Thursday, November 23, 2006
somehow, i pity the artclub vice-chairman.
here's her story she told me today...
around 1030am, there was a phone call. she received the phone call and was shouting into the phone like a maniac, especially so when she's the only person at home. the caller introduced herself/himself as ms ruth ng and demanded her to go back to school like NOW! so she didn't even have time to bathe and only had a change of clothes then rushed to school. she climbed the 5 storeys all the way to artroom and reported. she was given a job of dry-cleaning all the 15 display stands outside the artroom, albeit there were only 14. as she was cleaning, 1 of the school-employed cleaners asked her for help to carry those stupid artpieces. she had to carry it and walk backwards and be careful not to break it. then, back to dry-cleaning. she said it was disgusting. most of them were rusty, and there were spiders and moth. after she cleaned them, she had to tiptoe so high to clean the tops of many cupboards. after that, she had to drag 1 box of dont-know-what backwards again. i thought she's lucky she didn't fall. after that, it was almost 1pm. she helped the artcoordinator write some stuffs and rushed to 3/3 for english remedial. after she reached home, she cooked herself a very simple meal which was instant noodles. it was already 3pm when she ate her breakfast/lunch/brunch/teabreak. i somehow pity her, holidays still like that. no doubt last time around jan to feb i didn't eat anything for recess or lunch, but that was schooldays. you see, holidays has completely lost its meaning to the artclub vice-chairman. it's like suddenly the whole artclub ps her those type of feeling. she was the only 1 helping while others were already not in singapore or were leaving singapore. only until she almost completed cleaning the 15 stands, that secondary 1 member came to do something, in the luxury of the aircon room somemore!
she saw 2 teachers whom she liked, but didn't even talk, let alone smile. maybe say got talk abit to 1.
she also told me ruthng showed her the plan of the new school building. there's like 8 blocks? block A to block H. then most of the CCA rooms are located in block H, if she didn't remember wrongly. then most of the classrooms were in block D & E or block C & D, but there were a few other classrooms in another block. other than that, she forgot about the other rooms. she may be going back on the 29th of november to help a teacher, i suppose, but from what i heard, ruthng didn't call her back on that day, so she's fortunate even though she's most probably gonna be listening to her instructions again. then, she may be going back to the new school building on either the 5th or 6th of december to find a teacher. let's pray hard together that she doesn't lose her way in the new school building then. also, she's most likely not gonna be free on the 12th of december. well, the date hasn't been confirmed yet. and, she will be MIA from 29th dec all the way till school reopens. so please, no last minute reminders about this & that hopefully.
that day, she also saw the school's pamphlet. on it was written 'concept by gerald ajam', whoever that is im not sure. i think it should be 1 of her teachers. anyway, she said the pamphlet's quite nice? sort of unique because it's round shaped, unlike the usual rectangular shaped types. however, she said that if someone opens up the pamphlet, it's quite long compared to a normal one. but overall, she commented it's quite nice even though she has absolutely no clue why gerald ajam was the person who designed it, instead of that artcoordinator or some other IT personnels in the school.
oh yes, it seems as if there's some competition between the artroom & the library. both are vying to get the title of 'most boxes used for moving'. the library has a record of at least 300, or probably more? while the artroom has at least 270plus...
haven't been to the new school compounds yet and am not planning to too. i shall only find myself in the vicinity of the new school compounds on the 27th of november. im planning to take 176 there, which i suppose by the time it reaches my stop, will be quite packed. so i suppose i gonna be late, given that lady luck is not on my side!
the only thing i heard about the new school is that the classrooms will be 1 and a half times bigger than the ones at the current site. then of course, there'll be more fans for better air circulation. then also heard that there's gonna be the raised platform in front of the classrooms, not sure true or not though. btw, just a note, info found on this site has found to be never 100% accurate.
yes! i completed economics notes last night.
planning to do some chemistry stuffs.
seems like i won't be free on most days.
