mindmaps ROCK!
i love mindmaps. yay.


i feel random.
just posting random thoughts.


i`m so dumb.
bought 3 black pens yesterday.
not that i like black.
now, i miss blue.


examinations.
yes, geography.
i`m gonna do it.



HAHA!
chemistry and liao.
nice relationship.
hog her? 2h?
so funny.
i`m in love with chemistry.
and i like her as a teacher.

i mean, seriously.
not just trying to make someone angry.
sorry.


and lianglu still sucks.

latimer. AHH! she`s gonna get me for that, i bet.


oh well.. my world doesn`t revolve around teachers only.


AND..
asking teachers questions are fun.
i`ll try to ask more next time.
it`s very nice, or perhaps addictive to me.
ever since i first asked mr G..
then i started asking ms liao.
then mrs loh. then mdm quek. then latimer. then lianglu.
but only asking certain teachers are fun.
sadly, not all though.



and everyone must do well for MYE.
(:
don`t let down anyone.
remember how they encouraged you.
remember those moments you break down.
remember who always helped you.
yes, let`s all do well and score high.
nothing is impossible.

haix..
suddenly thought of what happened during streaming.
and how lucky i was to get into this class.
how i actually sweared i won`t go this class cos i hate economics.
how i had to go different classes with peifang.
how happy when i heard i entered 3/2.
but how sad when i knew that she wasn`t.
then how i had tried to pass her the message.
i just thought of everything, once again.

that day.
after school. no lunch.
change to class tee of 2/5`o5.
went to canteen.
saw people calling their parents.
and how i wanted to cry so much.
then rushing to the computer lab.
tense moment in the air-con room.
wanting so much to call my mother.
indicating my choices after so long.
then had to re-indicate choices.
i was crying. i needed my mother so much then.
at that moment, everything, i was just confused.
again, i took sometime to submit the same choices.
and out we go. me feeling so sad.
then all those places we went.
all those memories of 2/5`o5.
all the photos we took with ms ker and lianglu.
our 2/5 formation.
our free photos paid by those who pointed the middle finger.
the memories just came back suddenly.
and i`ve really decided i must do it.
i must really memorise all the processes and facts.
i`ve already chosen that path last year.
and i`ve successfully been able to take that path this year and next path.
i`m not gonna back out of the path i`ve chosen for myself.
no regrets. no backing out.
i must be brave. i must lead this path.
and everyone else..
think of it..
there must be something which have touched your heart..

i failed once again @ 5:51:00 pm

YAY! i`ve completed theme one for my geography notebook.
3 more themes to go. 5 more chapters next.
and i guess shouldn`t be too much of a problem.
except natural vegetation and the climate thing.
the others are rather easy and straightforward, i guess.


after that, i need to do for history and social studies too.
i really want an A1 for combined humanities, okay?
mad over it. obsession. HAHA!

and.. i don`t want lianglu as CM next year.
but highly likely he might be.
cos the CM most followed from secondary 3 to 4.
HOW? i can`t imagine 3 years of him.



and LOL! absorbing intelligence from teachers.
so funny idea. and someone`s so jealous of me.
yes. i think i`ve absorbed from ms liao already.
next, i`m targetting some english teachers.
but don`t know who to. though there`re some suggestions.
eg singh, audrey tham, gerald.
first.. singh seems to be quite good.
but never attend his english lesson before.
except the remedial one. and i can`t get close enough to him to absorb the intelligence.
then audrey tham. i doubt she even knows me right.
don`t even know how she`s like. not even taught or spoken to her before.
and lastly g. i don`t know. somehow i keep thinking his english ain`t superb.
but at least quite good lah. but i absorb also no use.
his vocabulary is power. all very profound ones.
then everytime his lesson i have to keep wondering what that word means.



listening to JJ caocao`s while redo-ing my geography notebook.


and it`s so sad news.
2 papers down, english paper 1 and 2.
then it`s like another 12 more to go, counting CME.
plus oral, it would be 13. but no idea when`s oral.
OMG! i seriously want it to pass fast.
these days.. who isn`t cramming?


and after MYE.
it`s problems with meet-the-parents session.
if we`ve got CM like G or liao or kokila, i wouldn`t worry too much.
but because it`s lianglu. and i`m so afraid.
i mean like.. even me, this kinda quiet people in class.
and belong to the 'guai-er' types.
but last year he can still say so many bad things about me.
and still make other parents cry.
like seriously, how evil can he get?
i really dread it lah. you know the feeling..
of being locked out. then the 2 people inside staffroom talking.
and i was pacing up and down the corridor outside staffroom.
trying to spot any interesting things.
then it was like so damn boring i decided to sit at the bench.
and lianglu told my mother like way too much?



then another thing is.. my mother.
i don`t know who else has this problem too.
for me, it`s like i already don`t talk to my father.
and i really can`t stand my mother.
it`s like.. she expects so high of me.
she wants me to get so high grades.. so she can compare with others.
it`s more like a status symbol for her than an academic ability for me.
but, this i don`t really care. afterall, it`s years she`s been doing that.
the problem is.. i don`t have a conducive environment.
the immediate moment she`s back, she shouts and screams at me.
i show her my test papers.. she goes tsktsk.
yeah, i don`t know. she doesn`t care. she doesn`t understand.
i tried staying so late to study. but she makes fun of me.
i tried going out to study. but she says i`m dating.
WHY? no matter how hard i try, she doesn`t see it.
all she does is to sign and say tsktsk.
then that time she accused me of not showing her examination timetable.
so i immediately showed it to her when i received it.
she looked thru a while and returned to me.
and what? like 3 minutes later, she asked me when does my examination start?
she doesn`t even care. no matter what. she doesn`t even reflect.
i sometimes feel bad for shouting at her. but.. i really want her to reflect.
just now i shouted at her again. but she still don`t know why i`m so fed up.
everything.. it`s all my fault. computer spoil. internet spoil. electricity bills rise.
and it`s like she always picks on me, on purpose.
she already knows i`m studying. then my father staring into space and my brother reading newspapers.
and she purposely pick me to do things. it`s like they`re so free lah.

i`ve just got enough of this.
she expects very high of me.
i don`t wanna let her down.
but i don`t have a conducive environment.
the only reason why i don`t wanna go home early anymore.
i rather stay at school. school`s more like home to me.
i can do anything i like. i don`t have to be ordered by anyone.
i`m given time frame to do a task.
i`m not disturbed by anyone.
at home, everything i do, she complains.
every now and then, she makes me do this and that.
she orders me to complete something within 5 minutes.
she shouts and talks so loud and tv volume so loud.
it`s like she`s in the room, i`m in the living room.
the furthest distance in this house already.
but i can listen very clearly to what she`s talking.

and at school, i got any problem, i can just ask.
at home, who is there to ask?


and at school, the teachers encourage me.
at home, who does?
who wished me luck for anything before?
who got delighted for my results before?


and at school, the teachers lend a listening ear.
at home, who has an extra ear?
my father whose ear is always shut out.
my mother whose ear is for tv serials and relatives.
my brother who laughs at me studying so hard.













it`s all like a broken window.
a scar left behind.
it can be fixed. but the cracks are still there.
and they will always be.
i no longer hope for this family.
the more i try to savage the situation, the more problems i give myself.
no one cares anymore.
i shouldn`t even be bothered.

i failed once again @ 1:19:00 pm

i feel so sad lah. i really wanna cry. i`m still thinking about my summary. i know it`s of no use. but i just can`t get over it. SUMMARY! 25 marks! i feel so stupid. when ms latimer came, she probably saw me doing the plan. but i don`t know how to explain if she asks me that. i feel like i`m breaking down. i need someone to console me. but i know, any teachers or my parents would just scold. and friends? it just work for awhile. and once i don`t see them or feel them, i get sad again. haix.. i don`t understand why this must happen in an examination. i can`t imagine this year`s meet-the-parents session. what if lianglu goes on shooting off too much again? i just need someone to console me badly. before my mood affects my other papers too. i`ve thought through so much. and i realised the importance of english. i`ve been failing all my english this year. and now this has to happen at such a crucial time.. WHY? no one wanted this to happen.


and after reading ruimin`s blog, i feel like our teachers are so different from their teachers. or same teachers but treat us differently. she can come up with teachers who are so great and talk so much about how caring they are. but the only times i`ve felt touched by any teacher was by ms kokila. when she saw my improvement in my combined humanities common test. i just felt so touched at that moment. other than that, small-scales one, it`s when ms kokila came up personally after lesson to gave me the ferrero rocher for my birthday and hinted me to get A1 for my combined humanities, and the time when i asked mr g for help with the economics assignment, and he went through so much, spent so much time, and didn`t even show any impatience when i asked him to repeat again because i was distracted, and before he even started explaining, he sorta talked about secondary 3 life and how it would be and told me not to be so stressed or sad or depressed. i guess that was all. only thrice, the most.

