Sunday, July 30, 2006
imagine being so tired after having totally NO break during the precious weekends, then as you`re heading home and walking outside the boundaries of a playground, some guys who prefer playing ball games at a playground rather than on the field send the ball flying towards your back without your knowledge and hitting hard on your dear head.
okay, that`s history so it doesn`t matter that much now.
i rather it was geography, since there`s geography common test tomorrow.
and another big thing, chemistry SPA.
may the time pass slowly please.
like it had when we were at science center just now.
i failed once again @ 5:40:00 pm
Saturday, July 29, 2006
hmm.. spent 4 or 5 hours in school, cursing someone, laughing at someone. when have i become so evil?
this means that "Beijing" is pronounced like "bay-jing", not like "beige-ing".
- extracted from http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Pinyin
the above sentence is a reason why people don`t call me by my full name.
in fact, if someone were to mispronounce my full name, it will be "beige-ing way".
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in the next chapter of geography, my surname will be popping up here and there. it`s so called the power of the bay family. however, i think few people knows my chinese surname. and that`s the secret of the bay family.
anyway, open house today was still okay. some parts were so funny. especially the mr foo. can`t believe i actually promoted that piece of artwork which got a bronze in the SYF to so many people. basically, i was just entertaining myself more than introducing the art club. i am such a slacker. disappeared when they were packing up and only appeared after it was half packed up. and everyone else at least painted or created something, while i was only talking and talking to parents, and with the fact that i don`t even talk to my parents at all. in the end, i made the senior go take food for us, cos students aren`t allowed to take, but then no one wanted to eat and it`s all left at the table outside HOD room. we`re considerate people, we considered the fact that it`s the hungry ghosts festival. the 118 staffs... seems to be interestingweird. they seem to be so 'fascinated' with our half-completed stuffs rather than the SYF award-winning piece. i would say it`s a strange trend.
and tomorrow, i`ll be doing MORE talking at the science center. when have i ever become the one who strikes the conversation with others first? can`t imagine a weekend of talking and striking conversations with strangers.
down to get on with more... geography?
i failed once again @ 3:42:00 pm
Friday, July 28, 2006
there wasn`t any kinematics test today, and that`s 1 good thing.
however, sad to say it`s the only good thing of the day.
and with many other really bad things happening.
think i`m finally zapped back into reality again.
who knows things may get really bad to the extent i screw my chemistry SPA on monday morning and then followed by geography common test in the afternoon.
i may not even be able to have the time to attempt a quarter of the questions in the geography TYS simply because i`ll be busy over the weekend, unless i don`t keep up with all the homework and i stay awake through the night. and yes, due to my super limited vocabulary or rather short term memory loss, i just can`t get convex and concave right.
not so much that i`m a pessimist, but right, i know that even before tomorrow comes, it`s already gonna be a bad day, or at least the few hours i`m gonna be in school is gonna be B-A-D. don`t see any point why i would need to explain this since i`m going for art club, the reason is pretty obvious already...
and being a 'good' example, i`m gonna wash my hands off the whole carnival thing. i`m not making anymore stuffs already. not that it`s a waste of time, but to me, it`s not worth it cracking my head to come up with fresh ideas which get condemned time and over again. in the end, you`re asked to do some gay-ish things.
some 'great' things to point out:
- my soul drifted elsewhere during maths lesson on thursday, so i totally have no idea what`s going on. what makes it worst is that it`s trigonometry.
- for geography, i still haven`t read up about the chapters on rivers and weathering, even though weathering was tested in the mid-year examination. pretty bad case, i suppose. but whatever, i SHALL try to cram the topic on rivers, for the sake of the common test?
- my physics is really getting nowhere. from january till july, i still don`t know what is it. i don`t know the formulas. and i tried to understand the concepts to at least ensure myself a 'pass' in the mid-year examination, which was a failed attempt. right now, i`ve totally no idea which topic she`s at, and i know absolutely nothing at all. seems like i`m dreaming in her lessons, or rather, SLEEPING throughout. even worse is that there`s a good sum of questions we have to complete in the TYS by tuesday.
at the rate things are going, i`m gonna be either too stressed or if not, depressed.
choose 1, EIHER stressed OR depressed. -.-
time doesn`t fly but it`s already gonna be august.
only good thing is that i can get my allowance soon enough.
but that`s followed by a series of not-so-good things, i suppose.
i failed once again @ 7:05:00 pm
Wednesday, July 26, 2006
HAHA! yesterday i was super high. somemore, during maths which was last lesson, i didn`t fall asleep. instead, i was smiling and laughing all the way, to prevent myself from falling asleep. and i didn`t sleep in her lesson because i slept in physics. now, i know nothing about the new chapter that she`s teaching. i`m so dead. then her assignments also never hand in, but at least i told her lah. actually slept in her lesson for about 30 minutes. LOL! enjoyable time for me ah. and tomorrow got physics practical, which she already briefed us on, but when i was sleeping...
then got back our chemistry common test papers yesterday. i`m super happy already with the marks. but could have gotten higher if i corrected the readings to 3sf. and it`s definitely not bias lah. how can a teacher be bias? that`s so unprofessional lor... oh whatever. then today she was going thru, i did nothing. was just looking at her workings and the maths remedial worksheet on my table. cos my worksheet was with desiree, who didn`t come to school today, which makes it so super boring in lessons today for me. and for chemistry SPA, need go school early again, hate it, but i don`t care, must do well for it! afterall, it`s SPA lah.. will be counted lor.
HAHA! i know i`m saddist. was laughing at LL tripping simultaneously over bags in class when vice principal and subject head was around. LOL!
oh yeah. then i was so super surprised mrs loh said i`m a good girl. at least i didn`t ever expect she would say that of me. cos i strongly feel that she has something against me.
