait. making our way down and they were calling us. WHAT THE HECK! went to burger king to eat. the cake my mother bought was like shit. the cake was like bread. the cream tasted like don`t know what. plain lucky she bought a tiny piece. hmm.. went back to hotel. washed up and slept.

17 march
breakfast at mcdonald`s. ate big breakfast. then the person didn`t give me a hashbrown, so i was like angry lah. then she still dare to argue with us say we never buy set so no hashbrown. and i kept pointing to the picture of the big breakfast with the hashbrown on it with the price RM6.89. and that wasn`t value meal lah. she act gong lah. cos we can`t communicate smoothly so she just ignored and walk away. then later my aunt go ask another waiter. and she gave us the hashbrown. that poor attitude of the waiter SUCKS lah. continued playing indoor. went for lunch separately. me and my mother went with my cousin their family to the 3rd floor foodcourt. on our way there, my cousin said he wanted try rock climbing. so i went with him. wore my shoes. then i had problems positioning my shoes on those small lil rocks. in the end. just dropped down. then another try again. and went for lunch. after that, went for bowling. 2 games. 1st game i was quite lucky at the beginning. then later, the ball kept rolling to the right just before hitting the pins. DAMN lah. then i no choice, used the 6 pounds ball. but then, i don`t like that ball. seems too light. and i couldn`t get used to it. then 10 pounds, too heavy, plus the hole was too big. and it will keep dropping. anyway, finished 2 games and all the adults went to watch final destination 3 while we went to play indoors. then went for dinner. after that, ate ice-cream. i ate the hiphop jelly. LOL! i have an obsession. HAHA! then went indoors play again. whole bunch of us played euro express. then later my cousin wanted play again. i don`t want. so the 2 of them queued for that. and the 6 of us went to play motion master. when they came down look for us, they said they saw sinhuey. and almost was in the same round of the euro express with her. LOL! hmm.. then later saw the family of the children my aunt look after. so went to play with them. can`t take thrill rides. so take rio float. it came to 9 of us. then that fucking person there said only 8 person per float. so i couldn`t play. then went to sit at the railing there while waiting for them. then went to mcdonald`s for drinks treat. LOL! and french fries. after that, went to look for our parents. then my mother called me go back hotel to eat cheesecake. so bathed and eat and sleep. LOL!

18 march
went for breakfast. me and my mother walked different route from the rest of them. so we reached first. then my cousin came and sit at the table. then later my aunt came and she said
eh! and i replied with eeeehhhhhh! LOL! hmm.. went rock climbing again. 5th try within 2 days. my cousin`s 3rd try. she injured her hand. hmm.. then bathe and checked out of hotel. went for lunch at marrybrown again. i love marrybrown. HAHA! and they went for bowling. didn`t play. instead, we went to buy stuffs like prawn crackers and tea eggs. LOL! then went to wait for bus. and saw sinhuey boarding 9106. was standing beside her waiting for her to board the bus. HAHA! then we went on to board for bus. then i was laughing that the 9106 bus had a faulty door. hmm... then went wherever rest places the driver brings us to. and kept waiting for 9106 to come. hmm.. then at the bus, we kept observing the adults. and laugh at them. hmm.. then went to dinner place there wait for sinhuey. HAHA! then boarded the bus. was damn dark. couldn`t make out a single thing or figure. me and my cousin discussing about campus superstar in the dark. LOL! finally reached city square. then went home from there.


today rather sian. woke up at 10am. ate non-stop. then slept at 1plus. woke up at 3pm. then.... LOL!

school`s tomorrow. AHH!