and before examinations, their teachers like treat them with stuffs, encouraged them etc. ours? i can`t remember much teachers wishing us good luck even though we have 1 more teacher than them. to me, i feel that ms kokila is the only one who sincerely cares about us all. she doesn`t treat us differently just because we`re triple humanities. i know she has high expectations from us, but she doesn`t keep harping on that and she at least encourages us. and she doesn`t scold me at all when i told her i don`t even know anything from the history textbook. she is like so forgiving person. she just wants us to try our best.

then mdm quek is also quite good. she doesn`t mind me finding her for so many questions. and she always try very hard to explain and makes sure we understand what she`s talking about.

and? i can`t think of much. all the rest of our teachers... i know they`re mostly those kinda experienced types. and all they expect from us is good grades. just because we`re the first official triple humanities class in singapore. i don`t know. sometimes, i feel that the teachers only do their jobs of teaching us and they don`t show us concern at all. and actually, i`m really very happy that ms kokila doesn`t actually treat like different from how she treats other classes, and the concern she shows for us. especially so when she`s one of our humanities subject teacher and she doesn`t harp on it and she doesn`t scold us for underperforming and even though she would expect good grades from us, she do encourage us too.

then mdm ros.. i still can`t say much about her yet. she probably has pre- and post- natal blues and i can`t just judge her like that. it`s a bit unfair to her. and we`ve spent like less than 3 months with her so far.

then mr g. he may seem to be nice. but sometimes, he`s actually evil. he`s like those kind of people who is so secretive. he acts and gives excuses then he`s like actually planning some evil things like that. and he`s like ... i don`t know what he means when he say he can`t return the assignment and went off with his evil trademark laughter all the way till the staffroom. if it`s that those things not tested in examination, it`s probably okay. but then, why would he teach and then not tested?

then lianglu. he`s just like.. OMG! nightmare. he doesn`t even care about normal lessons at all. he only wants to teach us what he feels like teaching. haix.. and he didn`t even tell us when`s the oral. 10 or 11. it`s as good as not asking him.

latimer is actually not bad. but sometimes, it can actually get bad if she`s in a bad mood. and i really feel like telling her i didn`t complete my summary before she sees my rubbish. i don`t know what her reaction would be. the day before, i went to look for her for the notes, then the day after, i`m just gonna let her down. she may just blow her top off, i know it...

mrs loh. she does help us. but she`s like.. too strict? and i don`t see any kind of sincere concern from her before to any of us.

ms liao. she`s still okay. it`s like she sometimes care, but sometimes, she doesn`t really too much.

mdm quek. yeah, she`s not bad lah. she really does try alot to make us understand.

it`s just like.. our teachers.. their teachers.. it can only be ours.. it can only be theirs. they can never be the same. haix.. i really feel so upset with this.


and today, went to library. supposed to revise for geography.
but ended up didn`t do much. no matter what, i`m gonna really memorise.
because i realise, i`m just plain lazy. i don`t like memorising, that`s where i lose out.
see the maths stuff and chemistry and physics, i`m fairly better in those subjects as compared to other. and it`s because i`m lazy to memorise the facts.
it`s not that i can`t. i`ve done it before. i`m just plain lazy.
BUT, i really will work hard for that A1 for combined humanities.
as for geography, all i ask for is at least a B.



and tomorrow.
don`t know what to do.
i don`t feel like staying at home.
i can`t study at home.
and my parents. they don`t even care or bother.
and it`s just so GREAT!
someone, either my mum or my dad, bought another 2 goldfish.
and the whole day, they were looking at them.
it`s like gonna be last time lah..
i`m like so near them. but they didn`t notice me.
WHY? cos they`re more concerned with the fish.



my english summary...!

i failed once again @ 7:40:00 pm

OMG! guess what...
i really don`t feel like listening in economics lesson anymore.
but no, i need to listen to know and score high.
BUT.. see those people, score high high.
at first, i thought maybe padey tyco one.
then later, i read zhiyang`s blog.
economics is a new subject for him.
and he missed his lectures most of the time due to campus superstar.
but the ridiculous thing is he scored 24/25 for his test.
like what the heck.. those people..
are they just born geniuses?
i`m so like jealous. they`re not listening to lessons..
yes.. common thing is both not listening to lessons.
sometimes, i really wonder.. AHH!


and yes. many teachers left early yesterday.
LOL! maybe cos to rush to get their progress package?
hey.. i make it sound like they`re so money faced.
but seriously, many teachers left very early yesterday.


AND I`M SERIOUSLY DEAD!
guess what? this is like history repeating itself.
first, it was with lianglu.
he saw loitering outside staffroom at around 6plus that day.
then the next day test gonghangeshi i wrote wrong.
and he went 'see lah.. shop in school. don`t go home learn. now 0.'
and ended with an evil laughter.
then, i guess it`s gonna be with latimer next.
cos she saw me loitering outside staffroom the day before english examinations at 3plus.
and i told her i`m revising in school. so she smiled and left.
but now, i didn`t complete my SUMMARY!
i really wanna cry so much.. secondary 3.
seriously can`t afford to fail english anymore.
i feel really bad now lah..


yesterday was quite fun.
except for english papers.
and tips from the secondary 4s were:
separate comprehension and summary answers.
if not, may be picked to stand on stage? LOL!
but that`s way better than not completing my summary.
i`m still brooding over summary.
i can`t imagine. what if latimer scolds me?
what if she wanna see me personally?
and i`ve been failing all her assignments.
yeah.. whatever she does, i`m prepared for it.
but.. lianglu is our CM. he can`t get to know it.
or i`ll just die lah. he and his big mouth.


anyway, after examinations then went look for peifang.
saw huiting at staffroom so i went down instead.
but she disappeared LIAO. so strolled around the school then go art room.
after that, they ate lunch. and i did chemistry.
saw that ms lim and kokila eating. was real funny.
then waited for huiting to eat for so long.
after that, i haven`t finish finding questions.
so she say she go toilet. and disappeared for like 30mins?
more like go and make-up.
then later she suddenly ran to us and say ms liao outside staffroom.
so we rushed up. and she say she go up later.
but we don`t see her anywhere.
so thought maybe she tricked us. HMPH!
anyway, very difficult to study with huiting around.
HAHA!
we were crappy lah.
then went to canteen continue do work.
and we went to secret hiding place, far away from them.
thought they went home already so we came down.
but predicted wrongly lah. so started crapping again.
and i drew something bad. lucky i think mr g`s not for night study yesterday.
LOL! and there`s a teacher crossword puzzle.
some names i could remember was liao, gerald, lianglu, jasmine etc.
and we scribbled on the piece of paper. until it later became LL <3 kukumalu.
OMG!
after that went popular with peifang.
then we both bought drinks. and kept making each other laugh.
what V-shape walking and whatever.
and i took a real long time to finish though i was thirsty.
got home only at like 8plus. HAHA!
how i wish can go night study. but no one accompany me.


later going to library.
later as in within 2h time.
need to study seriously.
it`s that G subject leh.
i must at least get a B for it lah.

and i`m gonna mug and memorise all my CH facts.
that time ask kokila explain utility to me.
then everything she told me, all the facts.
sounded so alien to me.. and i gave that blur look.
so she told me, it`s all found in your textbook quite alot times.
=X so obvious i never listen in class or revise right..
but i don`t care what, i must try to get A1 for CH examinations.
as what she said for my birthday wish. HAHA!



AHH! so damn stressed.

i failed once again @ 8:17:00 am

DON`T BOTHER READING THIS SUPER LENGTHY POST WORTHY OF CRAP! IT`S ONLY A WASTE OF YOUR REVISION TIME. HAHA!

