Thursday, June 22, 2006
okays, back from physics remedial.
actually, it isn`t so bad.
it`s just homework, with supervision.
and i do hate life like that.
i`ve earned myself another scar on my leg.
now, there`s 4 in my collection.
just now, completed physics work earlier, so left earlier.
walked around but nothing much. quite noisy too.
then i decided to go home, since there`s nothing else to do.
it`s like everytime we go out school, there`s 1 stage we need to pass de.
either the security guard there or the bigger gate, meant for cars.
[think i shouldn`t refer to him as 'gerald'.]
okay. so i was walking.
and the security guard, peter, waved to me.
instead of waving back, i chose to say 'bye'.
as i got nearer to him, he asked 'ei girl, you no ECA?'
then i said 'hmm.. have.'
anyway i type out the conversation lah.
Peter: Ei girl, you no ECA?
Me: hmm.. have.
Peter: What's your ECA?
Me [laughing]: art club.
Peter [with a surprised look]: orh. i see you tall tall, i thought you should join NPCC.
Me: no lah. hen ma fan.
Peter: hui ma fan meh? girl, you see ah, at your age, you should exercise more. join NPCC or NCC. it's better. next time when you're old like me, you don't have the stamina. around 30 to 40, you don't have the stamina to exercise so much. you see like me, now i can only go swimming. i don't have stamina.
Me: hmm.. yah.
Peter: oh you now sec 4?
Me: no. sec 3 only.
Peter: oh. then nevermind. next year you got GCE O Levels, so you better concentrate on studies first. whatever it is, studying is important. you must study hard. i very regret you know. now i can only be security guard. i regret. if i had studied harder, i'll already be in the office right now, instead of being here. yah.. so must study hard, then next time can find jobs, right?
Me: yah.. hmm.. i will.
Peter: ei girl, i really mean it. it's only because i treat you as my daughter that's why i tell you this. i've been through all this, that's why i know. that's only why i advise you. so now, you can study, better study hard.
Me: oh okay. yah.
Peter: hmm.. yah ok lah..
Me: orh. byebye.
Peter: bye. sorry hor, wo gen ni jiang hua zhe me jiu.
Me: orh orh.. bu yong jin. byebye.
Peter: bye.
a bit kongbu.
everyday, you say hi and bye to someone.
then that person tells you he treats you as his daughter...
somemore he was like quite serious.
at first i keep smiling, then he continued nagging.
i stopped smiling, then he stop nagging.
it`s like he see my face, must be serious enough, then he knows i actually take what he says to heart, only then he talk other stuffs.
then that day... he call me to help him bring someone to the dental.
GRR! i think he recognizes me.. out of the hundreds of many other students too.
but actually what he said does make sense.
just that he shouldn`t have added the part about 'treat you as my daughter.'
hmm...
actually, i think it used to be a joke.
but, who says it can`t be my goal?
people have wild dreams, their aspirations.
maybe.. maybe the joke is now my goal.
i know i can work towards it.
if i really want it, i`ll get it no matter what.
i failed once again @ 3:37:00 pm
