Monday, April 30, 2007
why cant that person treat me as a human being? or treat me like how she treats everyone else? or give me some level of respect? i just dont understand. every single chance she gets, she has to spoil my day.
1st - incident of her saying NO I CANT loudly when i requested her to speak louder.
2nd - shooting me a rude stare & answering me in an irritated tone I SAID ITS THE LAST QUESTION ALREADY!
3rd - telling me to go for a hearing check.
4th - telling me to go out of class if i wanna continue talking.
what kind of teacher would refuse to speak louder when students cant hear? at least she could have added things like "next time i bring mic." does it hurt to say that? perhaps she's saving some saliva on me.
then, what's with the rude stare and irritated tone? i raised my hand so long and you didnt see. by the time you told me which question it was, you only added a few more sentences and you asked the class "understand?" i didnt even dare raise my hand anymore even though i dont understand. for i know, you would scold me even more, perhaps to your heart's content. knowing that i was lost in the lesson, you didnt even bother to ask check my understanding.
the 3rd incident i really dont wanna talk about it. thanks for your extremely insulting comments. i requested you to use a mic because i knew you had a throat problem after you said it. i was aware of it and didnt want it to get worse but you told me to get you a mic or go for a hearing test.
yes it was my fault for talking non-stop. but what? just cause i was the one talking, it made you so bloody pissed off you had to say "get out of the class if you wanna continue!" you have not said that to anyone before, even in 4/3. know what? if you werent even using the mic today, there was a possibility i would have just gone out of class. at least then, i will be nearer to you and hear you speak. if you nicely told me to keep quiet and not scold me and shout at me to get out of the class to continue my conversation, i would have just kept quiet and paid attention. but because you didnt, i continued talking and lost interest in your lesson that i started doing other stuffs. and it was really time well spent clearing off quite a pile of work.
you think my hobby is raising my hand in class to ask you stupid questions to interrupt your lesson? i have better things to do okay. you are my teacher, i had respect for you, i wanted to pay attention in your lesson. that's the only reason why i bothered finding out where you were at. but now, its just a thing of the past. i cant wait for the day i can change the 'are' to 'were'.
realise i no longer raise my hand during your lessons. in fact, i rarely do it in any lesson since that rude stare. if i have any questions, i'll wait till after lessons to ask mr G. maybe i was unconsciously afraid of other teachers treating me the way you did...
the reason why im even spending time on my own to study chemistry even though i have seriously been demoralised and no longer have the will to study is because of the other teacher who have helped me so much that i cant afford to disappoint her. i once aspired to take H3 chemistry. now, i only want either Chemical Engineering or Chemical Process Technology (Industrial Option). i just hope you wont make me lose all interest in chemistry.
i wasnt even looking at you in the eye when you scolded me because after all those incidents, i now have minimal level of respect for you. and also, i heard it as 'Qing Wei' and not Jing Wei.
im so happy there's no more chemistry lesson till after exams! which means a break from her for 2 complete weeks! that's seriously the best thing now... no more hell from her.
i just dont understand why she has to treat me like a piece of shit crap that's not worthy of being her student. why does she have to use every chance possible to get at me? i feel like its suffering hell sometimes, on extremely bad days.
and for all the shit she has given me, i sincerely hope and pray that there will be banding for chemistry after mid year and i wont be in her group. its just so so so bad! but i know that many people in the class like her and wants her to teach us, [if she isnt so bad and mean to me i would be fine with her teaching me too] and they'll do their best for chemistry mid year so that if there is banding, she can appeal to the principal to keep us out of it on account of our promising results.Labels: what makes me so different?
i failed once again @ 7:17:00 pm