GOOD LUCK EVERYONE FOR MYE! (:


OMG!
this is so gonna be consultation period for me.
till the MYE ends.

i went to look for 5 teachers today?
let`s see...
ms latimer.
mr gerald.
ms kokila.
ms liao.
mr lianglu.
supposed to have mdm quek too today.
but it`s postponed to tomorrow.
WOW! then staffroom area was like so unconducive for learning.
anyway, after school, immediately went to tell kokila i needed help.
then she told me find her after 1pm.
after which, went to look for mdm quek and helped her call ms latimer.
so we settled with ms latimer first.
and mdm quek had to go for workshop.
so we decided to go thru it tomorrow.
back to latimer. then class was in chaos.
so just posted those notes at forum.
yeah.. i went back home.
cos there weren`t any available or functioning photocopiers nearer.
and later after which.. went to return latimer those stuffs.
then saw huiting they all. just so damn coincidental.
think she tried making me jealous first.
so i bu gan yuan, and tried making her jealous.
i exclaimed that i`m gonna call mr g out.
HAHA! so she stayed to wait for him.
then i was like sorta rude. he asked me what i wanted to ask thru the phone.
then i told him to come out. HAHA!
anyway, while he was explaining, we`re surrounded by future economists(?)
then after that.. he went in.
2nd wave of jealousy for huiting.
told her i`m gonna call ms liao now.
HAHA! so she came out. then explained.
and i got the answer booklet for TYS from her.
HAHA! after that think we went to class and loiter around before going to canteen.
later i realised i`m so DUMB!
i need the teachers to pass by me for me to recall things.
when lianglu asked me who i was asking for, i told him then went.
after that, i realised we don`t know the oral dates.
then when g finished explaining the stuffs, he went.
after which i realise i forgot to ask if can get back the assignment.
then when liao finished explaining, i went back to class.
and i realised the chem`s format GONE!
well.. well..
so i later asked lianglu about the oral dates.
at first he told me it`s 10 may and walked away.
then some distance away where i can`t see him, he said or 11 maybe.
CRAP!
then later waited for kokila was quite long.
it was supposed to be 5 minutes.
but she talked with mrs loh, ms shyam.
went staffroom put her stuff and do don`t know what.
maybe 15minutes past. then she went to the toilet.
and after which she talked to mr g.
so it ended up becoming like 20minutes in total.
after she explained finish, i decided to rewrite the steps.
so i rewrote. and i was really distracted by those teachers.
ms shyam coming in and out, slamming doors hard.
mr singh walking from the stairs to the room to and fro.
mr g entering from one door and exiting from the other.
oh well.. then i finally finished.
and mustered the courage to ask mr g if i can get back the assignment.
he said NO! and ended with much more evil laughter then i`ve heard from him before.
seriously evil lah.. first the surprise test.. HMPH!
that surprise test pulled down my overall already lah.
after that went to canteen to revise and do work.
later peifang left.
then huiting asked if wanna go find mr g.
so i just go with them. and asked them they find him for what..
but they don`t wanna say. then ended up loitering outside staffroom.
and i`m so gonna be dead. i better do well for my english this time round.
cos latimer asked me why i was still in school at 3pm? AHH!
later went back down to canteen and huiting came sat with me.
we didn`t talk. i think so. then saw justin too.
he asked questions. but i don`t know the answers to any question.
WHY? cos i didn`t attend art club.
later huiting kept hinting that wanna go find ms liao.
but she don`t dare bah.. ha.
then she left at 4pm. and gave me a note.
she`s very naggy. haha.
anyway, i looked thru those english stuffs and only left at 5pm.


now i should go and study again.

i failed once again @ 7:09:00 pm

OMG! exams are really approaching.
AHH! so dead lah..
and tomorrow will be rushing.
hmm.. consultation with mdm quek.
then probably with kokila too.
depends on how her lesson goes.
and still waiting for ms latimer`s.
also, revising a maths tomorrow.

today was seriously disastrous.
really got back 5 test papers.
as what i predicted yesterday.
got back 2 before recess.
1 of which is the STUPID SURPRISE TEST.
yes, expected.. i failed lah..
thanks to the 'busy' teacher.. who was probably setting the test paper when i look for him?
and it sort of pulled down my overall for the subject.
now i`ve really gotta put in extra hard work for it.
oh yes. so many THANKS man..

then the e maths one.
got B3.
well.. all the tests i got back aren`t too bad.
2 B3s, 1 A1, 1 A2 & a very extra E8.
GRR!


hmm.. quite surprised for my physics test.
damn happy about it.
and my chemistry test, HA! nothing to say.
i`ve got high expectations of myself for chemistry.
cos it`s just so damn fun a subject.


yeah, i realised a pattern..
for those subjects which i did bloody hell bad for in term 1..
i`ve sorta improved by quite alot in this term.
YAY! CHEERS!
but then ahh.. certainly not the case for english and econs.



and speaking of econs.
that day i was suay lah..
stupid mr g.
the moment was so right!
when i started drinking water, mr g had to talk crap.
and i was trying so hard not to laugh lah..
then clara told me i`m so suay.
stupid lah.. that moment! so zhun lah..
just plain lucky i didn`t choke man..



anyway, exam blues.
study study study.

i failed once again @ 8:46:00 pm

oh yes.
life is just getting worse and worse each day.
thought that sleeping barely 4h per day was already bad enough.
and never did i expect myself to not even sleep last night.
OMG! just what is happening..

was doing all my maths homework.
and a few other homework.
maths is the main one, the most!
then until 4am. i started revising for geography.
all the way till 5:30am..
and decided to take a rest and lie down.
in my aircon room which isn`t so cool though.
and 6am. started getting ready for school.
reached school. tried revising.
then brought down to parade square to revise.
and i realised i studied an extra unit.
like WHAT THE HECK!
so fed up lah..
then later announcements...
even pissed off. ruth ng wants CCA?
sheer crap!


then the rest of the day in lessons was okay.
and decided to pon art.
then later found out that attendance not marked one.
so, might as well don`t go.
btw, the art room already locked lah..


and what the heck.
the whole class had to go without lunch.
till like 4pm after economics remedial.
which was supposed to end at 2:30pm!
but anyway, i also never eat lah..

i`m seriously gonna get ill at this rate.
sleeping barely 4h per day.
studying like 20h per day?
less than half hour of entertainment each day.
no lunch, no recess everyday.
hmm.. sounds like i`m fasting.
and my cough. 1 week already.
it hasn`t got any better.
and somehow, at nights, i keep having flu.
but the next morning, it`s gone.LOL!

and tomorrow is not gonna be a great day.
physics and economics class test.
then we`re probably gonna get back 5 tests.
PROBABLY.. e maths, 2 economics, physics, chemistry.

i seriously need to find time to revise.
my geography notebook is still like crap.
like shit. just utter rubbish.
and i`ve gotta create for social studies and history too.
i can`t bear to like fail it.
i need to pass with high scores to pass my overall for the results slip.
cos i realise.. i got 2 F9s. 1 A1. 1 just pass.
and it all adds up to.. FAIL!
so, i just gotta work extra hard.

i failed once again @ 5:56:00 pm

just came back from school.
it wasn`t what i imagined it to be.
and i was able to laugh and smile..
all from the bottom of my heart.
that`s so unlike last friday.
YAY! i`m just so happy.
today was a superbly great day!

went out early and go to the bus stop.
started revising chemistry.
that feeling was so great.
like so fresh and yeah...
if i`m stressed, i look up.. i can the wonders of technology and nature.
anyway, went to school with peifang.
i was so scared so entering the class.
so we revised together outside library.
then she went to her class and i waited outside.
till like 3/2 almost empty and i went in.
so, i had to make my way thru the maze at parade square.
HAHA!


english was quite okay lah..
just that some idiots were pissing her off.
then it was combined humanities.
she returned our common test scripts.
i couldn`t describe the scenario.
guess she didn`t say it was horrendous or disastrous.
the first time she didn`t say that!
but she said there are a handful of failures.
and 2-3 got 20. but also people with 5 or 7 marks.
then i was like laughing away lah.
cos i thought it would be me.
so.. one by one they went to collect their scripts.
then she called my name.
and i went up without confidence of passing.
then i heard her saying something like 18 marks.
but i told myself that i shouldn`t dream too much.
it can`t be me. i was like so sure it wasn`t me.
and i was thinking like me? 18? crap. should be stanley or phyo lah.
cos their papers were right after mine.
so i collected my script, folded, and went back to my seat.
and i slowly opened it up..
OMG! i got 18! what the heck.
i was just so damn happy. i couldn`t express this.
first time i`ve got A1 for combined humanities.
i was like WOW! totally can`t believe it.
but i was just so glad it`s reality.
and i was so glad that at least kokila saw the efforts i put in.
she wrote "great improvement!" beside my marks.
all this while, i thought no one cared.
but kokila actually knew i made the great improvement.
i was like so touched. i felt like tears are gonna drop, seriously.
because i got my first A1. and because someone has seen my efforts.
alas, my hard work had paid off.
and during her lesson, i was so attentive.
i listened to her going through the corrections.
and now.. YES!
my birthday wish by kokila:
to pass my combined humanities paper with A1.
i feel i`ve got the power.
i`m just gonna try my best.
i must at least get halfway there.
nothing is THAT impossible.