i failed once again @ 4:04:00 pm

oh well. i`m seriously FUCKED UP with PACNET`s SERVICE.
i typed a draft that`s way way too vulgar. but they`re all facts.
not gonna post that up though cos you know how sucky it can get at times.
trying hard not to sound angry but i don`t know how it comes out.
just seriously BAD LUCK..
1. yuyang is out.
2. computer is disconnected for like god knows how long.
3. i`ve still loads of homework.
4. i`ve yet to iron my uniform.
5. i`ve yet to revise my tests.
6. i`ve yet to pack my stuffs.
7. i`ve yet to redo my notebooks.
SUCKS! how am i gonna do so much within that limited time period?
and i can`t sleep late tonight. probably gotta wake up at 5am tomorrow.
or who knows, may be even 4am.
and what other bad luck will follow me to genting?

damn it. things can really get this bad.
technology ain`t reliable.
especially when there are some cocky companies that earn your money and give you fucked up services. i`ve listed an example somewhere in my post entry.
you don`t have to look hard for the example.
i don`t think you`d even want to know of existence of such companies.



and yes. i`ve not showed my results yet.
FUCK! what`s gonna happen later on?

i failed once again @ 12:02:00 pm

GAHH.. sucks. only completed 1 读后感 so far, today.
nevermind. gonna stay up till the wee hours to complete, hopefully all.
LOL! sounds a bit impossible, but i`m gonna try!
not quitting till i`ve tried. i wanna win the battle. HAHA!

anyway, my aunt forced me out just now.
bo bian. went to west coast with her.
sian diao. then came back home again lah.
SO HAPPY when i came home.
hate going out man..

damn. it`s like 4pm so fast.
have yet to iron my uniform.
and yet to pack even 1 stuff for the trip.
SHIT!



yeah.. i`m crazy today. so hyper. pity alone at home. but kept laughing non-stop while chatting. real funny lah.. HAHA!

i failed once again @ 3:57:00 pm

WHEW.. damn tired.
went to malaysia today.
and watched i not stupid 2.
it was rather touching lah.
tried fighting back my tears.. but eventually i cried.
but the starting was very crappy lah..
i love the parts about the cool man, lame chop thing.
that was so funny.


went out at 1pm. reached home 11pm.
10 hours. well, treat that as a break.
but i`m going on hiatus mode again in a few days` time.


shall try to complete all my work.
still gotta redo my notebooks.
and i`ve gotta revise for the tests.

i failed once again @ 11:00:00 pm

YAY! -.-
anyway, it`s term break. ought to be happy.
hmm.. so far i`ve only done my geography corrections.
and the filing also. i`m so good rep.

GRR! trying hard to do maths.
why doesn`t she give e maths?
all a maths. makes me so tired of it.

still left with a load of homework.
normal lah. start of holidays only.


gonna be a not so pleasant week for me.
monday and tuesday actually planned go library.
but now, think all thwarted.
i`m not even sure when the heck i`m free.
or when am i busy?


i just wanna finish all my homework.
and revise for the tests.
gonna make a comeback. HAHA!
sounds evil. but... i can`t let go now.

i failed once again @ 9:53:00 pm

today got back progress report.
results were pretty much expected.
i`ve really done badly.
all the expectations of mine were real high.
2 A1, 5 A2, and only 1 B3 for english.
i know i underperformed.
but i`m not sad. instead i was all smiles.
the thing is that, if you keep thinking of your past failures, it`ll only add as a burden and a barrier for you to cross, so how are you gonna succeed?
the best way is to start again, all refreshed.

i haven`t done well this term.
but i`ll really try my best next term.
so far, i feel i`ve changed a bit, at least.
from always daydreaming in lessons or busy copying homework and not listening, i`m now trying to pay attention already. and i do not sleep at all. the times i`m daydreaming have been much much lesser, really. and the homework i`m copying is only half of the amount i used to be copying.
if i can achieve all these, i believe i really can improve.
i`m really willing to start anew.
and i`ve already changed my mindset about school.


but the only thing holding me back is motivation.
my mother! why does she need to compare?
i`m studying for my own good, not for her to use as a comparison.
but i`m really serious about this:
if you treat my studies all as your face and it`s something you use to compare with others, i`m prepared to fail all my tests with a F9 or might as well a 0. that`s really what i can`t tolerate. you can scold me, you can punish me. but i`m studying not for you to compare with others. and it`s only made worse by 2 cousins of the same age as me.



