Tuesday, February 27, 2007
i feel myself slipping away already.
once again, my laziness! if i had wisely chosen to use a flexi curve instead of freehand, i would be getting only 1 question wrong for the e maths class test only. all my steps are correct, but my freehand made the curve not smooth, therefore using the wrong values. Damn! for that, i was away from the better grade.
i remember, this is not the 1st time my laziness has resulted in me getting far lower marks to settle for a lower grade. the previous one, wasnt exactly a very pleasing experience but i failed to learn still.
had wanted to be a good art club member & do the work last night but at 12am, i realised that there is not a single glue stick available at home. Grr.
my chemistry is really getting worse now, obviously. not that im not interested in her lesson, but she's really talking too fast. there's just something stopping me from doing chemistry properly, probably distraction, its just some unknown thing. there's just this single thing which makes me write all the irrelevant stuffs whenever its anything related to chemistry. i thought the 'how metals produce sounds' incident was just a case of fatigue. but as time progressed, i found out it certainly isnt.
economics class test tomorrow. MCQ! so good, and its all last year stuffs. so it should be manageable, at least i hope so too.
slept during emaths lesson again today. seriously gotta control myself from doing that repeatedly. just dont know what's the problem with me nowadays... if i just dont laugh for too long, as in 30min of lessons, i'll just sleep.
finally bought my CME book today. xD looking forward to CDP lesson. LOL! its seriously very very fun & enjoyable. i dont mind staying that extra hour on fridays just for that lesson, its all worth it.
haha! bought the career guidance book & i looked thru. one thing i discovered is that there is NO job that suit me. omg! maybe optometrician ONLY? -.-
PE tomorrow...
i hope its not 2.4km or running 4 rounds.
but anyway, its better than running up & down the stairs.
stupid thermometer.
there's some problem with it.
it keeps measuring in Farenheit, and i have to keep retaking my temperature. how troublesome! but i'll just make do with it, rather than purchase a new thermometer.
im broke!
spent nearly $50 today.
i failed once again @ 8:17:00 pm
Friday, February 23, 2007
im seriously dreaming & sleeping thru lessons.
i was kinda surprised i didnt fall asleep during amath yesterday, then i slept during english remedial. LOL! and why i didnt sleep during amath? she didnt teach.
today, slept during chemistry lesson, which was like the 1st lesson since the geography lesson was eaten into by the stupid thermometer exercise.
its like seriously getting to me. just cant stand the teachers talking and talking, they just lull me to sleep. i seriously try very hard to open my eyes but by the time i open my eyes, i realise i just woke up from sleeping.
50mins of lessons, i seriously feel damn tired, its with the teachers, their way of teaching! the 10mins break, im always energetic and sourcing for tasks to do. in fact, when i try to sleep during the 10mins break or when there is no teacher in the class, i just cant get to sleep. its only when the teachers are talking then i automatically sleep even when im really struggling to open my eyes.
so far this year, i've already fallen asleep during chemistry, amath, emath, physics, mother tongue, english, combined humanities. surprisingly, i have never fell asleep during G's lessons though as quoted as many, his voice is monotonous. but it sounds energetic, that's why i wont sleep. unlike some of the teachers, i really cant hear them talking at times. or when they write on the board, they write extremely tiny and when the back row people cant see, the teacher say its your own fault for sitting right at the back. be more professional lah, for god's sake! dont say about others' attitude until you've corrected yours!
im lazy to travel to any popular bookstores to acquire my secondary 4 cme workbook!
shall get some sleep.
really sooo tired & sleepy.
and to think there's still CNY celebrations tomorrow.
GRR..
i failed once again @ 2:37:00 pm
Wednesday, February 21, 2007
argh! slept through maths lesson today.
i really couldnt help it, just kept dozing off.
the only way to stay asleep is really by LAUGHING lah.
after maths, i was laughing non-stop during economics.
today was so shiok!
dismissed at 145pm, no remedials!
totally rocks! & stones & pebbles too.
xD
was so engrossed playing games on my phone during SS that i didnt know kokila was coming over. but at least someone alerted me, cos we are of the same species. we dont do her work and dont pay attention during her lesson.
oh ya! alot of chemistry work that i havent do yet.
so gotta do lah... i dont wanna get into trouble with tough teachers.
that's one of the last things i would wanna do in school.
after sleeping during maths, i feel awake the rest of the day!
so sad lah.. we didnt miss any SS lesson during the holidays.