recess and i was mugging away for the tests.

then it was maths.
multi-tasked again.
did the work while she went through.

and common test.
CRAP lianglu ate into our time.
then i didn`t even check through.
not enough time.
and some people sort of cheated.
say haven`t shade OTAS so they could shade it after times up.
eww.. isn`t that equal to cheating?
the time allocated is not for us to find answers only.
but also inclusive for us to shade our answers.
so those people got extra time to think.
YUCKS!
hmm... physics was bad for me.
chemistry was rather okay.
though there`re some which i don`t know how to do.


oh yeah...
there`s geography class test tomorrow.
MUG! 2 units. 7 & 8. i can do it.
i wanna get my first ever A1 for geography too!









today was my day!
everything went so smoothly.
and unexpected surprises.
OMG! i still can`t believe i got A1 for combined humanities.

i failed once again @ 5:37:00 pm

phew.
my parents finally went out.
it might help a little for me.
that i`m able to do work.
but i`ve still got plenty to do.
DAMN!


i just can`t stand my father.
it`s always him.
when my mother scolds me, he adds oil to fire.
when there`s nothing, he picks on me, then my brother supports him.
it`s like darn bloody irritating.
just once, he can`t shut up.
all he talks to me about is hinting about my usage of computer.
AND ABSOLUTELY NOTHING ELSE!


i`m seriously damn fed up now.
totally so not looking to school tomorrow like how i`ve always loved school.
what if the class goes on behaving like on friday?
well.. i can`t do anything about that.


and 1 thing i still don`t understand.
why do parents care so much about usage of computer?
might as well don`t get a computer then.
by getting one, they`re just getting themselves more trouble, isn`t it?
since they don`t want me to use it.
and what`s wrong with computers?
perhaps they want us to be technology idiots.
or what?
i don`t know why they don`t scream at me going to school 5 days a week. but they can nag non-stop when i`m at home using the computer or when i wanna go out sometimes. does that imply that i shouldn`t even be home in the first place?
well... i guess so, isn`t it?




GAHH!
i just wish everyone can **** off.
already having enough problems.
and idiots are just so idiotic.
SCRAM OFF!







i just need some time alone.
to solve all my problems.
but a world of my own? UTTER RUBBISH!
















































this world is just disastrous.
everything practically sucks.






and now i`m worrying about exams.
after that, still not carefree.
there`ll be a whole month for my cousins to compare results.
SUCKS! i`m not like acing my exams to compare with you idiots.
this all is irritating and childish.
i`ve always got into trouble with my mother for this.
thanks to you guys.
giving irrelevant information and talking crap.
landing me in trouble with my mother.
HAPPY?
if only everyone is MUTE!
or i`ll get into more unnecessary troubles.
DARN EVERYONE.

i failed once again @ 2:03:00 pm

AHH! i`m so uber stressed.
went reading blogs and forums.
but i`m still so darn stressed.
perhaps, i shouldn`t be so study-centred.
then, i`ve wasted 1 day already.

the thing is that i`ve done nothing so far.
and i`ve gotta do so much.

here`s a simplified list of what i can remember.
- chemistry specimen test paper
- css e maths mye 2004 paper
- acsi ws on indices, surds and logs
- css a maths mye 2004 paper
- acsi a maths mye 2004 paper
- css e maths mye 2005 paper
- chinese book unit 6 to 13
- barron`s all the way to week 21
- 6 newspaper articles in total for both subjects
- a maths tys p43 work
- a maths tb misc ex 7 work
- e maths graphs
so far, these are all i can come up of.
needless to say, there should be more.

and revisions for TESTS too, not even exams yet..
for common test and class test.
if i`m not wrong, 4 tests plus 1 exam for me next week.
yes, HCL people are worse off with 2 exams.


CRAP! i`m gonna have a hard time completing everything.
and it`s already sunday tomorrow.
yes everything just sorta sucks.
and well.. shortage of time.
i`m still very taken aback there`s barely 4 days to the midyear exams.
oh.. and we haven`t even learn summary or paper 1 skills.
meaning we can only secure marks in paper 2 comprehension.
but i`ve been failing that part for months.

i failed once again @ 12:34:00 am

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i failed once again @ 8:53:00 pm

yesterday wasn`t a pleasant day for me.
but luckily, it didn`t stink too much.

the part of school before recess was totally BAD!
ashley didn`t come, so no lame jokes.
and i somehow got switched into that damn serious mood.
before i continue on this part...
i don`t think my blog is too publicized.
but if someone whom i was referring to happen to read this,
please don`t be angry. i only happened to be like that on yesterday.
and it`s not like i hate you people or neither is it that i`ve tolerated you people for too long.
well.. i just think it`s the examinations stress working on me.
so SORRY if i hurt anyone in this post.

first, it was maths.
it was something like self-learning.
she gave us questions to do and went thru.
for the entire lesson. this wasn`t so bad yet.
everyone was probably too tired to make too much noise.

then it was physics.
the class was quite noisy.
and i got a bit fed up because i couldn`t listen fully what she was talking about. plus the fact that i`ve so many questions wrong and next monday is already common test.

and it was economics.
so, he finished the last part on elasticity and went on to advertising.
the elasticity part was okay. everyone was paying attention.
i was only a tiny bit irritated by my malfuntioning pens.
and when it went on to the advertising part, i`ve no idea why people started talking among themselves and had to imitate people in those advertisements.
so i was rather pissed and irritated already.
and because of the way the projector screen is positioned, everytime i`m taking down notes, i`ll catch a glimpse of people sitting in the vicinity around the teachers` table.
and it was damn disturbing when i was taking down notes, and people there were playing, laughing and don`t know doing what crap.
by that time, i was totally fed up.
then, when the recess bell rang, the guys in that particular row started talking and talking and ignoring mr g`s presence.
and the thing was that mr g had to like say a few times before everyone could well shut their bloody mouths up and listen to the teacher who is deserving our respect.
i just couldn`t stand them. mr g already has a loud enough voice. and he still had to say a few times, so imagine it.
when everyone started quietening down, he said something which was like totally different from his old self.
well, perhaps again, it`s the examinations stress and rush.
and recess came, i was so glad that people went off so fast.
i just couldn`t stand so much more.
BUT, frankly, this is the first time ever that i`m angry with the class.


then after recess, everything started getting better bit by bit.
it was geography. i know i`ve rarely listened in her class.
but today, i was listening. and those guys in that particular row was talking again.
so i was angry naturally.

after that was CME.
things started getting better.
probably cos CME grades doesn`t play a part in O levels.

then it was history.
things were back to normal.
reason was cause she wasn`t teaching.
so i didn`t mind the class shouting and screaming.
and that was the end of the day.




due to the fact that was the ONLY day i could make my IC,
i quickly rushed home. but by that time, it was 1:30pm.
then my mother said i`m so late.
and my stupid brother added oil to fire.
sorry to people in other classes, but i`m referring only to my BROTHER.
i shouldn`t type out what i shouted to him in case people get angry.
and i had my lunch. i started gobbling down everything.
and i was seriously gobbling.
then my mother who had already finished her lunch before i got home,
kept asking me to rush. and i was just so damn pissed.
and i took half an hour to eat, pack everything and change etc.
didn`t even have the time to bathe.
so we walked to the bus stop, and before we were anywhere near to it.
we already saw 3 buses. well well..
after that, reached mrt station.
then we had to wait like 8 minutes.
and i was pissed off with this SP guy who was very rude.
after that, when we finally reached, my mother took her own sweet time.
then my number was called.
and that idiot told me my photo can`t be used.
so i had to go take photo again.
queue on every floor was very long.
and i had to wait.
when it was my turn, i had alot of problems.
that photographer kept adjusting me.
and the photo came out...
a part of her finger could be seen, and my shoulder was slanted so that my head was straight.
CRAP! anyway went back to that counter.
was rather pissed off with that idiot serving so slowly.
then told her i`m a taoist. my religion is taoism.
and she typed out a Buddhist on the form and made me sign.
so i told her it`s wrong. and so i corrected. and signed.
what made me even pissed off was that she didn`t apologise and went on being smart aleck.
saying she thought i might be a buddhist cos buddhist only celebrate some, while taoist is everything also celebrate.
i don`t know if this it true, but i was truely fed up.
and everything was not done yet.
went to make new photo my for passport.
then my mother pissed me off this time.
by the time everything was completed, i was already very angry.
and in the mrt, i was dozing away.
all the way till clementi.
alighted and i went to big bookshop.
after which, i went home.
and my mother bought so much things and made me carry for her.
when i refused, she said i`m crazy for bringing so many things in my bag.
i was seriously fed up with her.
it`s my bag, not her bag, what rights has she to say i`m crazy.
and she made me bring water for her in my bag, yet she didn`t drink.
plus it`s my bag, she doesn`t have the rights to open it without permission.
and i wasn`t even complaining it`s heavy.
then my mother complained her hand`s pain.
her right hand, yes she`s a left-hander.
and i was damn PISSED.
what happened the last time i sprained my right hand and the whole palm was bandaged?
it was so damn stiff and i had to write like normal. i had to do things as per normal.
and she`s just complaining that her right hand is pain even though she`s a left-hander.
CRAP!