YES! i`m gonna start anew when term 2 begins.
i know i`m able to do it.
and even if i fail a test, i would be able to tell myself this:
i`ve given my all, yet i failed. but at least, i`ve tried. i`m already halfway there.
rather than this term, i`ve been telling myself this:
oh my god. i failed again, i should have studied for the test.
which makes no perfect sense at all.


i`m gonna be recharged.
it ain`t holidays.
to me, it`ll be a tough one.
i`ll go tough on myself.
but i won`t overdo it.
i need to stretch my limits and abilities.

i failed once again @ 10:21:00 pm

all the plans thwarted today.
that`s called the power of economics.
anyway, mr g was evil lah.
when i asked him yesterday if i could hand in my work today, he said sure so enthusiastically and was offering an extension in deadline for me till monday.
and today he went to class saying we should all hand in by today.
so i stayed back to do the whole of it. took me a few hours.
and i went to his pigeon hole 3 times. to refer to others` essay.
was sitting at the stairs near staffroom looking at those.
then all the teachers walked pass kept looking at us.
and this strange teacher asked what i was doing. and which teacher gave the homework?
anyway, someone called me. wanted to take out.
but staffroom, danger zone. thought it was ruimin so ignored.
well, luckily i ignored. cos liang lu just came out.
then after a short while, mr g came bouncing out of the staffroom with a long coat.
it looked like dracula`s one except it was brown.
no idea why peifang and ruimin asked me what`s with him and it..
i thought they should probably just ask him..


LOL! supposed to be ruimin come my house.
in the end, spent so long on the econs work.
then later 5plus she went off. then peifang.
then followed by me.






to meet my family for dinner.
i`m damn pissed off by them right now lah!
they don`t understand a single thing.
all they do is make fun of people.. SUCKS!
and they don`t even care. that`s what i call inhumane.

i failed once again @ 9:34:00 pm

today was basically hell for me, and all 3/2 people, especially higher chinese ones.
3 tests for them in one day.
the day goes like that...
it was cme. david ng wasn`t here. and we`re like dismissed late too.
so it was already 8am very fast. latimer`s lesson.
"take out your 5 year series. turn to the 2002 paper. START DOING!"
omg. all of us started formulating stories and handed in by end of her lesson.
dragged into econs lesson lah. mr g came in..
usual starting. with a powerpoint show on elasticity.
and i was copying down the notes..
suddenly, a female`s scream was heard. looked up.
and immediately saw the screen got a witch.
what happened next? class test 2! surprise test..
oh great! he`s so like evil lah. a scream then a witch then a surprise test.
i was like so worried about failing it lah. cos i didn`t know how to do alot.
and yesterday, asked him after school how to do, he say find him today...
but now, i feel that failing or passing is not important.. shall talk on this part later on..
then it was chemistry. drowned out by then..
i rather it was the chemistry lessons where we went through worksheets.
but it wasn`t. it was the taking down notes time.
imagine lah.. then recess was no way better.
had to rush out a piece of SEQ for history work cos i didn`t do.
after recess, social studies. groupwork, thought better.
instead, she showed us videos, we`re supposed to take down notes.
then a part of a song about 20seconds? then we had to continue the song using the notes we took. and i think it was due today.
mother tongue. he was real angry with our test yesterday lah.
then he gave us comprehension worksheet to do while he mark our test.
wasn`t in the mood to do it. after what a heck time we had.
then i was so depressed. reflected. wanted to cry. i just felt so depressed.
maths. we had class test for 40mins. after that, administration work. all worksheets give back, need ownself mark and do corrections.
when school bell rang, really so "happy" that all these are gone.
was really fed up with everything lor. just couldn`t do anything properly.
everything messed up. and had to clear table. i just felt like breaking down.
then english remedial. real boring. no aircon. kept looking at clock but everytime i look, only 5 min has passed. and latimer was talking about a make-up story. what she is famous star, someone accused her of fake boobs. so happy when it ended. went to find peifang and go for lunch. went back school. tried finding mr g. wasn`t in staffroom. went to library. wasted my time just plain talking to peifang. then went to look for him again. can`t find him still. my 3rd try at 5:15pm. finally located him! anyway, mr g sounds so enthu on the phone. and i guess he was bouncing out of the staffroom. and he took a long time. LOL! then he said i was looking so stressed and asked why. and i said there was too much tests. then we went on to econs stuff. he taught me. was like so good. he was so patient trying to make me understand. he seemed to be so obsessed over gadgets and food. mr g ROCKS! and so does econs. i really love econs. then he also talked about other subjects. and told me look for other teachers if i have problems also. and when i told him my results was bad, he said that it`d get better after this term, or by after mid-year. well, mr g was just really good.
and after the talk. i felt like i don`t care if i fail any test anymore, so long as i`ve tried my best and put in a lot of effort.
i just felt so much better lah. and he told me can hand in on monday too. but i don`t wanna so late. will try handing it in tomorrow. YAY! G rocks. econs rule!