G wasn`t here today. no economics, also no geography. and the class was so quiet doing the maths remedial worksheet. hardworking sia!
nowadays, many people sick again. today alone, lutfi, desiree didn`t come. then before, it was kornelius. also G didn`t come today. and my couz also. makes my life kinda boring and sian sometimes.
and i wanna bring camera on saturday, on the pretext of 'memories of CSS', which is definitely a failed project. also, i`m gonna pretend to be uninformed and stupid and wear full uniform instead of art club tee. HAHA!
friday got e maths class test on kinematics again. must do well already, aiming for at least A2 lor. so far, haven`t even gotten any A for e maths before, best is only B3. haix.. and monday got geography common test. hopefully can get A1. i gonna study hard, though i`m super busy over the weekend. and lucky only rivers tested. means i don`t need read up on coasts or weathering. LOL! and sure tested on processes one lah.. so i gonna make sure i memorise.
wishing i can get my first A for e maths and first A1 for geography this year in the upcoming tests. HAHA!
and everyone who`s sick, get well soon. i also gonna take good care of myself.
i failed once again @ 6:43:00 pm
Monday, July 24, 2006
HAHA! today was a super bad day. and i came home so early, oh well, compared to on other days, at least this is very early.
don`t know what`s wrong with me nowadays.
i screwed up my physics SPA. that question is so damn complicated lah. then i left 1 minute, anyhow wrote a few possible sources of error. and realised i left out the relationship. damn! 1 mark lost to that already. GRR! nevermind. learn from experience lah.
reached school slightly earlier than normal but VERY early than normal mondays. then i saw ms liao, and greeted her. but she was like so groggy and didn`t reply back, most probably i got influenced by her, that`s why i started sleeping in lessons. skipped morning assembly and a little part of chinese.
haix.. nowadays, chinese lessons are super boring! for weeks and weeks, we`re still stuck at that stupid chapter, no progress. i mean we`re really lagging behind in all subjects. and i purposely don`t bring my chinese textbook every lesson because i`ve totally lost interest in his lessons already. i feel bad lah, but most of his lessons, i`ll be doing some other things.
then i don`t know what happened during geography. i only know we took some time going out of class fooling around, setting up our stuffs, sticking them here and there. then we proceeded back to class, numbered ourselves, break into our small groups, went 'touring' around the level to look at the river things. and i really can`t stand G lah.. so super sarcastic can. if it`s for joking sake, then let it be. but he`s like purposely? saying that someone is an extra. calling our group the damn people when we did most of the stuffs! really had enough of it lah. WAH LAO! go round calling people damn damn damn. fun ar? irritating lor. then he still have the cheek to tell us that rivers and most probably, coasts too are gonna be tested for common test next monday. like so far this year, i`ve only learnt in mdm ros` geography lessons. ms teo`s i learnt nothing, but i can`t blame her, cos i was the one not listening. but G? he ain`t even teaching. just split us into groups and we do what we are supposed to do and that`s it. then he used around 10 minutes or so to run thru god-knows-how-many-slides and *ta-da* THE END! when he was running thru the slides, i was like wondering what the heck he was doing lah. CRAP! and nevermind if he`s not teaching at all lah, he still eat into our recess time by talking stupid nonsensical things. and if i still don`t care about him eating into our recess time, i still can`t stand him teaching geography all the time and not economics! everytime he take economics lessons to teach geography, then say replace and in the end? GEOGRAPHY. you know, it`s not like only our geography is suffering already. he`s also affecting our economics lah! and the geography stuffs he took back from office already, and leave it to rot outside staffroom bench. for once, i think the DAMN people he`s always referring to is himself.
okay. i was super pissed off by G lah. and what`s more? tomorrow 1st lesson, 7:30am to 8:30am will be him again. really had enough of him. i seriously hope he teaches economics PROPERLY tomorrow.
then during maths, she taught functions. and i was super super tired already. buay tahan. my eyes keep closing. i was fighting to keep it open and eventually it closed instead. then margaret loh probably not happy, so she started picking on me for the rest of the day. first, she told me to do Q11 on the whiteboard. and it`s like i`m supposed to know my method is wrong even before she started teaching... i rather do Q6 lah. SHIT her. and it wasn`t only that. she kept hinting like 'some people can`t support their heads already', 'some people are already sleeping' etc.
common test i anyhow do, totally bad day for me, not in the mood to do properly. then i slept cos i didn`t know how to do. heard that margaret loh actually got walked past. gonna be like damn if she saw me sleeping lah.
then after assembly i walked back to class first then walked to canteen using the staffroom route. and margaret loh suddenly called me, and told me to wear my tie properly. so i adjusted and adjusted and it seemed like she won`t ever be happy lah. and she told me to button it and adjust it upwards more. i was like so fed up and asked her back 'can take off already right?' then she was like 'um........ yeah, i think so since it`s after school hours.' and so i walked off and she said 'i rather you take it off now.' then later i went out staffroom there again. and she made me run here run there for her. make me go from staffroom to class back and forth lah. SHIT her. just cos i fell asleep in her lesson, she has to do all these. and she still call stanley to do push-ups right outside staffroom lah. so unreasonable, oh whatever!
later i went for that bloody hell chinese remedial. super boring i tell you. was like doing chemistry worksheet meant for the remedial. do halfway then sleep... sleep and sleep until the pen i was holding on to dropped onto the floor and made a sound. then later continued doing chemistry worksheet until stupid lianglu started dismissing people group by group then only did we go and present. WAHLAO! he`s super unnatural. people got principal come class they don`t even care. they just carry on normally. and he? make us STAY BACK just to 'rehearse'. OI! it`s supposed to be a lesson, not a performance. i didn`t know people need to rehearse for lessons.
