Thursday, April 26, 2007
there used to be 4 people knowing this password. until an uninvited intruder came...
i have absolutely no idea when people "not allowed" access started coming.
i dont care that people are unhappy and angry or have negative feelings of me. its natural! unless you're so influenced by adam khoo workshop you go round smiling at someone who's saying bad things about you...
but the point is..........
there were some particular entries i didnt want others to see, except the 3 of you because i believe you all understand me and i can let you all know. some things are not meant to be said out... even if people who do not know i dislike them did not stumble onto this blog, they can still know that i dislike them by the way i treat them. if i do not ignore you or irritate you or whatever, well... its because im fine with you. not talking to anyone and not acknowledging others is not my way of showing dislike to others. im not the one who likes to make the first move. you dont see me going round saying 'Hi!' to everyone i know unless they say that to me. there's no need to come to my what has become a "flaming platform" to find out...
the reason why you have house keys is simple. you choose who to let in and who not to.
now that others are aware of what's going on here... its either i change password or i dont publish those posts i dont want others except the 3 of you to see, so that no one will see them, including the 3 of you.
does everyone know the existence of secrets and why it exists?
how about the existence of problems and why they exist?
things not meant to be known by others...
might have been known to them without me knowing.
i hope those people only came in on 24th or 22nd april. at least im fine with others reading those posts. if you people did read other posts, which i do not want to know if you did, then why bother tagging only when i say bad things about you? yes, it seemed rather obvious who i was saying about in the post, but you always have a choice to not acknowledge bad things about you which you think are not exactly bad.
im aware i have flamed at least 2 people from my class, including last year. but why did i choose to make this blog private and not public now? i didnt want people to know that im extremely unhappy about another person... just as simple as that. how many people exactly read that post i dont care.. how many people exactly know i am not on good terms with someone else i dont know. only 4 people were allowed to read this blog, of which i believe none would know who i was flaming unless they were in 4/2 but they werent. call me a backstabber all you want. there wasnt anyone except me supposed to know who i was referring to. it was an unexpected break-in. peifang wouldnt know who i was referring to unless she asks me, but she doesnt bother about these kinda stuffs. the other 2 wont even know who's that person if i tell them the name. im fine with people calling me backstabber in this case... considering the fact no one allowed here knew who i was referring to except me. its just like keeping something deep in my heart. i didnt mention names, except of teachers. i did give examples, but only i knew who it was all along. until people broke in and accused me of backstabbing. WHATEVER! i kept this blog private for a reason... there's always a reason for something.
in my conscious state of mind, i have never TALKED bad things about people in my class to others this year. except i talked about teachers. think about it, how few friends do i have? how many can i tell? and how much time do i spend with each of them talking? do i have to waste time telling my few friends something they dont know and expect us to be so engrossed in that conversation? even if i tell, do they understand? they dont even know what anyone did, or who's that person...
i failed once again @ 1:01:00 pm
