Sunday, April 22, 2007
tons of work to be rushed today.
supposed to be doing work till 2am yesterday but instead, i slept at 9plus. sometimes, i really hate going to school so much. even just studying for that mere 1 hour, it will drain me of all energy that i have. once i get home, i only wanna sleep and do nothing else. and that's the harm saturday lessons are doing to me. coming home feeling that i have no energy left. even when sitting down, all i have to do is to close my eyes and i'll just fall asleep. every night as i wanna do my homework, i just have to sit with the homework in front of me, attempt 1 or 2 questions, and i'll find myself waking up later only to know that i have not done my work.
i think its nothing to do with studying. its the environment that im studying in. the polluted air, the really stuffy rooms and everything. even mr leong said our block is exceptionally hot. even those there are 6 fans now, the old classrooms with 4 fans are way cooler. every morning, i have vitamins from the sun during lesson time. imagine the kind of glaring light you look at, how then do you pay attention? then, when there is still sunlight on my row, people sitting directly under the fans go switch it to speed 1. WTF! why do you stupid idiots choose to sit there in the first place? rip me of my rights of a fan. and even when its at full speed, i cant feel the fan anyway. 6 fans yeah right, but the room is far too big. the most ventilated part of the classroom is the front 2 rows only. other than the fans, majority of the teachers would be using visualizer or slides. then the lights would be switched off and all you see is a figure moving about in the dark. when you're all sweating, would you even be paying attention? oh whatever. then very rarely when i feel a breeze from the window, the dust will be blew in together and i will have to get them out of my eyes. my whole worksheet would be filled with dust. then when there's rain, it's the worst part. i have to close the windows because people sitting far far away from the window claim that there are raindrops falling on them, how ridiculous! then the people sitting under the fans would be switching it to speed 1. and i'll be sweating like hell in the corner even when its raining. besides that, i'll be straining to hear what the teacher is saying because of the stupid raindrops falling. then come some teachers who would write so so so small that you cant even see it. for the sake of learning, you squint to see. with the fact that you're already sweating, the headache from your squinting makes you feel worse. been enduring all these crap in school lah. that's why all my energy is zapped out. although i hate to say it, but its true that i am one of the most disadvantaged ones in class because of where i sit. anyway, latimer said that the 4 people in my row seems to be losing out. see all the factors that are zapping every single of my energy...
- sweating during lessons
- squinting to see the words
- trying so hard to hear the teachers
- wiping away dust every morning
and there may be other human factors like irritating reps that get on my nerves. those idiots who always go "jingwei's one leh?" when piriya submits her work. what's wrong with you people? and then there'll be stupid reps who dont even announce the submission of work and in the end, i get scolded for keeping the piece of work because the rep obviously didnt say there was a need to submit it. the most irritating ones are those reps who dont collect the work just because they didnt do the work.
and then, even after a day at school, feeling sticky all over from sweating... you walk out of the school. all you ever get is polluted air and not fresh air. then, because there are only 2 bus services, students will be packed like sardines in a can on board the bus. there have been many times the bus screech to a stop and all the students will come tumbling on me because they were busy talking. its noisy and stuffy. then i get down as it reaches my stop. another traffic light to cross. i would say its more dangerous than the 1 at school okay. so far, the school there at most i have only experienced 2 cases of vehicles zooming past red lights. at my house there since beginning of this year, i have experienced it 5 or 6 times.
i wonder why mrs teo is so happy she 'clinched' the deal for this building. its not even strategic land use at all. imagine a reservoir surrounded by lots and lots of industries. then out of nowhere, you see this school called "commonwealth secondary school". its so stupid! the building is undoubtedly larger than the previous one but its too last minute. this building is so bloody boring okay except the facilities. they have study corners everywhere, but which exactly is conducive to studying? the one beside staffroom is so noisy, especially right after dismissal. then the one outside our class, i would say its only conducive in the evenings. even the library is so noisy. then the canteen would be very noisy because of those guys playing basketball. its another headache to find a place to study. then the SAC is like hell. i dont even bother going there because the lower secondary kids are totally out of their right minds. they just cant behave. and on normal CCA days, choir and band would be dispersed around the whole school building to make it more conducive for themselves at the expense of other schoolmates trying hard to study.
even the submission of a simple piece of work is such a hassle now. its really bureaucratic. must call the teacher out to collect. so irritating. then sometimes, the teacher wont be at the desk but is actually loitering inside the staffroom and the stupid teacher who picks the call just isnt bothered. then, some numbers like 138 is always engaged. i have tried it before. or some teachers, who say "i'll be out in a moment" make you wait like 5 minutes just for them to come out. the whole school system now is really really .......................
and all the events are so so so not well organized. and that's the only reason why our current batch is suffering like hell now. putting up with the stupid environment and the juniors who are making a fool out of themselves in the library everyday. that's also why we have to go back for saturday lessons when the government has announced 5 day work week. its really poor organization. and even with 6 days of schooling with extra lessons after school in place of remedials and CCAs, we are still slow compared to the previous secondary 4 batch. i think mrs teo really ought to look into this matter and stop telling us to move into band 1. it takes 2 hands to clap.
anyway, i pity the other levels because they have more time to spend in the school than us. but perhaps by the time we leave, it may be a little bit better for them.
what's the use of a reservoir? people say got view. but??? with polluted air.
i failed once again @ 10:08:00 am