hmm yah.. so see how bad a day it was. and tomorrow gotta go clean artshop. and after so many tests we`ve taken, we`ve only received back 1 maths test because this friday, she`s gonna have another test on the EXACT SAME topic again. CRAP! like so totally fed up. life`s screwed. i`m supposed to like study geography on my OWN. the whole of rivers topic and i hope coasts isn`t tested lah. SHIT everything. and how am i exactly gonna do that when i`ve still gotta revise for the upcoming maths test on friday? then my weekend is gonna be occupied with that damn CSS open house thingy on saturday, and sunday there`s CIP whole day.
and now i know why the ALMIGHTY TEACHERS taking secondary 4 classes are complaining to their secondary 3 classes about the state the secondary 4s are in and how unprepared they are for the O levels. that`s simply because every teacher sees the secondary 4s having problems, they spend more time trying to drill things into their heads when it`s already too late. and they end up neglecting the secondary 3s or going too easy on them. in the end, when they are promoted to secondary 4, naturally they`ll suffer. can some DUMB teacher realise this trend RIGHT NOW? instead of proceeding with the complaints and making us people suffer only at secondary 4.
i failed once again @ 6:11:00 pm
Saturday, July 22, 2006
GOSH! left school at 7pm yesterday, then i slept at 8pm plus. seriously couldn`t take it. like i stayed up till late the previous day, because i didn`t want to land myself in trouble. then it appeared all my efforts were wasted. so yeah, yesterday, i slept 11 hours to make up for the pathetic 3 hours of sleep i got the previous day.
feel kinda bad actually. was supposed to decorate class board, or at least i volunteered to. in the end, i did nothing and i just remembered that i left the class in a mess. don`t know what was wrong. i was so looking forward to decorating then i didn`t have any ideas and totally no plan. now, the class is in a really big mess, all thanks to me.
i hate this kinda life. during weekdays, i`ve gotta stay till late to rush out all my homework etc. then weekends, there`s absolutely nothing i can do. oh well, but this weekend... i have to revise for a maths common test, physics SPA for O-levels, e maths class test 2.
yesterday`s PE was disrupted again. i think the school`s just so unfair. so ridiculous, can`t they spare a thought for us? the school is like depending on those 9 subject classes to get 9 A1s for them and to make the school proud, and yet they`re there doing really ridiculous stuffs. like making us stay till 1:30pm on fridays just cos of that additional reading period on wednesdays. and the school is always eating into friday reading periods, which make us lose our PE time. it`s like so crap. whatever! there they are wanting us to do them proud, and they are treating us in a totally shitty way.
okay.. i don`t really know what happened yesterday. but i know it wasn`t a good day for everyone.
so yes, PE was affected once again.
then during geography, mr G gave us the time to do our groupwork, supposedly till 9:10am, which in the end was until 9:30am. desiree and i were struggling to get everything done and pasted up, with metinee helping us to paste. kinda irritating that many people were disturbing us. and yeah, thru this project, i dare to say it revealed many bad points of other group members, which made each other unhappy and angry. i wasn`t really, but i was kinda affected.
later, i didn`t know what happen during social studies. was doing my e maths remedial worksheet. had to rush out the whole thing because i already saw margaret loh in school that day.
after recess was maths, kinda okay bah.. was e maths. started on simple trigonometry ratios, which i believe is also behind other classes. then majority of us were like damn-ing this and that when the office staff came to tell us to report to the hall @ 12.30pm because mrs yip wanna meet the secondary 3 cohort.
supposedly CME, but everyone was stoning in class before proceeding, or if not, busy complaining about the stupid sudden arrangement which is gonna deprive us of another lesson again, like as if we haven`t got enough of these rubbish. then on the way to CME, don`t know what happened actually. people were unhappy, angry.. this and that. by the time we reached, it was half gone. then later 12:30pm that ruth didn`t want to dismiss us despite our numerous notices to her. was like super irritating lah. we still got lessons on okay! and she`s keeping us there with her, not letting us go, complaining about this and that, saying we`re how many minutes late for her lesson and not even thinking about us always being 15 minutes late for other lessons because of her. oh whatever.
rushed back to class for geography and in the end, all that was in vain cos G wasn`t even in class yet. then our group was the first to present, that was why we were all so fed up in the morning. G at first said he`ll give us time till 9:10am and then we`ll go present. that was why we were all rushing. it`s so super unfair. for our group, none of the things we presented actually came from the textbook at all okay! the 10 of us all had to do research, totally without touching the textbooks because the textbook stuffs only cover the damn information for those other 3 groups which presented after us even though they can well find their information from that damn textbook. or at least they can read up the textbook to check their information if it`s reliable, and for our group? we have to check against other resources okay! and all of the other groups only did the processes and models only. for us? we didn`t do model, but we found a clip which i`m totally clueless as to why G didn`t show to the class. no idea how much trouble i had sending it to school and causing that stupid computer in school to spoil. then we had to find information on 1 - problems of rivers, 2 - uses of rivers, 3 - uses of dams, 4 - problems of dams, 5 - construction of dams, 6 - case study of aswan high dam, 7 - case study on three gorges dam and 8 - types of dams. get a life lah. like our group only has 1 more people than other groups and we have to split 8 things among 11 of us. plus we have to present even before the other groups which i`m not sure if they were having extra time to touch up their time during our presentation. i actually stayed till 2plus the previous day to do all this lah. CRAP! and the other groups only need to do 1 - bloody models and 2 - processes of landforms. or better still, take it that they`ve 3 things to do, plus 3 - the types of landforms in each course. they only have 3 things to do, super fairly distributed among 10 people for 3 groups, and we have to come up with 8 things among 10 people. or just make it 9, since we found video too. DAMN IT! we only got 1 more people and we`re doing thrice the work. then G still commented that our info were too wordy. OI, get a life lah.. what does he want exactly? other groups can easily find the pictures on those landforms but our group? okay, fair that we can find pictures of aswan high dam and three gorges dam and types of dam. but tell me how are you gonna come up with plastic boards full of pictures on problems of dams, construction of dams, problems of rivers, uses of rivers and uses of dams lah? plus theirs are processes, which sure has limited words lah. you can`t expect 3 pages answers for 1 sub-question in O levels Geography right? then ours? firstly, there are many different types of problems and uses. and we`re supposed to do it broad-based, not focusing on only a few areas okay. like how can he blame us for the wordy things? unless he wants us to only come up with things like earth dams, masonry dams, gravity dams without explanations on what are those lah. second, since we`re doing case study, it`s like all aspects of the 2 dams lah. he can`t expect us to give only half the information right? plus we`ve summarised lor. third, we`re doing on construction of dams. there are like a million steps to do lah.. and he`s complaining that it`s wordy. what the heck? if we miss out only 1 single step in the construction of the dam, i tell you you`re gonna make a great loss okay! and if he`s really that great, why not he go do the slides and teach us? he`s only taught us those simple things like hydrological cycles and hydrographs those type. and this kinda landforms, processes thing... he leave it to us to do it. then he`s kept all the boards with him, and like how are we supposed to know what`s the contents of other groups? CRAP!