and when i came back.
pissed off by my brother.
he used the computer all the way from like before i got home from school and all the way till after i slept.
i slept at around 8plus cos i was seriously tired.
and i`m already pissed off by everything.

i failed once again @ 9:50:00 am

THANKS people, everyone who wished me happy birthday, regardless in your own heart or to me directly in person. ((:

hmm.. i didn`t expect my birthday to be disclosed.
and probably the first time so many people wished me.
can`t remember how many.. i shall name all, from date.
the earlier ones are in green:
first was from ntuc income.
second was ruimin, didn`t expect hers to be so early.
quite a surprise that morning. but pleasant one though.
followed by my whole family.
though cake-cutting was without my dad.
and now, TODAY! lots of people.
of course, peifang did it first. HAHA!
then the list extends to wenbin and qi`en.
i thought the list would probably end here.
hey, but NO!
during history, my birthday was disclosed.
and i somehow got special treats. LOL!
the list continues. i shall try to name in order, as far as possible cos i don`t have super memory. there ain`t USB memory sticks in my body.
it was darsini, afizah, clara, stanley, ashley, erika, kornelius, ms kokila, lizanna, anyu, vidhya, lutfi, desiree, joanna.
perry did say i am now 15 though.
THANKS everyone.
including that mysterious sweets person.

YES! a maths. we`re done with linear graph.
no more graphs for a maths.
that leaves us with only e maths and economics.
oh well.. but i guess economics is whole year round.
NEVER LEAVE GRAPHS like NEVER SAY DIE.

today supposed to be social studies.
but instead, we had history.
who wants to be a millionaire.
our group was one of the winners.
and they gave me all the chocolate.
HA! but i can`t afford to get sore throat.
so i distributed 1 each for them.
then at the end of lesson, kokila came up to me.
and wished me happy birthday.
and she asked me what is my birthday wish?
didn`t know what to say.
but stanley behind was whispering more chocolates.
anyway, she gave me a ferrero rocher, which i later gave to lili.
and she told me my wish should be passing combined humanities with A1.
OMG! i would want that to happen.
i shall really work hard for that to happen.
though it`s really hard to. but nothing`s impossible.
even if i seriously can`t, at least meet half of it.

today`s english was CRAP!
spent half hour on ms jane`s requirements for submissions of work.
then it was disrupted by fire drill.
both classes in AVA were strolling down.
HAHA! and looking at the people who were rushing down.

chinese was affected due to fire drill.
YAY!

chemistry. GRR! i do like her. but definitely not if her lessons are the last of the day.
she always drags it. no matter it`s theory or practical.

then the rest of the afternoon.
was just english and maths remedial.
OMG!

shall go make my IC tomorrow.




i realise my tag has been flooded.
so today, i shall reply here.

ruimin - don`t give up. HA! maybe i can help you. and i think you`re really hardworking for chemistry yeah? i only have like perhaps less than 20 pages of notes. yes. let`s study for examinations then only crap after it.

wenbin - THANKS for wishing me a happy birthday so many times, and like almost everywhere that you could. LOL! april babies.

peifang - hmm.. yeah, i seriously agree. it`s just too small. but then, i still can`t imagine next year shift to RV, but they are nowhere in sight. perhaps i shall treasure everything.

i failed once again @ 6:13:00 pm

what the heck.
ms teo simply wasting our time.
remedial was just marking worksheets.
DAMN!

thought there was fire drill today.
but then, there wasn`t.
perhaps the tags are to trick us.
it`s not april fools` by the way.
but it`s april 20 tomorrow..

mother tongue was BORING!
lianglu and his chang hen ge crap.
he`s wasting school`s resources.
and making us read them like it`s of any use to our examinations.
YES! and he hasn`t told us format or oral dates yet.

i came to this conclusion.
that the school is too small.
almost everywhere i go, i see huiting.
it`s like she`s spying on me.
well.. not that i dislike it.
but i get sian of bumping into her like 3 to 5 times per day.

and it`s finally thursday tomorrow.
at least last day of remedials this week.
though it`s english and maths.
so far, it`s been a disastrous week for me.

even at nights.
had to stay up to rush thru pieces of work due the next day.
and getting 3 to 4 hours of sleep per 24 hours.
then, focusing on class the following day.
it`s so seriously tiring.
that`s why i`m hoping for examinations to end.
so this routine can stop at least temporarily.





and this is just lame thing.
i`ve got ms teo`s secondary 3 class photo.
HAHA!
and i seriously wonder where the heck does she go in school.
she`s supposed to be stationed in the HOD room.
but of the probably 10 times i went to find her.
only seen her in there once.
GRR! trouble teacher...

i failed once again @ 5:33:00 pm

hmm.. guess i`m too stressed.
well, everyone else is, isn`t that so?
LOL! and please.
don`t ever remind me of the examinations.
i know the dates myself.
no thanks for reminding.
i`ve got enough of this CRAP!

before i post about more formal things..
i wanna say i LOVE my new blogskin.
the picture is sorta cute. LOL!
and i just totally love it.


yes. these few days are gonna be like HELL.
with 2 remedials each per day.
OMG! and after these, it`ll be tests and tests before the examinations.
how great this all shall be.
let`s witness all this events together, shan`t we?

today. i felt strange after school.
cos everything was like so rush.
i seriously didn`t know what to do when there wasn`t CCA.
don`t say i`m crazy.
because everything was totally so rush.
and everything had already been planned.
so i didn`t think so much then.
but when things aren`t going according to plan...
well. i just couldn`t adapt.

SUCKS!
kena geography remedial.
which i think probably a waste of my time.
yes. guess i`m down for every remedial.
i totally hate this.
so it means geography and chemistry remedials on wednesday.
then english and maths remedials on thursday.
DAMN! and friday, i ain`t free too.
that`s my only FREE day out of 2 weeks that i can go make my IC.
and life goes on for the weekends.
already piles of revision papers stacking up.
then, next week comes.
greeted by science common test on monday.
geography class test on tuesday.
economics and physics class test on wednesday.
and again, probably need to stay back on wednesday.
GRR! seriously too stress.
and friday`s already examinations.

in fact, now i really wish examinations will be over soon.
i just wanna get over and done with this workload and stress.


and HECK! ruth ng`s say there might be CCA next tuesday.
SHEER CRAP! can some elites please debate with that idiot?


yes yes.
i shall go off now.
gotta complete my whole pile of homework.
DUE TOMORROW!


dead by then-


and which idiot told ruth ng CCA was suspended.
SUCKS! guess there`s gonna be alot of problems arising.













but i ain`t gonna give a damn anymore.
till examinations are over.



with the fact that i`m aiming for 5As.
that`s a bit too high. but i hope i can achieve it.
i`m expecting As from chinese, chemistry, physics, economics, e maths/a maths.
i want As. and A1 for chinese please.
haven`t have a physics test for so long.. oh




.
.
...........

i failed once again @ 6:51:00 pm

OMG! i actually woke up at 6am today.
so that i could study for history.
i can`t believe it.
the first time i ever sacrificed my sleep to study for tests.
and it`s for combined humanities somemore.
WOW! but it didn`t turn out too well..
and YES! the first time i passed my combined humanities test.
finally, i was able to pass a class test.
but i only got a just pass grade.

HEH! today`s assembly not too bad.
i didn`t sweat like hell, afterall.
though i was squinting my eyes like mad.
i`m gonna be zhongwuyan soon.

received 1 good and 1 bad news today.
i failed english common test, as usual.
but i got my first A1 for a maths this year!
though i could have gotten 100% if i studied...

chinese remedial was like only half-hour?
LOL! i didn`t do anything lah...
crapped with peifang instead.

maths remedial was super BORING.
first, she went thru the written work.
then, she continued teaching.
didn`t bother to listen. slept away.
dragged after 4:30pm.
then couldn`t stand her. and just daydream.
hoping she would release us soon.

after remedial, went out eat.

and i repeated the phrase:
very fast, almost bouncing but not bouncing.
twice. something like that.
LOL! to describe 2 different person who could walk REAL FAST!

came back school to take photos.
then art room that block locked.
so took around staffroom.
SUAY! was holding potato wedges in one hand and camera in other hand.
almost wanted to take photo.
then mrs loh appeared out of nowhere.
and i had to squeeze everything into my pocket.
and rushed up the stairs. LOL!
then asked ms liao can take photo or not..
she don`t let. she rejected me! AWW!
i`m so sad.. -.-

stupid ms teo.
made me find her.
recess go find she not there.
after school find also not there.
CRAP lah.. like the school got so many tourists` attraction.
hmm.. don`t care her.