i don`t care if i fail or pass. it`s just a mark.
efforts are more important though they can`t be seen.

i failed once again @ 9:37:00 pm

last test of the term tomorrow.
finally. i`m gonna get thru the term filled with tests.
today`s chinese test ain`t good.
gong han ge shi wrong. tui bi san she write wrong.
fill in the blanks 3 wrong, 1 is word write wrong.
DEAD! but i still hope for A1.

tomorrow`s e maths test.
BAD. what else can i say?
i really need to ace it.
like how many times have i said it?
how many maths tests have i got?
and did i even get an A?
seriously unsatisfied with my results this term.
and i mean it!


GRR! don`t know how to do econs.
it`s his 2nd time explaining already.
HAHA. went to look for him in the afternoon.
and he said he`ll get back to me tomorrow.
tomorrow = assignment due.

stayed till like 4pm to collect all the geography stuffs.
LOL! but i was also doing my homework.
wouldn`t be bothered to stay just to wait for all.


mr g was funny.
making all sorts of faces when mrs teo was "showing off" us in front of the brunei prinicpals.
HAHA!

and during physics.
mdm quek apologised for mistakes she made.
and ashley said you`re welcome.
sort of lame. but damn funny.



well. wanted to say latimer was angry with us.
BUT! when exactly has she never been angry with us before?
anyway, i think she`s serious about us. about our grades.
and not her career. not her income.
she even came today to teach when she`s on MC.
ain`t sure if it`s true. but i choose to believe it.

still stuck with ECONS!
...

i failed once again @ 8:19:00 pm

sian.. haven`t done anything constructive since i came home.
ought to go study for chinese test. and do homework TOO!

hard luck for me yesterday.
just came home. tried using computer.
and i can`t even switch it on. due to some stupid problems.
then went to watch tv. was switching channels and tv went sot on me.
first, it was uber loud. i turned volume to 0 and still uber loud.
then i switched channel again. to channel 8. and there was no reception.
went to sleep since i couldn`t do anything...

today`s cca was suay.
there was a huge group of thai visitors.
and we didn`t know. i was still feasting on potato chips lah!
anyway, the sec 3s were so slack.
especially us. all seated around the table.
and were chatting away. none of the people from our table actually listened to that toot guy.
HAHA! and ended up, i didn`t know what the heck he was talking.
also, i completed some of my homework.

chemistry. was slack.
supposed to do at least 2 ditrations(or whatever)
but i did only 1. and waited and waited for bell ring.


still left with the geography graphic organiser.
due tomorrow. but she doesn`t collect stuffs.
LOL! or at least, she doesn`t hunt for homework.

