Monday, December 25, 2006
after feeling so full for the whole of yesterday, im feeling hungry for the whole of today! i've been eating & eating non-stop because i feel hungry even though i might have been eating continuously for the past hour. so im just chewing & munching on almost every edible thing in sight. BLAH!
okay.. i think im not feeling well. at least not 100% well. haha! having a headache, and im eating & eating non-stop and feeling more hungry than before. whatever!
its christmas.
rainy christmas.
boring christmas.
sick christmas.
irritating christmas.
lonely christmas.
my stupid internet keeps disconnecting non-stop either when im blogging or when i sign in to MSN.
freaking irritating.
plus everything else...
it all sums up to a damn irritating christmas.
the worst christmas ever.
BAD BAD BAD!
things going wrong..
my eyes are so tired.
i wanna close them.
but my mind isnt tired.
i wanna do my homework.
something's getting over me.
im losing control of myself.
my head feels heavy.
and the world around is spinning.
i seriously dont feel well physically.
maybe its due to the lack of sleep.
im cutting down on my sleep cos ive been going out these few days.
i dont really feel like going to genting.
i dont wanna come back sick and weak all over.
i dont wanna be tired for the first day of school.
its not a good start for the academic year.
i gotta get a hold on myself.
i failed once again @ 4:49:00 pm
Sunday, December 24, 2006
came back from malaysia. =D
just had pizza for dinner and im damn full now.
drank 2 glasses of lemon tea today.
1 which is sweet & 1 which is sour.
and there was no jam at all!
even though we didn't use double A paper.
guess it's been so long since i last went malaysia.
now then i know can just scan passport ourselves.
then i had to go to duty officers there! >.<
something wrong with me perhaps, last time go elsewhere also like that.
bought a converse tote bag.
and it's damn cheap! RM14.95 only, and it's authentic lah!
well, actual price was 49.90 but we got privilege. xP
and it was also the last stock left. HAHA!
recently all the white things i got happen to be last piece available.
=))
wanted to buy shoes but couldnt find a suitable one.
lunched at some HK style food place.
and i was so damn full after that.
xmas is coming!!!
&tis the season to ENJOY.
but im lazy to change my MSN nick.
tomorrow gonna cut hair...
so i wont have messy and un-manageable hair.
and also, in time for the new academic year.
but then dont know go where cut also.
the salon which i always go to is no longer there.
and i dont like the new salon over there.
freaked out just now, cos of my father.
i came home and started sms-ing non-stop.
then he asked me is 1000 enough?
so i told him its only 500 to anyone, and next 500 specifically to singtel only.
then he said like that worse... receive sms also got charge.
and when he said that, i was looking at my message log lah!
sent messages 200plus, received messages 200plus.
and it's less than a month yet, probably 1 more week to go.
somemore i use my old number sometimes.
when my old number expires, i can only use the new number.
and i dont know how much im gonna sms lah.
plus its the festive season all coming!
these few days come online for awhile only.
cos of my stupid brother lah.
keep saying i can use it some other time.
like as if his games are damn important like that.
he's also nowhere near being a professional game player.
yeah.. another reason why i always gotta RUSH my IT work.
next year he gonna ORD and enrolling in poly, hopefully he gets a laptop himself.
oh but its O level year already, maybe i wont use as often.
plus the school is no longer near my house, means less time for me.
BLAH! havent figure out my way to the new school yet.
anyway, 1h should be enough to reach from my house.
and that means i will still be able to sleep till 6am. xD
hmmm... is there any festive season shows tonight?
havent even touched today's sunday times yet.
HAHA! who said i'll even touch it anyway?
perhaps later.. i dont know when is later though. =/
school's reopening!
and im so gonna be cured of my boredom, like finally.
thank god.
anyway, off to do my 'Advanced Vocabulary For O Level' with the help of www.dictionary.reference.com
i know how to 'ying shui si yuan' =] still credit the site.
and before i ALMOST forget and click on 'Publish Post',
MERRY XMAS everyone. still not happy new year yet.
i failed once again @ 7:38:00 pm
Saturday, December 23, 2006
im so damn tired, physically.
slept so early last night around 11plus and woke up like 12pm.
took my brunch and went back to sleep again until 4:30pm.
after that, went to bathe and my eyes can be opened abit more.
going malaysia whole day tomorrow.
and that's gonna be another day gone.
BLAH!
i failed once again @ 10:05:00 pm
Friday, December 22, 2006
went out yesterday & today.
blackout yesterday too! we were in IMM then. and some guy shouted 'merry xmas!' after that, went to lot 1. only gotta reach home at like 8pm. no appetite for dinner.
today go schools. the old one was locked then we couldnt go in. BLAH! walked all the way to new school campus. nothing much happened there. okay lah, funny stuffs. LOL! someone stomachache, then almost rolled down the stairs, then got blew away by the strong wind. =))
have yet to complete homework, let alone start on revision. and its like holidays are ending lah! seriously have not much time left, will be away on next friday, then only come back when school starts.
realised we're going out every friday. HAHA! but next friday cannot already.
my legs are tired.
i failed once again @ 7:45:00 pm
Wednesday, December 20, 2006
boring lah.
tomorrow gotta meet my mother at IMM.
whatever...
wanted to do research in afternoon.
but my internet had connection problems.
so i went to sleep!
i really need to convince myself that doing homework may not always be bad.
but, is convince a form of deception? =/
i failed once again @ 10:12:00 pm
my stupid IE connection.. disconnecting every few minutes.
grit my teeth & bear with it.
there sure are worst things than this.
stayed up last night till 2plus to do newspaper articles.
now still left with 8 more, each for english & chinese.
completed photostating work for economics articles.
dug out articles for english & chinese already. YAY!
yesterday rained so heavily till it flooded even on MSN.
=)) but the flood subsided within 1 minute.
it's said that it was due to the super short lag time.
however, geography students please bear in mind - no matter how short the lag time is, the peak discharge will never come before the peak rainfall on a storm hydrograph, like what i've done for my geography eoy p2. =/
surprise!
i woke up today and found that it's not raining.
mum's on half-day leave tomorrow.
i bet we're going IMM, to collect her spectacles.
my brother is so boliao. ownself got phone still keep using my phone to take videos & waste my battery.
HAHA! yesterday i keep hearing the ambulance siren.
and there was traffic jam at the expressway.
think it only ended at like 10pm?
there's still no quiz on edulearn yet.
and it's so so so boring! Grr.
anyway, who cares if we dont attempt the quizzes.
oh yes. i stumbled upon this question yesterday.