I DON`T WANT GEOGRAPHY REMEDIAL.
pray hard i`m not in it. *crosses fingers*

i failed once again @ 7:48:00 pm

yes. load of homework yet to be completed.
some which are long due.
- maths tb p151
- a maths tb p60
- a maths tb p188
- a maths tb p193
- chem ws bonding 2
- chem practical ws
- geog wb p93-101
- barron`s till wk 18
- 4 news article
- chinese till lesson 13
- all the maths revision papers

OMG! i really should learn to prioritise my time.
and i haven`t done my geography notebook yet.








can`t believe it till now.
actually met jingwen yesterday.
i shall clarify first.
jingwen, my primary school bestfriend.
not the artclub jingwen.
neither is the joanna that jingwen.
OMG! hmm.. so strange lah..
but nevermind.
and there might be a 6d gathering!
though i haven`t reply to that mail yet.
HAHA! but i think still need to see the response.
well....

i failed once again @ 11:22:00 am

CRAP! my whole room`s wet.
yes. all my books. my worksheets.
the whole floor. even the entrance to my room.
and my bed. OMG!

that`s what a stupid rain can do.
DAMN!



GRR!
my bag`s wet too.
and probably all my papers in it too.
cos i didn`t zip it.
SUCKS!













i hate this rain.
oh yeah. i realise saturday afternoons have this kinda heavy rain.
remember last week i became luo tang ji.
but ruimin`s even worse than me. HAHA!

i failed once again @ 4:25:00 pm

OMG! i`m seriously posting too much in 1 day.


anyway, the day slowly got better for me.

went to BiG by safe at habourfront.
of course it was boring.
unless someone had bring me there to buy something for me.
which was definitely not the case.


after that, went to clementi.
had to take my IC photos.
gotta make it next friday.
but well.. it`s gonna be shortage of time again.


dinner was takeaway.
spring chicken and char kway tiao.
then followed by durian.
though the combination of western food, then chinese food, then fruit was a bad and strange one, it`s probably good. so long since i`ve ate so much.
but it still sounds strange to me!


OMG! this year, my birthday seems to not be a birthday.
especially when there`ll be examinations so soon.
i`m still seriously not used to this.
and also, my mother have ordered the cake already.
cutting the cake tomorrow. HELL!
not that i don`t look forward to it, but the fact it`s so early..
seems like everyone`s rushing something.
and makes me rush with them too.
EXAMINATIONS! AHH!

i failed once again @ 8:41:00 pm

good friday it is, NOT!


it started out rather terribly.
and the bad news is that, the day hasn`t ended yet.


and guess what i actually did.
slept for 12 hours again.
this is my LIFE! school is too tired for me.
it`s like every weekend, i`ve gotta do this.
OMG! just what is happening...
it didn`t used to be like that.



then i woke up this morning.
yes! still with muscle ache all over.
but a bit better than yesterday.
yesterday was like every tiny bit i moved, there was PAIN.
and it was everywhere. neck, hand, leg, body.
today, it`s only sometimes when i move about.
but, i`m gonna get a sore throat real soon.
GRR! throat hasn`t been in good conditions for like since monday.
sometimes, don`t even have the appetite to eat at all.


some terrible thing`s probably gotten to me.
definitely not MYE fever.
but then, i don`t know why.
i`m actually studying for social studies test yesterday.
and i can`t bear to part with my econs notebook.
chinese lessons have totally changed this week.
yesterday`s english remedial was totally different.


and the most important thing:
TIME WAS PASSING FAST!


and i`m running out of time.

still have so many shitty crappy useless notebooks to be re-done.
for geography, social studies, history elective etc.



i`ll be so DEAD!







and latimer wants me to talk more.
HAHA! but it`s not like i don`t wanna talk.
just that, i haven`t been talking to that kinda extent to many people for so long.
that i automatically lost my power of speech.
i can`t seem to connect anything people is talking about.
don`t understand what they`re talking.
also, it`s partly because of my family.
BUT... i shall try to talk more to different people.
afterall, 1 of my wishes is to be more outgoing.


yes. nothing is impossible.
i will really try.
art club`s the best place to start with.
HAHA!













proceed to my homework!
.
.
.
then the notebooks!
.
.
.
and lastly, HISTORY!






i won`t fail this history test.
yes. i know i won`t.
i can`t fail it, and i also won`t.
afterall, it`s triple humanities, i`ve chosen this path, i`m gonna lead this kinda life for the next 1 to 2 years, no matter what, i`ll just endure the pain, and i believe in myself, i`m gonna do it.


and english. HAHA!
that may need a bit more time though.
for me to get on track.
i know i just can`t go on failing every single piece of her work. but, things just need some time to get into my head. and english is also very important.




every failures of the past since the start of this year, shall be a mark of how i`ve improved gradually. and not a mark to make me continue failing. i`ll seriously devote more time to studies especially english and combined humanities. i`m posted to this class for i`ve chosen it, and it`s not by luck or coincidence i ended in this class. no matter what or how hard and tough it`ll be, i`ll still persevere and do the best of myself, not the best of the whole cohort for i may not be the best, but i can still be the best in my own battle against examinations.






PURPLE! ORANGE! LIMEGREEN! my colourful life.

i failed once again @ 9:24:00 am

first, i wanna say:
THANKS, RUI MIN!

hmm.. today was okay okay only.
i studied for today`s social studies test lah.
1st time i studied for combined humanities class test.
then during the test, i had so much to write.
so much i could think of, that i was writing non-stop.
and in fact, i was enjoying myself, writing all those.
but then, there wasn`t enough time.
and i haven`t interlinked them and write my stand.
i really don`t wanna fail it again.
been failing it all this once.. i just wanna do it lah.



mother tongue was so fun today.
guess i`m starting to like lianglu.
HAHA! though he didn`t play caocao or any songs today, i didn`t feel like sleeping in his lesson at all.
first, we had test on sihangeshi.
then later, yuedujiancha.
after that, lianglu talked about the passage to us.
and he was so funny. suddenly linked to food.
couldn`t stop laughing.. the way he express.
OMG! just can`t stand it.


english remedial was sort of bad though.
first, we went to the hall to see the band.
my mind was already asleep lah..
then later 3pm then go AVA.
did groupwork on that performance.
and 4pm then go home.
but then as my mind was already asleep, it seemed like only 20mins to me.




anyway, tomorrow`s good friday.
thank god it ain`t friday the 13th.

hmm...
will it actually be a GOOD FRIDAY?

i failed once again @ 5:23:00 pm

YAY! lianglu played caocao again today.
he simply rocks lah.
but his textbook lessons.. boring as usual.


i failed my NAPFA!
all because of IPU again.
something wrong`s with my chin lah.
HAHA! they keep calling me lift my chin.
but i don`t know how to, so i kept pulling my body up instead.
and ended up 0. LOL!
everything deproved a lot.
sit-ups only 28. think last year 30plus.
i was suay. do halfway then leg cramp suddenly...



maths was seriously sian.
though PE first lesson.
perhaps no run, then not much sweat, so not fully awake.
instead, i was sleeping away.


and today`s the first time i slept in economics.
but anyway, he didn`t teach anything today.
talked crap till bell rang. and he said, great, i`ve taught nothing today.
which is darn LAME! -.-
and i learnt many facts about this course which i didn`t know of before.



chemistry lab was seriously bad for me.
i guess those things we did were sec 1 stuffs.
but then, of the 4 tests, i only managed 1.
seriously, i don`t understand the instructions.
and i was doing CRAP all along.
i`m so happy. the 1st time in 3 years in css i ever succeeded in lighting bunsen burner.


after dismissal, went library do some work first.
but then, i realised i don`t even understand.
so later 3plus went for lunch outside school.
hmm.. i went back to school alone after that.
and saw bouncing tigger. he talked real loud.
i was on the school side that walkway.
and he on the other side, the one where you get to after crossing the road.
but i could still hear him talking. it was damn loud!
went back to class. only a few people.
copied physics work. then slacked around.
after which, i tried revising for social studies.
and 5plus decided to go home. after thinking for so long..
then walked many rounds, a long way back home.













