Thursday, May 04, 2006
haix...
everyone`s was dead today.
totally no one has energy left.
well, you`d understand what i mean if you stayed today...
i really feel like breaking down.
especially after today.
didn`t even sleep last night.
like rushing and mugging history.
ended up didn`t revise social studies.
and i just felt so hungry and cold.
cos there`s aircon.
then i thought was people sleeping.
later 5am, i thought of people getting ready for school.
just all these thoughts...
but now, i can`t stand it anymore.
anyway, i was so damn stressed up today.
and i remembered it`s my primary school`s friend birthday, when it was 2am.
went school earlier than usual.
then go library there mugged for social studies.
morning assembly mugged for it.
walking to class also mug.
waiting for invigilator also mug.
was like so surprised.
suddenly everyone was cheering.
then i realised cos it`s G.
i was just so super stressed.
like staying up the night just to cram.
LOL! the no. of strings on my table are piling up.
already have 5 now. should have 6.
but the teacher didn`t give me cos she saw i had so much already.
and G still gave 2 each. -.-
anyway, after examinations today...
was like sian diao..
dozed off during history paper SEQ.
cos it was just super difficult.
stayed back for lianglu`s talk.
CRAP! he always does this lah.
and i was like sitting there but mind was away.
so happy he finally let us go.
went to canteen and nothing do.
those teachers eating, we`re laughing at them.
and go to westmall popular.
later when going back school, was crossing the road.
then later decided, i should walk back.
so i actually walked back to school.
perhaps i shouldn`t have. it was so hot.
and all the stress.
anyway, went to find liao.
after that, stayed in school.
was like only 2 of us.
then even till 4plus, still 2 of us.
and teachers walked past saying..
yeah study till so tired hor?
aiyo. no one for night study?
and i was like.. yeah dead exhausted.
anyway went back home.
then i was thinking how stressed it was.
and then a girl suddenly said
only know how to go malaysia everytime.
and it sort of reminded me my parents going malaysia this weekend.
HAIX. i feel like i can`t cope.
everything. makes me wanna break down.
like, my parents? what do they mean?
sometimes i actually think about this question.
but i don`t know.
it`s like i`m still in the midst of examinations.
they`re going off to enjoy themselves.
and they don`t even care about me.
well..
maybe humans aren`t machine.
and they aren`t supposed to work like one.
neither do they have the abilities to do so.
thus, i`m really breaking down.
EXAMINATION.
MUGGING.
NO SLEEP.
STAYING BACK LATE.
LAST MIN REVISIONS.
NO ONE CARING.
haix..
everything`s just this bad.
i really wanna sleep early tonight.
but he hinted the newspapers one is article.
and i haven`t read yet.
tomorrow`s gonna be a bad day anyway.
imagine.. 1 thick dictionary.
1 chemistry tys. 1 physics tys.
plus all other chinese revision stuffs.
the worst week of the year i guess.
and G was like bouncing back home happily at 12plus!
DAMN HIM! at least he shouldn`t let me see it.
i failed once again @ 4:49:00 pm
