Wednesday, February 07, 2007
i cant actually believe that im still convincing myself that commonwealth secondary isnt such a bad choice after 3 years in that school. im still regretting it?
oh yes. 1 more test i failed. SS common test, i barely got an E8 for it. i bet im gonna be down for remedial sooner or later, and that's what i call 'a waste of time'! im weird. i was all smiles when i knew that i failed. all so much for sleeping during the test, but i seriously couldnt help it then. that was like the last period of the day & its a subject which i totally have no interest in, plus the whole school was so quiet... such a conducive environment for sleeping.
school is boring, holidays also boring, everything is boring, nothing is fun anymore, and that's exactly what im doing -- nothing! im so bored i just cant take it anymore. i was walking around the school during artclub yesterday, and disappearing every few moments. and im like sleeping during maths lessons because the things are all so boring i just get lulled to sleep eventually. the other day, got caught by quek for sleeping during physics lesson. and these few chinese lessons, been dozing off too. any idea how BORING it is?
i've sunk into depression. im really being as anti-social as possible. i value silence, peace & loneliness more than ever now. i just get pissed off with people who keeps talking and talking and talking non-stop to me when im not even replying. but anyway, its not that i dont know how to reply, rather, its just that i dont wish to reply. i simply dont feel like replying.
heard that our adam khoo workshop will be somewhen in march. think there's a high possibility of me crying. HA! anyway, since school reopened this year, i've been crying, but not too often lah. and im feeling super depressed over some unknown stuffs. i just feel down... and i dont want to talk because i dont want friends. because i know after O levels this year, i'll forget a great number of the people. so i rather not have a difficult time trying to forget any moments with the people. i know it sounds dumb. but ive really lost alot of things... that i cant bring myself to lose even more.
i failed once again @ 11:41:00 pm