'fat' and 'slim' are like the total opposite of each other.
so why does 'fat chance' & 'slim chance' mean the same?
the weather is like getting worse nowadays.
maybe due to climate change & global warming those kinda stuffs.
i think indonesia is kinda selfish. their haze problem is a MAN-MADE issue and they dont wanna solve it when it can be easily solved. what the heck! can they like think of their neighbours? i know their economy probably survives on agriculture. im not saying that they should stop burning and farming. but at least, do it in a better way? like high-tech farming can? they're so selfish! people offer to help & they dont accept the offer, like what attitude. Damn! the thing is they dont offer our help, yet they still dont solve the problem by themselves. maybe we all should just stop importing indonesia foodstuffs until they switch to high-tech farming. its not like their slash-and-burn method very wise also lah. what they do contributes alot to the climate change! lesser trees, haze, air pollution, more carbon dioxide, waste natural resources.
their stupid haze problem can easily be solved but they're stubborn.
some stuffs like monsoon, cannot be easily solved lah. may natural disasters destroy their crops! maybe another protocol should be reached at such that if indonesia's ANNUAL clearing of forests pollute neighbouring countries' air and their PSI reach above 100 for how many days continuously, indonesia should compensate for it. stupid lah! monsoon rains make people sick, but at least not as bad as the haze. especially for those people with asthma problems.
then again, farming is their main source of income earner. its like china too, manufacturing lots of products and i think the factories pollute the air too. but at least, people dont complain right..
meanwhile, i shall just grit my teeth & bear with it.
sad to say... acjc is not my dream college anymore.
i've thought about it. i think it isnt suitable for me.
first, its christian. if its just christian, i dont mind.
but because there are many other issues too...
not racial issues -.-
so now.. i dont know what jc to go.
anyway, there's like 1 more year to decide.
unless i hear more good things for acjc, if not i'll go other colleges.
maybe i'll just go cjc, ajc or jjc, pjc. no idea yet.
i dont know what my bleak future holds for me.
time is passing by so quickly!
back to doing research for project.
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COUNTING DOWN: 5 days to xmas!!!
i think i'll have a lonely xmas.
i failed once again @ 11:15:00 am
Tuesday, December 19, 2006
GRR! i give up...
i give up printing anything. Damn! how timely to break down.
my stupid printer cant print anything. now, it has lost its status of being a printer.
i give up finding on central banks for now.
everything's pissing me off.
reading organic chemistry is wayyy better.
i failed once again @ 1:58:00 am
Monday, December 18, 2006
im still procrastinating! =]
sorry, im just trying to make it sound like a good thing.
went out with my mother again, to bukit panjang plaza.
she bought a whole load of clothes, for herself.
i still cant find a suitable bag lah...
Central Banks!
that's supposed to be my topic for economics project.
but i dont feel like doing it... or at least not yet.
its so hard to study in singapore, so much competition.
i dont feel like doing this piece of work, but i feel very guilty.
especially since this is mr G's work... and a subject that i like.
he told me that im hardworking, and advised me not to slack.
maybe i should stop all this crap.. and wake to my senses!
everything seems to be so difficult to me now...
BLAH!
im so fortunate to live near the old school building.
bumped into ms latimer today, and i didnt know lah.
cos i took of my spectacles as it was misty..
then i saw this lady, without my spectacles on.
after she walked past me, that person exclaimed 'Hi!'
and i was shocked. then i realised its ms latimer.
then only did i mumble a 'Hi' in return to hers...
my crow scolded my pig because it was too my-crow-scold-pig to be seen with the naked eye.
feeling guilty. feeling bad. feeling extremely uneasy.
all my fault for procrastinating so much.
why the heck did i even started slacking?
i gotta work hard towards my dream college!
even during PSLE.. i wasn't sure if i would qualify to enter this school.
it was only until i received my results that i was abit surprised.
but still... i have underperformed. its below my standard.
thanks to not studying & playing all day long!
Damn. jingwei is such a lazy person, such a slacker.
i only have 2 options. forget about acjc or forget about slacking.
i wanna choose the latter, but am i ready to do so?
let me research on central banks!
a way to start me off. =]
there's no motivation for me to study.
i hope... 1 day, it will stop raining.
and i hope that day will come soon!
i failed once again @ 9:31:00 pm
havent been productive for the last few days.
it's either COMPUTER or OUT...
but anyway, it's fine. holidays supposed to be enjoyable!
if we miss the enjoyable moments now, there wont be much time for us once school reopens.
mum's on leave tomorrow & going dental with brother in the morning.
so that means i can sleep at home until they get back and wanna go out again. LOL!
thursday she'll be on half-day leave again.
brother's on leave since last week all the way till this friday.
anyway, went to plaza singapura with family today.
after that, we went to people's park OG.
and took 147 back to clementi for dinner & came back home.
then, that's like almost half the day gone.
the other half of the day is for me to sleep! =]
listened to 'zhou gong jiang gui' on YES 933 last night.
the 2nd story was about the story of an expressway or something like that.
but he didn't say which expressway it was though...
then i remembered ms tan told us a ghost story which was the same, and it was the expressway near the school field. that's like if i look out from my window, i'll be looking at that expressway! >.<
read up on organic chemistry last night.
it seems damn fun lah! all the alkane & alkene stuffs.
LOL! but i only read the first chapter of organic chem only.
havent read on alcohols and macromolecules.
im so guai right, listen to irene lim's advice! x)
sometimes, i wish i can take H3 chemistry... haha! sounds tough though.
oh yes! forgot to mention that i bought some chocolates!
bought them just for the sake of buying... just cos i got the urge to BUY and not eat.
but i believe it will be finished within a month.. i suppose.
last night.. i was boliao then i go calculated some stuffs. and it's like my brother ORD will be 21 years old already. after that, he will enrol in some poly and by the time he graduate, hopefully with a diploma, will be 24 years old at least. that's like.... his education so long lah! for me i still dont know yet.
roughly about 10 more days for me to chiong everything.
and it includes the newspaper articles & english assessment.
well well... i hate vocabulary! but for the sake of Os 2007... BLAH!
just hang in there. what else can i do?
i saw popular sell foolscap pack of 5 pads each, 2 pack $7.90 only! that's like damn cheap. one pad only costs less than 80cents.
im losing momentum already. beginning of holidays, i was still hardworking. english remedial everyday and go school everyday but still got do homework. now, im starting to slack already. LOL! im scared of combined humanities. i dont like this subject! but... i think maybe i should just try memorising it. my SBQ is fine, can get at least B though i dont study cos its all crapping. but its always my SEQ which determines my final mark. and since i dont study, i fail. simple as that =]
i overheard the promoter at OG. he said that there was 1 old lady asked him where's cruks shoes? then that guy, standing in front of the Clarks shoes, pointed up to the board and said 'neh. Clarks lor.' the lady said 'no. no. i want cruks. C-R-O-C-S.' -.- get your pronounciation right next time. i bet cruks is a cross between crocs & clarks, though i havent seen it for myself yet.
everyone else is sleeping & im still awake! and using the computer.
nevermind... i shall go read up more on organic chemistry. to keep myself occupied till the moment i fall asleep. =]
i failed once again @ 1:15:00 pm
Friday, December 15, 2006
YAY!
just what can i say. i only wanna say F words!