24nov - english remedial
27nov - school migration
28nov - english remedial
29nov - english remedial
- may be helping teacher
30nov - english remedial
5dec or 6dec - may be finding teacher
12dec - date not confirmed
29dec - hiatus mode
02jan - back in sg
03jan - new academic year
i should be getting my english assessment books either tomorrow or saturday. if tomorrow, i'll go alone. if it's saturday, most probably going with mother. so, that leaves me with 27 days when im free. but 1dec, there's the economics thingy need to go his LJ see and will at least take 1 day to complete the thingy. then, i also need to set aside at least 1 day to pack my stuffs for going to malaysia. so, that leaves me with 25 days to concentrate on studies! i'll take 1 day to catch up with ALL the english & economics news articles. then, at least 3 days to complete all the homework, including chinese. that's down to 21 days. plus 25th dec is christmas so i may or may not be free, depends on everything. then it's down to 20 days! 20 days to complete 4 english assessment books. that may well mean 1 book in 5 days, worst than Barrons. also, i need to study for other subjects too right! and need do practise questions for other subjects too right! so you see how packed this holidays is. frankly speaking, the busiest holidays i've ever had, to the extent i try to my very best to squeeze in time to do this and that. GOSH! can't imagine. but nevermind, after that continuous struggle, within 1 years time, we're all gonna have the whole world of time on our hands. so let's suffer together first & rejoice later. 1 year doesn't seem too long right? it's bearable.
wow.
what a long post!
and is band really not having any overseas trip?
i think im really gonna roll on the floor laughing.
at first, it was australia. it sounded damn cool!
then, it was too expensive. may be changed to thailand.
well.. still okay. at least it's plane trip, even though 2h.
now, no band trip? only band camp?
it's so damn hilarious when i gotta know about it.
but im also not sure if it's true. HAHA!
oh yes, btw speaking of it, im only going to genting. >< go till tired already and still going there. but this time, there's only 7 of us going together. 4 adults, 3 teenagers, 5 females, 2 males. it's gonna be super boring. only 3 of us playing. and my cousin told me it's bcos our parents wanted us to get closer with each other, like how we used to be. it's like so DIAO, seriously. anyway, i can already predict what's gonna happen during those few days. so i shall blog first in case i got no time to blog when i get back cos school will start. so yes, here i go. 29dec night, go to golden mile complex take bus. midnight reach genting. shucks! that means most probably gonna take the old cable car? means squeezing with everyone & no seats! no, i shall hope bus go genting direct in such cases. after that, check in to hotel probably already 4am? then sleep until at least 10am or maybe till 12pm and go for meals. we'll either go bowling or go catch a movie or just shopped around the whole day. then we'll sleep early, probably around 9pm. next day, 30jan, most probably gonna wake up at 6am. then we'll wash up and this & that and by the time, it's 7am we'll go for breakfast until it's 8am when the theme park opens and we'll PLAY! lunchtime, we'll most probably settle for fastfood. then, we shall go for bowling & maybe the indoor rockclimbing? after which we shall go play again until dinner time. then, dinner will most probably be those zhu chao or foodcourt. then play until theme park closes, either 12mn or 1am. after that, we'll go back and bathe and maybe only sleep at 2am? then next day wake up at 6am and the routine continues again until the day we're coming back. it's so standard procedures everytime we go there. 3jan im gonna be super tired and exhausted that i'll most probably be in dreamland while the teachers are coming in one by one and saying 'four-two, this year got O levels, it's a crucial year. you all cannot play like last year anymore..........' also, i'll maybe be dozing off when the principal is making her welcome speech again. i think i'll reach home late on 2jan cos there's bound to be jam.
no time to meet up with primary school friends! damn.