term break`s gonna come so soon.
OMG! i don`t wanna get my progress report.
58.3 for e maths. DAMN!
D7 for english and F9 for combined humanities. even more atrocious!


anyway, i`ve better revise for chinese test now.

i failed once again @ 8:41:00 pm

damn it.
gotta report early tomorrow.
i`ll lost uncountable seconds of my sleep.
well, as normal, still struggling with homework.

oh, tell me.. have i ever studied hard for any common test?
GOSH! why are common test slots on mondays?
i`d be so glad if it was on tuesdays instead.


i`ve finally done up all my economics articles.
but i`ve no idea how to do that economics essay thing.
i know how to explain. but without the aid of diagrams.
why does he want diagrams?!

seems like everyone`s still busy with their homework.
i`m no exception. though i really want to.
and social studies, here i`m coming and failing.
YEAH! that`s it. i`ve gotta be more BIAS.


crap.

i failed once again @ 9:46:00 pm

i did a handwriting analysis of myself yesterday.
at www.handwritingwizard.com try it out!
some people says it`s rather true.
but to me, it`s only partly true...


Bay has a healthy imagination and displays a fair amount of trust. She lets new people into her circle of friends. She uses her imagination to understand new ideas, things, and people.

- the highlighted one i don`t think is true. i can imagine of almost everything since i`m always daydreaming. i`ve got great imagination.

Bay is constantly disappointed when trying to reach success. She works very hard, perhaps harder than most, then just before succeeding, something happens that keeps her from success. Often, Bay changes to a second project just before the first one is finished, thus failing to complete the first project. Sometimes she changes because she feels she needs a different challenge. Bay feels dejected. This feeling relates to her failures. This trait is very important in a working situation and in a relationship. She must be handled in a very special way to get the most work from her or to make a relationship last. Concerning this trait, personality modification is available to change her life.

- the blue ones again is rather not true. i work hard, but not to that extent. i know it.
- the green ares are rather true of me.

Bay is sarcastic. This is a defense mechanism designed to protect her ego when she feels hurt. She pokes people harder than she gets poked. These sarcastic remarks can be very funny. They can also be harsh, bitter, and caustic at the same time.

- i don`t know if i`m sarcastic.
- the green ones. maybe it`s true. only people who knows me know. i don`t know how they felt. but sorry if it`s true. =x

Bay's true self-image is unreasonably low. Someone once told Bay that she wasn't a great and beautiful person, and she believed them. Bay also has a fear that she might fail if she takes large risks. Therefore she resists setting her goals too high, risking failure. She doesn't have the internal confidence that frees her to take risks and chance failure. Bay is capable of accomplishing much more than she is presently achieving. All this relates to her self-esteem. Bay's self-concept is artificially low. Bay will stay in a bad situation much too long... why? Because she is afraid that if she makes a change, it might get worse. It is hard for Bay to plan too far into the future. She kind of takes things on a day to day basis. She may tell you her dreams but she is living in today, with a fear of making a change. No matter how loud she speaks, look at her actions. This is perhaps the biggest single barrier to happiness people not believing in and loving themselves. Bay is an example of someone living with a low self-image, because their innate self-confidence was broken.

- this is all true. well, i seriously need confidence. even lianglu said that in my report last year. but i still don`t know how to be confident...

In reference to Bay's mental abilities, she has a very investigating and creating mind. She investigates projects rapidly because she is curious about many things. She gets involved in many projects that seem good at the beginning, but she soon must slow down and look at all the angles. She probably gets too many things going at once. When Bay slows down, then she becomes more creative than before. Since it takes time to be creative, she must slow down to do it. She then decides what projects she has time to finish. Thus she finishes at a slower pace than when she started the project. She has the best of two kinds of minds. One is the quick investigating mind. The other is the creative mind. Her mind thinks quick and rapidly in the investigative mode. She can learn quicker, investigate more, and think faster. Bay can then switch into her low gear. When she is in the slower mode, she can be creative, remember longer and stack facts in a logical manner. She is more logical this way and can climb mental mountains with a much better grip.