Fun & Fabulous Friday lah...
i bet she's flew off already. yes, maybe it's kinda sad... but nevermind, 1 day we'll still be able to go out with her and enjoy ourselves. good things are always worth the wait!
sort of forgot that she's flying off today cos we were so occupied with doing other stuffs.
today went out from like morning till night. and it's so funny lah! at like 6plus, all our parents started calling in one by one. then our reply were more or less the same -- going home soon. but then it was only until they called us the 2nd time only then did we part. HA!
anyway, today went out at 10plus. then reached JEC and found a seat while waiting for them. after that went arcade together. and i topped up $5, now im left with $4.85 in the card! >.< shouldn't even have topped up lah. but i thought i used finished all the money last time... then we only found 1 machine that's suitable for the 3 of us, so we started playing. after that, went to K-Box & loiter outside. then went to see the charges and go out loiter again. we decided to go down, then go up again. eh, at least we didn't take like 20 to 30 minutes to decide right! we finally went in at like 11plus. towards the end, i was so bo liao then go choose 'mary had a little lamb' and 'happy birthday'. LOL! can't stand the 'mary had a little lamb' MV or whatever.. its just damn funny. and we were like waiting and waiting for the people to shoo us out at 2.30pm, but apparently, none came. so we finished our last song and switched to some korean songs. so bad lah... heh! couz, i didn't say what happened about you... =] protect your face.
after that went to arcade outside loiter. actually wanted play last game but decided not to. then, that was the time we walked around and around, planning what to do next. actually wanted to go new school compounds but i wasn't sure if i would be allowed in wearing home clothes. then we went to Creative warehouse. nothing much over there. that VQJ lah, bring us walk that route until our shoes muddy and feet also tio a bit mud. and she walk so damn fast somemore. >.< then reached there already went toilet and VQJ kena chased out by cleaner. after that, she wanted go in to wash hand then that cleaner chased her out again and was staring at us. TSK! then went in already started exploring first. after a while, VQJ started playing that computer game which made me dizzy looking at it because the resolution was too high and it was moving and moving lah! decided to sit on those kiddies furniture while waiting for VQJ. in the end, she played for so long and so, we left first. and we finally crossed the road and crossed that wooden plank. VQJ couldn't get across the road! xP then walking on that muddy path halfway, it started drizzling and we started running. and we were stuck on this spot for like so long wondering how to get across. then we looked at how others cross first, and we walked back and follow them. though it was muddy and tiring, it's kinda FUN! it makes us wonder how to get across lah. except for that VQJ walk so fast and leave us alone. walked back to JE MRT then we sat down and started chatting until our family members started calling. LOL!
came back and met my family at the coffeeshop for dinner -- chicken rice. my mother keeps saying its delicious.
thanks couz for that stuff. HA! good luck for your appeal, i really really hope you can get into ACJC cos that's my dream college too! if heaven permits, then we shall be senior & junior once again in another school, okay. x) wait for me, i will fight my way there. HAHA! we MUST keep in contact! =]
my hand was abit shaky while taking the last picture. =/
anyway, that was the way we took to go creative, near my mother's workplace & half the distance from my house to the new school compounds. if there was a new bus service going direct from my house to the school, it would save alot of travelling time! Damn.. but there isn't. now i gotta go all the way to interchange and come out again. >.<
i think hardships really bring people together. that one above not really hardship lah. but it can be considered a hardship for the normal city life lah, where got people go walk this kinda route... and somemore, our generation never live in kampong, we never experience before. me & couz were waiting for each other and figuring out a dry path instead of stepping on the mud and laughing at VQJ. LOL! only that VQJ lah.. walk so fast. gan zhe qu tou tai or what? -.-
today's outing was a success!
singing all the FLY songs -.-
i failed once again @ 9:00:00 pm
changed the skin again.. due to the existence of boredom.
something funny happened just now, but well i forgot.
my brother and i were arguing about each other being lame.
then my mother, as curious as ever, asked what's the meaning of lame.
as usual, we went quiet. then my mother said 'LAME. both.'
and my brother patted his 2 legs -.- without my mother noticing.
after a short while... we saw an ad on tv.
and i said 'not funny lor.' then started laughing.
my brother, sitting down, used his hand to lift up his leg to show me.
-.-
BLAH! anyway... my brother cures me of boredom.
practically every night, we'll go disturb each other.
then say 'childish! lame!' whatever...
i mean, every night, as in if he's around.
now.. it feels strange to fight like we once did when we were young.
but i think all those so-called fighting were a part of growing up.
we have nothing to fight over now, so we dont fight.
amazing how we can communicate easily even with 5 years gap.
and few days ago, we were playing around with our phones.
snapping photos of each other & taking videos.
then i uploaded mine to the computer to let my parents see how lame it is.
she's flying off today.
BON V@YAGE!
xmas is coming.
there wont be penguins, there wont be xmas trees, and maybe there wont be santa claus.
all these are probably gonna experience white xmas.
oh yes!
that day my brother's friend commented on me being hardworking.
apparently, he overshot the route on his way to my brother's room.
and saw me in my room doing some work. after which, i fell asleep on the pile of books.
until before he left, i went to get a drink to refresh myself. COKE!
my brother's celebrating his 21st birthday next year.
hah! so fast. we even booked the chalet already.
but he's celebrating in advance to avoid clash with cny.
it means something like he's gonna get 2 red packets??
oh well, i hate cny. damn!
actually.. i dont find this skin nice.
but i think there's a special meaning for me...
xmas; lalalala~
santa claus isNT coming to town...........
'deck the halls' was rather watch-able lah. it was only a bit touching at the end but it wasnt what was important in that movie. it's a festive season show. and therefore, it's all about decorating their house for xmas.
counting down. 10 days to xmas!
i failed once again @ 12:30:00 am
Thursday, December 14, 2006
i seriously think im addicted to blogging.
700plus posts already... 2 years passed.. and im still at it.
now, i wanna blog so much, but there's absolutely nothing for me to blog about.
hah! sometimes i wonder if there are even readers... think they'll all be bored though.
#1 Are you an english or chinese freako?
currently an english one, for the sake of Os 2007.
#2 If time is going to stop, what would you possibly do during that period of time?
buy a new watch. my old watch probably have spoilt in such cases.
#3 Do you prefer a playpool or playground?
i fit in none.
#4 Do you usually gossip others or others gossip you?
how would i know if others were gossiping me. my brain doesnt control their mouths.
