Sunday, November 26, 2006
everything's so weird. somehow, i feel like the world's gonna collapse soon and ill be buried alive with all that english assessments. im spending so many hours per day trying to do english. and at the end of the day, what i just want is my english to improve. for now, even if can get just get a B for english examinations, ill be over the moon. but the situation is that my english results are not stable yet. im either failing or getting Cs. but getting C for english examinations to me now, is sort of lucky already. my mind is filled with schoolwork every moment even though i am still not feeling any stress or pressure. the thing is, whatever im doing, ill have at least 1 english assessment by my side, doing it. its like im doing that as if its a leisure kinda thing, i dont see it as a forced thing. even sleeping, i dream of teachers & school stuffs. this week alone, 3 days i have dreamt of teachers and 2 days i have dreamt of other school stuffs. it seems like my world is just revolving round the word school. and even though im seizing every opportunity available to do schoolwork, i keep telling myself i have wasted the day away before i sleep every night. its just that kinda strange feeling. i have been dedicating all my time to english. im not even bothering about chemistry, which is my favourite subject. and i dont know why... i keep wanting to do chemistry, but in the end, i chose english all the time. theres just this strong feeling in me that makes me pick up the english assessment instead of chemistry stuffs. but then, by hook or by crook, ill still have to do that by early december, which is like 2 weeks left? and somemore, im like staying up late into the night just to do english, something which i have never done before. somehow, i think this holidays, im really set to catch up with all those subjects that needs more catching up with. i have already done all physics tys mcq from unit 1. and im planning another 2 days to do unit 2 and 3. i think this holidays is the weirdest im gonna survive through. ive never went back for remedials during nov holidays before, but this time, im going back all the way until nov ends. yes, and its just for english. i dont know why i keep mentioning the word 'english' too. maybe im starting to take a liking to this subject... its absolutely weird how i can be stuck at home doing schoolwork the whole day and not even complain or feel tired or stressed. and its like i went westmall on my own that day, i walked there. then another day, i went to the library on my own. i think im like starting to go places on my own, even though it can be super boring, but i just enjoy the peacefulness of it all. somehow, i just feel as though i have unlimited time on my hands... but then to think of it, im gonna feel out of place when i cant rush my homework the night before school reopens like ive always been doing.
the year 2006 is like coming to an end in about 30plus days. and another reason why im gonna feel weird is that this is the first time im not gonna spend the new year in singapore in like my 15 years of living on the earth. 2007 is fast approaching, and i have no plans or any new year resolutions yet. at the most, only those things under my wishlist in the blog, which is basically all to do with school. first, improving english. thats more of a NEED, it shouldnt even be a want. im just so desperate for that B for english. it all started last end of year when i wrote totally out of point for essay and the marker failed my essay badly with like 7 to 9 marks. but then my overall for english eoy was still like 52, so if i didnt fail that essay, i could have gotten like probably a B for my eoy last year. and it was like my CA2 marks for english last year was 69. i just dont know what happened. the only thing i know is that its scary. maybe its because i cant pick myself up from the failure yet, or maybe its just im not used to latimer yet. second, its L1R5<12.>
i feel there's quite little holiday homework actually, though im still left with alot to do.
1. News Articles - English, Chinese, Economics.
2. Chemistry Self-study: Nitrogen & Sulphur.
3. Geography TYS MCQ [which i hope i can finish by Tuesday]
4. English Assessments + Resource Bank.
i failed once again @ 2:24:00 pm
