Monday, August 21, 2006
haix... don't know why so many things happened, and so many problems existed. and i'm totally disappointed with myself. i know i should be like extremely happy since i got like 2 A1s for the tests we got back today, but so what? it's just evidence of my results slipping. and somemore, both are only borderline A1s. underperforming, doing the worst i could ever be doing. sometimes, i think i really gotta learn the hard way. i don't seem to be able to learn if i've not experienced it, or know the hardships. why must i always do the wrong things first before i can learn? primary school was a complete disaster for me, and now, it still seems like i can't learn the easy way. feeling like breaking down, all my results seriously sucks, and that's because i suck. like exactly how many tests have we taken this term, i'm just so sad to say that i'm happy with none of my results. not even the chemistry, i could have gotten better if not for stupid mistakes. maybe that's the only result i can be proud of and happy about, but i'm so ashamed because it's just mistakes! and all the other tests are done so badly... how much more failures do i have to go thru first? i know what to expect when i receive the term 3 progress report next week. things like failing physics, becoming a norm for me when i'm a physics student. then all i can ever say is that i took physics cos i cannot choose biology if i want economics, what kinda excuse is that? maybe 9 subjects wasn't my kinda thing. overly disappointed, i'm numb to everything. when did life revolve round school and studies and results? and why?
i failed once again @ 9:42:00 pm