- surprised of this. is it true?
- i`m curious about some stuffs. but not too many... seriously.
- i feel that this is rather true.

Bay will be candid and direct when expressing her opinion. She will tell them what she thinks if they ask for it, whether they like it or not. So, if they don't really want her opinion, don't ask for it!

- YES! this is definitely true. so sorry if i`ve hurt anyone.. and besides that, i also want people to be direct! i hate people who goes beating about the bush. i can`t tolerate it!!!

Bay will demand respect and will expect others to treat her with honor and dignity. Bay believes in her ideas and will expect other people to also respect them. She has a lot of pride.

- i want people to respect me. as in, don`t spoil my reputation and this kinda stuff. but not those kinda things like greeting when you see me. -.- i`m still waiting for latimer to respect us all.

Bay is moderately outgoing. Her emotions are stirred by sympathy and heart rendering stories. In fact, she can be kind, friendly, affectionate and considerate of others. She has the ability to put herself into the other person's shoes. Bay will be somewhat moody, with highs and lows. Sometimes she will be happy, the next day she might be sad. She has the unique ability to get along equally well with what psychology calls introverts and extroverts. This is because she is in between. Psychology calls Bay an ambivert. She understands the needs of both types. Although they get along, she will not tolerate anyone that is too "far out." She doesn't sway too far one way or the other. When convincing her to buy a product or an idea, a heart rendering story could mean a great deal to her. She puts herself in the same situation as the person in the story, yet she will not buy anything that seems overly impractical or illogical. Bay is an expressive person. She outwardly shows her emotions. She may even show traces of tears when hearing a sad story. Bay is a "middle-of-the-roader," politically as well as logically. She weighs both sides of an issue, sits on the fence, and then will decide when she finally has to. She basically doesn't relate to any far out ideas and usually won't go to the extreme on any issue.

- i used to be outgoing in primary school. but now, no longer.
- definitely true i`m a moody person. so.. do remember. HAHA!
- and yeah, i do cry at those kinda things.. but not too exaggerating.

People that write their letters in an average height and average size are moderate in their ability to interact socially. According to the data input, Bay doesn't write too large or too small, indicating a balanced ability to be social and interact with others.

- i doubt so...

i failed once again @ 9:17:00 pm

whew. haven`t been doing anything productive.
slept through whole of last night from 6pm to 9pm.
woke up. watched 2 shows. and went to sleep again at 11pm.
HAHA!

today went to malaysia.
and yeah.. confirmed going to genting on 15mar to 18mar.
finally, after 1 year not going there.
how good! a break from stressful life.
hope there`s xiao hai bu ben 2 screening there.
i wanna watch! but mum said the momma show`s funny.
already told mum about my results. only those which i failed.
then later she was talking to my aunt.
and she said it`s okay to fail history since i was forced to take it.
and mum said, i failed english but it`s still not too bad.
i`m so happy when they said this. at least they encouraged me.
i really promise to work hard. i don`t wanna make them worry.
and now, i`m again in a dilemma of JC or poly.
my aunt said i should continue to take econs if i can.
so far, i really like econs. but maybe it`s how mr g can make it so fun.
and i badly wanna enter a poly. haix



well, but anyway..
i ordered a cake and frosty lemon tea at secret recipe.
i didn`t know the lemon tea was better known as lemon juice, freshly squeezed.
it`s really damn sour. and imagine drinking a whole cup of it.
OMG!



shall stay up tonight to try doing my homework.
there`s load of test this coming week.