Damn! very accurate never miss any of her lesson. except for Vday.
and this is so boring!
i failed once again @ 3:08:00 pm
Tuesday, February 20, 2007
finally a break from all the celebrating!
there's only left with 2 more celebrations; phew.
case of mistaken identity.
someone thought i was older than my 5 year older brother.
i always have this kinda problem that people cant judge my age properly.
thanks alot! =.=
another case of mistaken identity yesterday too.
not bothered blogging about it cos it didnt happen with me.
but its quite funny actually.
i think this happens when we're all not too familar.
at grandma's house is the worst, me, my brother & my mother kept asking each other who so-and-so is.
putting aside all the CNY stuffs...
i think now, its really time to get serious on schoolwork already.
i still dont feel any stress coming in, because im really taking it slowly.
HA! during CNY celebrations, everyone was already wishing good luck for Os.
and my aunt went to add in "see who the smartest". GRR!
but well, 80% of the fun have got to pause now...
during the school holidays & the starting of secondary 4 life, i've enjoyed myself alot. going out every saturday with friends and going home late, some weekdays too... going out after school. now that there's no more occassions to interfere with school, i really gotta concentrate. no more writing 'how metals produce sounds'. no more dreaming during G's lessons. no more laughing at ms lim throughout the whole lesson for no apparent reason. no more slacking in lianglu's classes. im dictating my life. i have decided what i want for myself, and now, i have to work my way there. no more distractions. no more dreaming. no more laziness.
there's barely 8 months to the actual 'O' levels written examinations, and barely 6 more months to our prelims. which means i have less than 1 month to prepare each subject. 3 more months to mother tongue paper.
i'll put the past behind me. whatever failure or success i've got, is only experience. experience to make myself face the reality and not escape. i wont give up that easily like when i was in secondary 2. the group of dedicated teachers have been helping all of us, but they cant help us for everything in life. there's a limit to what they can help us with, some things are beyond their reach to help.
even though i have no specific targets in mind, i'll still do to my best so that i'll have as much doors open up for me. right now, i really have no idea to go poly or jc. both sounds equally good. we're in the era where poly is attracting the top students already. some may say its stupid to go poly when you can go to a top jc, but i beg to differ unless you wanna be a teacher or tutor or a jack of all trades but master of none. well, jc is just so-called the 'safer route to university' lah. hmm.. but if you're clear of your future, then you wouldnt have to waste the 2 years studying in jc. you can just go poly and get a diploma, and if possible, go university to get degree. but if not, then can just start work what... HA! shall see about these stuffs after my O levels. study first! dont talk too much yet.
this year very no CNY mood, so boring.
its not fun at all.
play mahjong till sian, watch tv till eye pain.
sit till butt pain and leg numb.
i failed once again @ 11:18:00 am
Sunday, February 18, 2007
http://www.moe.gov.sg/jcreview/JC%20Calendar.htm
this means the 2006 graduating students will still be under the so-called 'first 3 months' scheme in JC though its probably gonna be like first one and a half month only.