#5 Do you like simple or complicated stuff?
complicated stuff, cos my life is too simple right now!
#6 Do you tackle numbers better, or alphabets?
numbers, though i dislike the fact.
#7 What makes you pissed off?
senseless responses when im being damned serious for the few times in my life.
#8 How's your childhood?
i wouldnt say its deprived, as in the case with many classmates.
#9 Do you have inspiration without perspiration?
i believe my sweat glands are active even when im asleep.
#10 Do you think 24 hours is too short, too long or just ok?
oh whatever. its just fair everyone gets 24 hours, right...
#11 Would you judge people by the appearance?
definitely not. perhaps cos i dont have good judgement sense.
#12 What is attractive in your eyes?
nothing in my eyes in attractive, or people would be robbing me of my eyes.
#13 Do you like the day or night, explain why?
night! that's when i become a hardworking slacker. =]
#14 Do you treasure stuff that you own, or you have insatiable desires?
well.. it seems im easily satisfied.
#15 If your computer just hanged up with a long long document not being saved, how will you react?
no big reaction. i can easily find a back-up somewhere else if it's that important.
#16 Do you believe in miracles?
not until a miracle has happened for me.
#17 Do you often tend to forget about the past, or trying hard to do so?
i havent got anything as close as dementia yet.
#18 In your mind, what colours are out there?
nice question! i havent have time for a brain operation to open up my mind to find out what colours are there yet.
#19 Have you ever pity those who are real pitiful, shed tears for them, etc.?
hmm... have i ever come by someone who is real pitiful?
#20 Describe yourself as in attitude.
procrastinate
#21 Do you suddenly lose the grasp of hope to survive as yet?
no way. why would i?
#22 Give 3 advantages when you get to live.
i have a life. i experience life. i understand life.
#23 What is your ambition in life?
pursue chemistry. if not, economics.
#24 Do you believe in horoscope etc?
interesting. i would like to say that 20 april is sometimes reflected as aries and other times reflected as taurus.
#25 Describe music in your life.
music is just as simple as music, until i get to mess with it and make music complicated.
#26 Which country would you like to go; when you can afford it?
australia, again. i dont mind going there as often.
#27 What do you think blogging is about?
in my case, it's jingwei talking to jingwei.
#28 What kind of style are you trying to get hold of?
none! i go for originality.
#29 When you fail a test, how will you react?
i will walk up and take the paper from the teacher's hand. but i do that when i pass too. no big deal about failing, seriously. afterall, those things on the scripts can only remain as lifeless numbers forever.
#30 Pass this to 5 friends.
time to show how selfish i am, i will pass it to myself 5 times.
being jingwei, i have a few words to say if you read through that questionnaire. okay... anyway, all the answers reflect jingwei's boredom. im speaking on behalf of jingwei for the fact that im jingwei.
well.. anyway, why do people say that women are skimpily dressed when they reveal like their shoulders or their back? why cant we say guys are skimpily dressed when they are not putting on a top? its weird how this universe is... everything puzzles me.
i rather be the young innocent me, asking as much questions as possible. that was when my creativity and naiveness was unlimited. but through years of studying, though i understood much more about the universe, my creativity has decreased tremendously.
hmm.. finally going out with them tomorrow like since how long... well, it's still fine. at least we go out. i just hope things wont go haywire and the plans wont be thwarted. the fact still remains, i havent been to the arcade for donkey years. and i mean it seriously...
its still raining! i hope tomorrow will be a bright and sunny day. she's flying off tomorrow.
i hate staying at home during the holidays. for like the hours im awake while my parents are working, they keep calling and calling and calling. i dont care a heck anymore. i'll just ignore their calls or hang up the phone to prevent them from calling. you know how bloody irritating it is. if they have to call non-stop, i rather they are at home.
ugh! going off to do some house chores. and shall go bathe. i think my brother's hogging the toilet right after he came back. >.<
i failed once again @ 3:41:00 pm
i plucked 1 strand of white hair 2 nights ago.
hmm.. im slowly starting to do maths. well, majority of the tys questions are easy, that's why i was so damn bored doing it. i just keep falling asleep.
still truck loads to be accomplished this holidays.
so many people are flying off this holidays. or rather, some have already flew off. very nice to fly meh? -.-
im so so so tired now. my IE connection is super super unstable!
anyway... ... ...
dont give up till the last moment.
must have confidence in yourself. [though i dont have -.-]
surrre can! de.
i just realised maths is rather important. and i cant abandon it during JC. so sad... maths is really really boring! just playing around with numbers only. anyway... i think it's fine if i cant get into acjc already, since my mother doesnt like me doing so. >.<>
UGH! my mother's on leave next monday & thursday too, if im not wrong. and she wants to go somewhere... i cant remember where -.-
working beats studying lah. though no school holidays, you still get quality money for quality work, unlike us students. and at least for me, i dont see my parents working OT or staying up late just to work. the moment they reach home, they forget about work. unlike us students. holidays so what? school is still bothering us. but nevermind, it's for the future. struggle now and hopefully have a better future.
my phone's got some stupid problem. the timings all wrong, and i dont know how to set it. darn! it's like say 12pm i just received message, and it shows like i received the message hours earlier. and its for all the messages too.. blah. dont know how to set it. and i bought that casing for the phone. but if i wanna use the music stand, i gotta take out the casing if not the phone cant fit in. blah! whatever... i'll still like the phone. because it's not the phone's fault.
i used peifang's phone to play a dumb song yesterday. and it immediately became low batt -.- haha!
was late yesterday cos i was cutting my fingernails at 9am xP
nothing much to blabber about.
oh yes, terrible dreams about my family members. i dont wanna talk about it. its like the 2nd dream of this series lah. you know, starting it's so happy & fun with the family. then it's like really really really suddenly, a damn bad thing happens and i just wake up. what the heck! 99% of the dream was happy moments and the last 1% was damn bad.. spoils my sleep. no wonder im so tired now. i wonder who i'll dream of next... -.- so freaking dreams.
xmas in singapore not fun meh?
why people not in singapore for xmas one?
going for white xmas is it?
HAIYO!
another case of jingwei talking to jingwei.
cos jingwei is too bored.
i failed once again @ 12:36:00 pm
Wednesday, December 13, 2006
thunderstorm.
seems like things arent working out.
and once again, it's US backing out.
never give up till the last moment.
maybe, some things arent meant to be ours, its no use how hard we fight.
anyway, went to JRL in the morning.
and there's a noisy 'storyteller' reading aloud at level 3.
all of us sitting there were so damn pissed with him.
-.-
there were very few people. and it was shivering cold!
did a little bit of maths & i was super sian already.
A: why?
B: i dont know.