supposedly dismissed already, 1h later than other classes. but we waited and waited for that dua pai vice principal to come and talk to us about some stupid nonsensical stuffs to hold us back for another 20 minutes before we can even leave the school yet.
and actually, we`re not lagging behind only for PE. it`s like all other subjects too. or most. like chemistry practicals, we had so much lab lessons that time cos we were trying to catch up with other classes. then now, ms liao is complaining about her thursday lessons being eaten up by ruth. now, we only have like 1 day of chemistry theory and 1 day of chemistry practical each week. and that another half an hour is like just admiring the teacher or doing whatever we want to. and ms liao still say she wanna stop teaching mole concept... our a maths and e maths are lagging behind other classes too. and they`ve got much more practice than our class because they have 1 more period than us. and somemore, all our maths class test, be it a maths or e maths, is always only half an hour, no longer than that. then geography, as i`ve already stated the problem above. for combined humanities i don`t know. all i know was that we completed the SS secondary 3 chapter 7 in 1h by watching 5 or 6 short clips. and do you think i learnt anything actually? i just can`t stand the way things are going.
today was CIP orientation and i was late. or in fact, the latest to reach. so i guess, everyone was waiting for me. and i walked there because someone told me there`s no need to run. and well, i actually ran all the way to the bus-stop from home lah.. orientation was quite okay actually, especially since we`ve got ourselves free admission into science center with the help of CIP. HAHA! then after that, i stayed till almost 1pm then went out. couldn`t find anything to eat so i decided to go home.
then now i`m home lor. mother`s gone to malaysia again lah. GREAT! now my meagre allowance per month covers my weekend food expenses too. CRAP! like maybe $2 for meals on weekdays in school will sum up to $40 already. and around $6 during weekends would add up to $48 already. then i still need to cover my own transportation to anywhere i go, say at the least $5 per month. and how about stationery? and school stuffs? like how am i to survive with only $100 per month? unless you wanna see me starve to death. next year`s gonna be worse. transportation itself will already by almost $28. food will already be $88. and you can see that i don`t even include spendings on super unnecessary stuffs like albums or whatever. it`s all because i can`t afford them at all while i still hear others bragging about having financial difficulties yet they are owning things like MP3 and branded stuffs. i hate to hear or see this kinda situations lah.. it`s super irritating can!
and i`m getting so damn pissed off with ruth already. totally can`t stand her. every time i go to meet her, she tells us to do some other things. first, she commented the pegs were nice and wanted us to make more. then, she told us to paint the pebbles for the paperweight. later, she told us to make those beetle things. then, she wants us to make those metallic bookmarks. now, she wants us to paint on some stupid board supposedly meant for GCE O-levels Art and cut it to sell. OI! please lah.. other groups are like already doing those things and focusing on what they wanna do, producing more and more already. we? NOTHING! everything we did halfway then she come and interfere. i`m totally pissed off lah. she said she let us decide what we wanna do, and now she`s stopping us. like what the heck! everything`s so disorganised. then she still can forget about the school open house thing lah! so which means we`re only gonna discuss it this coming tuesday, which is exactly the week of the open house. and exactly how are we gonna get the volunteers? in the first place, there`s projects showcase and how will we ever know who`s free and who`s not and come up with the namelist within a few days? it`s like totally CRAP! i think then, i would have to wear my art club tee and throw my face totally, because it`s like right in front of the HOD room lah. and the bluesky stage is most probably where the performing arts will perform. plus ruth still wanna display those chairs that can`t be sold out. and also those sungei buloh tiles that weren`t sent to be displayed there. can`t she think of something better? instead of showcasing previous years stuff and throwing our face by making us sit there representing those not-so-nice works? and she`s crazy. she said wanna put it in HOD room on friday for convenience. wahlao! convenient for her but not for the HODs lah. imagine people tripping over this and that and whatever. please lor! HOD is not as spacious as art room lor. and now i actually wonder why HOD room is like super super small compared to art studio. so now what? those that are supposed to be leading the club hasn`t come up with anything for the carnival, hasn`t come up with a plan for the open house. GREAT! and somemore, this tuesday we gotta clean the 2 artshops. seriously fed up with her lah. expects everyone to do this and that at the last minute. then she still say bad things about others to us. like that person show attitude, that person slack, that person pon whatever. it`s not like i don`t show attitude to her also lah. don`t even know why in the first place i landed myself in such a damn CCA. i`m really really praying that she`s not moving to the RV site with us next year january or i`ll just die of over-ruth during the holidays. can`t imagine how we`re gonna come back during holidays to help her clear her stupid CRAP of god-knows-how-many-years.
i failed once again @ 8:37:00 am
Tuesday, July 18, 2006
chemistry SPA die liao lah!
so super sad lor. and i seriously think i`m suay.
my universal indicator thingy got problem one lah. it`s like if you measure, less than 0.5cm of it in the bottle lor. then the stupid dropper in it was like spoilt one lor. in the end, i just anyhow do.
then my Y and Z like same things lah? their pH supposed to be different but the solution became the same lah.