Yucks! this probably means prelims is not for us to play around with.
i failed once again @ 10:45:00 pm
first day of visiting is finally over, and im glad i got through it quite okay.
very boring though. we expected to be the last to reach grandma's house but we were so surprised to find out we were the first visitors at like 130pm. so it was very very quiet. after that, went to dont-know-how-im-ever-related-to-them's terrace houses, 2 of them. only 2 families, so very very quiet once again. & i finally learnt how to play mahjong! xD i was very very lucky today lah, getting all the good tiles. but i was very dreamy, making moves that are not exactly wise, but im beginner okay! at least won 1 round with the more experienced players can already lah, haha.
tmr gotta wake up earlier, maybe around 9plus? need to go all the way to the east. and gonna spend the whole day there. loads of stuffs to bring, cos might be swimming & stuffs. still hoping that i'll be free on tuesday, haha.
yesterday went to IMM since there wasnt any CNY stuffs to do. spent over 100plus at fila & 60plus at Giant. bought a new pair of shoes from fila which isnt exactly nice at all... but i have no choice lah. my feet's fault! i liked the one at IP zone but the design i wanted didnt have my size and no new stocks coming, plus the shoes quite heavy. really alot shoes didnt have my size lah. maybe everyone bought them before CNY already..
guess what? my father spent over 20plus decorating the house. after he finished, my mother told him that no one is coming to our house this year! what a laugh... all the decorations shall be exclusive to our eyes. and new year equals new house keys again. its always my brother fault when we have to change keys, damn!
i failed once again @ 9:31:00 pm
Friday, February 16, 2007
im going crazy already.
first, i wrote 'higher evaporation' for a question that is asking for the properties of aluminium! second, i wrote 'how metals produce sounds' for a question that has something to do with reactivity. GOSH! i really dont get chemistry now. because its all copying & memorising without understanding. and i desperately need help before the class test, before i scribble more nonsense for the test. she's teaching way too fast i cant get anything. i cant write at the speed of light okay! neither can i learn at the speed of light.
the other day... i had a terrible dream. dreamt that i boarded a bus which was damn packed at CCK interchange, since it was packed, i was standing near to the driver's seat. then, i tapped my card & realised there was no driver! then i thought it was okay.. but it definitely wasnt okay when the bus started moving without a driver! and few moments after the bus moved, it ran into a driver jaywalking in the bus park. such a bloody dream. and yes, i woke up after that person got ran over...
oh yes! mr G forgot to tell us the details of the econs class test which is supposed to be next week, so it most probably no econs class test next week! but anyway, we'll have it sooner or later... so the joy is uncalled for.
that day, my mother bought a N6070 for herself. then the day after that, my father bought a N6288 for himself. i think they have nothing better to spend their money on. think there's like 10-odd handphones in the house, inclusive of the black-one screen ones. then my parents also bought new numbers without contract. i seriously think they have nothing better to do lah! but its good anyway, lianglu wont be able to contact my mother or father! xP well... he has contacted my mother before, for your information. probably cos he had nothing better to do, he called my mother to rush her for meet-the-parents session.
let me list down the homework pile:
Chemistry TYS - supposedly due yesterday.
History SEQ - supposedly due yesterday too.
1 el journal
chinese lianxi6
chinese jianbao2
chinese baozhangbaodao
physics SPA ws
chemistry ALOT ws
amaths ws
hmm.. think only got all this. quite manageable.
hopefully there's time for me to revise...
i failed once again @ 6:55:00 pm
Tuesday, February 13, 2007
im so happy! haha.
did comprehension passage during english for the entire period. after that, we had 30mins of proper chemistry lessons on the topic of metals before the 20mins of propaganda. the bottomline is 'ms lim is the best chemistry teacher in commonwealth secondary'. xD
then we had physics. she came into the class and the first thing she mentioned was return test papers. i guess half the class was totally shocked by what she said, including me. and i was totally stunned when she said i was the highest. studying for common tests really pays off well. if only last year i had seriously studied for common tests too... LOL! actually i was already happy enough to get an A1 for physics.. i think that's only my 2nd one for this subject? plus the fact i always get grades like F9 and E8 for it. so yes, happy happy... =]
during geography, i didnt pay attention until the moment he 'zao xia' then i laughed and started listening to what he's shitting about. and after lessons, i chased after him to tell him his hair is very nice & shiny, what a stupid promise. but at least i did it, and the better thing is that i have to do it for 3 weeks! highlight of today's lesson was when someone asked about ms vanessa lim... but i think we should just spare him. if our class happens to not do well for geography, i'll know that its because when mr g is in front teaching, we are thinking of vanessa. -.-
maths was just all scolding and blabbering.