YES! friday`s good friday.
HAHA! no school.
tomorrow last day of the week for school.
i wanna go library on friday. LOL!

i failed once again @ 6:06:00 pm

HAHA! just came back home only.
and my parents went out. i`m elated.

today was so sian..
CCA dismissed at 4pm. instead of the short meeting.
CRAP! then don`t wanna go home.
so just went JE library slack.


lianglu rocked today.
he played cao cao for us.
and also damn loud.
so i was enjoying it!

LOL! today g`s lesson..
i acted like innocent.
and our MYE got more questions liao.
not that i wanna say i`ll fail, or die.
but he already say, all of us are gonna die.
2 hours for like so damn much paper.



YAY! i got the simba badge already.




was suay..
shouldn`t have placed my full name in block at the tag.
but lucky they didn`t open the pictures of the board.



haix..
life goes on.
sian diao.

AND TOMORROW`s NAPFA 5 stations.
damn.

i failed once again @ 6:59:00 pm

YES! i`ve bought nicholas teo`s zhu da album.
i feel so great. i`m just so happy.
but i`m broke.
and i stupidly bought a THICK notebook for econs.
as what mr g wants. but there wasn`t any price tag.
and it costed me $5.95! the foolscap was only $5.65!
AHH!



anyway, i just found out something interesting.
hitler`s birthday is on the 20th of april.
let`s count down 10 more days to something else.
not hitler`s birthday. -.-
unless you love him that much.


YAY! i`m so happy.
i got 43 out of 50 for chinese common test.
WHEE! just damn great.



today`s a damn great day.
except for beginning when we assembled in parade square.
i sweated till whole shirt wet. GRR!




OMG!
tomorrow having economics.
and it`s 7:30am lesson somemore.
nevermind. he`s not petty type.
i`ll just have to continue acting INNOCENT.

i failed once again @ 6:56:00 pm

hmm.. just went for a haircut.
and my hair is super duper short now.
i mean what i say.
yes, i look more like a cute boy.
whether the word cute should be there, it`s up to your judgements.


shall go popular tomorrow.
i`ve gotta buy a pack of foolscap, and notebook.
running out of supplies.. time to restock.
wondering if i should just get myself a copy of cao cao on the way.
i`m still considering.. the fact that i`m already broke.


hmm.. it`s very boring now.
shall continue redo-ing my econs notebook.
left like 15 pages more to go, and i`m done.
but subsequently, i still need to do geography, history, social studies.
provided i`m in the mood to do so.
and i still need to do my homework.
then revise for the A MATHS COMMON TEST tomorrow.
i`m not raising my hopes too high. fingers crossed.


and there`s nothing much..
i`ve just said it`s a BORING DAY.
weekends are ever so boring.



remember i`ve got real short hair.
THANKS! but.. no thanks.
i know people our age have good memories.




yes. i`m posting at random.
cos seriously BORED.

enough of this crap.
just linked to some 3/2 bloggers.




shall go off now.
it`s a BAD and BORING day.
BBBBB--- all the way.
-.-

i failed once again @ 4:58:00 pm

shall post about yesterday and today.

YESTERDAY - 7th april 2006
school was just as boring as usual.
though it`s a friday.
so it was maths first.
we recapped and revised for a maths common test.
then it was physics.
mdm quek was on course.
supposed to do TYS, since i`ve done it beforehand, i did maths.
it was economics.
mr g came in and told us he can`t pronounce the word "calculator" properly.
he started teaching us pronounciations instead of economics.
RECESS!
geography came.
recapped what she taught us so far.
it was super sian.. at least 5 fell asleep, including me.
then i think thaddeus or someone else was counting the no. of okays she said.
and it actually came up to an amazing 93 okays within 20 minutes.
BAD NEWS is that she won`t leave us. i`m seriously sad. aww
CME then.
strolled to art studio. did lame things again.
combined humanities - history elective
she went thru a poem. i hate POEMS! ahh..
and i didn`t know we had to do it.
DISMISSAL!

went to 7-11 purchase batteries for camera.
and also ate there. spent 1h plus, perhaps.
then go back school. started taking photos.
saw david ng, toot guy, korni boy and others in art room.
some art elective meeting, i guess.
took lame pictures.
eg. classroom whiteboard (with decorations by some artists)
lianglu`s bike. anemometer. plants. NCC. athletics.
signboards. teachers. CCAs. corridors. etc...

shall elaborate on how i got mr g`s photos.
YES! so i was with peifang, huiting, shujun and their friend.
and i asked huiting to call a teacher out since she suggested the idea.
then i said i wanted mr g, and they all agreed.
so their friend said mr g her CM, so she called him.
and told him that his econ student want to ask him something.
as usual, he came out with that brown cloak.
here`s a more detailed one on what happened after that:
staffroom door opens. out bounces mr g with his brown cloak. and he saw me, so he asked YES? and why are you guys still in school? so they stood behind him, taking his back view. i was in front of them, pretending to ask him some questions. and i was waiting for them to take pictures, but it was slow. so i asked him can i ask you something? and he said yes? what? with that strange expression. so i looked at him and they took the photo of his backview. i thought it was okay already. then i used my book to cover while i laugh, and told him that they want to take his pictures. and naturally, he bounced back to the staffroom. however, they blocked him. then tried to take more photos of him. afterwhich, they crapped with him. saying it`s for a project and it`s moments of CSS. and he kept wanting to go back to staffroom but they wouldn`t let him. so, he opened and closed the door a number of times. suddenly, a spoiler, lianglu comes into the scene, and looks at me, and i just ignored him. lianglu was leaving school lah. then after a while, mr g bounced back into staffroom, leaving us students alone.

well, he probably was wondering why we students have so much time to do this kinda stuffs. or perhaps he felt tricked. HAHA! nevermind. the evil begets evil.

then we criticised seniors` artworks. i got nothing say lah. i also not good in art. so anyhow say crap. and my mother called to say she going out... after that, slowly strolled home. then back to same old daily routine after i reach home. like bathe, dinner...



shall upload SOME pictures. probably of those whiteboard decorations and any i find interesting. but i won`t place it directly. i`ll link it. so look out for the links. not linking mr g`s ones anyway. i already feel bad enough tricking him like that. and his photos shouldn`t be publicized. he needs respect.


okay.. here are the pictures` link. only 11 photos. not so free to upload everything here.
click on the links to navigate.
Staff Extension No. List
The Pond Staircase with the very UNNECESSARY TOILET SIGNBOARD beside
Surveillance Camera outside Staff Room
Pity this thing! Look how rough teachers are. Evidence: Scratches all over it.
View of 3/2 from 3rd storey
Our "beloved" CM`s means of transportation to school
Pathetic Board with Nice Decorations but half-done.
Whiteboard Decoration 1: Frozen Scottish Sniper
Whiteboard Decoration 2: Worms War II Teachers` Expansion Pack
Whiteboard Decoration 3: Koki in WWI
Whiteboard Decoration 4: Osim I-Gallop


TODAY - 8th april 2006
woke up and had nothing to do.
began flipping thru my economics textbook in bed.
see how hardworking i am.

after that, then i make my bed.
then come and use computer.
listen songs, MSN, surfing etc.

went to fetch ruimin.
LOL! it was a bit drama type.
cos there`s this walkway beside carpark.
then i was walking from one end.
ruimin was probably starting to reach the other end.
but i felt hot, so decided to walk in carpark.
saw ruimin`s sms saying she wanna walk herself.
so i thought she should be somewhere near.
then i saw a reflection, look like hers.
and i walked out of the carpark.
turned my head around, and saw ruimin.

then later ruimin came and kop some photos.
stayed until suddenly got heavy rain.
and my mother came back.
so, she wanted to leave.
helped her with half the maze in my estate.
then we both shared 1 umbrella.
in the end, both of us drenched.
seriously, the rain was heavy.
HAHA!!

i failed once again @ 1:07:00 pm

HAHA! it actually rained.
and i didn`t know.
well, i`ve got no idea what`s happening around me.
today, is probably one of the earlier times i reached home.
though it was around 4:30pm like that...