CRAP ah!
can`t say too much. think got people haven`t take yet...
today came home late also. around 7pm.
then saw G, i was like panicking. but then he didn`t talk to me.
think he thinks i`m bu shuang him bah..
especially today during his lesson. haix...
hmm.. later saw ms liao. like so surprised she so late go home lor.
then she almost ran her car over a cat, and that cat slow reaction!
HAHA! and G was like saying 'move, move, move!'
then tomorrow need go find ROOF again. GRR!
i`m like so excited to clean the artshop next tuesday.
cos it means don`t need to see ROOF!
oh yeah. latimer wants our classroom to be decorated and clean.
to think i actually helped sweep the floor that day.
i purposely stayed back to sweep lor. did anyone realise the class was suddenly so neat and clean overnight? i bet no one did. everyone took it for granted lah.
how i wish i can be part of the team decorating the class...
i failed once again @ 8:05:00 pm
Monday, July 17, 2006
haix..
i feel i shouldn`t stay till too late anymore.
think i ought to go home earlier everyday.
the teachers are like all starting to call me go back earlier lor.
but i think i just got this problem bah. just keep wanna stay in school.
though i think i really ought to return home earlier.
maybe you people should start forcing me to go home earlier lah.
then today...
first was caught by those 2 security guards.
later night study, ms liao call me go home earlier.
followed by mdm quek asking whether i staying.
and lastly, G asking me why i`m still in school.
seriously think i should go home earlier lah.
it`s not that i hate G or anything. but everytime he comes bouncing towards me, i`ll just look elsewhere pretending i don`t know...
then i`ll like only go off after he says that... seems like he`s forcing me go home.
but he must force me to go home at an earlier time!
just now saw ms liao marking our test already...
gotta research on geography.
hope i will go home earlier tomorrow, whether forced by friends, or by teachers...
by hook or by crook, i hope someone can make me go home earlier please.
haix.. i don`t want the teachers asking me why i`m still in school all the time then i`ll start giving dumb excuses like 'oh i`m leaving now..'
maybe G should come check me and ensure i go home early everyday, cos he`s the only one that when i see, then i`ll really start leaving. don`t know why though.. perhaps cos he`s asked me too many times already.
oh, and shucks! tomorrow got chemistry SPA.
hope i don`t get any procedures wrong.
i`m just scared.
I REALLY NEED SOMEONE TO FORCE ME TO GO HOME EARLY EVERYDAY!!
i failed once again @ 8:09:00 pm
Sunday, July 16, 2006
was so terrified by a giant cockroach at 2am plus.
lately, there are many insects roaming in my room, at night somemore.
then scaring me by making noises in the middle of the night.
especially that time, i got into bed already, then heard something at the blinds there.
and after so long, like something came shooting towards me.
i don`t know what it was, cos all lights off already and it was dark lah.
all i know it was disturbing my sleep by making irritating noises.
then just now 2am plus, i switched on my room lights and heard some weird noises.
later i went into my room and realise there`s a cockroach.
actually, i decided to like smack it or whatever, like just kill it. but in the end, i decided against it.
the cockroach was really gigantic okay! and i see it`s super long feelers moving about i was scared already lor.
i didn`t go and measure lah, but from what i remember, the feelers is roughly about 7 to 7.5cm long!!! what the heck!
and mrs terrence say we shouldn`t be scared of cockroaches cos we`re like a million times larger than them. but i totally disagree okay!
1st, that`s 1 of the largest cockroaches i`ve ever seen.
2nd, it`s like freaking me out by making noises in the silent dark.
3rd, compare me and the cockroach. i suppose i`m just an average-sized human being. but the cockroach is like a gigantic one if you compare with other cockroaches.
this morning, woke up, don`t know where it went.
just now went to play around with my brother`s casio calculators.
don`t know how to operate it. HAHA! don`t know how to use the functions.
and i realised there`s like alot of calculators at home.
my brother`s got 2 or 3 scientific calculators, i`ve got 2.
then my mother`s got probably 5 of those normal calculators.
-.-
oh, and my family is so interesting.
my father left a note on the COMPUTER TABLE for me.
giving me lame information like they`re going malaysia, which i`ve already know.
and their contact numbers, which i already know too.
then below, my father added 'please finish all the bread.'
super lame lah! the note is like so redundant. and at least put it on my table in my room instead of the stupid computer table lah...
i was like laughing away at the stupidity of the note when i saw it.
they`re telling me things i`m not interested in. rather, i wanna know when they`re coming back.
and my blur mother almost brought my spectacles to malaysia just now!
i`ve got lots of strange dreams. really really strange. things that would never happen but i wish would. LOL...
i failed once again @ 12:20:00 pm
Saturday, July 15, 2006
today revised chemistry in school.
HAHA! like the first time i`m worried for a chemistry test.
not counting examinations lah..
and i seriously hate this computer lah.
no ms word, ms powerpoint, excel, whatever.
all i can use is a pathetic notepad or wordpad.
i swear i ain`t gonna use those kinda programs!
my flash and dreamweaver also gone, and i don`t wanna go risking it to find another crack code lah..
as for those other programs which i have installation disc, i`m just plain lazy to go install.
planning to sleep late tonight, or rather early next morning.
wanna get down to TYS practices.
and tomorrow i can have peace revising too.
cos parents going malaysia and brother`s in NS.
so i`m alone at home again. but i`m broke already.
i still owe my mother like $20 for the art materials.
waiting to claim from that old hag, who says like she`ll give us back after carnival earnings.
