Friday, August 18, 2006
been feeling sick these few days, even today still. and i feel so guilty, my mother has been washing my uniform for me the past few days too. i feel so bad.
was feeling very very bad this morning. i skipped PE, and i realised i was sitting directly under the fan, bitterly cold! then i shifted until where there was totally no fan, but it was still cold. and finally, back to class for geography. thought it would be better, but instead it was worst. i felt so giddy and nauseous actually. wasn`t actually paying much attention in class. mr G was apologising for not teaching us properly and preparing us for the geography common test. great, now there`s sure gonna be maths and humanz remedial next wednesday. actually, he shouldn`t blame it fully on himself. partly, it`s our fault for not studying and revising too. but anyway, i really feel he didn`t teach that chapter properly. but the coasts chapter, i could still understand, so it`s not that bad.
later social studies i was studying for economics test. always never pay attention in her lesson one...
then recess. OMG! as i was walking back to class after changing, i was along the biology lab corridor, and i could clearly hear what mr G was saying in 1/8. what the heck! and we were discussing about how he can go try break guiness world record for this.
maths was quite okay. then she returned binomial theorem written work, i was quite surprised she did corrections for me. cos i remember that time i was one of those who didn`t handed in on time and was standing up, and she was like quite angry with me and said i was adding to the pile. i`m starting to feel she`s so good. HAHA! maths is no longer boring lessons for me. yesterday during lessons was so cool. she purposely walked up to me and asked me what happened to me. then i said i was sick so didn`t go remedial. and she asked if i was very sick. then i said yes. she asked if i`ve started on the remedial worksheet already then i sincerely told her no. i was expecting her to maybe be a bit unhappy but instead she was smiling and calling me to take my own time to complete it. and still tell me to look for her next wednesday if i have any problems. she`s just so good!
during economics test, mr G was treating the class as his circus and he was being a clown, trying to distract us. imagine a stupid teacher doing all sorts of dumb things, like showing his phone to the whole class, jumping around, dancing, marching etc. but i just ignored him! yet, it`s still kinda irritating to see a figure moving around and around while you`re attempting a test.
i finally stayed back today, although i wasn`t feeling well. but in the end, quite sad. and so damn embarassing, i asked for 'ms audrey tham'! then i was like 'omg.' and felt like putting down the phone straightaway, luckily she wasn`t around already. later asked mr G, then he said i got 15, but don`t know real or not. it`s like he bounced out of staffroom and i asked him and he just knows. WOW! after that, there were like 5 of us there, when only 2 people are talking. after that, we went to staircase G there sit and laugh at stupid things mr G does. in the end, talk until almost 6:45pm like that then decided to go down. then they were like blocking the way and testing the band people.
and yesterday was so happy. mdm quek was like asking me where`s my ray diagram and i showed her, then she said good. HAHA! but then that made me so happy. i really wanna do well for physics. but i think i`ve made her lose the trust she once had in me already after that time. feel so bad. i`ve been failing physics not because i`m THAT bad in it. rather, it`s because i choose to believe so. i choose to think that i cannot score. i choose to think i`m not good in physics. that`s the only thing keeping me from passing physics.
haix.. so fast the term ending already. i still feel it`s only a few weeks after june holidays only. but well, it`s only 2 more weeks to september holidays. really gotta start working hard, i wanna be promoted to secondary 4. HAHA! and i`m quite disappointed with my terms this term, everything is just so substandard. i failed physics common test. i have many careless mistakes in chemistry common test. i underperformed for my chinese common test. i got a borderline marks for the grade for a maths common test. i`m so slack seriously. what the heck have i been doing?
sicksick. must rest.
i failed once again @ 8:14:00 pm