A: nevermind. i will go look up the encyclopedia.
shouldn't give up so easily.
anyway, good things are worth the wait.
i failed once again @ 5:21:00 pm
Tuesday, December 12, 2006
i screwed the dates on purpose!
so this post will remain on top.
anyway, couz...
just wanna tell you, if you ever have the chance to see this while you're still away, that i have that _ _ _ _'s photo! the one you keep saying cute. i have the photo! and it's not backview. it's frontview. and he's posing for it somemore. =]
BLAH! just to make you jealous only. you'll have to wait till you're back then i can send you.
xPpPpP
anyway, have fun & enjoy yourself.
i'll be having fun with your sis.
oh yeah, a few more things.
- careful, don't repeat what your aunt did in the hotel before.
- careful, don't slip down/ fall down/ injure yourself.
- don't miss your sis too much, she's so anti-climax. [tell you next time]
- don't be too chu lu or forgetful.
-.-
cya soon.
i think i'm outta my mind.
i failed once again @ 11:59:00 pm
"magnificent" week.
well, if i were ms kokila, i would be bored to that.
sorry. but she pronounces death this way. =/
let me think...
that deprived childhood teacher.
hmm.. i even wonder how it got round the class.
maybe it's just telepathy.
students can only think of 'deprived childhood'.
what else did we have...
big baby.
seems as if my memory's failing me.
Damn!
school's starting in about 3 weeks time.
like who doesn't know?
hope to get back all the same teachers.
i dont mind lianglu being chinese teacher.
but i'll have to re-consider him being CM.
where's our classroom even?
weird how i started liking the teachers.
hmm... things happened without me knowing.
new year... new building... new start!
hope it would be a better year for the class.
50 minutes block. wonder how's it working out.
still 1 thing on my mind...
where's the sick bay?
i hate to hear people say she's biased towards me.
put an end to the thousands of seconds of slacking;
i failed once again @ 2:50:00 pm
Sunday, December 10, 2006
oh yes.. 1 week has passed.
with adjectives, 1 repetitious week has passed slowly.
but still, it's better than racing against time, so just treasure it!
hmm... yay! i finished geography last night. =]
anyway, i still dont know what's cool temperate and what's cold temperate.
but so far as i know, i think the one in the textbook is correct.
BLAH! i dont think we even learnt cold temperate.. or did we?
conclusion after completing the assignment, it's high time i go read up on plate tectonics. i can avoid plate tectonics SEQ at O levels for all i want, but MCQ isn't optional. and my knowledge on plate tectonics really gonna stop me from getting A1. natural vegetation is supposed to be what im best at, but yes, i forgot the details. oh yeah, i've also gotta read up on chapter 1 & 3 of marianne chong. i detest chapter 1! HAHA.. i didn't even read those 2 chapters for end-of-year because i was racing against time. no use starting revision for content-based subjects only 2 or 3 weeks before it starts. oh yes, another thing! erosion & deposition. that thing's making me wayyy confused. but nevermind, i remember how G taught me that using the running track example. kinda funny, but as long as it guarantees my A1, then well.. overall, there's much more i gotta be doing for geography!
LOL. i downloaded the chemistry solutions already. solutions as in answers, dont think of those solutions in the laboratory. but im lazy to check with my work because those worksheets are stuck somewhere in my room. anyway, i didn't even wanna download it, i did it just for someone's sake okay! >.<
still stuck on physics after so long. because i really really must use holidays to catch up on it. nevermind, i wont stress myself out. because of the fact that i cant get my ass stuck to the chair for more than 2h straight in the day. my itchy legs just move me here & there though the house is so small and i've explored every single corner of it already. still, the best time for studying is past midnight. i really love the silence of the night! that kinda peacefulness, makes me forget all about the busy city life in the daytime. i simply love it!
i seem to have forgotten all about maths & combined humanities! oh shit. well, frankly speaking, im not so worried about combined humanities at all.
enough of those academic stuffs, which will bother us for like at least 10 years.
1o december today. got star awards 2006 at st. james power station or whatever that place is called lah. i remember jacelyn tay fell while walking out once. anyway, i dont think i'll watch that uber boring show. well, it's like every company has their D&D and whatever days that they will award those worthy of it. and star awards, to me, is just like mediacorp's award to the employees, just that they are trying to get the 'whole world' to know about it. BIG DEAL! and all the voting & such, it isnt worth my money. it's like their company's stuffs, and why should i interfere with it? i dont like mediacorp productions. well, maybe except for the radio stations. seriously, i think they've got a lack of creativity and whatever. i mean.. what the heck! fancy them airing the new show which is something like training those chef-to-be and broadcasting to the whole of singapore and maybe a part of malaysia. it's damn lame lah. they might as well go film an elite from the day he was born till the day he's dead. i said i dont like, i didnt say i hate.. well, im not flaming them. im just trying to point out that a typical busy singaporean student like me hasnt got time to spare for their nonsense. even now, the actors and actresses are being tour guides. WOW! everyone can get close to their idols and appear on tv already. and all the competitions... are you still crazy over taufik batisah or kelvin tan or hady or whatever? i see that their popularity span is like at the most 2 years only, at least for most of them.
tomorrow going to watch 'deck the halls' with mum. LOL! initially wanted to watch with my cousin but her super strict mother didnt allow. Damn!
one fine day during the remaining of the holidays, i should indulge myself in 'The Kway Teow Man'. btw, it's just the site, or in fact, a blog of someone whom i dont know but i still love his posts. some of the posts are really really interesting!
if only there's like some chemistry sites which can arouse my interest... then i wouldnt be so bored during the day. im seriously looking forward to some chemistry fun! maybe i should just go read up on organic chemistry, since that's the first chapter we'll embark on once school reopens.
-.-
how come its back to academic stuffs again?