CRAP! so how we gonna progress without any materials?
haix..
though it`s merely a few months left in our class, but i seriously hope like maybe a group can stay back and decorate the room some day.
the class is looking so plain and dull.
and filled with study materials, answer keys, administrative matters etc.
TYPICAL classroom, how boring can it get...
HAHA! i`m like happy? cos i realise i don`t have that much problem with state symbols as like before i consulted ms liao that time.
and i more or less can memorise solubility table le.. or rather, i find it quite easy lor.
now, i need to memorise the valency of those ions. roughly know a few only...
yeah, gonna really study hard. must give it my best.
and it`s so funny how some teachers think i`m like so guai kia type.
think they just haven`t seen the real me yet.
maybe i should just remain quiet and submit work on time. LOL!
oh, and to continue acting 'hardworking student who seldom uses computer'.
hmm.. seems a bit coincidental leh.
yesterday, someone was like 'promoting' casio calculators.
and saying 'i still prefer casio calculators. i find them better.'
today, my couz`s calculator spoilt when she dropped onto floor.
HAHA!
haven`t receive my schedule yet.
when`s my next shift?
i think probably on monday during the O levels listening comprehension.
since i`ll be the only one that`s able to take that shift.
-.-
PS.
don`t ask me go popular this month!
or at least not until i receive next month`s allowance.
i`m already broke for this month, okay?
and if i going popular, i gotta replenish my stuffs.
i need to buy foolscap, correction tape and maybe pens again.
i need lessons on money management and time management!
i failed once again @ 10:19:00 pm
Friday, July 14, 2006
today is the day!
everything completely changed, for the better.
and it was a 180degrees change.
hmm.. i must blog everything in detail.
to commemorate this super great day!
okay.. school was just as normal.
out of G`s 4 periods today, we wasted 1 period arriving in class.
he seriously doesn`t like ruth. he's always different when talking about her.
HAHA! and 'marvel' at her weird ideas and thoughts.
maths was super boring, went thru many questions only.
PE was fun, cos sorta like stand in the rain. super cool.
then i starting to enjoy running, cos i never run then stop halfway anymore.
think that`s because we`ve learnt the newton`s laws, though i seriously suck at physics theory.
humanities was fun. we did family tree. lazy to do. so i drew a TREE.
then kokila commented on my blank family tree, so i started filling in.
metinee`s family is really super bombastic and funny. the way she say those things.
then i was like one of those to present. and yes, i pronounced 'deceased' as 'diseased'.
during CME, our whole group were sleeping and playing only.
i`m starting to enjoy the economics lessons on topic 4 now. cos of G`s interest in that job which starts with P. so funny.
after school went out for lunch. then came back school, saw wenqian, primary school friend.
like so coincidental. but it was like she called me, then i noticed one.
then later revising for chemistry common test in canteen. alot distractions.
waited and waited for couz to be dismissed from art elective lor.
keep waiting for her to sms me, but someone else sms-ed me instead.
don`t wanna say who it is, a bit dangerous, not supposed to tell.
hmm.. later go 2/4 consult ms liao on chemistry. at first is with her alone.
then suddenly my couz and ray shouted 'marina bay' and came in.
and ms liao commented they were so noisy. and told me don`t get distracted by them.
the 2 of them started drawing on the whiteboard, and ms liao like stopped them.
HAHAHA! too bad for them. then was like 1 part ms liao confused me.
in the end, it was her mistake. and she started laughing and laughing.
her ringtone is so cute, a nursery rhyme or something. then her message alert was like doorbell.
then her conversation with someone was so damn funny. and got 1 time, she was like giggling when someone sms-ed her.
and she`s like super curious. can`t help laughing. cos the 3rd storey male toilet and chemistry lab, in between there, got an open space where water always drips. and because there was heavy rain in the morning, the water dripping was loud. she noticed it and said 'why ah?' and popped her head out to see. LOL! like so cute or funny lah.. can`t stand her.
later she came back from staffroom, and threatened to confiscate couz`s phone.
and she continued teaching them. while i was half dreaming, half doing chemistry.
not focused lah. until my pencil fell to the floor did i become a bit more focused.
after that, i think ms liao left around 6plus. and she said 'don`t mess up the class.'
HAHA! after she left, we were like, the class is already a bit messy what...
but i was kinda surprised, their class very few people leave their stuffs under tables lor.
hmm.. after that went staffroom cos ray wanna hand in things.
and we just bumped into ms liao there again, so we walked down with her and she went sign out.
then we stood at the road there again, like wanna let her chuang wo men, but she avoided us instead. so funny.
yeah, then later went out school there accompany them eat dinner, while i drank milo and asked my 1st source about chemistry questions. then was like explain halfway and my couz went 'G leh'.. i thought it was fake one lah so i ignored. then later he bounced to us. and he asked 'what are you all doing here?' the 2 of them got reasons lah.. but i no reason, so i purposely look down. then i said like i`m asking them lor.. later my couz was asking him some geography things. then he`s like cute? so funny lah. he opened his crumpler bag and closed it and exclaimed that he`s lazy to take out the stuffs. like if he`s lazy, what`s he opening and closing his bag for? and he was like curious why i`m so close to them. so he asked us. then my couz said 'couz'. then G was super blur, caused by us. so he walked off to buy a copy of the useless newpaper and came back. then he asked me why i`m so close with them. so i said 'couz lor.' and he kept going 'what?' then my couz said 'c-o-u-z' and G was like asking what`s that. so my couz said it`s a word, found in 'marina bay dictionary'. then G asked me like exactly how i`m related. so after being so tired of saying couz, i said they`re my seniors. then G was like, why are you close to them only? there are other seniors around. and my couz said 'why? you mean we`re not good?' or something like that. HAHA! and G said like 'no.. and continued probing.' so my couz told him 'she from our CCAs.' and G was like super blur already. so i told him 'i from her CCA change to her CCA.' and G gave me that blur blur face like as if i can`t change CCA. then i was like 'i changed CCA lah.' LOL! then later don`t know talk what. and G said we`re interesting before he left. then his hair was like bouncing and bouncing lor.
later i went home too.
and started blogging?
yes, so today was a super good day.
cos of all the things that happened.
the positive things. excluding CME lessons.
