Wednesday, May 17, 2006
i`m sorta pissed right now.
was already feeling bad enough.
and my computer went blank on me.
the internet`s disconnecting non-stop.
i can`t bathe cos my father`s locked the room.
and i`ve failed my physics MYE.
also my english MYE.
then there`s still 1 more paper to go.
in a super bad mood right now.
what`s with that stupid economics sharing thing at such a dilapidated place?
everything just practically sucked.
i went so early this morning.
then i waited till so late that liao came.
WHAT THE HECK lah!
sheer crap lor.
then later we stood at library there look down.
and kokila saw us and gave the strange look.
plus, i found out lianglu`s driving weekend car to school.
okay lah. i admit i`m slow lah.
then everything went well.
i finally passed my NAPFA lor.
after that was maths. went thru papers again.
and that damn G was such a slacker lah.
like within half an hour, i can bathe, i can eat etc.
and he says he needs 1h to go thru papers.
like oh yeah, it`s goddamn true.
and he`s so confident of his mathematics and marking skills.
yeah right, last minute seriously sucks lah.
so back to maths. real darn bored lor.
WHAT ELSE THEN?
CME. slack time lah. and i had nothing to do.
cos i didn`t bring my fucking maths papers up.
and i had to sacrifice half my recess to complete it.
after which i realise i didn`t complete my reflections.
then i was waiting for liao to come.
and she took so damn long just to come lah.
i was pretty scared of results.
and she said 17 failures out of 41.
then i just lie straight on the table.
and waiting till my turn to receive the papers.
don`t know why. but i was frantically looking at my marks.
then down there only section B marks.
i was like wtf. and i slowly counted.
became so sad lah. i thought to myself..
17 failures. i just passed. C6, very good ah?
then later i realised i`m so dumb. it`s upon 70 lah.
and i actually got A1 lah!! and so happy.
i really promise to do well in chemistry hor!
and i got the peak peak peak question correct!
later was chinese lah. damn sian.
didn`t do up to my standards for paper 2.
but my overall pulled up by paper 1.
so ended up, it was still okay too.
physics just sucked the most.
i was like dreading it already.
then people went i heard highest C6 leh.
and somemore, 60% failed lor.
i just decided i shall sleep.
and she called my name like twice before i received my papers lah.
didn`t even bother to look at all.
i know i sure fail. then later in the end, not that i wanted to, but forced to, that i counted my marks.
what can i say about it? i really feel like dropping physics lah.
why isn`t there combination of econs, bio and chem?
i`m just seriously not the type of people for physics lah.
studied and studied. the first subject for MYE i studied for.
everyday look at it. consulted mdm quek for at least total of 6h?
the day before, i tried and understood them all.
i forced myself to do them.
THEN ALL I GET IS JUST A STUPID FAIL!
i studied hardest for physics and i get lowest for it.
like WHO GIVES A DAMN TO STUDYING AT ALL!
everything just sucked.
for once, i hated mdm quek.
for once, i just wanna give up.
and yet once again, i felt like dropping physics, if only i could.
CRAP LAH! hours and hours of studying.
study till slept in school. then woke up and continued.
and i even stayed for night study to consult her.
even started consulting her 1 week before exams started.
almost everyday, i look at physics questions.
went to recap with her everything.
asked her like 50 questions?
spent like 6h in total with her?
and in the end, i just get a SHITTY 29.5 out of 70.
i think i just have to defeat.
so much for working myself out every day and night.
later PC dismissed.
then later went millenia institute.
such a stupid damn school.
the name`s like so cool and the building`s like CRAP!
even worse than the previous JPS.
and i thought that was already the worst.
then everything there was seriously SIAN!
like we`re going there to talk about economics.
and they spend god knows how long promoting their school.
plus most of the thing they were talking about didn`t make sense to me at all.
so i was just staring into space lah.
why should i even listen to something that`s confusing me?
i listen until headache liao lor.
later come back school le.
surprised liao`s car still there.
then actually, she went out with 3/4 lah.
DAMN IT!
EVERYTHING JUST SUCKED FOR ME.
and i seriously wanna get an A for economics.
be it A1 or A2. but i think abit difficult.
but i need another A to meet my goal lah.
and i`m pinning all hopes on economics.
STUPID DAMN G. why can`t he return today.
yeah yeah, he just thinks he`s the only one who needs more time.
seriously CRAP!
just in a bloody foul mood cos of everything that happened
and tmr better be a better dae
i just wanna noe dat i pass eng
all tt i ask for.
i noe im typing in singlish.
tts what happens when im in a seriously bad mood.
physics just suck like shit
i failed once again @ 7:20:00 pm