!!!
anyway, i dont like our school's website. it's so not updated! they're still living in pre-25nov days while everyone else in town, or at least majority, is already awaiting for xmas. i went to check out websites of some other schools and theirs are much better done than ours. they can view their timetables online and dont have to worry about what to bring on first day of school, unlike us. HA! autonomous? o.O
and hopefully another fine day, i should once again go dig out the links of my primary school friends blogs and link them.. so i wont forget it easily. anyway, i found out some interesting stuffs!
a boring start to a "magnificent" new week;
let's treasure the last few moments of 2006!
no regrets as we move on...
i failed once again @ 1:36:00 pm
Saturday, December 09, 2006
GOSH! this is my 700th post.
since 2 years ago, i started this blog.
that's like so much memories... worth remembering!
yes, all the good & bad times. they're just part of life.
eh.. haha! i think im a curious person. or whatever.
somehow, i like to ask weird questions.
but maybe, some makes no sense? LOL! i dont know.
but as long as it satisfies me. =]
just went blog-hopping & i dug out some primary school mates' links.
its like ages since we last met lah.
im jealous of those people who have primary school class gatherings.
actually i miss them... HAHA! but not all lah.
so far, been in same class with jasmine for 6 years, going on 7th year.
hm.. secondary 3 life is over.
this year has been a roller-coaster, haha!
anyway, im so glad with everything, or most things. initially, i was the slacker type. copying homework, not taking down notes, sleeping during lessons etc. it all showed in the results lah, which wasnt pleasant for me at all. then, i started doing homework on my own, at the expense of not listening during lessons. i started taking down notes, but i practised selective notes-taking. i dont sleep as often but i still continue dreaming. results out, i failed overall because of english. my physics was super bad too. after that 2 wake-up calls, and the real battle began for me. started struggling cos that was when i finally learnt my lesson. i did proper notes. i do homework! i revise for some tests. i was no longer satisfied with just pass grades. turned out, results were still satisfactory. continued struggling, especially with economics. no longer dream during lessons. well, i pay attention during lessons except G's cos of his monotonous voice which can just lull us to sleep. so in order to keep awake, started making laughing at him and playing bingo. results out, it wasn't those type of 100% satisfied feeling. but then, as i've gone thru the process, i was really really delighted. well, then the time of separation came... which i really detest.
that's like a summary of secondary 3 life. i realised, this year is a wonderful year. hmmm.. initially, i liked 3/2 alot, i mean it seriously. later on, because of something before mid-year, i kinda hated the class. after that, i came to accept the class again. now, it's like neutral feelings. i wouldn't say i like the class as a whole, frankly. anyway, i changed my perspective of life. during secondary 2, i was fighting for triple science. by semester 2, i saw that things werent the same as before, i knew i had to give up that hope. and so, i kinda like gave up altogether and ended up getting atrocious results, given my standards. POOF! and i landed in this class. i was intrigued by economics, and i had a change of my wishlist. i had always wanted to go to a poly, but then now, i am aiming for acjc. and i had a passion for chemistry. i also realised that there was much more to life than mere studying. besides slogging for examinations, there was something else i ought to be doing too.. to be qualified as a normal human being. i sorta found out how i can study better. and also, im not overly worried about examinations because i know whatever results i've got, i truly deserve it. even if i fail anything, i know i've done my best.. there's no use regretting, what i can do is just to work harder for the next one. and that's kinda what keeps me going on...
well, having lianglu as a CM last year, i hated him to the core for suan-ing me and everything he had done. then this year, he's not too bad to us. just that i have the bad luck of bumping into him very often, which btw, he says is 'fate'. and he wasnt exactly pleased with my performance this year so we had a so-called 'chat' before the end-of-year examinations. he said loads of crap like he have faith in me and whatever.. then the next day, i behaved really well during his lesson, for like the 1st time in the year. i listened to him and read that chinese book and whatever. at the end of the lesson, he said that was a kinda improvement and hoped to see me carry on like that. BLAH! and everything went on till the day before results were released, he said i did quite okay.
secondary 4 life is gonna start next year. i dont know what to expect. whatever challenges that come my way, im sure i'll give it my 100%. yes, to my fullest potential for whatever that is expected or unexpected. however, i should still always bear in mind the lesson i've learnt. no more late night muggings. it's still better to be always prepared for a test or examination beforehand. i learnt my lesson.. luckily, my a maths results was still okay.. given that i was sick. if not, i would have well... actually i wouldnt do much even if i got something else. frankly speaking, im actually looking forward to the Os.. yes, as much as im not prepared for it yet. because it will spell the end of secondary education! LOL!
speaking so much of secondary 3... yes, it was truly a memorable year. not exactly with the class but it's just memorable on the whole. thinking of all the past events & things. all the funny moments. all the failures.. yes, just the year on the whole. it all sums up to a really really great year 2006, i have not much regrets saying bye to the year and to carry on with the next year 2007.
memories are really worth remembering.. primary school days. HAHA! how different i was back then. i can't remember everything that has happened but primary school days were the worst of my life with the teachers. almost every teacher meant trouble for me. i still remember going 'toilet' during art lessons for the entire lesson every week. i still remember going to the principal office like 5 times, only once was to help out, the other times were because of unacceptable behaviour. i remember always being maligned for all the pranks which werent done by me! i remember disrupting lessons. i remember movies session after PSLE. i remember the time we sprayed water on the floor and used the broom to spread the water so that it can evaporate faster but ended up making the floor black. haha! all the wonderful memories... of course, there were much more. but i just cant remember them at once. how i wish i can see them once again... play with them. primary school days would only rock because back then, we were all still innocent.
but now... things have changed.. we've grown. there's backstabbing and liars and everything. and when we start working, there'll be office politics. haha!
oh yes.. off to complete my geography assignment!
aha.. hoping to go out with lfc soon, i mean soon. boredom has gotten to me already!
possible? not possible? 50-50 chance? i'll wait.................
still waiting...
waiting...
yes i am..
nevermind........
i will continue waiting...
-.-
[evidence of boredom]
i failed once again @ 9:45:00 pm
it's another saturday!
i feel kinda high. yeah, after hours of self-entertainment. boredom made me stay awake at the expense of going round the house disturbing my family. sounds kinda childish & so not like what i would do. but, i only do that to people whom im closer with. HAHA! people im closest with, i dont really care too much about offending them, i just add in abit of sarcasm to things i had to say to them. yes, those who've seen the lame side of me are those whom im closer with. others, i dont talk much to, i'll only open my mouth when highly necessary or when they talk to me. hmm, i think i've changed a small tiny bit lah. at least now, i dont just smile at people who say hi & bye to me. i got reply back and sometimes when im feeling good, i wave too. different case for the security guards though. used to talk abit to the peter chin or whatever his name is. but since he left, i rarely talk to the security guard. im not being racist, LOL!
oh yeah.. my xmas gift from my mother -- haircut. i was feeling so random and i asked her when i could get one... -.- then i was too free i wanted to wash my bag, but she stopped me from doing so, say tomorrow then can. i just washed my shoes yesterday.
had such a wonderful night. i stayed till 3am plus to do abit of the geography. now, im only left with a few more questions on plate tectonics, im confident i can finish it by tonight. =] btw, my marianne chong has a weird smell which irks me. oh yeah, now then i realise, cool temperate & cold temperate, textbook and marianne chong offers different explanations. i wonder how people ace geography!
oh yeah, another good thing worth celebrating. stress load, or i mean, work load is lessened. it's not stress load cos i dont feel stress right now. hmm... clara just sms-ed to inform that latimer is fine with us doing only 1 grammar book and 2 vocabulary book. somemore, the 2nd vocabulary book will only be due on the 2nd week of term 1. now, im left with 2 vocabulary books to do. 1 is done quarterway though. yes, im feeling great!
hmm.. gotta go to the temple someday to pray again. and im gonna pass by that new school again. cos i always go to the temple at pandan.