Q: 'is it empty?'
A: 'no it is filled with tables and chairs.'
HAHA! that`s what you get for asking lame questions.
i failed once again @ 7:35:00 pm
Thursday, July 13, 2006
i`m finally back on the net.
after my computer died on me, followed on by my IE.
all my ever so damn precious files are gone, cos i reformatted it.
so far... many things went wrong.
but somehow, i wasn`t angry or too pissed at all.
sort of managed to look on the other side.
and seriously, millions of thing got screwed up, everything went wrong, and it was a very very bad time.
but overall, it wasn`t as bad as last time because everything something goes wrong, a small little thing happens to make me feel a tiny bit better.
monday`s chemistry common test already.
and how great that i just got confused totally by ms liao yesterday.
damn good lor. and she never teach finish somemore.
really a million things happened, but i just can`t remember.
like i said, it`s a million of them...
- yeah, including being 'chased out' of school by teachers. i think more teachers are knowing me already.
- then a very thick skin teacher, who so happened to be my CM for 2 consecutive years already, made me greet him when i see him today.
- monday was the worst day. but i got a big surprise. and i accidentally used my phone like in front of ms teo and mr g, lucky they didn`t see, or so i think.
- today also, my right index finger po pi, as in the skin tore? don`t know why, but i hope it`s worth it.
- my father`s listening to some super irritating hokkien songs every night.
- my damn phone`s got some idiotic problems, and that may cause me to keep calling people accidentally.
- i was like malu in chemistry lab that day for not checking the stuffs properly, and adding non-stop to make some super weird solution on accident, which ms liao took up and see and observe but kept quiet about.
the list actually still goes on, just that i can`t remember.
now, history are like story-telling lessons to me. and so i don`t pay attention. i just sleep and heck care. bring my book and i don`t use it at all, cos i wasn`t interested.
then i was like so ..... in chemistry that day too.
also got that day G made me super blur when he told me to collect geography files first, then later told me to collect economics files and geography workbooks again.
then i ended up making his 4/6 box dented by throwing the workbooks into his pigeon hole. and blocking his whole pigeon hole with the 4 boxes. oh yes, it was so damn funny how he managed to lug those 5 boxes to class that day.
the class has been super dirty recently, due to file checks and everything`s so chaotic.
and G seems to be like so so interested to tell us more about prostitutes.
oh yeah, and ms liao did something to her hair. highlight or whatever, it seems really strange and weird to me now. that shade is so damn special??
and my very interesting partner has made so many observations about teachers which make me realise so many stuffs. and the facts are like so cool!
also, sitting in that current seat, i`m like dreaming or not really focusing. but i still got listen in class.
chemistry SPA is like on next tuesday, so fast.
which is like crap. i mean real shitty crap.
monday is chemistry common test.
tuesday is chemistry SPA. hope i don`t do wrong things lor. chemistry lab, i always seem to fail all the experiments, none ever succeed or very very few.
then physics SPA is on 24 july.
many many things upcoming.
alot things to be tied down with.
oh yeah, physics lab sucks that much.
everytime it`s practical test.
and damn surprisingly, i passed all the test.
satisfied with all the results i get.
but BAD news is that it most probably won`t be counted lah.
crap ar.
then that time chemistry lab super lousy.
our area was flooded with water cos of leak.
bad facilities.
our class seriously terrible in chemistry lab lessons.
break so many things.
and that time i broke a spatula too, but didn`t report.
didn`t know need to report or not... LOL!
i failed once again @ 9:04:00 pm
Sunday, July 02, 2006
- English Articles [in need of 4 more; but around 15 more to do]
- Economics Articles [in need of 2 more]
- E Maths WS [this is killing the hell out of me]
- Geography: Weathering [gonna get down to this soon]
- CME Reflections [not much of a problem, just that i can`t really remember what`s it that she wants]
- English Comprehension Exercise
- Geography TYS [should be finished easily, only to refine my answers]
- Chinese Green Book [almost done; HURRAY!]
- A Maths TYS
- E Maths TYS
- Maths Project Follow-up [another meeting tomorrow]
- English File
- Economics File
- Geography File
- Social Studies File
- History File
LOL! gonna be such hectic days for me...
i just watched initial D.
my mother`s back, my father`s out.
my brother and my mother are both sleeping.
and when was the last time 4 of us have been at home together?
i`m really yearning to go out.
maybe even to IMM, to go Daiso, with a purpose.
wanna go JP, but i can`t, bet to go broke, with the fact my father hasn`t given me my allowance this month yet.
in need to go somewhere; i can`t be cooped up at home for 72hours straight.
PLEASE!
really wishing i can get myself an Apple Macbook.
oh, what a dream! doubt i can even get it.
but this computer`s really gonna die on me.
it took half an hour to start up.
and when i say it, i seriously mean it.
this is already becoming the normal procedures already.
it auto-restarted like 10 times; went blank for thrice i suppose.
i`m plain lazy to count it already.
badly need something else to replace this old crap.
hope i can get one after Os, well, i mean if i can land myself a part-time job and earn some money, and my mother allows the purchase too.
and meanwhile, let`s just hope this malfunctioning machine would last me out, at least till i graduate.
i failed once again @ 4:56:00 pm
Saturday, July 01, 2006
third post of the day.
alone at home, currently.
this is so so so boring.
some changes since school reopened.