happy also because tomorrow is valentine's day and there's halfday! but will have to get home early and go out for family dinner. its changed from friday to tomorrow.. sad thing is there is no halfday on friday. WHAT THE HECK! and also, have to study for emaths class test & geography class test tomorrow. ):
march holidays gone already. booked by ms latimer for 4 days. much as i dont wish for more, im expecting them to come. am updating my activities at the side column, i know its overdued for so long. HA! cos im lazy. another thing to add is that there's a whole pile of things to be ready for submission. i think 4/2 will hate this coming thursday. LOL! xP
i failed once again @ 5:52:00 pm
Sunday, February 11, 2007
so LONG since i last went out with my whole family, actually i didnt want to go also lah, but since dad got lorry and mum wanna buy new armchairs for us, so just go. then we almost got caught by the traffic police on the expressway. LOL! but lucky lah... trailed behind us for quite sometime and then go pass us finally.
this new year really got quite some new things, except for clothes lah.. lazy to go out buy also. mum want buy sport shoes for me i also lazy. i know im really lazy lah. HAHA! hmm.. room got repainted, or in fact the whole house. then got a new handphone. and got new bedsheets. and new armchairs. all those quite expensive things...
CNY coming so soon, and im sorta like dreading it. friday gonna have sort of a reunion dinner or something... after that, i dont know when's the chalet thing. and then still got to visit relatives around from east to west. Sian...
just cos my damn cousin got an A1... my mother's world been revolving around that. like what the heck! it's just 1 A1 for hmt lah.. get a life. perhaps he's pro in hmt only? who knows... whatever lah. all they ever do is compare & compare. you see, sometimes i think that if i go to poly, they wont have anything to compare... you know they can compare like almost everything. compare see who tallest, who fattest, who smartest, who eat most, who most outgoing. like shit lah. i mean different people have different personalities right? they just cant leave us alone cos we're all the same age. 1 reason i dont like meeting my relatives is cos they like to compare too much. its like so damn stressed lah. everytime meet them, they'll sure ask "how's your results? what do you mean by okay? how many A1s? what's your position?" or when we're playing games, they'll say "wow. so clever ar!", "i suppose you're a very good player." etc. even when eating, they say "haiyo, you lousy lah, dont know how to eat this." what else do they want to compare lah? like CNY they come my house, they'll just go "can let me see your textbooks?". the worse was when we were sec2 then my aunt called to tell my mother "i bought a biology textbook for my daughter already, to let her read up on it earlier." -.- really typical singaporean lor, KIASU lah.
tmr got physics common test! studied halfway only. left with waves & sound. actually physics isnt too bad afterall. havent prepared for geog class test on thursday though.. but wednesday got halfday! xD
i failed once again @ 4:58:00 pm
Saturday, February 10, 2007
http://www.seab.gov.sg/SEAB/oLevel/2007gceOExamCalendar.html
not exactly pleasing news. our o levels written papers date pushed up by 5 days to 17oct already, which is exactly 2 months after our start of prelims, at least the tentative dates.
this year batch did so well for o levels, especially the languages & geography.
so there's halfday on V day! xD
think we'll register for the examinations somewhen after CNY. then march, we'll have adam khoo. and i strongly believe midyears for the whole school will start in late april, together with SPA skill 3 assessments for sciences. after that, may 28 is mother tongue o level paper. then after the holidays, will be mother tongue orals followed by listening comprehension. after which will be english orals around august, which is near our prelims already. and finally, its the actual o level.
last year, teachers often mistake me for secondary 4. this year, teachers mistake me as either secondary 2 or 3. my grandmother just called to ask 'you secondary 4 or JC this year?' my mother asked me yesterday 'did you receive your mother tongue results?' of course, some other teachers also asked me that. i like this kinda promotion system, LOL! never sit for the examination but somehow will receive results, damn high tech.