and our school`s stupid lah.
call us sell at least $50 worth of the tickets.
and then, the show`s on a weekday.
it`s tuesday, next day there`s still work and school for others.
and esplanade`s so far away.
and they never state the time it ends.
and they call us sell this way. what if people say want buy then later wanna back out? we pay for them ah?
and tuesday`s a CCA day..
and it`s at 7pm. how are we gonna rush there by that time after cca?
and how are the working people rush there by that time after work? they would need to take leave.
see how many faults our school have made for the public performance at esplanade?
i can`t imagine a member of the public laughing at our school`s performance venue and time which is so unreasonable.
WHATEVER! some brainless people..

i failed once again @ 8:49:00 pm

OMG! i stayed back after school to do homework.
oh well, at least a bit of improvement for me.
did in classroom right after dismissal.
and went home at like 2:45pm.
ever since i reached home, been using computer.

YAY-ness. it`s the weekend already.
time really passes that fast.
march holidays coming. yet not planned it yet.

the week before term break.
is filled with 4 tests.
hmm i think should be
SS on monday.
Geo on tuesday.
Chi on wednesday.
EM on thursday.
SHOULD BE..


i don`t wanna think of my term 1 progress report yet.
not interested in calculating or figuring out my marks.
so far, i`ve got 1 D7 and 1 F9. also 2 A1s and 1 A2..

anyway, feel like sleeping lah..
finally a BREAK!

i failed once again @ 4:08:00 pm

i`m just forever so bored.
anyway, there`s like no homework due tomorrow.
not that sure though, whatever.

got back 2 papers today.
the econs paper, FINALLY.
and the english common test, also FINALLY.
i got A for 1 and failed the other.
rather obvious which is which, but i`m just damn happy with that A.
but then again, people around me failed..
and it`s the first test anyway.. not enough to gauge our understanding.

english remedial was sian as normal english lessons.
for the first half hour, she was like scolding us.
she ain`t suppose to lecture us, though it`s a lecture theatre.
and we only got off at 4pm. i think remedials are now 1 and a half hour.

and so, i only took my lunch which is better known as teabreak after that.
i sacrifice so much for english remedial.. -.-

i feel like doing homework.
but i can`t find any to do.
though there`s loads of them..
LOL!

haix..
time really passes so fast.
tomorrow`s already friday.
and then before i know it, it`s march holidays the next next week.
don`t know what are my plans yet.
BUT i hope there`s no need to return to school again.

AND... get caught by lianglu for doing maths today.
2 days in a row, he`s noticed i`m not as guai as i seem to be last year.
hope he does change his initial opinions about me.
BUT i didn`t do those things to make him purposely catch me.
ain`t so bo liao.. but anyway, he let me off. didn`t confiscate my work.


i love fridays..
looking forward to early dismissals.

i failed once again @ 9:17:00 pm

i don`t have to repeat i`m alone at home again.
it`s so often i`m alone at home like how often i go to school.

anyway, i`ve been like caught for dreaming in class twice so far.
once in mrs loh`s lesson and the other was latimer`s lesson today.
GRR! at least if i feel like sleeping, i can eat sweets.
but what can i do to make myself conscious and not dreaming?
i urgently need an answer to this...
like when most people would sleep in class, i`ve only fallen asleep around 5 times without being caught. but as for dreaming, shall not say. that`s like umpteen times already!

got back our physics common test today.
she mark so fast, COOL! i hope there ain`t any moderations to my paper.
i`m so damn satisfied with my results. finally another A1 besides chinese.
how long have i waited for the arrival of it already?
getting back english common test and 1st ever economics papers in commonwealth tomorrow.
guess i shall cross my fingers and wait till then.

today was pretty okay.. except english.
she wasted 41 people`s time and accused 41 innocent people of wasting her precious time.


shall go off now to do my homework.
i really wanna be a good student. LOL!
i`ll focus on studies as much as i focus on other stuffs.



homework:-
o1. econs essay
o2. e maths 300+ questions
o3. a maths ws
o4. geography tys

tests:-
o1. SS common test
o2. chinese class test
o3. e maths class test
o4. geography class test


and there`s english remedial tomorrow!

i failed once again @ 7:46:00 pm