1 - mr G is our geography teacher now. which i`m seriously not at all happy about.
2 - seating plan`s changed. to me, it`s still acceptable. just that the row i`m in may be too melodious at times due to the fact that 7 out of 11 people are from choir. yes! i guess no matter where i sit, i`ll get a free radio.
3 - physics lab is mdm quek and mr chua, no longer mr chng. and the even numbers kena mr chua, something which i`m totally not looking forward to.
4 - we`re having reading period on wednesday with the other classes in the school. yes yes, no more 7:30am lessons on wednesdays. but luckily, it`s only on 1 day. i wouldn`t stand it if it were 2 days.
5 - lessons end at 1:30pm on fridays. oh, and that`s so great! i hate this arrangement totally.
6 - the new timetable indicates that chemistry lab and physics lab lessons both fall on the same day, which is tuesday. oh, what a great schedule we`ve got. at least, 1 is before recess and the other is after recess.
7 - we`ll be seeing mr gerald for 2h on fridays for economics and geography. oh, marvellous! and yes, why can`t one of it be changed to thursday pretty please? you know how super bored it gets to see the same teacher shouting and blabbering at the top of his voice for 2h. fortunately, it`s 1h before recess and 1h after recess. thank goodness!
8 - on wednesdays, we`ll be seeing mr gerald for 1h after recess, half hour for geography and half hour for economics. who`s the clever one that came up with this timetable? i bet he`s gonna have a hard time switching from geography to economics then.
looks like things ain`t going my way yet.
hoping for a wind of change. please please!
oh yes, i`m pretty pissed.
my mother called back from malaysia just now to ask for my father.
and i told my father to take the call... but he was asking who it was and delaying.
so while waiting for him to pick the call somewhere else, i asked my mother where she was.
what totally switched me off was that she didn`t reply my question, shouted thru the phone to tell me to faster call my father and ignored me.
then by the time my father picked up the phone, my mother hung up already.
this is super annoying. i swear i`m never gonna get sandwiched between 2 adults again.
and later my mother called, and apparently, my mother was asking my father to buy 4D.
okay, enough said, i`m super pissed off lah.
a stupid 4D is like way more important than your idiotic daughter right?
yeah, just let it be the way it is. who cares anyway?
and i just feel super lonely and bored and alone.
i think my new blogskin seriously fits me.
when was i never alone? when was i never bored? when was i never lonely?
i guess, the answer is: HARDLY EVER!
just damn jealous of my neighbour.
like every month, they have an extended family tree gathering.
so lively, so warm, so noisy, so cosy.
like in my dreams would that even happen.
there`s no point and there`s no meaning.
but right now, i have no time to care about such stuffs.
let it be the way it is then.
you don`t care about me, i don`t care about you.
i`m only gonna damn care about my studies.
and i thought today was a good start...
yet all went wrong and i`m left alone again.
oh yeah. btw, i did a lame thing just now.
i read thru my april and may entries to find out and help me recall if i`ve passed my NAPFA test. ><>
the physics quiz thing is super thick.
printed 1 copy not for me. it`s like 18 pages.
now, i`ve ran out of paper.
no more printing business for the time-being.
i owe my couz [however much it costs for a McDonalds Fillet-O-Fish Student Meal] and my brother owes me $10. so hopefully, i`m not broke yet.
i failed once again @ 9:47:00 pm
YAY! =]
finally i got myself a new blogskin.
now i`m gonna do my work then.
oh god, please let this be an enjoyable weekend for me.
i guess half the secondary 3 cohort are at the national stadium now.
for the SYF opening ceremony. HAHA!
lucky me, i got away with it.
my register no. 4 was the fourth to be drawn.
but then it clashed with CIP which was later changed again.
now i`ve got plenty of time to myself to do whatever i want.
so far, the day`s been good as it seems.
i hope youthday may turn out to be even better.
3 days cooped up at home can get boring at times.
i failed once again @ 4:35:00 pm
3 day weekend.
hopefully it turns out to be good.
i`ve wasted too much time this week in school already.
and how great it can be.
to wake up to find that i`m alone at home once again.
my father`s gone to work, as normal.
and my mother`s off to malaysia.
well, at least i wasn`t too lonely.
cos we did some follow-up for maths project.
i remember that night, a scary one.
took a nap, and woke up at 12plus am.
then i wanted to get out of bed.
moved my right arm, at first, i could move it.
i raised it, but it hit the bed.
then, i tried to move it again.
it wouldn`t budge, was like so scared.
just couldn`t move at all.
decided to move everything away with my left hand.
then i left my right arm there, and got out of bed with the help of my left hand.
dragged my right arm out of bed, then tried massaging it.
slowly, it was able to move again, and i was relieved.
had to get down to homework.
then i realised my green pencil was missing.
went round the whole house searching in vain.
almost wanted to give up. but decided to give a last try at the newspapers there.
flipped thru a whole stack of newspapers and finally found it.
so lucky.
i`ve got alot to do and catch up with this weekend.
- English Articles
- Economics Articles
- SS Article
- English Vocabulary Exercises
- E Maths WS
- A Maths TB
- Geography: Weathering
- CME Reflections
- English Comprehension Exercise
- Geography TYS
- Chinese Green Book
- A Maths TYS
- E Maths TYS
- Maths Project Follow-up
- English File
- Economics File
- Geography File
- Social Studies File
- History File
time for me to enjoy;
xD >.<
i failed once again @ 12:18:00 pm
