Saturday, May 27, 2006
FIRSTLY, i shall declare my blog`s going private for a period of time. i need some time to cool down.
SECONDLY, for all those who are overly concerned, my level position is 122. thanks if you gave me an uncalled for applauses.
THIRDLY, i`m in a real foul mood.
everything turned out to be a nightmare.
i went out at like 12pm to go cassandra`s house.
and on the bus, there`re so many commonwealthians with their parents.
then i felt so damn lonely, being alone.
anyway, i anyhow waded through those blocks and finally reached her house.
later around 1:45pm then i take bus go school.
i was super late for it lah.
then i went to class, my mother not there.
and she called to say she at the lift. CRAP lah.
on the way to class, damn LL called my mother lor.
then.. he showed us my results first.
i didn`t bother to see lah.
he started saying my english results very bad.
so overall fail, and it leads to this and that.
WOW! never-ending chain of effects.
then he complained about me staying in school lor.
like crap lah. i stayed to revise and do homework.
he didn`t see is his problem lah.
just my luck to everytime bump into him outside staffroom the moment i get there.
seriously lah, i don`t know what luck i`ve got on me, everytime i go staffroom find teacher sure will see him one.
and i was like debating with him telling him i seriously find teachers to ask for help lah.
then he don`t believe. STUBBORN BASTARD!
i challenged my mother to choose any teachers to ask and guaranteed her at least 3 will say i got stay back to consult them lor.
but she`s got weird taste for LL, she believes everything he says.
and he made me go find Latimer with my mother lah.
so i went to find her. i wasn`t listening to her at all.
she was trying to comfort me. i guess she could see me fighting back my tears.
and my mother kept asking her what`s wrong with me..
that latimer was like repeating and repeating don`t worry lah.
DAMN EVERYONE LAH!
especially the bastard son-of-a-bitch.
later i was crying already lah.
not at my results.
I DON`T CRY AND CRY ABOUT POOR RESULTS.
results are non-living things lah.
but it was because no one trusted me.
she chooses to trust LL rather than her own daughter.
you know how hurt it can actually be.
and it`s not only once, it`s everytime.
then my mother made me go the market.
she was buying 4D and asked me queue for her.
i was SUPER PISSED OFF lah.
i can`t stand people who bet can.
and she`s asking me to queue for her.
anyway, i didn`t care and i went back home alone.
shut myself in the room and cried.
cos of everything that happened.
feel so bad for ignoring stanley completely when he said bye to me.
haix..
no one trusted me.
if only our CM was someone else..
at least kokila always encourages me.
and liao always so concerned and helping.
then G always cheering up us.
also latimer for like saying all the nice things.
i didn`t expect her to say those things at all.
so damn sad and depressed.
i feel like i might as well drop out of school lah.
no one even sees the effort i put in.
i stay in school revise = i stay in school play
i stay up late to revise = i`m doing that cos i stayed back in school to play and have no time left
i consult teachers = i loiter outside staffroom
WHAT THE HECK DOES LIANGLU WANTS FROM ME?
he want me be attitude problem student is it.
seriously, what`s he trying to do lah?
my relation with my parents are getting worst and worst and he`s still saying crap to make everything worse.
like in primary school there`s no problems at all.
ever since secondary schooling started, everything`s turned sour.
if things are just gonna get worse and worse, i might as well stop schooling altogether lah.
feeling much better now.
thanks for cheering me up, people.
HAHA! i must look at G`s photos.
maybe i`ll laugh. LOL!
nevermind.
perhaps i shall continue staying back.
i`m seriously revising or doing homework mah.
what`s there to be afraid of?
i don`t know why the teachers are asking me about me staying back with the seniors.
SERIOUSLY, i don`t see anything wrong with it lor.
especially LL. he`s like only trying to make me a loner.
haix.
now at least feel better.
but just hope no one pisses me off later.
i`m hogging the computer now for IE.
HAHA! cos i called them de lor.
and when i was calling, i was having so much problems.
stupid idiot blasting music like disco.
childish people shouting all over for a pathetic scissors.
problematic siblings blaming each other.
couldn`t even hear properly what the TA was saying lor.
so, i deserve the credit. i`m hogging computer!
i failed once again @ 6:12:00 pm