LOL! couz finally coming back on monday, at least that's what she told me. now, i know how those days were like before i knew her... hmmm.. anyway, next year gonna be super boring year for me. the secondary 4s graduate, and then that desiree. keep telling me to do well before the papers start, and then ownself like that. tsk! anyway, i dont think both of you will see this now lah. and also, next year we wont meet as often as this year. so, haha!
holiday homework left to be done - EL [resource file - articles & resource bank] & [assessment], mother tongue [articles].
i think i've become a tad smarter. we need super-ego, but not too much. HAHA! anyway, i said that because i think it's funny that i failed the physics mid-year & the stupid economics essay class test in term 1. i looked through, then some questions are quite easy to me now.
shall go off for dinner now -- steamboat. xP
better than the pizzas we had for the last few weeks.
i failed once again @ 7:32:00 pm
Friday, December 08, 2006
URGH! sneezing & sneezing.
oh yeah. the lazy me only went to look at joanna's e-card today. hmm.. okay lah, not that lazy, at least i only received it yesterday. but should have looked at it last night. maybe it would cure me of that headache. well, it's just so damn cute lah!
actually, others also got send me e-cards leh. but i go delete away cos still must download this & that. sounds kinda bad but nevermind lah. at the most, i lose out only mah. i just said im a lazy person, so if you ever want to send me e-cards, make it hassle-free hor. but then, i must first say, if you send me, i won't send you back leh. cos im lazy mah. unless im in a super good mood lah.
counting down 17 days to xmas.
okay.. sometime ago, about 1 month before xmas, someone kept singing xmas songs. eh.. now dont have for so long.
left with only $50 to spend this month. but not exactly, gonna use $20 help people buy things first. so, only $30. but i can survive one. everyday lunch at home mah. my mother bought quite alot yesterday. 2 packets of those instant ramen, then 3 packs of udon. then there's still the fish&chips those kinda fish, then chicken nuggets & hashbrown. so much things to eat. also got fishball and mushroom. but then, no vegetable one. maybe that's the reason why my health is deteriorating lah.
less than 1 year to o levels written papers. in fact, i think at most 10 more months only. shouldn't think so much yet. but then, isn't it good? well, typical students always o levels then worry this & that or whatever. think on the other side lah, the 4 years you've been struggling in the school, then you sit for the o levels and you can end your education life in the school already. its those kinda great feeling lah. but ours about 10 months later then start. nevermind, at least got time prepare. haha! 1 month revise each subject. CH take 2 months revise cos 1 is social studies, 1 is history. eh.. cannot lah, still got prelims. the lazy me, still aiming for L1R5 < 12, say maybe for mid-year only lah. my expectation of myself so low, but nevermind. the higher the hopes, the more disappointment you get.
back to doing physics! i dont regret taking physics, i only regret not taking biology instead of physics. HAHA! life still has to go on no matter what...
i failed once again @ 10:31:00 am
Thursday, December 07, 2006
flu & headache.
i'm losing control of my health since the holidays.
please! no more fastfood for me.
xing aiying. though she lost in the end, she's just wonderful! what the heck. i think she seriously has a bright future ahead of her in the field of badminton. given her age, she's superb lah!
i failed once again @ 9:01:00 pm
Tuesday, December 05, 2006
picture taken with previous phone.
my white one beats his silver one!
picture taken with new phone. hmm.. not bad lah.
my box is so huge cos its music edition. haha!
-.-
my brother got the exact same phone as me.
but my memory card is bigger. xP
okay lah, at least different colour.
LOL! he cant use his phone yet. cos hes still in NS.
but ORD next february. so his phone shall just be on display.
gonna go out with mum this thursday, dont know go where though.
next week gonna watch movie with her, cos got complimentary tickets.
she's so BUSY trying to clear her annual leave..
GRR!
gotta open bank account again.
all my mother's fault for closing my previous one.
she's so free to do all this thing lah!
open account then close... if only need to pay penalty.
watching games @ doha.
but at times, it can get boring too!
haha. 6 more days and couz is back.
i realise my physics is so lousy.
but at least, if i really go re-learn, i should average Bs for tests.
what is linearity? i forgot! in fact, i didnt even pay attention...
20 more days for me to complete everything, inclusive of weekends.
went to G's LJ, yeah... if only my holidays can be productive...
oh haha.
i actually sweeped & mopped the whole house today!
see lah.. boredom made me do such things.
im a nocturnal creature.
every night, even 2am still not tired. then i force myself to sleep.
morning, i wake up at like 8plus or 9am automatically.
afternoon, i'll feel so tired but i just cant get to sleep.
but when it's nighttime, i'll be so awake.
-.-
i failed once again @ 11:09:00 pm
Monday, December 04, 2006
DAMN! im so bored of everything.
there's nothing to keep me occupied with at all.
i can't believe i sat down & completed 80 vocabulary MCQ today.
chemistry common test next year & im so gonna die cos i dont understand speed of reaction.
with that new phone, im just gonna waste more electricity. the whole day i was either charging phones, using computer, or using the speaker. listening to radio for like hours and playing sudoku because i had nothing better to do.
watched the asian games at doha, the badminton match. it's so not exciting at all. since im so damn bored, i think im gonna stay up till 1130pm to watch the today @ doha show & then at 130am to see the games in action.
im so uber sian-ified because tomorrow's plans are all thwarted. another day of staying home & doing more english, or if not physics. haix.. i think i wanna stop sms-ing her already. it's so bad of me disturbing her everytime, we should keep some distance. im tired of sms-ing her. im just wasting both our time. im taking it all for granted. she shouldn't even have given me her number or replied to my sms-es. i just suddenly wanna stop sms-ing her. our plans on the 28th also thwarted, maybe i think i should not go out with you people. you all just go out with them? i dont think i can make it. even so, i feel weird.
had fastfood for lunch today again. im sick tired of it.
i still dont know how im gonna get to the school next year. 1 thing is that i wont be able to squeeze up 176. but then, i dont know where the other bus-stop is, and im just lazy to go find out.
leading my monotonous life;
procrastinating as much as i ever can.
there's nothing that interests me anymore, not even chemistry. like why should i even care about it? the only reason why i even liked it in the first place was because of that class test after march holidays which i improved tremendously compared to the common test 1. now, there's like nothing, no meaning. there's no such thing called challenging chemistry questions now for me to do or use my brain, and im so bored to death.
everyone's going on holidays ever since start of holidays. 1 came back, then the other leave, then come back and another one leave, its becoming a cycle.
im suddenly showing a lack of interest, sorry.
i failed once again @ 9:35:00 pm
"hello, you wanna get a phone plan?"
