Thursday, June 08, 2006
haix..
last week, everyday was so bright and sunny.
this week, since tuesday, it`s been raining.
the rain gets heavier and heavier. and we`re stuck. we can go nowhere but only remain. but i think we shouldn`t, perhaps we should just leave. and get wet in the rain. it doesn`t matter. we can still change, and we need to change.
and after good things have happened, i suppose bad things are coming.
i`ve been so happy, but now, i`m afraid.
maybe i should just be oblivious to everything that has occurred.
things are probably getting much too complicated than i`ve thought.
it`s still raining now.
and the rain makes me feel the connection.
i don`t know what i`m supposed to do.
perhaps i must force myself...
to me, i only thought things got better.
but instead, it`s only getting worst.
i`m just way too naive.
but, i seriously gotta solve everything.
before they worsen to a deeper level.
afterall, i count myself fortunate.
i shouldn`t take things for granted anymore.
it`s still raining.
and i`ve gotta go to school.
but...
perhaps i should remain at home, only thing is that i can`t.
i feel so lost suddenly.
on a scale of 1 to 10, i only know around a scale of 3 on what is happening.
and my naive nature made me think that i knew so much.
now i realise there`s more to it... and i`m just lost.
but i`m gonna find the way out myself.
i shouldn`t let anyone guide me before i forget the way.
i failed once again @ 8:36:00 am
