Tuesday, March 21, 2006
today came back a tiny bit earlier.
hmm.. didn`t turn out to be a bad day too much.
but of course, there`s still the bad parts.
like failing my SS common test and getting a single digit mark.
and also being late for art club without knowing ruth`s back.
well.. today started out quite bad i guess.
but anyway, physics was first. felt strange. half the class was away. and there were some stupid 'arguments' over what colour sticker for our portfolios. and somehow, someone was trying to be 'so unique'. oh YEAH! -.-
then it was combined humanities. though joanna kept saying she would fail, i was like not affected by what she said at all. cos i know i`ve really given all my best for this paper. SERIOUSLY and i mean it. but then, when she mentioned there were 14 failures, i was shocked. it was like one-third of the class. and i felt so much that i`ll be 1 of them. but i still had the confidence that i may have a just pass score, which i would be satisfied with already. but then, bad news came as i failed the test. another 1 digit score. i feel so sad. that was the test which i really gave my all, but i still failed. i really felt like breaking down. i agree with kokila, i may be dreaming in term 1, but that was the test which i put in the most effort for in term 1. i just really want to pass my combined humanities for the first time. but i just couldn`t. then still, we can`t drop that subject, which makes it worse for me. i improved by like 9% from the previous one but i still failed. i think i`m the only 1 in 3/2 who`s always been getting a single digit score for combined humanities assignment or tests. i don`t know why. when i have that confidence in myself, i just had to fail. then when i do not have any confidence, i pass. should i just forget about the word 'confidence' totally? and when she went through the paper, and told us how to go about answering, i felt so much i hate the subject `cos it`s somehow similar to literature. i just wanna drop it lah.. but well, choiceless. i`ve gotta hang in there, like what latimer always says.
then it was maths. another uber boring lesson. can`t really remember what she taught.
RECESS! sian. thought it was gonna be d-day for me since there`s econs and chinese afterwards. in which i feel i haven`t done well for the tests.
it was econs. no idea why mr g always love saying today`s lesson gonna be boring than usual. oh whatever. then there was this part he said 'GEE! blah blah..' can`t remember fully. but stanley was saying GEE! and mr g started splitting personalities and talked to his 2 split personalities, making us laugh. LOL! he returned the feedback thing. and desiree`s one was funny lah.. was damn lucky when he said he wouldn`t be returning the darn surprise test papers so soon.
english was like story telling lesson. latimer couldn`t resist but to tell all her stories. WELL... i`m sick tired of them all.. role model. okay, i just realise i`ve no role model. i`ve no one to look up to. how am i gonna rush out the journal by tomorrow? perhaps crap shall just do. anyway, our 1h english lesson somehow turned into story telling.
mother tongue. he spent half an hour going through gong han. then i forgot what`s after that. anyway, i was real tired. and he confiscated that greeny thing that was fascinating all the guys. HAHA! i think he thought padey was playing with his handphone or sms-ing. BAD GUESS for him!
dismissed. went for lunch in school. like one of the few times. then went out to buy chocolate to satisfy my cravings. after which, we were late but still rushed to art room. then was real damn surprised to see ruth ng. WTH! tomorrow`s cme. ARGH! ruth`s back... not a good news to be spread around. and i hope not too much people knows. HAHA!
oh sucks. there`s geography test tomorrow. i really wanna do well. i`m in triple humanities but i don`t seem to have a niche subject at all, let alone saying about humanities subject. i promise i`m gonna study real hard. but then again, i studied so hard for the previous test, but it turned out to be of not much use. GRR!
i failed once again @ 5:05:00 pm