"huh? anything lah."
"okay, later meet at IMM."
so i went IMM to meet my parents.
then we went to the roadshow.
"choose your new number."
and i chose. there wasnt much numbers.
"take this phone. you want music edition?"
"yes." and i got my new phone & number.
and im lucky lah. mine was the last set.
im happy already cos its music edition.
even though it's not sony ericsson walkman phone.
HAHA! =]
anyway, i feel very pekchek lah.
now got the phone, but i have no music to upload.
all my brother's fault, he & his old songs.
i think my parents are too rich.
they just have to buy something.
at first, they went Sitex to sign on the singtel 10Mbps broadband connection, which is like $80plus per month. then we cannot sign on unless we terminate with PacNet, so in the end didn't sign on. maybe that's why they bought this phone for me. then we met my brother for dinner. and my mother was so impatient with him for not wanting to get a new phone. >.<>
now i got 2 numbers.
but im mainly using the new one.
the old one is just there until it expires.
my parents are so funny lah.
my mother has so much queries, and she kept on asking the busy salesgirl.
then my father keep answering her, and the salesgirl keep saying 'yah, uncle is correct.'
-.-
i failed once again @ 9:22:00 am
Saturday, December 02, 2006
boredom has made me such a saddist.
was surfing through the videos at youtube, fishing out clips of people falling and laughing at each and every single of it. i would call it self-entertainment, but it's so bad to laugh at them. i was comparing which fall was the worst. and still got people's teeth fall out.
actually, im not as bad as those people who go take the videos and upload them.
-.-
haix...
back to doing chemistry now!
oh yeah, im so jealous of those students in the NUS High School!
but nevermind, i wouldn't wanna go there.
the thing im jealous about is just chemistry lah!
other things, i don't care.
i failed once again @ 3:23:00 pm
Friday, December 01, 2006
WHEW! i can finally breathe in fresh air. this is the day i can finally regard as a holiday. and my definition of holiday is as simple as not having to go to school for lessons or any other mandatory stuffs. so simple, yet this is the only 1st day i don't have to go back to school. oh damn, i think i aint got a life, seriously. today, though i call it the start of holidays for me, im still not parting with schoolwork lah, but whatever, i still say its holiday, call it self-deception. GOSH! people are like having their breaks since so long ago, and me, only now. and i assure everyone everything's gonna go haywire for me on first day of school. i can only take a break away from all these piles of books and notes on 29th december. and i'll only come back on 2nd january, feeling exhausted and tired. damn! latimer told us there's english common test on first day of school, and it's most probably essays. it so directly spells my death lah. you know, i've been failing all my essays and the highest i've ever got this year was 15! and i wrote all those essays seriously. how do you expect me to write a proper essay when i'm so damn tired lah? i think i'll just screw it lah! i can't even think of a proper storyline yet, and of course i won't be able to spin a story. in fact, i hate narrative essays lah. i'm just so gonna die on the first day of school lah!
barely a month left for me to do everything that i ought to do. i dont know how im gonna do it all but i just gotta do it lah! i dont want a repeat of my secondary 2 life next year. im just so dead meat. i think i've only got 3 weeks left for me to catch up with everything, for i won't be free on most days of the last week. i think i've only got 3 weeks of what i can call holidays. and the 3 week holidays, have any idea what i'll be doing? yes, i'll be reading books, doing lots of newspaper articles, revising through the year's work, building up my resource bank, completing 4 english assessment books, practising TYS, looking through the year's worksheets. i think im gonna have such a great time lah! yeah, holidays... what the heck, im lovin' it. no, im not gonna die from stress or homework overload.
anyway, im so glad i survived through all the english remedials for the year of 2006. im her loyal remedial student, attended every single of it since the start of the year till the end of it. i cant imagine it all. the 1st remedial, she was noticing me because i was distracted by something else. till the last remedial, she was still noticing me because she thought i wasnt writing down all the things. BLAH! i didnt even pon any of her remedial or had any thoughts of pon-ing before, even though i hate english so much. and the other teachers are so surprised we're having remedials they thought it's we ownself fix with latimer.
what else can i say? holidays are just holidays. it's just a word, isnt it? why make it so complicated? especially when my vocabulary isnt strong at all, the definition of holidays is just so simple.
1st december already, haven't receive my monthly allowance yet. last night, i dreamt of my father. dream of how i wish our relationship would be better. dream of how we can be like before. dream of how we can talk more. dream of how he is such a great father. dream of how i almost cried in front of him because i was touched. but, will it really happen? last night dinner, we didnt even look at each other, let alone talk. the only thing i told him was 'i've taken a spoon for you.' haix...
my parents are such strange creatures. dont know how long ago, they decided to buy the motorcycle. now, they wanna sell it, and they're gonna make such a great loss.
yesterday, me & peifang were talking, discussing about how we're gonna be like 10 years later. i don't know if it all will happen, but i seriously hope it will really take place 10 years later. i can't imagine how it would be like if we're all separated. couz and ray have already graduated. now, we can still meet because we're not busy yet. but will our friendship be able to withstand the test of time? will we just forget each other soon enough? what's gonna happen to each of us? we all still do not have the answer to it right now. i can only hope for the best that can happen for us. the only comforting thing is that all our parents want us to be in the same occupation. it's weird how all our parents all think alike even though they do not know each other. the only thing that came across my mind is that we can kill 2 birds with 1 stone. we can listen to our parents and get into that occupation, then we can remain friends forever too. but are things that smooth-sailing and simple?
i really wonder why do our teachers choose to be teachers? is it because of their parents? or is it just because of the pay & working hours? im so jealous how they used to be senior & junior in secondary school, and now, they are working together. the only thing is that, maybe they didn't know each other in secondary school? i have no idea about it. but to think of it, im abit jealous how they can remain so good friends. and those that graduated from NIE from the same batch, can remain so good too. sometimes, i wonder, did they ever have a conflict before? it seems as though their friendship is so strong it won't ever be forgotten.
i prefer to have lesser friends, but to whom im closer with. because i hate separation. what's the use of having millions of friends? it's a sure thing that you won't be together forever, unless you're like the king or president or a millionaire. ever since graduating from primary school, i've lost in touch with most primary school friends already. we don't even chat on MSN. there's only 1 guy who was on MSN with me recently. and he has changed so much! all those things he told me, i really have no clue how he became that way. initially, he wanted to come to commonwealth too. if he had come here, would things have been different? even my primary school bestfriend, we don't talk much when we meet on the streets. we've changed to become just mere hi&bye friends already.
10 year down the road...
no one can foresee the future yet.
let's just work hard, and get what we want.
that's the most we can aim for.
i failed once again @ 11:42:00 am
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