anyway, im so disheartened my mother doesnt allow me to go ACJC! i think i'll be reconsidering entering a poly. it's not that bad afterall. even if i go JC, i'll suffer like hell cos of GP what. at most, i'll just give up my interest of economics and go pursue chemistry, whatever courses available, in poly. i really don't wanna go JJC or PJC lah. just cause my damn brother went to SAJC and complained about the christian stuffs and that he did badly for his As until cannot retain and cannot go U then can only go poly and waste his 2 years of JC, then my mother dont want me to go ACJC bcos she thinks it's only for the rich. i thought education in singapore is not only for higher-income families? since secondary 2 or around there, i've been aiming to go ACJC and now, i know my dreams of entering that JC is gonna be shattered. what's the point of slogging my guts out and studying so hard? my brother is like totally different from me can! he used to be smart ass in primary school that's why my parents just think he's forever smart. and im always the stupid one. then my brother got 252 for PSLE, inclusive of the hmt bonus. i got 246 but i dont take hmt cos i dont qualify for EM1. so i came to commonwealth secondary. 2 times different people has asked why i dont go bphgs, but i think it would be like hell if i go there. my parents will most probably say so stupid still go there or give comments of this sort. then my brother entered commonwealth secondary special stream while i entered express stream only. after secondary 1, i was given chance to take higher mother tongue but i decided not to. after secondary 2, i told my mother the streaming results. my brother heard it and he was saying take 9 subjects so what? economics no use one. in fact, many of my relatives were against me taking economics, they say i will fail badly and stuffs like that. at the end, i got those kinda results for MYE and EOY. then my mother compared with my 2 other cousins, 1 from RVHS, the other from PRCSS. RVHS overall % got 69 and L1R5 was 13. PRCSS overall % was 70 and L1R5 was 14. my mother was saying im so lousy and stuffs like that even though our L1R5 same. then that day she called me i told her my position thru phone she don't even wanna believe. she say if like that, then it must be commonwealth secondary very lousy. i just feel so sad. it's so super hard for me to prove my worth. i got those awards but so what? my brother keeps saying he was supposed to get for primary 4 but he forgot the date then didn't go CC take. then my mother helped him by saying it's all because he entered special stream. if he go express stream, he sure will get. like what the heck! go commonwealth secondary express stream really very lousy meh? just cos my term 1 results... it's like what the heck! i think many teachers probably changed their impressions of me already but my family just cant. earlier this year, mrs loh told joanna to coach me in maths. but so what? when she gave me back my EOY e maths p2, she said it helped me pull up alot. some teachers also said abit positive comments. but my parents? my mother was telling my relatives that i have no heart in studying. if i really 100% study, then i will get even better results. no doubt about it, but she didn't see that for semester 2, i really struggled alot just for that. it's so discouraging! it's like i told her different school different standards what. and she say RUBBISH! what the heck! it's like RVHS cousin's results can fit into top 25% of cohort. it's quite good lah, given that it's RVHS! then PRCSS cousin's results can fit into top 25% of cohort, please loh, it's just neighbourhood school. then me, just nicely fit into top 10% of cohort. but so what? she thinks the PRCSS one who got 70% overall and fit into top 25% of a neighbourhood is still better than me and the RVHS one. it's like bloody hell. our L1R5 still the same right? she go what JC is use overall percentages instead of L1R5 one? somemore, both of them taking triple science and im taking triple humanities. is there even basis for comparison? im so tired of all these things. no matter how hard i try, they think im the most stupid, most useless. everytime when i go out with them, my relatives will make fun of me, say i don't do housework. it's like shit! i wash my own clothes & iron them myself, it's just they don't know. and my mother? for god's sake, she doesn't even mop or sweep the floor at all. it has always been my father doing these chores. after dinner, it's also my father who wash up the dishes. for my cousins, it's their mother doing it. and somemore, they have their mother with them all the time cos their mother dont work. for me, i dont. and you know why i started washing and ironing my clothes? its all bcos when i was in primary 5 or primary 6, my mother keeps getting hospitalised every now and then. so i started learning to do all these things on my own. i also wash my shoes myself, just that i dont wash so often. then now, my mother's no longer that way but i still do those things myself. but so what? my relatives just keep touching my hand and say its smooth. what the heck! are you just jealous i've got smooth hands and you've got rough hands? i feel so... my cousins come from rich families, they have their mothers at home all the time. me? my mother doesnt want me to go ACJC just cos she believes its for rich people. then everytime after school, i hate coming home to this lonely house. i'll be exceptionally lonely for hours until my mother comes back and shout at almost everything i do while my father just sits there and make things worse. why cant they just believe i can be smarter than my brother too? just cause he was from EM1 and i was from EM2, just cause he was from special stream and i am from express stream. to them, im just a useless & brainless creature. to my relatives, im someone who doesnt deserve being offered to take hmt & economics.
i should go get a refreshing bath right now!
to save electricity, i won't switch on water heater.
specific heat capacity of water so large.
oh yes.
secondary 4s having prom night today.
have fun;
if it means pursuing chemistry, it also means giving up economics. it means forgetting everything about economics. it means leaving economics. it means sacrificing economics for chemistry.
i failed once again @ 3:36:00 pm