YEAH! today napfa test 2.4km run.
i`m so glad i passed. and i got a C.
that`s not good lah. but just that i`m able to do it.
next week got the 5 stations. and it shall be over!
but then, there comes the dreadful mid-year exam.


after PE, we had maths.
as usual, i was multi-tasking.
doing my maths assignment due today.
and copying whatever she`s writing.
there, the lesson went. YAY!

economics. well, then i was doing CME.
hmm.. he was starting on elasticity.
anyway, he told us draw demand curve.
again, i was starting to draw that steep curve which i drew last time.
but he said we had to cover most of the values on the x-axis.
so i can`t draw it. and i was laughing that he said that.
then he taught us how to do it. but i don`t really know.
and he left late. which meant he ate into CME.

strolled to art studio.
then it`s like 15 minutes past already.
and it came out we won`t have CME.
b`cos ruth ng was having meeting.
and we saw david ng. LOL!

we had early recess.
but i went late anyway.
like as if i love recess that much.

chemistry lab.
whole class late for 20minutes.
ms liao was angry. HAHA!
then we did some don`t know what thing.
and it`s quite easy.
but then there`s this point the P leaked.
so i had to redo the whole thing, once again.

mother tongue.
seriously sian..

physics.
hmm.. she taught turning effect.
a chapter which i used to hate.

PC.
left to do our own stuffs.
did all my maths unsubmitted assignments.
YES! i`ve cleared it all.
then did chemistry TYS.

was so sian..
i actually walked around school.
cos waiting for peifang.
went to staff room.
then saw mrs loh, coming our way.
so i told peifang to quickly go.
then it appeared mrs loh wasn`t going off, i think so.
GRR! anyway, we saw mr g bouncing away with orange bag outside the gate.
LOL! sian lah..



shall try to complete homework and sleep early today.
these few days, everytime 2am then sleep.
seriously, i feel exhausted already.
and it`s like last time i can stay so late.
now i feel so tired, YES! and before the exams.
like HELL... how am i gonna mug when the time comes?

i failed once again @ 5:21:00 pm

ohh yes. i just gotta touch the computer, somehow.
anyway, today was a lil bit better than yesterday.
for the fact that ms latimer didn`t come, perhaps.

first period today was economics.
well, majority had that 'seven-thirty am' syndrome.
LOL! and his laptop lagged. but it recovered.
anyway, most of us were rushing our geography instead, me included.
and he continued teaching. but there were only like less than 5 slides today.
however, he could talk and talk non-stop.
so, i came to this conclusion he`s probably talking crap.

then it was geography.
SIAN.. tomorrow then need submit geography workbook.
well, made me rush for nothing. GRR!

chemistry. short lesson.
only went through all the graphs stuffs.

mother tongue.
i was doing my e maths written work.
no idea what he taught.
anyway, i find he`s somehow treating stanley rather unfairly.

RECESS!

english.
highlight of the day perhaps, as latimer wasn`t here.
and i was copying economics notes.
YES! i copy blindly from mr g`s slides.
with loads of errors. i don`t even know the heck i`m copying.

maths.
we spend the whole lesson doing variation exercises.

physics lab practical.
split into 2 and we had mr chng, unfortunately.
he`s smart, but he`s a bit strict lah..
and he eavedrops on conversations.

END OF DAY!

and there was cca.
realised i had 2 sms-es.
-.- okay. problem with vibration function again.

anyway, went to art room immediately.
then went out school smuggle food in.
YES! the rest was pretty boring...






and i shall update my wishlist!

i failed once again @ 7:52:00 pm

today ain`t so nice day for me.
supposed to wake up at 6am.
then i ended up waking at 7am.
and i had no time to revise my chinese.
also, left home at 8am lah..

by the time i was reaching school, could see groups of people at parade square.
then i was like.. am i late? why are people at the parade square? strange kinda feeling.
well, anyway, i need to leave earlier on mondays. notice i`m always so late. HAHA!
and it was hell standing under the hot sun for assembly for like 8 minutes?
the stupid hot sun... real bad lah. couldn`t stand the heat.
after that, it was english in AVA. supposed to be better.
since it`s like from hot to cold. but then, it was still hot.
then latimer was like usual, start lesson with 20 minutes of lecturing.
proper lessons till bell ring. retain us and scold us then let us go.
it was combined humanities. well, i just have to admit kokila rocks lah.
sorta like she gives me special treatment.
so many times i didn`t do her work, but she hasn`t caught me before.
and today, she asked me where was my tov thing.
i obviously didn`t do lah. bluff her say i didn`t print out. and she just believed.
her lesson i was like copying the whole chunk of words from chinese textbook.
then recess. went down to revise and memorise the stuffs.
maths was sian as usual. always like that.
by the time it was common test, i could vaguely memorise those stuffs. so it was okay.
then it came. and the front part was easy. quite confident of full marks for it.
but then the comprehension part is BAD. seriously, i guess everyone else agrees too.
like, i don`t even understand the question because i don`t know what`s the meaning of the word. so it was sort of utter CRAP!
assembly was 7th council investiture. not a very good one.
well after school, was like remedials again.. back to normal lah.

and i`ve just got my monthly allowance yesterday.
only to realise i`m gonna be broke again today.
well.. sort of, at least.
$10 for art club tee, $3 for econs 5 year series, $9 for maths 5 year series.

i just received that blue letter today.
that ic registration letter lah.
and it`s like CRAP once again.
like 2 weeks period for me to go, but i`m only free on 1 day.
so it`s like, that 1 day, whatever it is, i just have to break free from everything else to go.
for me, it`s from 19th april to 4th may.
then it`s pretty obvious that 19th april got chemistry remedial.
20th april, my birthday, but SADLY, english remedial. OMG!
21st april - YES! the only day i`m free.
24th april onwards, we may or may not have remedials and cca.
but even so, it`s like exams starting within 4 days already.
WELL well... let nature take its own course.

YES! zhiyang crowned the campus superstar last night.
overly excited. i`m damn happy. LOL!

oh yeah.. btw, i just realised there`re loads of concerts in april.. OOH!

i seriously need to do something for english lah.
got like one-quarter of the total marks for that pop culture passage.
if this goes on, i`m seriously gonna be dead by MYE.
at least you see others, they got some where they pass.
and for me, of all the assignments, it`s all fail.
not that i`m hoping so much for it, but i just feel so ......

tomorrow got art club.
supposed to bring camera.
but doubt i`m bringing.
well, but i want those photos.
it`s like... shifting to RV.
then this building gets demolished like no one cares.
after that, we`d like forget of the existence of this old building.
where we`ve spent 3 years of schooling.


guess this is a long enough post.
-.-


oh yes. just remembered we`ll all be under the sun for morning assembly from now on. except for mondays. yes, it`s gonna be bad. already sweating profusely in hall. and now, i guess i`m gonna get a heatstroke anytime soon. but still, i guess it`s not too bad. guess the temperature now is at most 34 degrees. which is like way better than that soaring 38 degrees i experienced like 6 years ago. but, it`d have gone up to 40 degrees.. HAHA! and now the weather is strange, you get REAL bad hot weather in the morning. and in the evenings, it rains and pours and noisy thunder and shocking lightning. yes, that`s what we`ve been having for the past few days... GOD!

i failed once again @ 8:14:00 pm

YES! great feeling to be back on the net.
i`m just so happy that the problem is finally solved.
and no more stupid lianglu laughing at me.


still leading that sian student life.
haix... don`t ever mention ms teo again.
i seriously hate her to the core.
can`t stand her anymore. i want mdm ros back!
at first i liked her, but now it`s different.
she just sucks. HMPH! i don`t care.

tonight got campus superstar finals.
gonna watch it. i want zhiyang win!
while my brother sort of likes teresa instead.
but he says that zhiyang`s gonna win.
`cos he got like the whole of HC`s supports.
from primary, secondary and junior college.

tomorrow got chinese common test.
i`m really gonna study for it.
chinese is easy right now.
all we have to do is memorise.
but different case for mid-year exam.
so right now, i`m grabbing all the marks that i can.

LOL! i finished redo-ing my e maths notebook yesterday.
like 3 to 5 hours in total. fast?
anyway, haven`t touched homework.

mr g is evil.
he told us mid year exam format.
and it`s like.. gonna be hell for me.
25 mcq - 1 mark each.
2 seq. 1 compulsory - 25 marks.
1 is choice of 2. - 25 marks.
total is 75 marks.
not sure of time duration.
and for seq, each question break down into parts.
max marks for each part is 10 marks.
and he say he ain`t evil.




anyway, suddenly got this change in thoughts.
like last time, i`ve always wanted to go poly.
then graduate and end my education already.
but now, i don`t want it like this anymore.
i wanna get into a JC. hopefully ACJC.
then from there, get into university.
and graduate from university.
now, that`s my dream education route.
LOL! and as long as this dream lives in me, i`m gonna make it happen.



i`m gonna get to my pile of homework soon.
i shall abandon the computer for the time-being.

i failed once again @ 2:33:00 pm