next monday is physics common test, then thursday is geography class test. and the CNY week, we'll have economics class test. after CNY week will be geography common test. im used to the frequency of tests already, in fact im enjoying it lah. at least i dont get bored during tests and even if i fall asleep, the teacher wont wake me up like in front of the whole class or anything.
think our class got clean record for breaking apparatus in labs so far this year. at least i think nothing has been broken yet lah. LOL! compared to last year, i guess its a major improvement. from breaking a few test tubes to burette to beakers and everything to nothing.
i actually did the SS during lesson on thursday and completed it on time. since when have i ever been 'addicted' to doing SS. im gonna do the rest of the source-based she gave since there's like so few homework this weekend. doing it just in case i get too bored.
bumped into LL in the hall yesterday during release of results and he went 'yada yada yada' to me, and repeated it in english just in case i didnt get what he was saying in his strong chinese accent. he thinks i can do it but my parents think i cant do it. hmmm.. interesting. sometimes, i wished my cousin was in the thru train program so that i have 1 less person to be compared with, but unfortunately that isnt the case. next year CNY, i suppose all the grown-ups will be 'yada yada yada..' about our 3 results and comparing like as if academics is the most important thing in the world, which apparently isnt.
i love this year's emaths, everything is so easy & fun.
physics i really catch no ball. i see her then start laughing already.
Sian. the long delayed economics project i still havent research on it.
that G was so dumb yesterday! before results release, he was looking at someone's results and talking to that person. then he didnt know i was behind him, so i was actually looking at the results of his class. like how more stupid can he get? if walls have ears and there's actually space behind him, people can just walk silently up to see it, without him knowing.
i failed once again @ 11:30:00 am
Wednesday, February 07, 2007
i cant actually believe that im still convincing myself that commonwealth secondary isnt such a bad choice after 3 years in that school. im still regretting it?
oh yes. 1 more test i failed. SS common test, i barely got an E8 for it. i bet im gonna be down for remedial sooner or later, and that's what i call 'a waste of time'! im weird. i was all smiles when i knew that i failed. all so much for sleeping during the test, but i seriously couldnt help it then. that was like the last period of the day & its a subject which i totally have no interest in, plus the whole school was so quiet... such a conducive environment for sleeping.
school is boring, holidays also boring, everything is boring, nothing is fun anymore, and that's exactly what im doing -- nothing! im so bored i just cant take it anymore. i was walking around the school during artclub yesterday, and disappearing every few moments. and im like sleeping during maths lessons because the things are all so boring i just get lulled to sleep eventually. the other day, got caught by quek for sleeping during physics lesson. and these few chinese lessons, been dozing off too. any idea how BORING it is?
i've sunk into depression. im really being as anti-social as possible. i value silence, peace & loneliness more than ever now. i just get pissed off with people who keeps talking and talking and talking non-stop to me when im not even replying. but anyway, its not that i dont know how to reply, rather, its just that i dont wish to reply. i simply dont feel like replying.
heard that our adam khoo workshop will be somewhen in march. think there's a high possibility of me crying. HA! anyway, since school reopened this year, i've been crying, but not too often lah. and im feeling super depressed over some unknown stuffs. i just feel down... and i dont want to talk because i dont want friends. because i know after O levels this year, i'll forget a great number of the people. so i rather not have a difficult time trying to forget any moments with the people. i know it sounds dumb. but ive really lost alot of things... that i cant bring myself to lose even more.
i failed once again @ 11:41:00 pm
Saturday, February 03, 2007
as expected, i failed my speed of reaction test, in fact the whole class failed. but it isnt ms lim's fault, i think the topic wasnt really easy. its not that we didnt even try at all. well, but i should admit i didnt study for this test. HA! i think she's pissed with our class attitude already, so fast.
went to love fiesta @ JJC today. so i am very tired now. reach so early for what... think her time-telling device spoilt lah. made me rush all the way there. i bet she reached even before i stepped out of the house. rush there already met her and she left immediately. its so what lah... waste my time, if not i could have done my work and revise for upcoming tests.
