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Sunday, January 21, 2007

i really feel like crying.
maybe its all pre-destined.
one after another, they're all leaving.
its all up to me, whether i want to remember them or just forget them.


i feel so lost.
why must it always be like that?
its been 2 weeks, nothing's improving.
i think its fate, we're not supposed to have met.
how many times has it happened?
im sick of it all... but what can i do?

whatever thats gonna happen, just let nature take its own course.
even if you go to a jc, i dont mind, its your dream.
i should be happy for you, even if it means we'll lose contact.
but is it really your dream? i dont know. i dont understand you well.


i have no choice, but to end the wait. the never-ending wait.
waiting for you is not a solution, i've wasted too much of my time.
that even if you'll eventually appear, my time lost is not worth it.


i can only cry, i feel so lost, so helpless.
but i wont forget all that memories we once shared.
at least crying is better.
i will emerge a stronger person after all those tears.


i failed once again @ 1:05:00 am