Wednesday, April 18, 2007
today i COULD hear ms lim speakscold! what the heck.. i also dont know what happened. after our SPA skill 3 test, she suddenly shouted "SIT UP & PAY ATTENTION!" well i initially thought she said stand up... but nevermind that's out of point. we all did as instructed. then she asked what are the appropriate conducts when a test is in progress? and she started talkingshouting more nonsense. that we were chatting during the test, we were smiling at each other etc. WHATEVER! she knows all these... but does she know that someone cheated not by talking or smiling? fuck. she doesnt know. and there she's saying we're trying to cheat by chatting and smiling. after talking to us about integrity & the singapore education system, she went to talk about our tests. she said most of us are L0 or L1 because of all the small mistakes we made accumulated. and she was damn bloody angry when she said all these things. like blood pressure shot up. she said she went through in class, and if we studied or paid attention in class, why are we getting such easy things wrong. WTH! what's wrong with her.. she didnt mention names. but she was obviously referring to me lah. say what got people write SPOONFUL, and when she taught us such phrasing. stare at me somemore! i didnt write spoonful, i wrote spatula full. yes, at first i thought it was supposed to be measured in grams what, but then it's like how you measure 1g of powdered things? you go measure 1g of powdered substances using an electronic mass balance for me to see lah! plus it is used as catalyst what.. so i suppose 1g is enough because i only used 5cmcube of H2O2. then what? you expect me to measure 5g and waste that much catalyst just for 5cmcube of H2O2? so i was misled and wrote spatula full instead lah. but what the heck. how can she scold us just for that? we only have like 1 or 2 chemistry spa skill 3 practice besides those 2 from study camp okay! and know what? she only taught us the skill properly because she wanted to test this. damn it lah, what's wrong with you? physics we have 11 practices already okay... mdm quek should be the one rambling at us for getting this and that wrong. she give us so few practices then start judging us already. i now wrong better than wrong at O levels right? HUH? i now correct doesnt mean i O levels 100% sure get it correct again what. i wrong, maybe i have the chance to learn from the mistake, can? then still say what she doing her best to help us get distinctions for chemistry at O levels. she said our spa skill 1 and skill 2 very bad, so its not too late now that she come and help us in skill 3 so that our skill 3 marks can help us cover up for skills 1 and 2. like real lah, you think i stupid fool is it? if our skills 1 and 2 THAT bad, at least those 2 can retest one ok. its just that the bloody chemistry teachers lazy only lah. say until ms liao so stupid and ms lim so smart like that. what the heck you getting at? cos almost whole class fail chemistry last year, ms liao is stupid. i didnt know got such things one. then what? how about cos more than half of our class had to meet principal regarding term 1 results, means lianglu very stupid CM also lah? fuckyou lah. you think you and your 5/1 very good lah? yeah lah, you smart until take the 1st class in secondary 5. somemore, where got teachers during test go talk to students one. go point out their mistakes during test somemore... best teacher ever lah. you do that in front of ME and you still dare to stare at me when you are talking about our conduct during the test. then after talking about the small tiny mistakes we made, she went to the most important and serious issue. she saidshouted this: WHY DO YOU THINK YOU HAVE TO CHANGE TEACHERS? WHY IS THERE A NEED FOR THE SCHOOL TO CHANGE TEACHERS? IF YOU ARE ON MY SIDE, I ASSURE YOU THE DISTINCTION FOR O LEVELS. IF YOU CHOOSE NOT TO BE ON MY SIDE, THEN BE IT LAH. YOU CAN STUDY ON YOUR OWN, DONT MAKE ME WASTE MY TIME ON YOU. staring at me, she starting shouting this: I KNOW SOME OF YOU ARE SMART. BUT SMART DOESNT MEAN YOU'LL GET DISTINCTION FOR O LEVELS. IN FACT, MANY STUDENTS WHO GET DISTINCTIONS ARE THOSE WHO USUALLY FAIL. THEY STRUGGLE TO GET IT. what the heck she getting at? one, im not smart lah, you ass. two, so what if people are smart? you got something against smart people? trying to curse them not to get their distinctions right... third, why are you fixing your eyes on me? then she continued: IM A VERY OPEN PERSON. IF YOU DONT LIKE THE WAY I TEACH, COME UP WITH A FEW SUGGESTIONS SO I CAN TEACH BETTER. IF YOU DONT LIKE ME TO TEACH YOU, JUST WRITE A LETTER SO THAT I CAN LEAVE YOU ALONE. I HAVE NO PROBLEMS WITH IT, IM VERY OPEN. BUT THE PROBLEM IS, DO YOU HAVE THE COURAGE? stare at me somemore lah. you got eye problem is it? must keep staring at 1 particular person one.
from all that she had shouted, i have a hunch it is because i went to consult ms liao instead of her. but what to do? which idiotic stupid student would go consult a teacher who cannot be heard by the student? and yesterday, i saw with my own 2 eyes, she was carrying her mic back from somewhere to the staffroom. now, what's the problem? the mic not compatible in class 4/2 is it? she teach i cannot hear, scold i can hear clearly. and even better, during the test she made changes to a statement in the question paper, i didnt even hear her say.
i also dont understand how she scold until that part about changing teachers and her being open... from test conduct to test mistakes, can JUMP to talking about teachers. [now i know why i fail standing broad jump.]
anyway, im not drawing any conclusion from this scolding which made us late for assembly. if she is hinting at something and since she is SO OPEN, i suppose that she will not beat about the bush. i believe that if she has something against me, she will come straight up to me and let me know. so because she hasnt done that, i find nothing wrong currently.
i failed once again @ 4:36:00 pm