after going JJC today, i think i may not consider it as one of my JC choices already, even though it offers the subject combination that i want, the only thing that looked decent to me was the field. the building itself looks so old, that it may collapse anytime soon. the shutters look so rusty too. the school is really small. the canteen is very dark and etc... GOSH! im now really studying aimlessly, without any JCs or poly courses in mind. i think im a weird person lah. every JC i also dont wanna go. NY so far, AC people very what, JJ very old, TJC very far, IJC very far, PJ very what, YJC very what, VJC is impossible, HCI is impossible, RJC is impossible, SAJC is so far, AJC is very far, CJC is very far, TPJC is very far too, NJC is quite hard for me to get in, MJC is i dont know where it is.
omg. its 3 more minutes to 12mn. i've just finished packing the stuffs into my room. i think i took less than 2h to do that. and its everything in my room! so efficient. xD and my room doesnt look as if its painted anyway. if im not wrong, the fengshui person gonna come tmr & so i have to stay at home... cant go out. anyway, i still have to do homework. havent even started on any yet. oh yes, my room's super tidy now. and the reason why i can pack so fast is because most of the stuffs are books, so i just have to stack them & slot them into the shelves.
next saturday cannot go out with other people already. my mother say gotta go malaysia. BLAH! but i thought its gonna be CNY soon? hmm.. whatever.
and today dont know why, suddenly my primary school friends started MSN-ing me. and i only found out today, on my way to jurong point, that the old jurong primary building is now pioneer primary. oh, and i found my red name tags for the school uniform! couz, yours is green right?
oh yes, monday need to remember to report early for common test. and its so gonna be maths day! before recess, emath. after recess, amath. after lunch, math remedial.
wanna sleep already. its 12:20am. and im very tired.
i failed once again @ 8:54:00 pm
Thursday, February 01, 2007
im surprised i actually bothered to move my hand to hold the pen to do the social studies sbq. considering the fact that im thinking of "dropping" it & that perry came to say that kokila has collected it already, its highly likely i'll just stop doing it and start cursing and swearing deep in my heart. apparently that didnt happen... i completed it and submitted it after english remedial.
im a loyal visitor to the general office. think i go in at least once a week. went there to photostat some english ngee ann secondary comprehension because there was a shortage. shortage results in higher prices, but surprisingly, it was FOC.
expecting myself to fail the speed of reaction test. i did study, but i didnt understand. so yeah... and she came and stood behind me twice, waiting for me to write something down on my paper. but luckily now, i at least more of get what's the chapter about already. really gotta thank her for helping me. monday's common test already, still got time to study. HA!
i fell asleep during chinese lesson today. no idea how i ever did that, maybe i was too bored. i was just supporting my head with both my heads and looking at the passage until my eyes closed. but somehow, when he was going through answers, i woke up in time to copy it.
G didnt come today, so we had free period. cant remember exactly what i did, probably some unproductive things like trying to make myself sleep since i was so tired. physics lab was quite fun lah. that mr chua made me stand at the door to call in those people 1 by 1. then after that, the expt i anyhow do. its really so difficult to count. and he said "you die already. don't so violent." to me. that's like my second time being told by a teacher in the lab not to be so 'chulu'. 1st was chemistry last year. and as he predicted, right after he said that sentence, my whole spring flew off. but im better than people who had their stopwatch fly onto the floor. LOL!
english remedial was fun too. well, its so funny. i just kept laughing and laughing non-stop. and i stupidly went to queue when i dont need to, wasted my time, but it was worth it. =]
reached at 7.30am this morning, which was quite late. the bloody thing was i missed all the 4 buses! cos they came at the same time. so i started flagging for a taxi, but apparently, all of them were hired. so pissed off!
waiting for new timetable. yay! next monday dont have to report early too. but we're gonna have extra periods. nevermind, persevere.
was feeling kinda down & depressed today. but i felt so happy later. LOL!
gonna do differentiation, and do filing too! hmm.. havent done economics research yet. sucks!
hmm.. nothing much. i still cant do differentiation!
i failed once again @ 6:15:00 pm
